Raphael

So they are many different ways of being attracted and using this forum: Being traumatized and relieving some traumas again and again Being in a difficult situation and learning and growing with others Escaping real-life problems Finding like-minded people Learning about life Having fun etc. But the question that interest me is: Where's the majority of people? There's always more unhealthy people than healthy people, there always more people who need care than caregivers. But does this dynamic applies to this forum? It seems to be the case:

It's also possible to be at a difficult place at the beginning and learn and grow (if we are careful of avoiding the BS)

I think I might be projecting my bias here. I got on this forum because I wanted to sort out my life, but some people can be attracted because they are interested in Politics, in Nutrition, or in Systems Thinking for example. They just want to learn and this is healthy. However, I still consider that spending an entire year without at least a 3 month break unhealthy.

Another reason is simply to find like-minded people to talk about Green+ things as this is difficult IRL.

One of the reason why we may be attracted to this forum is because it brings us face to face to our deepest fears. It's possible to stay stuck here and to relieve our traumas again and again and again without being conscious of it. It ain't a good sign to be there for too long.

@soos_mite_ah Perfectly understandable And you are aware of it and you are bringing self-acceptance which is a very strong move considering that. It might be a bit difficult but you are making progress and this is remarkable.

I hope you'll achieve it.

He is very good at articulating ideas.

Loooool! What's wrong with being bitchy, angry, sad, or upset, or ugly, or stupid?

From my experience so far having a break from this forum can be very relieving. Staying there for too much time without taking a break can have a huge toll on someone's mental health. I don't know exactly how's your situation and I understand that if you can't express yourself IRL this place can be like a new family but having some time off feels great. Try to have at least a 2 month break if it's possible for you.

I'm pretty skinny. I think that this is mostly because of my genetics even though I consider that my mom didn't nourished me properly during a period of my life. I also rarely felt hunger in my entire life, this is an almost unknown sensation for me. I eat a good quantity of food, but I just don't take any weight.

Notion is amazing. It allows you to take really clean notes and on top of that organize your entire life with advanced features such as: Calendars, Kanban Boards, Databases, etc. I also thought about using Obsidian to better interconnect my thoughts, but I don't think I'll use it for the moment.

Let's say that I have to make a decision that is out of integrity. This decision is out of integrity in the moment but then in the long term will allow me to be much more in touch with myself and my values. How do I make this decision?

I want to analyze a bit these journals and only keep the essential ones.

I'm going to use this journal to record quick and simple thoughts that I have throughout my days.

I'm currently a bit sliced in half about journaling here vs. stopping journaling.

It feels much more personal and authentic to journal privately, however, people can help us when we journal publicly.

I don't need that many journals on this forum, I'm thinking about stopping that. This is tricky because people can help me, but at the same time, my ego wants to show itself.

I hope that I don't scare the shit out of you with this journal lol Just to reassure everyone here: I'm overall fine, I experience emotions and I throw them out, that's all.

I'll use this journal to throw out emotions.

@Loving Radiance Thanks.

The past 4 years have been tough for me, really tough. I'm finally seeing some hope after so much pain.

Clearing work-related traumas is going to be one of the most powerful thing for me.

Also... I'M FUCKING SICK OF NOISES AROUND ME ALL DAY LONG. I'M SICK OF IT, LITERALLY SICK, SICK, SICK, SICK. THEY ARE ANIMALS AROUND ME, THEY ARE PEOPLE WHO BEHAVE LIKE ANIMALS, THERE IS TRAFFIC ON THE ROAD, THERE ARE CONSTRUCTIONS ALL DAY LONG. PLEASE SHUT THE FUCK UP ONCE AND FOR ALL, I just want some calm and some peacefulness. I'm sick of noises, I'm sick of being interrupted by noises. I want a calm life where I can concentrate on what I'm doing. Offfffffff... I'm sorry, that may look aggressive but I'm not that angry as I'm writing that, just annoyed that I have to deal with this agitation every day. Anyway, things are getting better, I'm searching for a calm place to rent and even if I haven't found it yet I know that I'll find it.

I currently feel overwhelmed. A lot of things are starting to happen in my life and I have difficulties handling them. I'm getting new opportunities, people are contacting me. I see the big picture, I know what to integrate, what to fix, what to do, and I'm starting to do all that. I know where I'm going. Some results are even starting to materialize. But I feel so overblown. Oh god, this is so difficult to handle. That's a lot of change simultaneously.