Raphael

23 June 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:57 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:08 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 09:43 AM - 11:11 AM: I had a call with a client. I sense the stage orange bullshit with him, he wants a lot of work for low amount of money and doesn't want to use the freelancing platform because he finds the fees too high. Work Duration: 1 hour 28 minutes. 11:49 AM - 12:10 AM: I did a few research and made a phone call. Work Duration: 21 minutes 01:59 PM - 04:07 PM: I did a few research. Work Duration: 8 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:30 AM - 09:43 AM: Did some code re-factoring. Deep Work Duration: 13 minutes 02:20 PM - 02:57 PM: Worked on the cart. My mind blew up just after that and I was unable to work for sometimes. Deep Work Duration: 37 minutes 3:45 PM - 05:10 PM: I still worked on the cart. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 25 minutes 07:52 PM - 09:35 PM: I worked on the checkout. I felt better and more concentrated than during the day. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 43 minutes Total Work Duration: 5 hours 55 minutes, including 3 hours 57 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Biases It seems like I'm having a biases awakening, I'm becoming aware of many biases that I have about people and about myself. For the moment the most important thing is too keep a low profile and observe them rather than making assertions.

I entered "Fuck Society" on Youtube and found out this video

Overblown There are so many things going on in my head right now. I have storms of unrelated thoughts that changes in less than 10 seconds, too many things happened too quickly in the last few days. This is craziness, I feel like my mind is exploding.

I agree with this, that's very uncompassionate. I don't understand parents who do this too, if I had a kid I'll prefer to help him get started in life rather than kicking him out. Many kids don't have any purpose at this age. The problem that I see is that people who stay at home living with their parents after 18 - 20 grow less because they feel less responsibility. When someone gets out soon, he/she starts to take responsibility sooner for its life and start to have a sense of independence/individuality. Therefore the person will integrate stage orange faster and the lessons needed for survival, where the other ones will stay closer to stage blue or green and not understand properly the survival process. I consider that people need to experience this sense of responsibility and individuality for at least 2-3 years to grow up the spiral then if they want too they can go back living with their family or living with other people. At 18 I quitted my family house and my country, I went to live alone in a totally different country, and in an unknown city with zero contacts. My parents didn't kick me out because I made this choice and I don't regret it. I didn't know many things including how to cook, but I learned it on the path. I grew up a lot and didn't saw my family in 2-3 years, then got back home and I'm currently living with them.

Stage Orange Bullshit I'm sensing the stage orange bullshit with my current main client. He wants a lot of high-quality work for a low amount of money. He doesn't want to use the freelancing platform too because he finds the fees too expensive where I personally consider that it's fine to pay these fees because the platform provides some security, help, and moderation. It's also illegal to make payments outside the platform and it could get me banned. I don't know how is this relationship going to go, but I currently don't trust this guy, he already lied in the past. That's a huge red flag.

22 June 2020 Wake Up Time: 08:10 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 11:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 12:38 AM - 01:01 PM: I had a call with a client. Work Duration: 23 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:43 AM - 10:25 AM: I added more functionalities to the checkout page. I had many other unrelated thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 42 minutes 10:45 AM - 11:51 AM: I continued the work on the checkout page. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 6 minutes 02:33 PM - 03:23 PM: I continued the work on the checkout page. Deep Work Duration: 50 minutes 03:35 PM - 04:46 PM: I continued the work on the checkout page. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes 09:54 PM - 10:54 PM: I continued the work on the checkout page. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour I'm probably experiencing a backslash right now after the few good productive days of last week. I experienced a lot of stress and tension lately and responded to my authoritarian dad today. My concentration is broken, my working hours are broken, and my waking up and going to bed hours are broken too. I worked every day since last week because my client wants its project fast, but this is counter-productive. Total Work Duration: 5 hours 12 minutes, including 4 hours 49 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

21 June 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:50 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Deep Work Sessions: 11:59 PM - 13:11 PM: I continued the work on the cart. I was distracted because I was listening to the new Leo's video at the same time. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes. 02:10 PM - 03:58 PM: I continued the work on the cart. I was distracted because I was listening to the new Leo's video at the same time. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 48 minutes. 04:24 PM - 04:45 PM: I continued the work on the cart. I was distracted because I was listening to the new Leo's video at the same time. Deep Work Duration: 21 minutes. 08:24 PM - 10:15 PM: I continued the work on the cart, it's almost done, a few hours will be needed to complete this area. I was distracted because I was listening to one of Leo's videos at the same time and consulted this forum multiple times. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 51 minutes Total Work Duration: 5 hours 12 minutes, including 5 hours 53 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Understanding Democracy & Authoritarianism This is genius. All of Leo's videos are very high-quality videos, but this one is in my Top 10 of his best videos. That's a step above everything that he did before, better than the Spiral Dynamics series and better than the World Value System explanation. He went full circle and was able to hold many different and opposite paradoxes at the same time yet pushing towards a direction that doesn't matter in the end. I'm highly impressed, that's a step even above than usual. That's the INTP mind pushed to its limits.

20 June 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:00 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:42 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 09:30 AM - 10:14 AM: I searched on a way to export/import my code editor configuration to other computers and found it. Work Duration: 44 minutes 10:38 AM - 12:08 AM: I describe a task in detail and planned it. Work Duration: 1 hour 30 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 01:50 PM - 03:06 PM: I almost finished the cart page, but I'm having a bug that is troubling me. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 16 minutes 03:17 PM - 03: 46 PM: I fixed the bug. Deep Work Duration: 29 minutes 03:56 PM - 04:41 PM: I started to create the checkout page. Deep Work Duration: 45 minutes 08:40 PM - 10:28 PM: I improved the checkout page design. I was a little distracted because I was exhausted by the lack of sleep these last days. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 48 minutes Total Work Duration: 5 hours 16 minutes, including 3 hours 2 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

On Being Right / Wrong And Openmindedness We can be openminded and right, we can be openminded and wrong We can be closedminded and right, we can be closedminded and wrong When we are openminded, we explore more perspectives (good ones and bad ones according to the context that we are in) so we tend to be more wrong than a person who is closeminded and right. However, by being openminded we are also more right than a person who is closedminded and right or a person who is closeminded and wrong because we go through a lot of different possibilities to find the truth, so the probability of being right when being openminded is much more important than being right and closeminded.

19 June 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:15 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:58 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 09:23 AM - 10:07 AM: I corrected a bug, review two pull requests and merged them, and installed the new API version on the server. Work Duration: 44 minutes 10:28 AM - 10:56 AM: I had a call with a client. Work Duration: 28 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 11:05 AM - 12:23 AM: Went back working on my client's project, I improved the cart page. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 18 minutes 02:49 PM - 04:40 PM: I continued the previous work, but was quite distracted because I was talking with my sister at the same time. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes 08:15 PM - 08:58 PM: I started to make the interaction with the cart more interactive. I'm currently not highly concentrated because I'm thinking a lot about a subject that is bugging me. Deep Work Duration: 43 minutes 09:03 PM - 10:43 PM: More updates to the cart. I was still very distracted by thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 40 minutes Total Work Duration: 6 hours 4 minutes, including 4 hours 52 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

18 June 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:35 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 11:37 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 09:45 AM - 10:32 AM: I had a call with a client. Work Duration: 47 minutes 03:22 PM - 03:39 PM: I had another call. Work Duration: 17 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 12: 10 AM - 13:12 PM: I added a notification component and started to style it. I was a little distracted. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 2 minutes 03:45 PM - 04:56 PM: I started to work on the cart, I was a little distracted. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes 08:11 PM - 09:35 PM: I continued the work on the cart page. I got very lazy during the day, it is fucking up my night and my organization. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 24 minutes 10:10 PM - 11:19 PM: I almost finished the cart, but encountered a few issues. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 9 minutes IMPORTANT LESSON: Just do it. Do the work on time during the day so that you can go to bed early, rest properly, and continue the productive circle. Total Work Duration: 5 hours 50 minutes, including 4 hours 46 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

This video is interesting. He is definitely having an awakening and he needs help.

17 June 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:42 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:32 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 02:48 PM - 03:46 PM: I had a call with a client. Work Duration: 58 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 11:30 AM - 12:20 AM: This bug made me crazy, but I finally fixed it. I was trying to access a variable that didn't exist but I couldn't understand which one. Deep Work Duration: 50 minutes Total Work Duration: 1 hour 48 minutes, including 50 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

How The Mind Distorts Reality This is gold, that's one of the best explanation that I read in my life on how the mind extrapolates stuff and give too much importance. Credits: @Serotoninluv Full Post: https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/50294-those-rioters-made-an-excellent-case-pro-guns/#comment-646833

@Recursoinominado I agree

That's a great answer, but not the one that I expected I understand your point of view and honestly, if I were in a very unstable place of the world I would probably love to have a gun to protect myself. However, the issue is that this is the US, the dominant and richest country on the planet. How is it that the "shit" can go that down in this country? People are supposed to live well and have enough financial resources to sustain themselves, but it looks like a lot of them are still very close to survival and so fearful that they need guns to protect themselves. I'm not from the US so my opinion is limited, but for me, it looks like they are some systemic issues in this country. In a well-elaborated system and in this particular situation even if the "shit goes down", it can only go down to a certain limit. That way people still have some margin for a certain time and don't need to be afraid about violence because poor peoples cannot sustain themselves. This is how it went for other first-world countries and even less than first-world countries.

I saw a few of his videos before. He seems now to be close to where I was a few years ago where I had a spiritual ego too even though I never did pick up. He is trying to find his way to enlightenment but doesn't know how and doesn't understand what he is actually doing. It seems like he is starting to get exhausted by stage orange and start to move into green, but still addicted to the success of orange so he has a spiritual ego, that's normal.

16 June 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:49 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:05 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 08:40 AM - 09:48 AM: I added some fake data. I distracted myself a little on the actualized.org forum. Work Duration: 1 hour 8 minutes 10:11 AM - 11:29 AM: I added more fake data and did some configuration. Work Duration: 1 hour 18 minutes 11:39 AM - 12:28 AM: I planned a new task and inspected the project. I found some bugs. Work Duration: 49 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 01:34 PM - 02:36 PM: I fixed a few bugs on the front end. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 2 minutes 02:43 PM - 04:11 PM: I started to do some fixes on the backend. It's a little complicated. I also got negative thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 28 minutes 04:21 PM - 05:06 PM: I continued the work on the API and got unexpected issues. Deep Work Duration: 45 minutes Total Work Duration: 6 hours 30 minutes, including 3 hours 15 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Now the question is: Why does the shit go down?

I think I understand what you mean because I'm currently experiencing this. It seems like to me that you are experiencing a temporary blockage/phase. You will go through it and go over it naturally. Much love ♥

15 June 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:36 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:00 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) Work Sessions: 04:10 PM - 04:20 PM: I reviewed a pull request and merged it, and installed the new API version on the server. Work Duration: 10 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 08:40 AM - 09:29 AM: I fixed the date range bugs. Deep Work Duration: 49 minutes 09:50 AM - 11:52 AM: I fixed an API bug, it was quite simple but I took a lot of time to resolve it. I also got distracted by a client during this session. Finally, I noticed that when I'm confronted with difficulties, I try to run away from the problem or get negative thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 2 hours 2 minutes 12:01 AM - 12:49 AM: I wanted to delete some data in a child component when deleting an item, but I realized that it's going to be very difficult without Redux. I'm currently a little stuck on the issue. Deep Work Duration: 48 minutes 01:48 PM - 04:01 PM: I found a solution to the previous problem and also fixed many other bugs. Deep Work Duration: 2 hours 13 minutes This day was incredible, everything went well. I woke up early, exercised for 30 minutes, did an hour of meditation, and was in a flow state almost all the time. It was smooth and effortless, it was perfection. The only thing that I need to be careful of is to not work for more than 1 hour 30 minutes in a session. After this time, my concentration usually decreases and the quality of my work too. Usually, I have such long sessions because I encounter an issue in the middle that I want to solve to move forward, but this is too much concentrated effort for too much time. I need to take breaks after 1 hour 30 minutes sessions. Total Work Duration: 6 hours 3 minutes, including 5 hours 53 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

A Philosophical Argument for Depth (from Deep Work: Rules For Focused Success In A Distracted World - Cal Newport) Any pursuit — be it physical or cognitive — that supports high levels of skills can generate a sense of sacredness Deep work, therefore, is key to extracting meaning from your profession