Raphael

16 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:39 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today Average Focus: ~ Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

So Many People are Fucked Up Every day I go out for a walk with my dogs, from time to time I meet a full of hate narcissistic person who as soon as he/she sees the dogs (even if they are leashed) they either take a stick or rocks in their hands. Here are some encounters that I had: One day, I was walking, the dogs were walking a little before me. They were unleashed, they were just walking peaceful, not even running, they didn't bark, they didn't attack anybody. A guy saw them and started to throw rocks at them. The guy saw me a few seconds after, I asked him: "What's the issue, they are not doing anything?" He responded: "You don't know what can happen." Another day, I was holding my two dogs by their leash. A guy saw me and started to grab some rocks in his hand and told me: "Careful with your dogs". I responded: "What's the issue, they are leashed?" Another day, I was walking and my dogs were unleashed. A guy appeared with a leashed dog and two kids. One of my dogs barked and he beat him with a stick. I wanted to talk to him to tell him that next time it would be better to keep our distance so that it doesn't happen. I couldn't even say anything because he beat the other dog (that was just walking peacefully) in front of me. He then screamed at me: "NEXT TIME I'LL FUCK YOUR DOG AND I'LL FUCK YOU TOO!!!" Today, I was walking again. I was holding one dog with a leash, the other one was unleashed (this one is calm, he can only bark a little sometimes), I also had two puppies (there are so small, they cannot harm anyone). A guy appeared, as soon as I saw the expression on his face, I knew he would cause some issues. So he took a meter-long stick and we started to look at each other in the eyes. I wanted to tell him that if he takes a stick and lives with rage animals will sense it. He didn't let me talk and screamed at me. Of course, I can understand that people can sometimes be afraid to see unleashed dogs and I can see how I can be at fault. Nevertheless, how they react is a huge indication of their consciousness. Some people scream, some people take sticks, some people throw rocks and some people just walk calmly. When unknown dogs walk close to me, I simply continue to walk normally without taking care of them and it goes fine 99% of the time. I find other reactions super annoying. This examples of me walking with my dogs are not the only one that I have about "fucked up" people: One day, I was just walking and a guy asked me if I like sex Another day, a guy started to ask me questions: What's your name? How old are you? Are you married? Where do you live? Can I come with you? On Facebook one time, I received a message: A guy told me that he was looking at me in the city and said that he wanted to suck my dick and wanted to have sex with me. He also sent gay porn images In my first job, my boss, an European guy who moved to Africa to build his business (probably because of the less strict rules and the low-cost labor) would explode from time to time in rage saying that he hated some people and wanted to kill them. He also shared his racism many times. I can easily notice these people now, I can notice them 10 - 20 meters away from me. Usually, their body language looks tight, they often look down to the ground, and most importantly their facial expression clearly expresses hate, anger, disgust, or arrogance. I wanted to help these people sometimes, just share a few insights to help them understand where their at, but it was impossible. As soon as I would open my mouth, they would shut me up. They are so unconscious, they cannot help themselves, everything that they say backfires on themselves and continue the circle of unconsciousness. There are total lost cases. I hope in the future when the world will evolve to green/yellow, that they will be free mandatory therapies and follow-ups for these people to make them evolve to higher levels of consciousness so that the world works better.

Quazi Johir This guy is great. I watched a few of his videos and the way he articulates his content is one of the best that I saw until now. His explanations and super clear and simple, it's a pleasure to listen to him. His channel is a perfect complement to Leo's content for basic stage orange self-help.

15 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:43 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 02:37 PM - 02:52 PM I had a call with my client. I took a lot of attention to what he was saying so that I don't get fucked again Focus: 4/5 Duration: 15 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:04 AM - 09:45 AM I fixed some bugs with the variations. I had a lot of unrelated thoughts and was a little agitated Focus: 3/5 Duration: 41 minutes 10:11 AM - 11:46 AM I think I fixed all the bugs related to the variations, it should be fine now. I still had a lot of unrelated thoughts. Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 35 minutes 11:55 AM - 12:42 AM I started to work on the wish list, I was still distracted by thoughts but a little less. Focus: 3.25/5 Duration: 47 minutes 02:06 PM - 02:37 PM I continued the work on the wishlist, I was distracted as I was listening to a podcast at the same time Focus: 3/5 Duration: 31 minutes 03:11 PM - 04:22 PM I continued the work on the wishlist. I was very tired as I lack some sleep and distracted myself at a moment Focus: 2.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes 07:27 PM - 09:06 PM I completed the wish list, it is working well now. I was more focused than during the day, probably because there are fewer noises during the night. Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 1 hour 33 minutes @Raphael It's better. You still need to recalibrate yourself, continue your efforts. Average Focus: 3.21 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 33 minutes, including 6 hours 18 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

@electroBeam Lol. My family was there, they saw it too.

I live in a quite isolated part of the world. When I was a kid, I was watching a documentary about extraterrestrial life. After the end of the documentary I went outside and checked the sky and they were multiple dozen light orbs forming a circle and moving slowly. If I remember correctly, it disappeared after some time, but it was like the laws of physic didn't exist for these things.

14 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:13 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:50 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:52 AM - 11:39 AM I did some fixes on my website and had a call with my client. Focus: 3/5 Duration: 47 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:24 AM - 10:32 AM I worked a the service page design for my website. I got distracted by some messages and got some unrelated thoughts. Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 8 minutes 12:02 AM - 12:56 AM I worked on the contact form for my website. I had a lot of unrelated thoughts. Focus: 3/5 Duration: 54 minutes 01:59 PM - 03:34 PM I fixed bugs related to the variations. I distracted myself at a moment and also had a lot of unrelated thoughts. Focus: 2.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 35 minutes 03:55 PM - 04:30 PM I continued the work on the variations. I was very distracted Focus: 1/5 Duration: 35 minutes 07:27 PM - 09:10 PM I continued the work on the variations. Difficult thoughts of the past came up again, I also distracted myself near the end. Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 37 minutes @Raphael Ok, today was difficult. You almost didn't sleep of the entire night and your work was very sloppy. That happens, let's accept it. You will do better tomorrow. Average Focus: 2.5 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 40 minutes, including 5 hours 53 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Relax & Let Go This video is super powerful.

New Metric: Focus I'm going to add a new metric to my reports that will represent the intensity of my focus, it will simply be named Focus. I can work for longer hours now, but my focus isn't that great so I need to take it into account to improve my productivity. I often have unrelated thoughts when working and sometimes I tend to distract myself with other stuff on the internet. To improve my concentration I'm going to do the following each time that I caught myself being distracted: Inhale Exhale Let go of the distraction Relax the body Repeat steps 1, 2, 3, 4 multiple times Refocus on the work. For that, I will change my thought process, instead of keeping my focus on unrelated thoughts, I will think about what I'm doing and what needs to be done in the current situation so that the work can move forward I will rate my focus from 1 - 5: Near to zero focus A little of work, but a lot of distracting thoughts and attempts to distract myself Average focus, but still too much distracting thoughts and maybe some attempts to distract myself Good focus with a few distracting thoughts, but no attempts to distract myself Intense, deep, flow state

@Forestluv I know that it's unrelated to the subject, but I just want to say that I admire your maturity and awareness in your posts. You're an amazing moderator and an inspiration.

Total Working Time of The Week (07 September 2020 - 13 September2020) 35 hours 19 minutes

13 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:07 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:40 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 09:22 AM - 10:24 AM: I worked on separate routes for the order's items modal. I had a lot of disruptive thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 2 minutes 11:22 AM - 11:35 AM: I wanted to continue my previous work, but this is too much. I have been coding like a mule this week, I need some rest, my brain cannot process so much complexity. Deep Work Duration: 13 minutes @Raphael Please go to sleep at a proper time. Total Work Duration: 1 hours 15 minutes, including 1 hours 15 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Healing Traumas I need to start working on my traumas. They continue to come back again and again, are breaking my focus when I work and making me prone to other abuses. These traumas include: Having a narcissistic stage red dad who highly humiliated me and criticized me most of my life Being bullied at school and being perceived as the loser of the school. This was happening because I was a very skinny, very shy, and very calm nerd kid Being highly rejected by most of society Being oppressed, highly criticized, and rejected by stage blue people Racism that I got Being exploited and abused by some people

12 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:01 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 02:14 PM - 02:19 PM: I had a quick call. Work Duration: 5 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:13 AM - 10:02 AM: I corrected a few bugs a started to do some improvements on the variations. I had unrelated thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 49 minutes 10:31 AM - 11:49 AM: I did more improvements to the variations. I distracted myself a little. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 18 minutes 12:07 AM - 01:00 PM: More bug fixes and improvements. Deep Work Duration: 53 minutes 01:50 PM - 02:14 PM: I worked on some new routes, then got interrupted by my client. Deep Work Duration: 24 minutes 02:21 PM - 03:26 PM: I finished most of the necessary routes and also started to handle a query parameter. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 5 minutes 03:33 PM - 04:55 PM: I worked on my website. I did the service page, created a template and made responsive design tweaks. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 22 minutes 07:43 PM - 08:29 PM: I worked on some responsive design issues and started to design a new page on my website. Deep Work Duration: 46 minutes @Raphael Good job, but please have some proper rest tomorrow. Total Work Duration: 6 hours 42 minutes, including 6 hours 37 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

11 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:20AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:55 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:19 AM - 10:23 AM: I had a quick call. Work Duration: 4 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 11:52 AM - 01:16 PM: I completed the variations design for mobile and desktop. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 24 minutes 02:14 PM - 03:08 PM: I started working back on my website. I'm now satisfied with the carousel. Deep Work Duration: 54 minutes 03:14 PM - 04:43 PM: I continued the work on my website. I think the home page looks fine. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 29 minutes 08:11 PM - 08:43 PM: I worked on the responsiveness of my website. I did changes to the home page and the footer. Deep Work Duration: 32 minutes @Raphael That's fine to have down days, as you worked a lot yesterday, it's ok. You're doing great overall Total Work Duration: 4 hours 23 minutes, including 4 hours 19 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

10 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:00AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:00 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:31 AM - 08:52 AM: I contacted the freelancing platform support because I still cannot withdraw my money. Work Duration: 21 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:17 AM - 10:44 AM: I started to work on the variations. It's a little complicated, I had a lot of unrelated annoying thoughts. 1 hour 27 minutes 10:57 AM - 12:22 AM: I continued the work on the variations. I got other difficulties. I also distracted myself at some moments. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 25 minutes 01:30 PM - 02:30 PM: I continued the work on the variations, it's still not working properly. I was also distracted because I was listening at a podcast at the same time. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 02:35 PM - 04:00 PM: I'm still stuck. My mind is currently too agitated, I have difficulties to work properly. There's also a lot of noises outside. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 25 minutes 04:12 PM - 05:04 PM: Still stuck. Deep Work Duration: 58 minutes 05:17 PM - 06:45 PM: This issue is craziness. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 28 minutes 07:47 PM - 08:42 PM: The variations are completed, but a small improvement is still possible. Deep Work Duration: 55 minutes @Raphael Deep concentrated efforts are always better than long working hours. Total Work Duration: 8 hours 59 minutes, including 8 hours 38 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Many say they want respect, but many have shadows that make themselves non-respectful.

One day I made eye contact with a woman in the street, she came straight to me and proposed a blowjob. I later knew that they were prostitution going on in this area, so I guess that she was a prostitute.

There's so much racism in the world, I'm sick of it.

I don't read it that much, but the vibe that I get is a high conscious one: https://highexistence.com/

09 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:53 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:05 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:45 AM - 09:59 AM: I had a conversation with my client. Work Duration: 14 minutes @Raphael Good job, that was a proper day of rest Total Work Duration: 14 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

08 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:04 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:36 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:40 AM - 09:16 AM: I did a few bug fixes and had a call with my client. Work Duration: 36 minutes 04:19 PM - 04:56 PM: I had a call with my client. Work Duration: 37 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:23 AM - 10:45 AM: I worked on the slider for my website. It looks way better now, but I still have to make some adjustments. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 22 minutes 11:07 AM - 12:50 AM: I continued the work on my website's slider. It looks pretty good now. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 43 minutes 02:00 AM - 03:32 AM: I searched for some email templates, but didn't find any satisfying ones. I also try to made improvements to the breadcrumb component, had a lot of difficulties, but started to move forward near the end. I had a lot of unrelated thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 32 minutes 03:40 PM- 04:19 PM: I continued to work on the breadcrumb. I had issues related to the API. Deep Work Duration: 39 minutes 08:17 PM - 09:40 PM: I continued the work on the breadcrumb and updated all the necessary items. I distracted myself a little near the end. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 23 minutes @Raphael Superb work! Stay careful to not overwork. Continue Total Work Duration: 7 hours 52 minutes, including 6 hours 39 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Difficult Thoughts and OCD Some difficult memories of the past and thoughts about things that I would have loved to say to have revenge after some people who deeply hurt me are coming back again and again like an obsessive-compulsive disorder.

07 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:39 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:22 AM - 09:46 AM: I started my day by a call with my client. Work Duration: 24 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:01 AM - 10:46 AM: I did a few updates for the social logins. Deep Work Duration: 45 minutes 11:03 AM - 12:35 AM: I tried to fix a display bug, but this is still fucked up. I had a lot of parasite thoughts about racism in the world. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 32 minutes 01:31 PM - 02:52 PM: I worked on the wish list icon integration. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 21 minutes 02:58 PM - 04:28 PM: I did some changes to the register and checkout forms. I had a lot of parasite thoughts. Deep Work Duration: 1 hour 30 minutes 07:41 PM - 08:15 PM: It worked on a carousel for my website, it looks fucked up. Deep Work Duration: 34 minutes @Raphael Good job Have a good night of rest! Total Work Duration: 6 hours 4 minutes, including 5 hours 20 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)