The White Belt
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Let me add onto this.. Another thing messing me up is that I want to be more self expressive. I want to wear certain types of clothing and have a piercing and shit but then at the same time I don't want to create a false ego. I don't want to attach to something. But if you enjoy to wear something with out making it your ego isn't that fine? As long as I'm truly not trying to join a crowd but just be more liberating is that okay? The way I am I just feel like half a person floating around. I wear boring plain t shirts and barely talk about myself. Thanks again
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Right, so. For about two weeks I've been noting my dreams down on my phone and counting my fingers and last night I count my fingers and it adds up, and I try again and it never adds up so I tell myself I'm dreaming, I wasn't too sure but then somebody said I was dreaming. So I'm excited as it is my first ever lucid dream but it's not quite as I expected as I didn't have too much control. I saw a girl I know out of nowhere so I proceed to have sex with her by starting to eat her out but it only lasted like 5 seconds and then my dream jumped around.. I thought I'd have enough control to have full blown sex? And then I thought I'd try the flying thing but I can only really fly a little bit.. Like across the room but it got harder and harder to do.. Then I thought I'd do the whole talk to the subconscious so I was looking in the mirror and I just asked myself 'what are you afraid of?' But my face was just messing up.. And then it was just normal random dream stuff. So I suppose my question is.. Was this a lucid dream? Or just a normal dream with a bit of control.. Like a half lucid dream? Has anyone had this kind of experience? Thanks.
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The White Belt replied to The White Belt's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Thank you for your response! It's all so cool. I was skeptical at first. -
@Moon Nice! How strange to think.
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Whatsup people! :-) My head has been frantic all day. I hope you can help. Basically next month I will be travelling around SE Asia for three months (A trip I hope to be equally spiritual and good for my personal development). I'm 22 and I work in a coffee shop full-time, which as of late has been frustrating because I know I can do better for myself but what i've really wanted to do is become an actor. (I say really want to do but my passion for it goes off and on like crazy) I applied for a career break but I just found out today that they would not be able to have me back and this is where I feel stuck. What do I do when I get back? I can't bare returning to a coffee shop. So what i'm considering is training in something that is not acting and getting a decent full-time career that actually stretches my brain and fufills me somewhat. But it isn't acting. I've never liked this whole romantic notion that a person must be poor and starve to become an actor. I like a level of comfort in my life and enough money to eat healthy and buy books and I feel like being a poor person struggling to make ends meet to become an actor would drive me insane. Starting a career in something else that earns well would give me the opportunity to save... But then an actor needs to be able to take time from work at a moments notice but with this it just isn't possible. I've put money into acting and it is never a financial return but a bit more basic knowledge for courses that can cost thousands. Where as if for example if I put lots of money into something such as computing I could get a tangible financial return. I've gotten through this all not being able to articulate or get my point across fully so let me leave it with one simple question. If I put acting on the back burner to pursue a more 'realistic career' so that I can gain financial comfort. Is it wrong? Please help. BeginnerActualizer
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Make another task for your day: to be in the moment in any given moment whether it be mundane or a set task.
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Hey guys! So i've been thinking kinda "deep" lately - Deep for me at least. I've been thinking about purpose, removing my ego in order to search for purpose. Also about human interaction and seeing through peoples fakeness and how careers are really just games and i've been thinking about how to remove my ego and how much should be removed and how much do we need to be attached to who we are as people. Let me start with why I think this may be destructive - Because basically all this thinking is making me tired as hell. I've been at it for 3 days and I need bed all the time. My head is a blur, it is spinning, the thoughts are racing and it is distracting me from work. Now recreational - I'm thinking that after all these racing thoughts that are sending me nuts, when it comes down to a normal level it may give me some very clear, concise, creative and new ways of thinking. What do you all think - Is this good or bad stuff? Thanks.
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Thanks, I agree. I'll try to be aware and separate the thoughts so that they are more productive.
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What are you most grateful for right now?
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@Tom Beast - I'm start off in Thailand actually. I start in Bangkok and then will make my way around so I will definitely look out for this place. Thanks!
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Sup people! First post here. I'm a little stuck. I haven't been personal developing for very long.. But it is pretty intense. I'm working hard, studying and getting my shit and health together generally. My problem is that when I regroup with friends I feel a little lost lately. They are always talking about trash reality TV, gossiping, insulting each other and seem to have free time they waste and to hear things like this is generally just frustrating to me. They are good people, but slightly.. asleep? Perhaps i'm being pretentious. Should I move away from them a little bit? Or is there a way to relax into their company and just drop everything just for a couple of hours a week. I have no off-switch! Thanks.
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I think I need more life experiences. To try a lot of things. All whilst doing personal development work generally and try not to go insane doing a mind numbing 9-5 job.. and also be patient if possible. Sound like a good plan @Leo Gura?
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I don't know! :'(
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Thanks for the reply Leo. Ahh it's just so hard. Because I look over time and I have never really stuck my head into acting books or put the real effort in.. So I don't know why acting pops into my head when I think life purpose. I've read more personal development books than acting books. Sometimes I can only think of acting and sometimes I hate it. Perhaps I can pursue something else and keep acting as a hobby? who knows.
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Leicester, England!
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I don't feel like they are going to bring me down. I just feel desolate in the fact that I don't want to talk about petty things anymore. I just don't have the energy for it. It's a lonely feeling but I guess if I try to expand my friendship circle a little bit it may give me new insights while keeping some of my current friends around. Thanks all
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Thanks for the reply. Dominic. I think you're right that it would be bad to discard them because they are not open minded. It's just hard to sit around talking bullshit petty things about celebrity crushes and what not. It can be all so surface level. I just wish I could meditation and motivation and things like that sometimes!