KoryKat

"Forgive me friend, I need to be alone , tonight" , except 23.5 hours a day / 7 days a week lol Ghosting is easier but I live in a dorm kinda area and they see me constantly... so its like i dont feel justified to say im busy working all the time when im actually just wanting lazy time to myself half the time

What I am taking away from others is im just using them to develop some social acuity so like chit chatting with the gas station clerk a minute or two and tweaking my interaction style/skills I feel the need to close myself off because it seems like im in a league of my own and they are just average joes... like this guy wanting to be my gym buddy, i wanna go hit the gym and do my own shit, but he wants to go see girls and smoke weed and hes got a level of understanding of human nature that is extremely basic and its just BORING to me... a comparison is like imagining a bunch of 13 yr old kids talking to you about cartoons, thats what most adults feel like to me

Yeah, thats my problem... looking for verifiable reasons... My demeanor doesnt match my disposition... im warm bubbly externally but internally im shrewd and uptight , like im counting how many minutes im vibing with someone because i rather vibe by myself than with them more than a brief instance.

i am rising out of the ashes super rapidly, within a week already done a massive 180 Silence means no voices, like i honestly love listening but rather listen to high quality mentors than my peers.

I enjoy myself constantly is the problem... im nearly always in a good energy state that people are drawn towards... so im content with vibing with anyone anytime, but im bored by them and they cant handle me going hardcore mode on self-actualization so its mostly me listening and wanting to eject after 5 mins tops

In context, lets say im listening to somebody talk about the bible, and im always open/interested, and im there coincidentally anyways... im trying not to be rude. So like "No im busy right now" ?? I got a new gym buddy but i dont actually want to hang out with him at all, im not naturally cold , i tend to be a people-pleaser and get my ear talked off and ppl wanting to be my friends more than i want their friendship Any examples you can provide maybe?

@puporing ive seen free zen / meditation centers occasionally in bigger areas @Rokazulu yeah im dwelling on creating a meetup... thinking ill call it MetaHuman , since Meta is a trending keyword... maybe mention a variety of my interests and tell ppl lets meet up and discuss while walking around a park or something... @Manusia maybe in the coming couple weeks ill write down some 15 seconds of content around a topic and put out a few... i did just redownload tiktok and i dont recall having content added but multiple people interacting with my channel already... im thinking the bar for entry is low and it is gonna be crazy to internalize that experience like "wow this was easier than i thought!"

Bumping cause i didnt have a title really

5pm in the afternoon and im in the mood to complain. So i woke up at 6am thanks to Salvation Army rules, everything running late, from the chore list and breakfast throughout my day with the guy i went to the gym with.. I went to the gym while arguing with my mother who ive had blocked because i dont want to keep wasting time with nonsense, saw the guy had hit me up to go earlier and i had assumed he was just MIA... So get him, and hes slow, go by Walmart for a couple things, nearly 2 hours waiting on him , watched Joe Dizpensa and Tom Bilyeu "Unlock Full Potential of Your Mind" ((HOLY SHIT SO GOOD, Dizpensa = WOW, im gonna try to integrate his content asap!) ... hit the gym hard , that was really awesome, just doing the 30 min across 10 machines for a full body workout, actually went hard and and i can tell that is helping my monkey brain from being scattered. dude is cool but so slow , im like anal about my time for myself, not like waiting on some dude i just started chillin with all day... gonna have to rehearse saying No , I got stuff to do or somethin, he talked me into getting weed and going by a girls house where i waited another hour (he acting like its to help me meet her or her friend, but it seemed like i was being somebodys bitch) so i just dont feel like getting sucked into some homie that wants to waste my time , when im punctual , its just i feel like i havent had something pressing to get done, so i take time to dick around... So saying No to people and telling them i gotta go do me solo. making a schedule to adhere to. going hard on some Joe Dispenza while keeping going to the gym are gonna be todays reflections so far... just felt like writing cuz i could of finished working out by 11am, but i just got back at 5:30pm and last night i got preached to for like 2 hours... this shit has gotten old. Im gonna have to be anal about my time, definitely "Every mistake is a lesson" -Wukong

Working Doordash got my account out of negative and got some extra. Getting back into self-care, dressing nicer, did a job interview which I dunked, but not enough pay. Did a couple rounds of Wim Hof right before it, on top of adding cold shower time to my normal showers. Think im gonna try for a waiter position instead and take advantage of natural charisma and meet younger locals while having a performance-based pay Saw Case Manager, helped set some goals for me... Getting my ID stuff sorted out Monday, lining up Dr appt, food stamps, check out plasma donation Engaging with people more, saying Hello to ppl, just dusting off the social skills, trying to keep good present energy , picking up more confidence because most people give me good feedback it seems like... Put on some Neville Goddard and Joseph Murphy on podcasts while doordashing, and listening to some about the Kyaballion (Corpus Hermetica of Greek philosophy?). Ive been really interested in subconscious programming stuff... Went to Meetup and found a hiking event Just enjoying myself around people, not really trying to talk to people too much... Although there was a girl I ended up chatting with about Tony Robbins and stuff... Im looking for like-minded people but I think she was giving me a soft-rejection on picking her up. Noted some areas of improvement for my game I could work on , maybe try some day-game sometime, although I would like to get a group going of just like people like this community has... Not really sure how to go about it, went to another park solo , taking some selfies at both parks, getting a TikTok going and start broadcasting some of myself. Maybe start a Meetup event about stuff related to self-actualization and consciousness stuff... Although there is a lot of Christians around here... Getting a gym membership gonna work out with a guy from the Salvation Army tomorrow. Can definitely tell my self-esteem is picking up, feeling really relaxed (not stressing nor thoughts clouding my mind hardly that much - which this is a massive turnaround from just several days ago) Tired tonight, kinda wasted the night being social... Had some guys preaching God to me... Which was fine, but I dont subscribe to religion... I use "God" as another way to think about the subconscious, and all of creation. So I was just listening and filtering things like how do I apply the preaching to something real I can use for a couple hours. I really got stuck as the center of attention and I am gonna have to work on not getting stuck with people talking to me on and on... Even if I can find useful stuff in what others say , its just I can be more efficient on my own study. Overall, just calibrating with each interaction. Being good energy, adjusting social skills, saying No to things , curating content I spend time on , reviewing past notes and recollecting my ideas I seem to have forgotten, working on establishing plans, finding inner peace (mental quietness, not reacting to things emotionally) , reprogramming my beliefs/identity so that "I am" the person I want to be and also like abundance mindset and self-talk , and trying to keep consistently doing the things working for me for good habits - adding in a little more each day. Just considering how much Id like to catch up on study-wise , and building up network , and developing myself as a life-coach and monetizing my passion... Gonna be a longgggg road , but at least with things continuously improving, then it doesnt really matter too much as long as I am addressing fears holding me back and expanding on what is working decently enough... I expect there will be those hard things that Ive been scared of and avoiding (like the difficulty of getting to where i want) but at the same time there should be really positive outcomes that I wouldnt have expected that come out of nowhere. Main thing is focusing on improving while also removing stuff with negative outcomes (so less time-wasters) Its only been about 1-2 weeks since I was paralyzed by negative emotions thinking I was gonna be stuck to the point that maybe suicide wasnt such a bad alternative... Now I am feeling like im about to surpass my previous peak within weeks from now. Definitely gotta figure out the whole "how to sit down and grind on productive stuff" like being focused writing study notes or building my online presence... Maybe the gym and some meditation will be the thing to try adding in tomorrow that helps in that area. Much love -Kory

I dont know that I would trade the experiences for an easier life. I remember wishing life was harder for me a long time ago, and the struggle has put me more in touch with the reality and human condition like I don't think I would have if I had just climbed without so much crap... But that crap has given me a unique angle. How many gurus have met heroine addicts or been in a homeless shelter and confronting suicide? Its easy to preach like "oh homeless people, just get a job!" Or "just get over your depression!" ... Its really taught me what is holding people back by experiencing it first-hand ... Losing most everything has been a blessing , before I used to try and help everybody, but now I see that fine-line within our consciousness how you can be trapped by it. Honestly its been amazing in the humbling kind of way... Like some Fight Club shit "How much can you know about yourself if you've never been in a fight" , now I am unafraid of so much , and I have vigorously tested ways to escape from hell myself and found what *actually* works and what doesn't... Certainly people have told me self-help is overrated and tried to help me live a normal life, but I know this stuff like Leo is on about , is like the most legit stuff across the ocean of info (or disinfo). And now I feel destined to fight this bloody war until my last breath, because most people can't ride on rock bottom and make it back up and know what is really going on. So I am glad to talk about the shit I've been through as a way to show others that it can be done no matter how bad you've had it. Let myself be an example. Much love -Kory

Day 2 I dont wanna write , I wanna sleep. First day waking up in Salvation Army, some old crack head would not STFU and guy next to my bed having a seizure over the night. Bed sucks too, my van is honestly way more comfortable, but Catch 22 is I have to adhere to curfew/morning routine in order to stay here... My morning went to taking guy to bus stop and letting him rest in van for couple hours, really cut into my time, but I believe in its good to keep up good karma. Doordashed rest of afternoon, making only $40 when I could of made $80+ in same time usually, but Oklahoma City is a lot poorer than I realized. Some govn services to get ID/Social/Birth Cert, seeing a Case Manager following today... There are daily-pay job opportunities but gotta have 2 forms ID. Keeping to myself more at this place, since I kinda got stuck helping last guy, but I'm a hot target to be exploited by others, and few will be able to reciprocate value around here. Definitely not taking chances getting anything stolen, and I honestly just prefer to run my own business solo, as much as I am gregarious cool person. Whenever I take showers, I make sure and turn it to cold and really force myself to stay there a bit... Its like , I know I am being a total little bitch if I dont, and so I do at least a bit. I have curated my youtube to be mostly Productivity/Educational content, dont watch tv/movies , no more games, nobody I talk to, stop doing drugs/smoking... Just keeping myself from having means to procrastinate, so its like wellll im bored how about chores... I didnt want to believe I had to do it that way, thought I could just have some restraint/discipline... But nope, basically gotta "ground" myself like you do misbehaving children. Self-image seems to be one of the main things I am leaning into this journey with... Seeing myself as a non-smoker, a non-video gamer, dressing nicer... I see how grubby a lot of these homeless people can be, but focusing on carrying myself well so that its obvious I'm on the fast-track to getting out of here. This online journal helping me with writing, accountability, and tracking progress. Im mainly establishing good habits and better self-image , I guess my main goal will be to get making money online preferably along my passion of Transpersonal Coaching. Probably going to check out a restaurant/labor job while trying to get low-income housing and look to build skills for transitioning to online over the next 3-6 months. Thanks all, later -Kory

Leo, how do you respond to the criticism that you are running this as a means to make money as another self-proclaimed Messiah guru-wannabe? Like , do you have a vision for next-gen Actualized as a sort of unified movement or something like Brian Johnsons Heroic Movement he is starting? I know you are trustworthy, but I questioned it, and I could not really prove to myself that you aren't like some greedy coach that lives in an ivory tower above us peasants... Which I try to prove to others on your behalf, without them having to do the work of going through your videos that are sooo freaking over peoples heads sometimes... Like I wanna see more community co-creation and us being a movement and connecting as human family, and show that to others... Like I haven't seen much really about how this isn't really about you to where I can show others like "see, it is us all awakening together!" Because people can get stuck in seeing it like you claiming yourself to be "God" and not seeing it like you showing us how we are all equally "God" as well... Like this banning can come across like a control-freak thing given their perspective (which I see your handling on it as a really legitimately fine) but you know your haters make it sound like its all about you (as cult-leader) and I want to shut them up by vouching for how its about us, but I have yet to hear what you really have to say about this evolving into an all-inclusive collective movement that is not about you , on the other side of things. If that all makes sense?? Theres just something I cant put words to that is missing, there is something disconnected about all this that feels lacking , and I hope you might shed some light on what you think could be lacking , giving credit to criticism in the "Yes, and" fashion ... Nothing but lots of love for ya man, think I've been following for 6+ years now?? Definitely worked your way to being rock solid in my top 3 mentors. Thanks Leo, -Kory

Check out Psychonaut Field Manual and look up Chaos Magic on wikipedia.... I do a little of that stuff... And I do some like-Law of Attraction (Napolean Hill "Think and Grow Rich") I would call myself a bit of an Occultist (following Alester Crowleys kind of way) My only "ritual" has been cold showers as a way of surrendering the demon inside to "God" or higher consciousness , i just incorporate a bit of techniques/principles from this stuff though in general, And there was some crazy fucking David Hawkins videos on the nature of reality as a field of potentiality and you co-create it into actuality... So in that sense, reality is magical to me. We are divine beings (im anti-religious btw) and with the unmanifested imagination, our entire civilization was created.... Magick is just like "willing into existence" to me... And I just lean on ideas like Terrence McKenna talking about shamans chanting visions together as one shared vision like using a method of ritual for making it REAL AS POSSIBLE (to me) , so ive wanted to create a shrine to the identity of my higher self and work on devoting myself to that shrine like praying to it. Personally I dont believe in any woo-woo, there is just SO MUCH GOD DAMN POWER in the mind and supercomputer of the subconscious and reassembling my inner sense of identity /beliefs according to what I really really really want , but mostly dont be consciously aware of... So i am like checking out the Hermetic Corpus of the Greeks now (WHICH IS MINDBLOWING BTW)

@Hello1 damn I feel this too , ENFP problems aye?? Here is what got me going in a spiral upwards last year before winter depression... Was living in my van , got a gym membership (after watching Superhuman World of the Iceman) and I would wake up, go do Wim Hof 1-3 rounds in the gym, alternating with HRV-Coherence 4-7-8 breathing (until positive flow-state) , and I did a light workout 0-30 minutes , and finished with cold shower (gradually increasing time of cold). Rinse repeat daily I swear the Wim Hof breathing and cold showers are DOPE, and it seems to me a Gym Membership is the best place to start (so you can get around people, i always talked to the workers A LOT, basically like using them as therapists lol) I have regressed now, but starting to turn it around again, i think what I am doing is 'Letting Go' of my present identity, and reimagining who I want to be, as my new present identity... And of course , leveraging any kind of intimate human experience I can get. (Unfortunately my parents/family are all DRY AS FUCK, so they have only told me to go get help and cant realize they could be the help if they knew how to just fucking be real and connect empathetically/genuinely)

Lower consciousness , regular level, superconscious levels. Most people are lower or regular (80-90%?) When u get homeless and no money and nutrition-deprived / poor sleeping / drugs / excessive heat exposure / etc... It just shuts down your brain to where its only FIGHT TO SURVIVE AT ALL COSTS The most primitive level , is body sensation. The second level, is emotions. The third level, is thinking (And you can really nuance these down into limiting-beliefs or older paradigms such as Fixed Mindset vs Growth Mindset... Or developing Critical-Thinking as a thinker, then you could add on higher levels of Conscious Awareness even) But what I am getting at SURVIVAL > THRIVING at the core fundamental level of existence , in heirarchy of needs (see Maslow or Spiral Dynamics or another levels of consciousness/energy map) So if I am nothing but minimum , reproduction and self-preservation are the only things that matter. Everybody has the capacity to go beyond minimum... But maybe 40% of the population is simply minimum development on this consciousness stuff. So i get over it and accept it, because reality is what it is, and everything else is just mental illusions, so a dog is simply gonna eat its own shit because its a dog... Humans are animals. We *really* overassess ourselves as somehow post-animal, but if you follow the anatomy of the brain, it is that "we are not thinking creatures that feel, but feeling creatures that think" and *your gift* is to be at a higher level of this consciousness awareness, (which only means you walked a different path than those who did not, everyone else will be better at other things than you, so we are more-or-less the same shit) I have been getting a new handle on it , by not trying to help everybody, because simply put, "they aint ready" , and Im just focused on finding others that are at near-adjacent levels of development to collaborate with, and just extend compassion to all as a general principle I follow, because in the end , we are all one human family It was a lotttt of work to 'let go' of trying to help everybody, like family, and just let them be, and just find the people who I am gonna resonate with, and understand the world is truly dark and full of monsters... And really, aren't we all monsters to some degree? (Of course I would say there are *real* monsters like Putin that should have their life ended for the greater good, but a lot of his followers are simply disillusioned and born into a world where they have never had the liberty/opportunity that we have been so blessed with by having exposure to ppl like Leo *and also* being right time in our lives when we could receive it. Hope that helps

Hi all, Kory here Situation: I am sitting in my van 24/7 for months. Doordash enough to scrape by. Play Wild Rift on my phone until I can't. Watch an informative video that doesn't relate to bettering myself. (Such as Ukraine conflict or James Webb telescope, future trends emerging). I save all the videos that I could learn to be better from on Watch Later. For lack-of-better explanation: It is like an invisible wall to the side of myself that seeks to be self-empowered. (Seems to me like multiple sub-personalities, and I actively dismiss going into the "Be All I Can Be" sub-personality.) And I don't work on learning skills, working out, meditating , mindfulness, reading, setting goals and working towards them... etc. I have deluded myself into productive procrastination most of life, and taking hardly any action... a dance of balancing myself between monstrous addiction to gaming, with a narcissistic way of believing in this Chosen One syndrome... that by learning all the answers to life, I was somehow going to escape my life of growing up. (Peter-Pan syndrome of an egotistical righteous maniac or something) This invisible wall thing seems to be what is the problem. I feel compelled to keep it a secret at all costs. I can not call somebody and admit it... even now finding words, it is like my subconscious is fighting against me. My whole life it seems, has been the inner-war. Everytime I find a way to break the cycle, the inevitable slip becomes an opportunity to bury it deep and never let it return. Shortly about my past: I grew up in a stable household with my father who neglected me for playing games. I never had enough attention, so I became astoundingly bright (ENFP 7w8 personality). Dropped out of college for raving and learning to pick-up women. Always wanted to write the book "Everything I wish I knew when I graduated school" ... but through my 20s, I went from super popular to being a ghost as Psychology led me to Philosophy and Spirituality where I became lost... annoying everybody to no-end ranting about Spiral Dynamics and Awakening... and its like , it broke me. I lost every person in my life because I refused to change what I was was gonna talk about... more and more, it was realizing I was vastly different from most others, a black sheep. I embraced being far-out at the cost of any social life. So in summary, I didn't grow up. That light of innocence as a child in awe of the world was a radiant star that finally timbered into a flame that died out up until now , I just feel paralyzed by this unwillingness to ... idk? self-accept? self-love? self-something? I can't make friends anymore. It is not that I don't have the ability, it is that it is a war within myself... and people almost never 'see' me, and I can't deal with the imposter that isn't magnificent... It comes across a manic-narcissist and everyone rejects it... I know I have a big ego, I know it is manic-narcissist - but if that is all people are going to see, then to "Hell with them!". And ALL THIS GOING AROUND AND AROUND.... I still am not doing anything to make my life into the way I want it. I'm in this psychosis of war in my mind or something about being rejected for being awesome... while it is all like avoiding simple facts and reality... I don't do shit. I don't have goals or work on my life. I am a homeless bum using people's money to afford myself being useless to society. I do not have motivation. I block out my desires for my dreams. I've let it ruin me to having no social WHATSOEVER. I am blocked from imagining myself going and getting into social life (like finding friends with similar interests)... What happens is , I avoid being so frustrated at life that I go ballistic that I have to talk myself into reaching out for help, and I actively avoid following-up on this stuff, because for whatever reason I am like in avoidance to not being an insane person. Also: this is all intertwined with Cluster B Personality disorders (varying degrees from moderate to extreme throughout my life) The troubling part is I'm wanting to kill myself instead of having a wonderful life, because of something I am trying to avoid some aspect of Self or something, and making things worse for myself seems to be my core drive. I do not know. "have you tried Therapy" yes I hated it. I associate "getting help" with pain or something... ANYWAYS /RANT I love that Leo resonates with me to most of out gurus/mentors I've found, but WHY DO I TRY TO AVOID IT. I know I would love the community here, but I want nothing to do with people in some sort of fear-response. It drives me, thank you for all being here in this community, and without it , I would probably lack any inspiration at all. Warm wishes -Kory edit: tl:dr - It is a driving urge *not* to fix myself. Now I've lost most everything I cared about.

@Matt23 no i believe I am insane and dont want to be "cured" of it. (I would like to be functioning, but I embrace the crazy through and through.) My belief is that this world has no place for me. I must of been 'born ahead of my time' or something it seems like, or I am an alien from Mars . I am extremely strange to both, conventional and unconventional people... @BipolarGrowth @Loba okay so ill try working on journaling and doing a checklist for a few daily routines + a bit more ... (Drinking water , take a walk outside, meditate) It is extremely hard because the more I resist giving up and wanting to turn things around, the harder it becomes to do it... I can never seem to meditate especially, its like my Achille's Heel... The more i fight to get myself to meditate, the more my shadow resents it altogether and less I am able to do at all... And it just keeps getting worse and worse ... Its like I have made it into some sort of PTSD like fear of relapsing into trying-to-be-all-I-can mode. Its like I really have a heart longing for going all into self-improvement, but over the years I have grown to rebuke it to where it is an inpenetrable wall now. Like in a fantasy movie where a person has grown exhausted of dreaming and it is all reluctance to answer the calling anymore.

Just do it. I overthink. I will get hung up on a phrase for hours like arguing against it from all angles while I am floating around in my space. Hopefully being productive, mostly not. Why cant I simply do like I was back in summer last year? I just had one of those "mindfulness?? FUCK! I forgot to be doing this again!!" I was actively trying to hit my best it seemed like, getting my physical body, mind ,energy all good. Not being LAZYY, like keeping organized clean and tidy. What happened? I went back around people I knew. I felt like a king that could take on the best, I showed up at a new job and was like overkilling it... And the echoes of conversations and phrases in mind started sponging up small-town laziness, and it was a morphological unwinding of good habits into old habits, started skipping gym day and 3 months later im suicidal quitting my job on my birthday, because I had 150% at least expected of me by my job, and I was like "nahhh not on my birthday" If i had kept going up instead of going back down, that day could of been my opportunity to prove to myself "I am 150%+" or something, but no... I regressed "Just do it..." The cycle has been driving me crazy. I explore every option. Over and over and over it churns. The mind keeps looking everywhere, and nothing happens. Why do I not restart my morning ritual? Why do I not have habits I am building? Its like extreme Peter-Pan never growing up and maintaining a job. Constantly like 10-20-30 ideas, I try to aim for 1-2 things and the brain storms on. I sing and dance through the rhythm of chaos. I cant think about one thing and just like do it. I keep running away from myself. I keep forgetting goals. I keep moving and thinking, and I can't sit still and get things done... It is so annnoyyyyinggg!!! Much love fam -Kory

I am careful to not position it against them personally... Like i might discuss how i feel about something that people generally do that bothers me (they see themselves in the context) It helps to get them to say what they want, and show them that they want the answer you provide... What ive noticed buttering me up like magic, is somebody describing my problem accurately, like I get that feeling of being understood , and then it doesnt matrer what advice they suggest, because they see me truly, and im open to listening when i feel they get me Can ask them if they are open to feedback straight up.... And then hesitate like "nahhh everybody hates criticism" and they might be say they can handle it, THEN GENTLY test the waters... 98% of ppl cant handle criticism, and half of them will lie that they can... Dont take the gloves off and actually give people harsh brutal honesty , unless they specifically request it (like me) Also , you cant go wrong with the Rapport-Building technique , repeating accurate understanding to their satisfaction... People get juiced up hearing somebody "get them"

EDIT: You have issues with not doing things. Basically, it is Negative Consciousness , you can do 4-7-8 breathing w/ gratitude and attitude of effortlessness to switch to Positive. You can get practice facing this shadow/demon/lower directly consciousness by cold shower / Wim Hof breathing. (Try to manage meditation/flow state while taking a cold shower!) Pomodoro timer is good. Harsh punishment as accountability is great (pay $20 if u dont). Have a list of reasons WHY that motivate you... (Imagine you had to pay $1,000,000 if u failed... Imagine all your dreams coming true and how you would feel to see it as reality if you succeeded) you can use self-hypnosis and like Tony Robbins sudden burst of physical energy (go fucking nuts cheering for yourself , get emotional state to 10/10) Work on process-oriented goals (doing 1 minute versus just doing it) and tune-in to your Flow State (parasympathetic with gratitude/effortless mindset) Keep doing the smallest achieveable step you can. Wanna start the gym? Put your shoes on! FUCK YES! WOOHOO! Now rinse repeat, going 1 step further... 1 rep? SUCCESS!! Get used to the habit in reflections and CONSISTENCY IS KEY. GET MOMENTUM! Self-Talk - Brian Tracy's goal setting video, use it for self-talk like "I am getting up to do 1 minute of work now!" (Avoid trying to persuade yourself, just stick to your motivations (different motivations for your lower and higher consciousness) I like to tap into my identity at the cosmic-level (level 3 i call it, not the same thing as the higher energy-vibration of consciousness) , there is some deeper shit on it... Like self-realizing that you are the eternal energy of the cosmos from the Big Bang as an infinite creator aka "God" (however u like) and everything is merely your mind as a VR-headset simulating the reality you want to see SORRY, INFORMATION OVERLOAD AHEADh Who are you? What is reality? Let's start with Wilber' AQAL framework for a Reality Overview "All Quadrants , All Lines ,Levels, States T,ypes 4 Quadrants of Reality Reality seems to come back to the Points-of-View, 1st , 2nd , 3rd, 4th, 5th, 6th (consciousness can become Aware of its own awareness) and go to higher levels of perspective in the mind States of Consciousness - (im rusty on Wilber's version Gross/Subtle/Casual , but I will highlight Nondual and Dualism , Dualism is Yin and Yang, Nondualism is Oneness ... (like people take psychedelics to feel this Oneness state) Levels/Stages - (Vertical Personality Development) I like Terri OFallons StagesInternational , Spiral Dynamics SDi is the most popular, Maslow Heirarchy is is the original, and David Hawkins is one of the my favorites Levels of Consciousness Lines of Development ( like how well you can detect flavors , or notice aesthetics) Types - (Horizontal Personality Development) aka Big 5, MBTI, Enneagram, etc... (MBTI is flawed pseudoscience, but worth checking out) You see, consciousness can be separated like Lower / Neutral / Higher , which seems to be directly caused by Sympathetic or Parasympathetic Nervous System dominance... which is controlled via breath 4-7-8 (lifehack to change negative to positive) Consciousness operates Bottom-Up , not Top-Down... so 'being'>feeling > thinking . (see Consciousness ) Triune Brain Theory Start with "Why" Cultivate your Self-Talk to be a Self-Relationship. I play both the "devil" and "angel" and its give-and-take , there have been times it was toxic, and now there are boundaries like I will punish that "devil" side with cold showers and breathing exercises if it personally attacks... (learn to love the company as time with yourself, not "being alone") There are like 3 levels of identity (ego-based, then ?? , then cosmic-based... , reconfiguring your Identity to be a Level 3 Identity is a BIGGG upgrade KEY POINTS - DEPROGRAMMING - CAN NOT BE UNDERSTATED (Beliefs are not real, just the effects) (Emotions are strategies to outcome) (Thoughts are deceptive) Letting Go (a powerful technique for many problems) - CRITICAL-THINKING (my strategy Radical Openmindedness + Healthy Skepticism) - The delusional trap? Watch out: Skepticism is a dangerous tool when Self-Bias is unchecked (like objective verification) -The great misunderstanding is that Science is totally objective truth, except it is self-biased to its own objective perspective as the only truth... which is a flawed assumption. Science is just now admitting this in 2022 "Rethinking the Definition of Reality" Everyone is actually simulating reality as Consciousness, and mistaking their perception and interpretation for the real thing. "People dont' believe what they see, they see what they believe" Audit Yourself! (Creating notes then seeing patterns as you reflect across a number of instances is OP! ) David Hawkins Map of Consciousness Explained (there is a Part 2 on her channel) Personally, this is what has blown my mind recently: 7 Hermetic Principles of the Kyballion Also I'm impressed by Joseph Rodriguez - he has been covering Napolean Hill (super popular), Joseph Murphy, Neville Goddard... this Power of the Subconscious Mind is a great one I thought Meditation is a huge deal (coming back to this later) How to Learn and Teach (leaked pdf) How to Speak MUST WATCH documentary Superhuman World of the Iceman (WIM HOF!!)) Avoid the channels Spirit Science, and Gaia imo, they both seem like bullshit. Leo's videos God-Realization Explanation, and the one regarding Neediness and Lonliness were some that helped me (Actualized Clips!) also his videos on Meta (content vs structure) and (superpower) Metacognition , Metaperspective, MetaAwareness, etc Escaping Ordinary channel is good Tom Bilyeu channel is good (Impact Clips) Optimize.me and app (comprehensive crash courses for lots of topics) things I didn't cover Habits Mindsets (Abundance vs Scarcity) (Fixed vs Open) Principles (Leose's list of Principles is a great piece) Integral Life Practice handout (Wilber) Paradigms (cant solve a problem at same level it was created aka change your paradigm!) Eckhart Tolle Chakras (i know little but think they seem solid) Yoga (as underrated as Philosophy itself probably, but Im a noob here also) Enlightenment Biohacking Science of Optimal Mind - Dan Brown (Science of Awakening) "just be yourself" as flawed advice. Left brain - focuses on the reality as individual bits of info Right brain - holistic osmosis (see TedTalk Stroke of Insight) Pomodoro (concentration timer, take 5-15 minute breaks to "zone out" aka Diffusion mode) Process-orientation > perfection-orientation (take 1 step, meditate for 1 minute, focus on process mastery) Character Virtues Values (systems of values being linked to our stage of perspective on Spiral Dynamics , which is a major reason people disagree = different value systems) Worldviews (the epitome of Paradigm-tech, Leo says they are like Master Keys) Chinese? Worldview - Flow States! (See Flow and Psychology of Optimal Happiness) Buddhist worldview? , Attachment = suffering? Find your "thing" - Ikigai venne diagram. Consumerism vs Creationism Im having fun wriing this, but will have to come back later! Much Love - Kory

I need help with this actually.... I was looking at freelancing, there is a podcast/video by Anik Singal (LURN) called Make First $1000 with Microgigs... Would like to start getting passive investments like niche websites / affiliate marketing , setting up a training business maybe with like course content Digital marketing seems solid way to go once you get into the grind of things .

I just found out, this is the norm for us younger... Because our lives have been nothing but full of uncertainty and changing times Sounds like my life, but I am 33, and I feel like I tasted success early, but then I doubted myself and went down the rabbit hole... Dude, you want to talk about habits you can seriously leverage for productivity, and they only take a few minutes a day! 1) very cold shower, control yourself to be happy+relaxed, the longer you forget about trying to get out of the cold, the better! 2) breathing techniques, I was alternating Wim Hof and 4-7-8 (while going to the gym I might add, which I hear is BY FAR the primary GO-TO for getting productive) I found this useful for focusing, I've been meaning to do it again. (and running a Pomodoro timer) Also for crypto trading - I would check out Alex Becker microtrading and Cameron Fous, my opinion is they seem top notch Also also : Accountability!! Set up a system to punish yourself... Offer to pay them $20 if you dont work (or whatever you can substitute for $20, but it has to SUCK losing it) Also also also : work on your Identity! (check out Psycho-cybernetics 101) If you want , I will hold you accountable, and you can help teach me this stuff as a way to check your learning. I hate to say "You just gotta do it" but there is a couple Procrastination videos on Optimize.me and I bet HealthyGamerGG has a good procrastination video too Honestly what really helped me back in the day, was watching people do the thing like a mimic.. so like , watch a livestream video / make friends with people doing it, and just keep being a sponge... and using your voice externally to say "I am working on this now" (present tense) so you can hear yourself, preferably around others so the pressure of embarassment pushes you

Napolean Hill says otherwise I am gonna be real with you... you better have something to offer Leo of serious value to him... He really cares about people , enough to tell somebody NO out of respect to prioritizing the kind of people who will do great things towards his ultimate aim. But I admire the courage to try anyways! Seriously , MASSIVE value to him , or finding his personal endearment for you is probably a minimum

Cool, Ive been looking for writing/journal based contemplative work I can do What about the lower levels of energy like on Hawkins scale, dont they have certain limitations they have to overcome/let go of, in order to move up? Or can you just assume the highest form of consciousness ? Also im looking for advice on these Zen Centers / Buddhist temples if you have any, id like to meet locals on the same wavelength