Zane

Another Date!! I'm focusing on my social life and my vision is to transform my social skills and truly discover my authentic self. After the first date and the girl being disinterested, I tried another girl and I had my date today and it went GREAT!!!!!! This girl has the eccentricity, dry sarcasm, and my passion that i deeply desire but there's something that we share together that's truly profound. In a way, we're both misfits but we're bound together by an authenticity and a desire for creativity and that's something i've been seeking out for years. I realized that it's entirely possible for me to not only master socializing but be completely authentic with it and not cling to social scripts. My date told me that my conversation topics radically stood out and that's the highest compliment i could get. I realized that my date and i both have this deep self-expression and to me, that authenticity, is true sexiness.

I just finished The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz and it's an excellent example of ancient Aztec mysticism with practical application. The Four Agreements made me instantly connect to Leo's video on Non-Duality Goes Cosmopolitan and the Toltecs are another example of the mystics. They argued that we're living in self-constructed dreams of a society and that we create our own heavens and our own hells. Our words are white magic and black magic that we use to love or to harm. The path to freedom is the Four Agreements 1. Be Impeccable With Your Word 2. Don't Take Anything Personally 3. Don't Make Assumptions 4. Always Do Your Best This book felt like a realization that I've spent 2014 to 2017 focusing on creating that heaven in my life! I'm balancing being goal-driven and purpose-driven and vision-driven and that has resulted in amazing new experiences, the job offer in Vegas, graduating, making new friends, and re-capturing that childhood state of being free and wild. I'm realizing that i'm creating my own freedom and freedom has granted me the power to express my passion raw and authentically. I'm discovering the authentic Zane! I've also recently read a book about Asian philosphy and Taoism so I'm starting to become a sage.

@Liam Johnson I'm also focusing on combatting boredom!! I realize that for a couple days, I've been feeling drained and unmotivated and I went through a long dry spell in 2013 and 2014. I'm focusing on re-capturing that feeling of spontaneity and flow and truly feeling alive!

Re-Capturing The Flow of Reading As a child, I would get so deeply immersed in books that the world within in the book felt like reality. When i read a book, watch a movie or a play, or listen to music, it truly feels like a trip to a whole new world that embodies deep self-expression. However, in college, I remember the mandatory reading for my classes and feeling detached from the books. I felt like I lost touch with that original state of deep immersion and flow! For 2017, I decided to stop making reading feel like a chore and re-connect with the Inner Muse. So In 2017, i vowed to dedicate myself to daily reading and make it my new meditation habit. February is ending and i'm already on my third book "Wherever You Go There You Are." I've been focusing my reading on self-help books particularly on books about rejection and passion. When I read "Rejection Proof" and "A Passion for the Possible" I had a "WOW" and "HELL YES" moments where i strongly identified with the author's message. I'm focusing on creating a reading ritual and for my first two books, I would be in a deep flow of reading on some days but forgot on other days. The changes i made was to read for an hour, or 90 minutes or 2 hours a day in intervals to make the reading flow by. I'm focusing on taking notes of my favorite passages from the books when I finish reading. On the third book I'm reading, I've read the book for a day and i read 120 pages which i completely unexpected because i was deeply immersed in the flow of the book. I realized that flow can apply AMAZINGLY to reading and my intention is to be a voracious bookworm who can devour through a book or two in a week and 5 or more books in a month. I want to re-capture that obsession I had for books as a child!

I didn't see the video and i checked out the book from the library!

This is one of the FUNNIEST and most inspiring books I've ever read!! It has fascinating insights about taking massive action to confront a fear, reframing a fear into something positive and beneficial, and the art of taking risks. It helped me recapture that flow state of reading where I felt deeply immersed in the book! I would classify the book as self-help and autobiography!

New Book Reading Habit I've been focusing on a new habit of daily reading for pleasure and i realized that by giving myself 90 minutes a day on a book or an hour a day, I can breeze through a book in just a few days. I'm focusing on the new habit of daily reading for an hour, to 90 minutes or two hours a day. The books i'm reading now are highly inspirational and charge me with laughter, passion, and awe and it re-captures that deep investment i had in books! I'm focusing on re-capturing the joy of reading after getting so detached from that joy through mandatory reading for college classes! I WILL BE A DEVOURER AND ABSORBER OF BOOKS!!!!!

Meditation Breakthrough YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE BEEN MEDITATING 52 HOURS TOTAL SINCE JANUARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's AMAZING how I've been eagerly looking forward to meditation!!!!! It makes me want to push meditation to the limit and to learn more deeply and concretely about meditation!! My new intention is to deepen my meditation and to take it to EVEN MORE amazing levels. Using Leo's microscope analogy, i can go even deeper and more intense with meditation!!

Leo's Foundation Video It's been two weeks since I last journaled but I just watched Leo's Foundation Video and i had some great insights. I'm actually making much better structural progress than I thought. 1. My Twenties Journal and Happiness List are my most powerful and profound tools because it created the foundation of my life. It focuses on both the small fish and the big fish to fry. It focuses on the good in my life happening just now or that happened in the past and my vision of the future, what i'm excited for, my aspirations, my purpose and my values. The Twenties Journal is my voice and form of my intuition. The journal is helpin my mastering my intuition not just by hearing to it and listening to it but releasing it from my mind, transcribing it, and acting on it. 2. Daily creative writing where I focus on creating something new everyday. It's simple but so rewarding and fulfilling because it connects to my purpose of storytelling. A new structural change i can make is to create an intution incubator to make creativity effortless. Like a mental idea factory! 3. Daily meditation habit. It gives me freedom over my mind and I've been sticking to the habit daily and it feels effortless. I keep smashing new records every week. 4. To prepare for the PRAXIS exam, I focus on daily practice to master the test 5. Daily reading of a book i love! Focus on reading for an hour or more a day and the faster you read. Focus on reading voraciously! 6. Going outside everyday and seeking out adventures and new experiences 7. Creating a whole new foundation from scratch by moving to Las Vegas!

Honestly, I would do a lot!! 1. I will be 100% committed to self-actualization ESPECIALLY mastering my intuition and being unapologetically authentic 2. I would be AMAZINGLY prolific and in a state of flow to create my stories and release them 3. I would travel extensively and explore and seek out new experiences. I would explore new cities and countries and to beaches, meadows and valleys, stargazing, and all kinds of new experiences 4. I'll die in the best and more epic way ever rather than a slow and painful death! I'll die feeling at peace and free from regrets!

I see it as a book with fascinating insights on the history of power and how power works! Some of the laws could be strongly applicable to self-actualization but a MUCH BETTER book for self-actualization is Robert Greene's Mastery which is even more applicable to self-actualization.

@Soulbass I'm also focusing on creating a meditation habit and i'd love to discuss forming habits and meditation. I realize that the best way to implement a habit is for you to customize it in your own way. I started meditating three times a day and I do guided meditations in the morning, at noon, and in the evening and that helps me break my meditation records. I realize that I get excited to meditate and i've had some AMAZINGLY deeply relaxing meditation experiences.

Honestly, i've used creative outlets like creative writing for self-discovery! I recommend putting yourself in an environment that fully releases your authentic self. My environments are my own private room where i can create to myself and dance like nobody's watching, the theater, and a bookstore or nature.

Here are my authentic values, how can I focus on practically applying these values in my daily life? Can someone give me examples of how they would apply these values? 1. Freedom (Unlimited personal power that gives me the freedom to create my life and myself, the freedom to create my art, authenticity, the freedom to choose, the freedom to think for myself, the freedom from suffering, the freedom to live, the freedom to act on my intuition, the freedom from obstacles and limits and so much more) 2. Being childlike 3. Achieving flow and peak experiences 4. Abundance 5. Adventure and openness to new experiences and new possibilities 6. Laughter and comedy 7. Embracing and celebrating your eccentricity 8. Intuition 9. Discovering true companions, my real family, and my soul mate

I'm also open to enhancing my meditation in a natural way! I want to use my meditation to deepen my mental state or have altered states or have this deep bliss or this spontaneous fit of laughter! I want to be more experimental meditation and i've been spending this week and the past few weeks doing guided meditation but I want to take my meditation to deeper levels and to achieve the peak experience and flow states and where I behave spontaneously and authentically. I've been drinking hot lemon tea and peppermint tea and oolong tea while meditating because it feels deeply relaxing!

WHAT A FASCINATING PURPOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Maybe a good idea would be to extensively study about Egypt through a variety of sources like books, movies, historical research, and documentaries and a variety of sources. There could be a path to your becoming an archeologist or maybe you can look into museum jobs or History teacher jobs or Historian opportunities!

Whenever i travel to a city like New York, I realize how it causes the bubble of the comfort zone and the ego to burst!! New York can feel chaotic and overwhelming to someone who is very sheltered and it will pressure you to adapt to changing conditions. For example, in the subway, the unexpected always happens like delays, track work, changing lanes, and other situations and you have to improvise a solution rather than get complacent and cling to your original plans. A weekend in New York is both an adventure and a test of character that tests you to see how well you can adapt to change and how street smart and clever you are. For example, Times Square can be alluring with it's lights and billboards but you need to be vigilant of scams and just keep moving forward. In just two days in New York, I had explored the city, saw a great musical, explored Central Park and Brooklyn, went to the Stonewall protest, and explored Times Square all in two days! Rather than be scared and overwhelmed by change, I learn how to roll with the punches and just be flexible with change. New York gives me a deep craving and a high for adventure!!! It's one of those experiences where you fear yet you long for more of! It hits you with huge nostalgia and it shows how you to make the best of your life in just two days. Travel, i discovered, can be one of the greatest paths to self-actualization because it teaches you how to be in and embrace and make the best of different situations. I realize that I have an adventurous spirit in me and how a simple weekend can be packed with adventure! I'm in my early 20s and this is the GREATEST opportunity for adventure. I think the theme of 2017 is Carpe Diem ESPECIALLY with my new move to Las Vegas this summer which is another great leap forward.

Dynamic Balance What I really want to focus on in my self-actualization is the comfort zone and how to use it as a tool or something that should be reframed into something new or eliminated entirely or radically restructured. The comfort zone can have it's benefits of security and stability but it can also be fragile and it can greatly hold you back. The comfort zone can be a useful tool to remind you when you're going too far. For example, i made the mistake of overloading on credits at school and paradoxically, it killed my productivity and it put me in a deep state of neurotic stress and I had to scale back and reduce my course load to 12 credits to save my sanity. If i stayed put in my 100-level credits and didn't challenge myself, than my ego would be completely incapable of handling the challenge of 300 level and 400 level classes. Fortunately, i pushed myself to take 300 and 400 level classes but I focused on maintaining my minimalist schedule and I made it work. I still used mobilized my resources to succeed in the classes but i still had struggles in 300 and 400 level classes and sometimes i did even better than expected. I realize that one of my greatest strengths is dynamic balance and still taking on challenges but working with my comfort zone to maintain balance. I decided to make the move this Summer to Las Vegas to start a whole new chapter of my life after my era of going to a Quaker college. In Vegas, it will be challenging but i will focus on simplifying the challenge. Recently, i've been opening to the possibility of daily meditation and now I'm on my fifth week of meditation. Rather than go to the extreme of Strong Determination Sitting for several hours, I focus on the strategy of smaller meditation sessions throughout the day. I meditate for 20 minutes or more in the morning and for around 5-10 minutes at noon, and 20 minutes at night and by the end of the day, I total my meditation time and learned that I meditated roughly for 40 minutes to an hour. I notice that I'm able to stick to this habit by simplifying my meditation sessions rather than doing one long session in one sitting or by sitting in lotus pose or on my knees under my knees go numb or taking meditation classes. I focus simply on sitting in a chair for 10 to 20 minutes and breathing deeply while listening to a guided meditation or binaural beats or ambient music/nature sounds. I notice how that's a valid path to deep relaxation! For my Creative Writing Portfolio, i've been very inconsistent with my results by having some very successful writing days on some days but forgetting to write on other days. The approach i took to resolve it was to focus on daily consistency by having a daily log and that's been working successfully for me. It helps me maintain productivity and also go beyond my quota! I sometimes have blocks but I still write and focus on reducing blocks rather than getting forgetful and complacent for long periods of time. I notice how I've been learning how to take strategic action without going to one extreme of being way too lost in theory or the other extreme of taking action blindly without any clue of what i'm doing. I'm focusing on being strategic with taking action and seeing procrastination and the comfort zone as both a tool and a pitfall without demonizing either of them. I'm learning how to create my results on my own terms and discovering the best ways how to create results. One approach I learned is being strategic in your action approach, flexible and willing to change, but also taking a balanced approach.

How Travel Pushes Your Comfort Zone Whenever i travel to a city like New York, I realize how it causes the bubble of the comfort zone and the ego to burst!! New York can feel chaotic and overwhelming to someone who is very sheltered and it will pressure you to adapt to changing conditions. For example, in the subway, the unexpected always happens like delays, track work, changing lanes, and other situations and you have to improvise a solution rather than get complacent and cling to your original plans. A weekend in New York is both an adventure and a test of character that tests you to see how well you can adapt to change and how street smart and clever you are. For example, Times Square can be alluring with it's lights and billboards but you need to be vigilant of scams and just keep moving forward. In just two days in New York, I had explored the city, saw a great musical, explored Central Park and Brooklyn, went to the Stonewall protest, and explored Times Square all in two days! Rather than be scared and overwhelmed by change, I learn how to roll with the punches and just be flexible with change. New York gives me a deep craving and a high for adventure!!! It's one of those experiences where you fear yet you long for more of! It hits you with huge nostalgia and it shows how you to make the best of your life in just two days. Travel, i discovered, can be one of the greatest paths to self-actualization because it teaches you how to be in and embrace and make the best of different situations. I realize that I have an adventurous spirit in me and how a simple weekend can be packed with adventure! I'm in my early 20s and this is the GREATEST opportunity for adventure. I think the theme of 2017 is Carpe Diem ESPECIALLY with my new move to Las Vegas this summer which is another great leap forward.

@Joshuar These are great values!!! I especially love your first value, your travel value, and your fun value!!!! These are similar values i'm striving for.

@brovakhiin Thank you for expressing this point! Sorry if my point came across as arrogant! I'm just observing how unfamiliar the concept of self-actualization is and the confusions of happiness and fulfillment. This can especially apply to colleges and the corporate world where people can feel deeply trapped and unfulfilled in the rat race that self-actualization feels like a distant dream in mainstream society. I realize that ever since i was a child, i was on track with a purpose, i fell off track, and i re-discovered it. As Leo stated in his video "How To Exploit People" he expresses how people tend to be unaware and that people striving for self-actualization or ambition can feel detached from their peers. With the current political climate especially with the rise of Donald Trump and the alt right, it shows how low consciousness people can be and how there's a greater need for self-actualization more than ever. Our political culture reveals how toxic society can be and how tribal it still is. I notice how i've been driven by authenticity and seeking out my authentic friends and my purpose and i had experiences where i connected deeply with people and art because it speaks to me deeply and profoundly. I realize that one of the great tragedies of humanity is being blessed with infinite potential and yet it goes to waste. To quote William Wallace, "every man dies but not every man really lives"

Discovering Actualized.org was HONESTLY a profound realization for me!!!!! It helped me clear away my mental fog and it honestly gives me a HUGE advantage over most people because of my daily meditation for 40 minutes and my daily creativity. I realize that this creativity is a HUGE advantage over Donald Trump who embodies the worst of Americana!! In many ways, Donald Trump and his supporters are worthy opponents because they embody everything that angers me about humanity.

To me, I've always had a deep disdain towards "normal" because of being on the Autism Spectrum. To me, "normal" is a word that that means "be accepted" but it really means to kill creativity and stomp out individuality and freedom. It's denying humanity's uniqueness!

To me, everyday people are probably deeply unfulfilled and are concerned about petty things that don't really matter! They tend to stick to their comfort zones and they reluctant at best and unaware at worst to self-actualization. They could be "happy" with their lives but they don't realize that an amazing life is available for them. But I could be making a generalization because there's so many types of people out there and so many cultures!

Motivation videos are just one tool out of many and they can be profound! It's the same with motivational quotes or nuggets of advice or wisdom! Motivation videos can work great as a source of inspiration! I'm focusing on applying what i've learned from those videos.