Frogfucius

I'm aware of the form and non-form, changing and changeless. I feel like I am two, and there's a demon in my head, but underneath there is something more aware and forgiving. I feel like the answer to every philosophical question is both yes and no. I feel like I'm awake, but in a dream. What kind of phase am "I" going through? Why am "I" going through it?

I like all living creatures, but I've always been most fascinated by our closing living relatives, that being the other great apes. If you take time to observe their physical freatures, it will astound your ego how similar they look and behave to us humans. Their nonverbal communication and facial expressions are easily recognizable, and they're social and enjoy touching and hugging to build bonds. Here are some of my thoughts, based on what I have read/watched: Chimpanzees - These are like the ego-side of humans. They react strongly to their emotions, they're power and status driven, and are inherently the most curious and interactive of the great apes. They learn by mimicking others, they're efficient in tool use, and they're the only non-human hominids (as far as I know) that hunt in packs and eat meat. Bonobos - These guys are very peaceful and calm, unlike chimps. They're highly sexually promiscuous, and solve conflicts through sex. They're not concerned with power or status, they're a female-dominated group, they're very social, and they're shown to have great empathetic capabilities compared chimps. These seem to be the benevolent side of humans. Gorillas - These guys are really cool! They're physically very capable, but prefer a peaceful and relaxed lifestyle. They could be formidable predators, but they're strictly herbivores. My favorite animal, the group's alpha silverback gorilla, is probably the most confident creature on the planet. Every action they take seems deliberate and flows seamlessly - walking, foraging, and even just sitting down and observing. They keep to themselves and enjoy their space, but keep a close watch on everyone in the group and is quick to settle any conflict between members, and to evaluate outside threats. The beta gorillas pound their chests and put on a show, but the alpha gorillas sit calmly and don't need to put on a show to prove anything. They're strong leaders and keep everyone grounded and protected. These guys are like the yogis of the great apes. I haven't studied orangutans yet, but I plan to! Each of these species are unique in their own ways, but it's fun to point out what part of their behaviors is similar to humans. The only difference between us and other apes is our cognitive abilities - otherwise, we're so much alike! It's sad most of us aren't in tune with that.

@jjer94 Well, since you've gone to me specific: I've rejected spirituality, hierarchies, consciousness, enlightenment, meditation as a necessity, psychedelics, and "Truth". I think the whole business is just a glorified way of trying to escape reality, and a way of looking down on others. I play the game a bit on here, because it still is kind of interesting and is relevant to the site. I act extreme when the spiritual buffs take their ideals seriously, but I don't take it seriously. Good insight though. I guess since I'm over this kind of stuff, I might as well move on like you have.

@Taavi I offended you, which is why you projected on to me. So I should be the one apologizing, if anything.

@Taavi There's nothing to prove on my side. You're trying to prove something on your side because I completely shit on your ideals. Your ideals are stupid and are not grounded in reality. That's the only reason you bring up a post from months ago on me. Again: I have woken up. I don't care about your book, and your fantasies about life are beyond idiotic. One day you'll wake up to how stupid you've been, believing in myth. And you think you've got what it takes to be a sage? Ha! I take shits more enlightened than you.

@Taavi You bring up one post from months ago, from a dark point in my life, and somehow think you're preaching gospel on my current self-esteem level. I've woken the fuck up since then. You on the other hand, are completely lost and clueless. But continue to think you're backing me into some kind of corner, because I put down your fantasies about life and ideals. That will prove something to yourself! One day you'll wake up like I have.

@Taavi You're the one that keeps coming after me with your wonky ass theories and projections, homeslice. Don't start what ya can't finish. Now tell me what it is you want.

@Taavi You still have no point, no goal. What do you even want? You want for me to say I'm wrong about everything, and you're right? Are you trying to make me realize something you think is true in your mind? That's actually pretty funny. At least I'm honest and admit I'm doing this for shits and giggles. I know you ain't gonna change your mind about anything, because you're a fool. Go get high off your own farts, ya goob.

@aurum Great insight as always, aurum. Women (and men) are a physical commodity, just like money, drugs, and delicious food. And just like anything else, when you get what it is that you wanted, the high only lasts for a little while before fading. That's just the way life is.

If they want to engage, I'll engage them. Call me a nihilist, call me insecure. It's funny to toy with them... it's really not that serious at all. Like I said, I'll grow bored of that eventually.

For fun. No reason for me to post on this forum at all at this point, except for my own amusement. I'll grow bored of it eventually.

@Taavi No point to be made. You're a fool. Ultimately, @kurt is right. He's one of the few here that actually understands what's going on. I'm not sure what you mean though by "I value their opinions", because I think all of them are just silly.

@Taavi Cute. Continue to project onto me and call me things, as if you think you're actually making some kind of point. Like I said, I have said a lot of shit in the past. Go ahead, continue to stalk my post history - look all the way at the beginning. I said some really stupid shit. I'll admit it. What have I got to hide? What you're showing here is your arrogance. Do you get a thrill from "diagnosing" people over Internet forums? That's some funny shit right there. You need a lot of help, my friend. @ShinMy bad homey, I just find it hilarious how these guys continue to follow me and preach to me, like I'm saying anything harmful to anyone. I really can't find the harm, but apparently it's hurtful to some people. :thinkingemoji:

@Taavi Cute. Have anything worthwhile to say, or are you going to try and keep attacking me over completely irrelevant shit I have said and done in the past? One time I stole something, one time I thought I had low self-esteem, one time when I was a kid, I kicked a cat. Big fucking deal. I never said there is nothing to do, I never said I'm enlightened, or that I'm not projecting, or that I don't have beliefs. The moment I'm not projecting or don't believe in anything, I'm dead. Feel better about yourself? Reality is just is. You can keep trying to deny it, or put it down in some way. By all means, see how that works out for you.

@Martin123 Uhh, no, I'm just calling you out on your bullshit. Pretending you weren't being a jackass isn't going to magically mean you were not a jackass. I do accept your well wishes however, and I wish the same for you.

There is no damage being done here. What damage are you talking about? Am I hurting someone? Or am I just challenging your petty little ego, so much so you had to call me a Nihilist for no reason at all? Yes, I understand concepts of phases and stages. But they're merely thoughts. What changes in this universe is physical. Newer cells replace older cells, but even that is just atoms switching around. When you cling to concepts, that's where you sit in a position where you are right now: calling me out, calling me names, looking down on me for being in a "certain phase", writing people off because they're not in a certain stage. Typical ideological bullshit.

@Martin123 Hahaha, oh the irony. There are no stages or phases in reality. You labeling me as a nihilist is your petty ego talking. You're too emotionally attached to concepts and ideas, and nihilism being one of them. What is here goes beyond concepts. It's called reality. I'm not a nihilist, I'm not this, that, or whatever you want to call me. You don't even know yourself, so how are you going to think you know me? If you don't like me slapping reality in people's faces, then by all means, just ignore me. If you want to continue in Lala Fantasy Land, then continue. But quit calling me your dirty, empty words.

You keep telling yourself that. There are people who stay in relationships their whole lives and never "transcend". Relationships have nothing to do with anything.

Nothing is serious. Romanticism is BS. You're attached to a concept, an ideal. You're mind-fucking yourself.

@CreativeInertia It's true; you can't not have beliefs and/or values. You replace one belief with another belief, and so on. And we, as selfish and egoic beings, are generally intolerant of other people's beliefs and values. But the more you come into understanding, the less you cling to your own beliefs/values. They don't mean jack shit, and are just as invalid as the guy who believes in Santa.

@Elahe This is just a phase. Trust me. You'll grow out of it, and then maybe resonate with people more than you ever have before. You'll also be able to let go easier.

You'll come to understand that there is no paradox. Reality is consistent, once you fully understand it. I didn't say to not do what you want - just that clinging to ideals is a very dangerous situation, especially among those on the so-called spiritual path. Jesus sought to change his own culture's ideals, and to make it a "better" place. Instead, he left a huge mess behind in the world. Look at how much neuroses and suffering was caused by the idiots who took Christian ideals too far. Even if Jesus had the best intentions, Christianity turned into a business and a political conglomerate - something Jesus would shake his head at. This isn't unique to Christianity, it goes for all ideals. Look at communism, and so forth. Suffering is real. It's just part of being human. We are cursed with the "gift" of thought, and that has been our downfall - the fall of man. You can completely surrender to this suffering and just accept it, or you can try and eliminate it. But once you try and eliminate it, all you're doing is trying to get a one-up on yourself - something you can't possibly do. You are correct though, this argument is pointless. Just like every discussion.

You see, you keep putting these "masters" on a pedestal, like they're living a better life than anyone else. A true quote unquote "enlightened" person realizes that there is no enlightenment, and that there's no difference between a saint, some thieving bum who lives on the street, and a maggot or tapeworm. There is no consciousness, because we don't even know what the fuck consciousness even is. The fact that you think there's a "good" human being, and that you equate slobbery to a 7/11 worker, just shows how much you label and categorize things. There are no labels. Reality just is. Yes, the Zen Master is sexy because he can withstand a lot of things most people can't. And he got there through training. But that doesn't make his life better than anyone else's, and he realizes that. But we can continue working on some non-existent path that leads to nowhere. Hell, society has been leading us like that since we were born. First, grade school. Then college, then a job, then retirement, then you fucking die. Human life is manufactured to feel inauthentic and mundane.

This! I'm guilty of being physically attracted to a certain "type" of woman, but nothing about that is natural in the biological sense; it's all conditioning of the mind. All tastes you have, and that goes for your taste in the opposite gender, does not come from you. It's born from your culture, your personal experiences, and conditioned thoughts. The danger, I think, of having a "type", is that something born from thought is naturally harmful. If you have a "type" of woman, then you are putting that mold of woman, which is completely a fiction, to a higher standard than all other potential mates. You risk becoming attached in an unhealthy sense, you risk acting unnatural, you risk hurting the other person, and you spotlight a particular person and put them on some kind of pedestal. These are destructive things, and I'd say nearly all men and women are victims of it. A deep, stable connection can not be built on a cracked foundation. Something will feel amiss. Just be aware of the dangers of thought and the conditioned mind.

They're one in the same. Intuition is just thought. But it's a fancy/deceptive way of expressing thought, without actually calling it thought. So don't worry about it.