Raphael

Putting authority is necessary with abusive people.

This video is pretty inspiring for those who are struggling to create a business.

The paradox of paradoxes is that they are no paradoxes.

This journal is useless. I'm not going to take that much time thinking and analyzing paradoxes, I have lower-level things that have more priority. I will get all the time that I need to think about paradoxes in a few years. For now, having a main journal and a few practical journals is far enough. This journal is paradoxical...

The paradox of paradoxes is that they are no paradoxes. I recently started to become more aware of how paradoxes works and how opposite things interconnects together. This is paradoxical because I'm not completely sure of what I'm doing here. I have been pretty agitated last week, I felt like I was loosing my mind and going insane. So... I don't know if I'm talking shit or started to have a peek into turquoise, but I want to record stuff about paradoxes. In summary: This journal is going to be about paradoxes. I will analyze paradoxes that comes to my mind, see how they interconnects together, break the bounderies between them and reunite opposite sides together. Let see how it goes...

31 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:55 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:25 (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 09:20 AM - 10:30 AM I did a fix for the infinite scroll on mobile Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 10 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 1 hour 10 minutes, including 1 hour 10 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

I had a pretty authoritarian boss in the past. One day he exploded in rage and said that he hated some people and wanted to kill them.

30 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:10 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 03:27 PM - 04:00 PM I had a call Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 33 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:19 AM - 11:28 AM I did a small fix and some analysis Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 9 minutes 11:46 AM - 12:44 AM I added internal links to a few articles. I got interrupted at a moment. Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 58 minutes 01:50 PM - 03:02 PM I added internal links to other articles Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes I'm going to work less for 1 - 2 weeks to focus on my driving license. Average Focus: 3.56 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 3 hours 52 minutes, including 3 hours 19 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

29 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:36 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:32 (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 08:54 AM - 10:12 AM I did some testing and made a few corrections Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 1 hour 18 minutes 10:35 AM - 11:53 AM These bugs are annoying and the network is also super fucked up Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 18 minutes 12:00 AM - 01:00 PM I added some internal links Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 01:42 PM - 02:23 PM I finally managed to fix this carousel bug on the mobile version Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 41 minutes 02:32 PM - 03:59 PM I added internal links to a few articles Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 27 minutes @Raphael Good work! Average Focus: 3.45 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 44 minutes, including 5 hours 44 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Hahahaha You cracked me up man!

The limit of equality, respect, and treating everyone as equal where people are at different levels of development.

28 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:58 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:20 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 12:46 AM - 01:05 PM I fixed a small bug Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 19 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 19 minutes, including 19 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

KPop is so stage orange. I can't understand anything, but I feel it.

This girl took it too far.

Very true ?

Yeah and that's why blue is reactive against orange because orange reminds blue of red.

I feel like ha has a little of it. Maybe 10% or a small kernel.

About Purifying Unhealthy Habits & Ideologies Letting go and purifying unhealthy habits, unhealthy spiral dynamics manifestations, and ideologies is like vomiting again and again until everything is out.

Another red/orange trying to optimize everything.

Because they resonate with red/orange. It happened to me too when I was in some of my lowest points in life to trash talk or listen to rap music. It felt satisfying as it helped me to release anger and hate. I can still watch or play violent video games or search for brutal movie scenes on youtube when I feel bad.

27 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:30 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:45 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 03:17 PM - 04:00 PM I analyzed a template and sent my opinion to a person. I also had a call and had to fight again to get a minimum payment. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 43 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:13 AM - 10:43 AM I added internal links to two articles Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 30 minutes 11:11 AM - 12:35 AM I added internal links to a few articles. I had a lot of distracting thoughts Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 24 minutes 01:38 PM - 02:58 PM I added internal links to a few articles Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 20 minutes 07:38 PM - 08:47 PM I started to fix some redirection issues. I stopped before finished because I'm a little too tired Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 9 minutes Average Focus: 3.3 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 6 minutes, including 4 hours 23 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

26 October 2020 Wake Up Time: 08:04 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 11:55 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 12:09 AM - 12:23 AM I had a call Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 14 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:35 AM - 10:53 AM I created a document for payments, an invoice, and sent it Focus: 4/5 Duration: 18 minutes 10:59 AM - 12:09 AM I added internal links to a few articles Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 1 hour 10 minutes 03:28 PM - 05:11 PM Fucking shit... Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 43 minutes 07:34 PM - 08:26 PM I added internal links to a few articles Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 52 minutes 08:33 PM - 10:51 PM Some things are really painful... Focus: 3/5 Duration: 2 hours 18 11:21 PM - 11:47 PM The solution was finally very simple Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 26 minutes I have to learn to rely more on my intuition while working. I encountered many situations where I had an intuition, but didn't listen to it, wasted a lot of time, and finally went back to it and get the work done super quickly. I also need to continue my efforts in standing for myself and putting boundaries. I could have made a lot of money today, but it didn't happen because I was shy. Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 43 minutes, including 6 hours 29 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

It works for me, it makes me question my views by trying to understand why someone is calling me dumb.

It's going to get worst before it gets better. I'm saying this because I'm an INTP like Leo and I'm also trying to change that because I see that most people cannot handle it. It's very difficult as we are naturally very intellectual and easily find discrepancies within arguments. We want to fix these discrepancies to make things better and therefore we quickly notify stupidity when we find it. That's one of the flaws of the INTP. Leo is currently making progress, that's why there seems to be a little more turbulence. It will get better, just give him the time to improve.