The Monk

21st of March, couldn't really do much, due to constipation pain. Morning In the morning I felt a slight headache, as I woke up later that night and had trouble going to sleep, although I had good intentions. So, I was struggling to get out of bed and once I did I cleansed myself and walked down stairs after having my uniform on and had Weetabix with flax seed in order to cure my constipation, and ensured I drank plenty of water also, to reach my goal of drinking 2 litres a day. So after I reached school I had the subjects Politics, a study, and History as, well as Economics. And I loved these subjects it was amazing to have them, I do enjoy learning and am intrinsically motivated to learn, which is something that has taken time to hack into, and I greatly thank Leo Gura for that. Afternoon So after school I went directly to my History tutors house. Which consumed a large proportion of my time, as it takes 3/4 hours to actually get to London and back. So whilst there, although I was experiencing stomach pains, I persevered to improve, and I was told I had an average answer I felt extremely motivated. I felt pissed and annoyed, I want to be a complete studying monster I thought to myself, and as I still have time to improve, ITS TIME TO FUCKING DO IT! But on the way home I had to eat something as I felt extremely hungry me and my dad decided to go to Sainsbury's as it is the healthiest alternative around. So my meal consisted of Pasta with tuna and sweetcorn, a bag of skips crisps, Orange Tropicana, and a bag of fruit which had melon and grapes within it. Did I learn from the mistakes of yesterday? Yes, as I studied and am also going to spend the rest of my time doing meaningful things, such as meditating and exercising to achieve my LIFE PURPOSE! I had also had the intention of going to bed early, so yes. What can I learn from my mistakes and how will I learn from them? Become a studying monster, in order to ensure I can live a great life, and have a great foundation for the rest of my life. Watch motivational videos twice every week. Do what's emotionally difficult eat Sainsbury's food or great food, that IS THE ONLY CHOICE! Habit Streak from the 20th of March Meditated for 15 minutes. Exercised for 10 minutes. Didn't eat healthy. Read self help books for 20 minutes. Objectives to meet by the end of today Exercise for 15 minutes Meditate for 20 minutes. Read self help books for 30 minutes. Prepare for tomorrow.

Hey guys, It shocks me to know that some individuals who live amongst us are tremendously smart, intelligent and creative. But how can they be of such low consciousness, although they are of high IQ? E.g. I've seen people who have extremely high IQS, but disregard religions and say that they are stupid and shouldn't be followed and say some religions are evil. Although all advocate the same thing which is enlightenment. What are your thoughts on this? And, I'm scared.

20th of March was pretty boring and a waste of time. I think I will be switching my cold shower habit to a exercising habit, as that is far more important for me right now. Morning Woke up late at around 11am, and experienced great stomach pains and when back to sleep, I didn't eat breakfast as I had constipation so I felt sick, tired, and exhausted. I didn't do much within the morning all I simply did was sit down and watch T.V until 1 pm. But at 12am I had Weetabix and flax seeds, as these were supposed to ease my constipation, but I didn't actually take my cold shower too because of this. Afternoon I meditated for 20 minutes, this was a I made an exception to meditate less, as I was still experiencing constipation and stomach pain. Also I spent 2 hours actually reading Rich Dad's guide to investing. Which seemed likely a tremendously valuable book, as I leant a lot and therefore grew. But I had misallocated my time and spent too much time reading the book, rather than studying. Consequently, I can learn from this a as a result remember to manage my time better. Furthermore, I did do essays I had been set as homework, but as I mismanaged my time, I hadn't had much time to do it in. As a result, I have learn that I should manage my time more effectively. Also I didn't manage to sleep well either, as I felt pain and had trouble getting to sleep, and thus continually woke up throughout the night. Also, I have decided to create a new criteria, and this is did I learn from the mistakes of yesterday ? Which will be a crucial component that will be of great help to myself, as it will ensure that I am growing daily and getting myself to closer to my goals. And allowing myself to track and identify in my life which can be improved. What have I learn from my mistakes and how can I learn from these? Stop wasting time watching YouTube videos and do what's important to you? E.g, studying, meditating, exercising, and reading self help books. Get enough sleep 8-9 hours of sleep, and wake up early at 7am. Did I learn from the mistakes of yesterday? I still watched YouTube videos and wasted a large amount of time e.g. 3 to 4 hours. I attempted to get enough sleep by going to bed early, but I had trouble going to sleep. And therefore, I will be working on that today. Habit Streak from the 19th of March Meditated for 20 minutes. Read self help book for 2 hours. Did some school work. E.g. an essay for 2 hours. Objectives to meet by the end of today. Do Meditation for 30 minutes. Do exercise for 10 minutes. Eat healthy. Relax. Take care of yourself exercise, and eat healthy. Read Self help books for 1 hour.

Hey Guys, recently I've been experiencing the characteristics of having higher consciousness from meditation, and also greater levels of awareness. This is as, I'm aware of what people say and how it grows their own unconscious identity. But, they usually do this by making fun of others which, their unconscious identity growing, which leads to the manifestation of psychological problems and possible psychical backfiring effects within the future too, as they attempt to preserve their own ego. Also, I see many people use self deprecating humour, a form of humour that is used to make fun of oneself to make others laugh. But I also think that this would grow individuals own ego's and lead to greater suffering. I too am guilty of doing these. Should I just stop laughing? What do you suggest? Thanks for your suggestions!

Had a relatively good day yesterday. Morning Cleansed myself (cold shower) and had a bowl of muesli with oats and nuts, pretty standard stuff, I also followed my advice and a smaller amount of time on the T.V, however I went over the 30 minute limit, ugh but I am planning to learn and improve from that today. Afternoon had a nice meditation session along with reading self help books, which was very enjoyable and I'm happy that I did that. Also, I spent some time also studying, but I was getting very easily distracted, and was procrastinating. Later I went to my tutor's house and showed him the essays I had previously done, and I received feedback on those which was good. Also now that I know how to improve I'm looking forward to the future. But I was definitely disappointed that I spent so much time watching YouTube videos. But, also I realised that I was constipated and that was the reason I had been experiencing stomach aches throughout the day. So what have I learnt, and how can I apply this to my own life? stop wasting time doing meaningless things such as, watching youtube videos, and do what's important to you. E.g. Meditation and reading self help books. But mainly studying. Find a way of making studying enjoyable and motivate yourself to do it. Set a sleeping time and wake up regularly, but also get enough sleep. E.g. 8-9 hours. Habit Streak from the 18th of March I did study for 1 hour, although I wanted to do 3 hours. Had a cold shower. Ate relatively healthy. Meditated for 30 minutes. Read self help books for 1 hour. Did stay hydrated. Objectives to meet by the end of today Meditate for 30 minutes, but use 2 minutes to completely concentrate on breathing. Eat healthy. Take care of myself, stay hydrated. Read self help books for 1 hour. Do any h/w for tomorrow, Prepare myself for tomorrow. Study Economics. Find out how to motivate myself.

@Shin I already do all of those.

@ajasatya I usually smile when I'm happy, I don't laugh usually. Or when I do laugh I identify myself doing it, and stop laughing. And I'm a really happy person, I meditate quite a lot.

@Dodoster Yes, I understand the concept of being free. But, judging by the principles of psychology it will still grow for others. As it is known as the unconscious identity.

@Prabhaker I know the laughing at oneself is ok. But, if others are laughing at myself with me e.g. if a pull a funny face then their ego is growing whilst mine is diminishing. Isn't that bad?

Felt really bad and disappointed at myself yesterday, as I spent the majority of my day meaninglessly, as I wasted time and didn't do what's important to me, or what the greatest benefit is derived from. E.g. Meditation. Oh well, I suppose I can learn from these mistakes and enhance the quality of my life from doing so. Journal from the 17th of March Morning Didn't go to school, as I was experiencing back pain, so I work up at got myself a sling in order to ease the pressure of my back, as the muscle damage interconnects with the arm, meaning that when it moves my upper back hurts. So, later on I cleansed myself and had a bowl of muesli with nuts and fruits from breakfast with semi skimmed milk, so it was a relatively healthy breakfast, and I felt happy knowing that I was taking good care of my body. Furthermore, I woke up relatively late, and spent a great deal of time talking with others, so much in fact that it was 1pm, which I now regret. Also, I had a cold shower, which was momentarily shocking, but later made me feel great. Afternoon I went to visit members of my family which wasn't a great visit and worth my time I would say, but I learnt things from it. Once I reached the house I saw individually who were neurotic and slightly toxic and were trying to preserve their own ego's, but were psychologically suffering for it, but is seemed as if they were proud of their problems, as they didn't want solutions to their problems they just wanted to complain. So, I learnt that from this experience we should be cautious of whom we having influencing us, or we may surround ourselves with individuals with large egos who increase suffering for themselves and for those around them. Later on during the day I decided to refine my cooking skills when I got home, by making a cake. I made a milk and berries cake, one similar to the cake make by Porto's bakery, and it didn't look great or even taste great, but I did learn how to improve my cooking skills from it so it was a good experience. But it took more time than I expected it to take, and so much of my time was allocated towards making a cake. Soon after the Cake was made it was 10pm, and I was feeling exceptionally tired so I decided to go to sleep early. But I did earlier during the day only do 6 minutes of meditation, which was poor on my behalf, as I could have spent the time talking to instead meditate. As the benefit derived from it is far greater than simply talking. So what have I learnt, and how can I apply this to my own life? Try to limit your time around toxic people. Don't try to convince individuals to change or improve their lives if they don't want to. Allow them to ocme to the realisation first. Or else you're wasting time. Spend your time more efficiently don't spend more than 20/ 30 minutes watching T.V or talking, because you can think about doing. but not do from thinking. Spend my free time meditating or reading self help books, as it is a investment into my future, and allows me to maximise my potential! Don't overdo exercise, build up momentum so your body becomes accustom to it. Or else you may damage it. Habit Streak from the 17th of March Kept hydrated. Didn't eat healthy. Didn't exercise, due to pain I have to rest. Baked a caked, refined my cooking skills. Meditated for 6 minutes. Took a relatively cold shower. Objectives to meet by the end of today Meditate for 30 minutes. Take a cold shower. ( 30 minutes) Read self help books in my free time. ( 1 Hour and 30 minutes) Do Economics essays. (1 hour 30 minutes) Take care of myself. (Eat healthy food, and stay hydrated)

Hey guys, I seem to be having a slightly tough time lately, I'm feeling a little sad. As many of my friends are no longer my friends really, and I am starting to feel less connected to them, as I become more aware an conscious of my friend's disgusting unconscious behaviours and motivations. This is as many of my friends simply are motivated by money, and say meditation isn't for me or it's a lie and doesn't do anything and, I'd rather play video games and stimulate myself or smoke some drugs, and they seem to have bad lives, but lie to themselves and don't admit it. I only have 3/4 real friends at high school and they also fit into this category. I want to make friends of a higher consciousness, and where can I find them in real life? Some of these friends have been really good friends and for really long period of time, should I still let them go and make new friends? What do you suggest? Thanks your suggestions

Hey Guys, recently I was contemplating about how some people live such poor lives and have no seemingly no influence over them. E.g. I know someone who is close to my family who is now old and his children that are addicted to drugs, are neurotic and toxic. Which made me feel sad as the person himself seems to be aware of this and be of a moderate consciousness, although he does have some negative beliefs. I realised that Leo said within a forum comment that you will experience more emotions throughout your life the higher your consciousness gets, but Isn't it worsening the quality of my life? As I'm feeling sad, rather than happy. E.g. I was taking a bath, and looking at the vast amounts of water within in it, and thinking I'm bathing with this much water, but some children around the world cant even get a glass of it. Which made me feel sad also, but I thought that this was a result of me becoming more conscious and aware of life. What do you guys suggest, and is this good for me or bad? Thanks for your suggestions, I will try and get back to you as soon as I can.

Hey Guys, I'm a person that does strong determination meditation, its a technique that Leo has a whole video on so definitely check that out, it's the fast way to get enlightened. From doing this over the last 4/5 months, I've realised a few things about this and want to share those with you today: You may feel complete numbness in your body, which will be painful. But persevere, as you will learn to feel happy by clearing your mind of thoughts and being content with the moment. Which will Greatly increase your happiness. You will experience twitching of your body randomly, although your object will be not to move, you must just simply accept this. And, I have learnt that this usually occurs when your mind is clear of thoughts. So, this means that in order to remain conscious, it will undoubtedly do this. Also it is likely that you may experience weird or scary thoughts. But don't worry, as this means your thoughts are being rearranged in more conscious manner. Because of this it is likely that your consciousness will rise, and thus your life will improve. But to cope with these meanwhile, just be detached from them. Meaning that you dwell or think about them for too long, and soon because of this they will disappear, and you will be at peace. I wish you the best of luck with your meditation!

I'm beginning to think that I should begin to replace the habit of exercising with taking cold showers, as the condition I'm currently in would favour from it greatly, and it reduces the possibility of me getting sick too, which is great!

@Paul EMD A sect is defined as a group of people with different religious beliefs, who belong to a larger group. I wouldn't say that were a sect, because we are a free following community built to aid one another we the challenges they face in life. 2nd some of us don't have religious beliefs, although we practice meditation. So I doubt were a sect. By the question you asked encourages a debate or conspiracy theory to arise, so there is no reason to ask it in the first place, as that is what is required to answer it. So don't ask!

@Epiphany_Inspired I'm not Leo, but some activities to do from his videos are: give up some for 30 days, if you feel and urge to go back, then you're addicted to that one thing. ( this could be one piece of homework to do/ experiment with) Try strong determination sitting it's a form of meditation whereby you sit for 1 hour with no movement. Which will illustrate to you just how rotten your mind has become, as it is unable to be happy by its self, which is what many enlightened people can do. Which is like due to the mainstream media promoting this, and you becoming a slave to stimulation. (another piece of h/w to do if you want) Enjoy!

Morning In the Morning I woke relatively late. I hadn't gotten enough sleep I think once again, this is as I was once again experiencing a headache. Later on during the morning I cleansed myself, then prepared myself for school. Also, I attempted to learn from my mistakes, as it would allow me to enhance the quality of my life, as I would grow, as an individual, and especially my understanding of reality. So, later I begun making myself a relatively healthy breakfast I had muesli with fruits and nuts 90 grams, which was accompanied by 200ml of milk to ensure I met the correct nutritional needs. School School was great, I enjoyed and love leaning, its fascinating to know about the way by which the world , the mind and the body operates. But also, I enjoy the ability of testing my human body's capability, and thus enjoy recalling and testing myself on facts and figures, as it allows me to determine my own cognitive ability. At school, I ate my lunch which was white rice, tomatoes, lettuce and chicken with mushrooms. However, as I had forgotten my water bottle I simply didn't have the time to drink, as my mind was fixated on learning and improved my own self. Firstly during school, I had a free period during which I decided to do some of my Politics homework, as I didn't have the time to do it whilst at home, due the back pain I was experience I had made an exception to study for only 3 hours. Later on I had Economics which is one of my favourite subjects, as I love learning about how the economy operates, and how it personally affects the lives of millions of individuals. Which I find tremendously fascinating, and thus I am intrinsically motivated to do good work in Economics. Subsequently I had prepared myself for Politics and enjoyed making notes based upon Congress and what determines the way which they vote. Next I had Economics once again, and History both of which were interesting and enjoyable subjects, as I was definitely intrinsically motivated to learn both, however as I had damaged my back from the previous day, I was now beginning to feel greater amounts of strain, pressure and sharp pain arising from my back muscle. Due to this, I had allowed myself to instead of studying to take a day off to go to the Doctors, but as my parents were too busy to take me, I have to now wait till tomorrow. After school I walked home with a friend as we talked about and tested each other on Economics theory, like usual I was complaining about how I wasn't getting what I deserve, but it was true I wasn't AND ONLY I CAN CHANGE THAT! So, I must try harder to do so, as I want to transform my dreams into reality. As, I arrived home after a 30 minute walk, I took my bag off and felt great strain and pressure once again arising from my upper back muscle. Because of this I went and changed into something comfortable and rested myself upon a chair for a moment, and watched some T.V (Definitely a freaking waste of time! I regret it now! I wasted 5 hours watching YouTube videos, and I feel sickened by how little I have done, as T'V is simply momentary stimulation which leaves you unfulfilled and leads to the manifestation of physiological and physical problems) but as my Uncle had arrived I spoke to him for advice about Investing, and he told me the best ways by which he personally invests, which I learnt a lot from and was happy, due to our conversation. But, as I mentioned earlier all I really did was watch a tremendous amount of T.V whilst eating healthy and drinking lots of water, but as I currently am in poor condition, I realise that I shouldn't push myself to study or work more or my productivity will decrease tremendously, so its better to rest to work and study harder later! Also, guys I'm going to be adding a new section to my journal, which allows me to determine whether I did or didn't learn from my mistakes. Because of this new system I implement Its more likely I will grow as an individual psychically, psychologically, spiritually and intellectually as, I learn from my mistakes and thus, enhance the quality of my life! Did I learn from my mistakes from the 14th of March? Ate healthy and utilised what I knew to motivate myself to do so, so yes. Put less weight within my bag, so yes again. And didn't really work more, as I still am experiencing pain and strain from my upper back muscle. So I will continue this, as soon as I get help from a Doctor. Habit streak from the 15th of March Ate healthy. Meditated for 15 minutes. Went and studied for 3 hours, made an exception, as I had strained my back. Utilised what I know, and did what's emotionally difficult. Didn't read self help books. ( mistakes from the 16th of March) What Mistakes have I made, and how can I learn from these? I spent too much time watching T.V I could have easily spent this time reading self help books or Meditating, as the benefit derived from them is far, far greater. Objectives to meet by the end of today Meditate for 10 minutes. Read self help books 30 minutes. Rest. Eat Healthy. Do what's emotionally difficult, and implement my knowledge to aid my journey to an amazing life!

@Key Elements The Robert Kyosaki book you recommended, I bought recently on the 13th of March for myself. As It was my birthday. But, this video is correct you cannot go without networking!

@Martin123 Thanks Man, but this unconditional love you speak of, does it simply be developed with meditation?

The Morning Woke up relatively early, at 6.58 am. But I had noticed that I had a slight headache, possibly indicating that I got a poor quality of sleep or didn't reach the recommended amount of sleep for my age group at 18. But, this was a short lived experience, as it later had disappeared, but I should take 100% responsibility for this, as during the previous night I had spent watching meaningless stimulating videos. School Had a good day at school, but I had strained by back, as I was carrying an abnormal amount of weight for myself. Which would later backfire, as we shall soon see. But as the day continued, I struggled to carry around a tremendous amount of weight. And luckily I ate healthily, as I had prepared meals in advance, which I had kept within small containers. I had the usual array of subjects Economics, Politics and History, and I loved all of them. This is as I could see the value in all of them, and how great all of them were, I was intrinsically motivated to learn, and I loved every bit of it. Also I spent a free period at Costa Coffee eating a nice meal healthy meal I prepared, but allowed myself to have a piece of cake. As it was an excuse for me to eat at the Café. But, later on I spent about 10 minutes meditating looking at nature, which was amazingly beautiful, watching birds fly and the sun simmer down up my skin. And hearing the chirping of small birds nearby whilst looking at he treed, was greatly blissful. After School I walked home with a few friends, however my most notable and best friend had hit me with some news. I asked him about his ambitions and goals, and he had simply said that he was simply motivated by money and wanted a stimulating life. Which was surprising to as, I had thought that this individual was of high consciousness, however similarly to most people he was of low consciousness, and awareness and because of this I believe he followed these goals. Additionally, he claimed he would never meditate which shocked me even more immensely. So, I believe the reasons for why this happened was perhaps, due to himself not having a basic understanding of psychology. But oh well, some people never want to change, and if they don't, then I think it's simple to leave them unconscious until they realise through suffering that they are the foundation of their suffering. Also as he had critiqued my own life purpose of becoming a sage, and having the greatest life that I could possible have with not regrets, he seems unenthusiastic and criticising of my life purpose, as I did say his was poor. Later during this walk, I had a tremendous amount of pressure upon my back, but I had not realised it. When I got to the library once I took my bag off it felt, as if my muscle was pulled or dislocated. However, as I am writing this I still feel minor pain in my back, however as I'm only moving my wrists I doubt it will cause much pain anyway. As it is only when I move my arm is when my left shoulder blade hurts. After I had finished my study session of 3 hours, I initially wanted to push the amount up to 3.40 minutes, but I'll make an exception today to make sure I don't damage my body to a greater degree. So after this I went on a shopping trip in a supermarket with my dad collecting groceries. He's a great guy we discussed life and nutrition, as we moved isle to isle. So, later as I arrived home I ate sundried peppers in oil and also a bounty chocolate bar, which I shouldn't have done, as I still unfulfilled, and it had psychical backfiring affects on my health. So here I am writing today and below are the things I could have done better and what I will be applying tomorrow, to ensure my life can improve and so I can grow as a person. What could I have done better, and how will I learn from these mistakes? Ate my healthy lunch on time to avoid eating temptation, and tomorrow I will utilise discipline to ensure I don't go off track with my eating habits. Will carry less weight in my back and not just increase the weight from 1 to 1000, and also visit the doctor to solve this issue. Work more, and increase the amount to 3 hours and 40 minutes to achieve my dreams! Habit Streak from the 14th of march Meditated for 23 minutes. Ate healthy. Worked for 3 hours and 30 minutes. Did homework. Utilised Discipline. Didn't read self help books. Objectives to meet by the end of today Meditate for 20 minutes. Learn and educate myself for 3 hours. Eat healthy. Read self help books. (30 minutes)

From now on I want to make this more journal more colourful and much more pleasant to read, from now on what I'm going to be doing is writing what I can improve on daily and how I'm going to do it, as well as any useful insights I have, and detailed insights into my own life, so let's enjoy this, I was mainly inspired by Venus's Journal check his out! So let's begin this! So, today I had an amazing day. The Morning Struggled to get out of bed today to go to school, the alarm went of that I had set the previous day for 7am in order to get myself ready for school. So, what I did was get out of bed, cleansed myself and I had a bowl of cereal, unfortunately the muesli with dried oats and dried fruit (the best nutritional option for myself) had run out. I got the idea of having Muesli for breakfast from Bruce Lee's diet he mentions from his book art of expressing the human body. So after I put my clothes on and had a bowl of cereal with semi skimmed milk, I left the house with my mum frantically we were in a hurry, as she never likes to leave when it's time to leave. However, it was partly my fault also, as I was stupidly wasting time. Also, as I had luckily prepared meals the night before I had taken those healthy meals to school, and I felt fulfilled and great eating them, knowing that I was taking care of my well- being and health. School So, at school I just had the same lesson structure as always. A Politics class, then study and then History and Economics, however today school for myself finished at 2pm. The subject I definitely find the most fun in is Economics, as I love learning about how economies operate and how that personally affects myself. At Lunch, I spent my time reading rich dad, poor dad by Robert Kyosaki. I really believe I took Leo's advice to stop doing stupid shit, and instead read self help books in my spare time, as it leads to the quality of my life improving, and is an investment into my future, which is the section in the book I was reading about. However, I was planning initially to go to lunch with Pre (a good friend of mine) and another friend, but they left me, largely because I arrived to late. After school So, as I had prepared two meals I went to the library and studied. Which had allowed myself to really feel fulfilled, as my life is heading in the right direction. Initially I spent 3 hours and 30 minutes working today, but I really want to push myself to create and do extraordinary things, and by this I mean studying 5/6 hours for 6/7 days a week, because I Bruce Lee could train his muscles for that long with intrinsic motivation, so can I damn it! So, that's about it. Below I have a list of what I accomplished yesterday, and how I could definitely have spent my time more efficiently, which I will implement everyday to improve myself and become a greater person, with an amazing life purpose. Peace! What I could have done better on March the 13th Not have spent my time binging on TV soaps for 4/5 hours, it made me feel disgusted, sick and unfulfilled that I was wasting my life. I could have spent that time learning! Imagine if I spent that time everyday learning! Not have waited for my Mum to prepare my meals, I should have done it myself! That was just an excuse to prevent me from studying! Ate more healthy, as I ate cake and also lots of milk. But I would have gained far more happiness from eating healthy, as I would have felt fulfilled and content, knowing that I was taking care of my body, and knowing that I was heading closer towards and amazing life. Gone to the library. As at home there is too much homeostasis, distractions and preventions from doing work that easily, and constantly arise. Did more meditation, as I spent my time meaninglessly I would have experienced far more happiness, as I would have greatly improved the quality of my life. Through increasing the calmness of my mind, lowering my stress and increasing my happiness. Habit Streak from the 13th of March Didn't eat healthy. Meditated for 20 minutes. Didn't do any work. Objectives to meet by the end of today Eat healthy. Learn about life 3 hours and 30 minutes, push it up by 10 everyday. Go to the library. Meditate for 20 minutes.

@Anirban657 that's normal, I have been doing the do nothing technique for 4/5 months now, and I find it easy. The thoughts arising are completely normal, allow them to arise and be conscious of them, it's likely that you will experience weird thoughts, as you are unhooking yourself from all the crap you've been doing. As for the tiredness, try to go the gym regularly, as it will increase the energy capacity of your body and eat healthy. If you are already doing this, then the reason for why you may be getting tired is because you're slouching, so keep a straight back and relax. I personally sit in a lotus position with my back supported by a wall. As for the itching of the skin and discomfort, its normal. The more you feel the better, because as you are happy and content whilst meditating you will soon realise that you can surpass the pain with happiness, and it's likely that the itches and discomfort is simply your mind and body playing tricks on you. Next time you itch see if there is something there if not then your mind and body is playing tricks on you, as you are experiencing withdrawal symptoms from doing the things you used to do. Good Luck! If you need more answers watch this and make notes on it: Watch it as much as you want! Also make sure you are drinking 2 litres of water a day. That should solve your headache problem.

@Venus Being conscious is good for us, as it allows us to identify what we are doing and why we do the things we do, as well as develop a key understanding of life, by having realisations. Thus in essence, it allows us to not allow survive, but live a meaningful fulfilling life, if you take action upon conscious realisations and insights, which is what great people like Buddha and Jesus did. But this clearly depends upon, how conscious you are. Consciousness can also be developed by how frequently and long you meditate/ contemplate for. How you make use of it! Good luck!

@Loreena I would definitely suggest meditating, similarly to many others here. As it increases your awareness, which means that you see what you do and why and when you do it more clearly and quickly, which should help identify you're problem. But, I really need you to be specific about what are you sabotaging yourself with, or else like many I will simply give general advice. Good luck!

Habit Streak from the 12th of March Didn't eat healthy. Meditated for 30 minutes. Read books. Prepared for school. Didn't do h/w. Relaxed. Objectives to meet by the end of today Meditate for 20 minutes. Read books. Eat healthy. Prepare for tomorrow.