Raphael

I can see that I'm not the thoughts, but I still have thoughts. They are like clouds hidding who I am. They are this.

This answer is not an answer but a thought in reaction to the previous thought. Trying to understand the nature of thoughts by using thoughts is useless because it will create an endless loop of thoughts referencing themselves. If consciousness perceives itself as being a man, this man cannot look at himself in the eyes because he is himself. To look at itself in the eyes, consciousness needs to change perspective and perceive itself as another being. Thoughts are one way out of many to perceive reality, but they cannot perceive themselves from themselves because perception only exists when at least two perspectives are confronted. This mean that for thoughts to be understood, they need to be perceived from another perspective than the perspective of thoughts. I intuit that intuition is a better perspective to understand thoughts.

Why do I have so many thoughts?

09 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:02 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:06 AM - 10:03 AM I did a few tests to make the app SEO compatible. I also had a call and created a draft invoice Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 57 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:20 AM - 11:50 AM I completed the jQuery removal. I was a little too much distracted Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 30 minutes 12:00 AM - 01:00 AM The website is now crawlable by search engines! Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 02:23 PM - 03:35 PM I continued improving the SEO, but I distracted myself a little too much Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes 03:41 PM - 05:03 PM I added schematics for the product page Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 22 minutes @Raphael Good, that's much better than yesterday You still need to increase your focus, so keep focusing! Average Focus: 3.1 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 1 minute, including 5 hours 4 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

08 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:51 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 10:05 AM - 11:09 AM I did some progress with the jQuery removal from Angular Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 4 minutes 02:31 PM - 04:00 PM I continued the jQuery removal Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 29 minutes 04:09 PM - 04:49 PM I continued the jQuery removal Focus: 3/5 Duration: 40 minutes I didn't sleep well, had trouble getting out of bed, and felt lazy and unmotivated. It looks like I'm sabotaging myself. @Raphael Difficult emotion arises, people go through them and overcome them. You will overcome these challenges and succeed. Take care ♥️ Average Focus: 3.17 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 3 hours 13 minutes, including 3 hours 13 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

A little of encouragement for all INTPs

@Preety_India Sure.

@Preety_India The list of things to do and integrate is very huge, but that's what came to my mind in the moment. Happy to help.

07 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:53 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:25 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:37 AM - 09:59 AM I had a call with my client Focus: 4/5 Duration: 22 minutes 12:04 AM - 12:12 AM I had a call with my client Focus: 4/5 Duration: 6 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:04 AM - 09:37 AM I did some improvements for the SEO with Angular, then got interrupted Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 34 minutes 10:18 AM - 11:41 AM I continued the modifications to make the app SEO compatible Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 1 hour 23 minutes 11:48 AM - 12:04 AM I continued the modifications to make the app SEO compatible, then got interrupted Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 16 minutes 12:14 AM - 12:53 AM I started to manage the carousel with the angular Boostrap library instead of jQuery Focus: 3.5 Duration: 39 minutes @Raphael Congratulations! That's much better than yesterday! When you want it, you can do it! Continue the great work! Average Focus: 3.75 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 3 hours 20 minutes, including 2 hours 52 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Purple Eating healthy Minimalism Basic relationships Red Being assertive Being decisive Quick action taking Setting proper bounderies with people Handling bullies Imposing authory on a group of people who don't want to work and to do things together. That way they will unite and start to work and cooperate thanks to the use of force Blue Structure Organization Discipline Having a proper routine Politeness Good manner Family responsibilisies Country's responsibilities Solidifying group thinking so that people want to work together instead of caring about their selfish needs Orange Personal responsibility Financial success Independant thinking Not caring about non-constructive opinions of others (ignoring trolls, bushitters, or cutting them) Thinking strategically about life and how it will go for at least the next 5 years Creating tangible results Being optimistic and thinking positively Creating a minimum functional material environment Taking care of personal physical appearance Having fun and being humourous Green Responsibilities for the suffering of all human being and animals Respect for everyone no matter its cultural background, religion, ethnicity, sexual preferences, etc. Humane and genuine relationships Caring about the environment Collective responsibility Helping the poors Meditation, Yoga, breathing techniques, psychedelics, etc. Yellow Understanding how systems works Integrating paradoxes Getting the maximum knowledge about the world Studying very diverse sources Learning about developmental psychology No biased judgment, no strong emotional reactions to others positions in life and others judgment Understanding differences, extreme, and disgusting positions Interdependance Interpendant thinking Integrating the femine (for a man) Integrating the masculine (for a woman) Helping humanity by creating systems to make people evolve higher on the spiral I have nothing for Turquoise because I'm very far away from it.

For how long will you continue to make videos and run this forum?

Conscious doing nothing is more difficult than unconscious efforts.

06 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:54 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:45 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:15 AM - 10:04 AM I created a small function, did some analysis, and searched for keywords. I wasn't focused because I was listening to Leo at the same time Focus: 3/5 Duration: 41 minutes 10:28 AM - 10:47 AM I did some analysis and had a talk with my client about SEO. Things are going to be more complicated than I expected Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 19 minutes 12:34 AM - 01:10 AM I had a call Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 36 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 02:08 PM - 03:13 PM I made some progress in understanding how SEO is managed with Angular. I distracted myself too much Focus: 2.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 5 minutes I really got lazy today. I didn't want to work and distracted myself a lot. @Raphael Ok. Today's wasn't that great, but that's fine, it happens sometimes. You will do better tomorrow Courage! Average Focus: 3.125 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 2 hours 41 minutes, including 1 hour 5 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

The 2 Selves I'm currently able to observe my two selves: The lower self: the one that is anxious, scared, unhealthy The higher self: the one that is optimistic, want to make progress, happy I see them when observing my thoughts. The lower one is more noisy where the higher one is calmer. Sometimes I speak to my higher self from the lower self, sometimes I speak to my lower self from my higher self.

Too Much News to Binge-Watch/Binge-Read I'm really spending too much time watching political news and reading about politics online. I care about things that are happening in the world and want things to progress, but at the same time, it is too distracting and taking too much of my thought process. This is an unhealthy habit, I don't even watch a lot of highly developed political analysis, I watch more 5 - 10 minutes segments about some stuff that are happening mostly in the US and Europe. This is making me depressed and anxious. One thing that I noticed about me is that I'm easily dragged down by negativity and can be quite pessimistic. I choosed the block new channels on youtube and also block the Society, Environment, Government, Politics subforum with the help of a few plugins. Politics isn't in accordance with the phase of life that I'm currently in. No more politics for me for the moment.

05 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:47 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:27 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 08:33 AM - 09:53 AM It seems like setting up SEO with Angular is going to take more time than expected. I currently have an issue because jQuery is supported on server-side rendering Focus: 3.75 / 5 Duration: 1 hour 20 minutes 10:11 AM - 11:52 AM Again setting server-side rendering for SEO with Angular is very painful. I'm getting a huge amount of errors Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 41 minutes 12:04 AM - 12:52 AM Things are still difficult and painful Focus: 3/5 Duration: 48 minutes 01:50 PM - 02:40 PM Things are still difficult. It seems like I'm getting nowhere Focus: 3/5 Duration: 50 minutes 03:06 PM - 04:07 PM I submitted an issue on GitHub and started to do other fixes then got interrupted by my screaming grandma. She was vomiting and shitting at the same time, and said that someone poisoned her. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 59 minutes 04:11 PM - 04:46 PM I continued the code replacement. I wasn't that focused because I was listening to Leo at the same time Focus: 3/5 Duration: 35 minutes It seems like my brain is much clearer when I put my glasses. I avoided putting my glasses for many years, I will put them more in the future. @Raphael Great job! Continue Average Focus: 3.29 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 13 minutes, including 6 hours 13 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Weekly Statistics (28 September 2020 - 04 October 2020) Total Working Hours 29 hours 44 minutes Average Focus 3.18 / 5

04 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:41 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:12 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today @Raphael Good, that was a proper day of rest. Try to stay away from screens during off days. Continue Average Focus: ~ / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

This channel is pure orange https://www.youtube.com/user/screenjunkies

I'm a Sensitive Man For as long as I remember, I have always been hypersensitive to the world around me. As a kid, I would notice small details that most people wouldn't care about. I would also cry more easily than other boys of my age and therefore would get bullied more easily because I was perceived as weak and sensitive. I took a test this year that determines how masculine/feminine someone's brain is. I'm not sure how valid this test was, but my results were around 50/50, aka a balanced brain. Sometimes, my masculine side takes over and I'm much more direct, logical, and problem-solving oriented, other times my feminine side takes over and I become more sensitive and emotional. I need to learn to better balance between feminine and masculine energy and use the appropriate one for the appropriate situation. I currently feel like I'm a little trapped by my emotions and need to get more into my masculine, logical, problem-solving brain.

03 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:39 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:05 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:06 AM - 10:02 AM I fixed some issues, did research on SEO with Angular, and then got interrupted by a call Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 56 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:22 AM - 11:37 AM I created new components and did some fixes and improvements Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 15 minutes 11:47 AM - 12:49 AM I tried to install a library to deal with SEO with angular. It's quite messy. I also distracted myself with youtube during this session Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 2 minutes 03:51 AM - 05:01 AM Trying to setup server-side rendering with Angular is very painful Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 10 minutes I didn't felt good today. I didn't sleep a lot therefore I was a little tired and unmotivated during the day. @Raphael Have a proper day of rest tomorrow and you will do better on Monday. Stay strong, love from your higher self ♥ Average Focus: 3.37 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 4 hours 21 minutes, including 3 hours 27 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

02 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:58 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 11:00 AM - 11:16 AM I had a call Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 16 minutes 12:06 AM - 01:33 AM I did a lot of unrelated things. I got interrupted twice and I also heard an explosion of desperation from my grandma from the first floor. Focus: 2/5 Duration: 1 hour 27 minutes 02:36 PM - 04:03 PM I had a long talk. I wasn't focused. The more I want this guy to disappear, the more comes back interrupting my days Focus: 2/5 Focus: 1 hour 27 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 11:28 AM - 11:55 AM I did a few fixes. I distracted myself too much Focus: 2.5/5 Duration: 27 minutes 04:37 PM - 04:54 PM I did a small correction Focus: 3/5 Duration: 7 minutes I went to bed too late yesterday so I woke up late today. I also got lazy and didn't want to work today. However, I can see more and more the importance of a proper schedule and the importance of slowing down in the evening, avoid screen, and not doing anything. Average Focus: 2.6 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 3 hours 51 minutes, including 34 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

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01 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:58 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:40 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:50 AM - 09:12 AM I had a call Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 22 minutes 07:33 PM - 08:36 PM I run some plugins on my website, did some updates, and contacted a few persons Focus: 3/5 Duration: 57 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:13 AM - 09:47 AM I did a few corrections Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 34 minutes 10:12 AM - 11:52 AM I did some content writing Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 40 minutes 12:00 AM - 12:35 AM I worked on another page on my website Focus: 3/5 Duration: 35 minutes 01:35 PM - 02:49 PM I completed another page on my website Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 14 minutes 03:02 PM - 03:55 PM I continued working on my website. I distracted myself a little too much Focus: 3/5 Duration: 53 minutes 04:02 PM - 04:52 PM I completed page titles and meta titles. Run some optimizations plugins Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 50 minutes I got lazy to get out of bed this morning. @Raphael Good job Stay careful of your waking up and going of sleep hours, have an awesome night ♥ Average Focus: 3.19 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 7 hours 5 minutes, including 5 hours 46 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

30 September 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:51 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:32 AM - 11:06 AM I gave little assistance to a client. I'm sick of this guy, he is contacting me 24/24, he almost doesn't sleep. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 34 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 11:10 AM - 11:48 AM I fixed a few email templates. I was distracted listening to the US presidential debate at the same time Focus: 3/5 Duration: 38 minutes @Raphael Good job Average Focus: 3.25 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes, including 38 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)