Raphael

It's ok to be full of rage It's ok to be full of hate It's ok to be hateful I accept when I hate myself I accept if you hate me It's ok to be bitter It's ok to be angry It's ok to have resentment It's ok to be scared It's ok to feel fucked It's ok to be angry It's ok to feel that life is scary I recognize that I hate myself and I accept that I hate myself It's ok to be sad It's ok to be depressed It's ok to be angry It's ok to be bitchy It's ok to groan it's ok to be merciless it's ok to hate the world it's ok to hate humanity it's ok to hate myself i accept my hate it's ok to be cuthroat it's ok to be blunt it's ok to be resentful it's ok to be rough it's ok to be roughtless it's ok to hate it's ok to be sad it's ok to be depressed it's ok to hate myself it's ok it's ok it's ok to be hitler it's ok to be trump it's ok to be a nazi it's ok to be a neo-nazi it's ok to be a kkk member it's ok to be racist it's ok to be sexist it's ok to be homophobic it's ok to hate the world it's ok to have racial preferences in dating it's ok to hate men it's ok to hate women it's ok to abuse people, i accept you if you abused someone it's ok if you have been abused it's ok if you have been raped it's ok if you have been tortured it's ok if you have been beaten it's ok if you have been beaten by your parents it's ok if you have been exploited by your parents it's ok to be a spoonfed kid it's ok to hate yourself it's ok to be ashamed of yourself it's ok to be a narcissist it's ok to be a violent it's ok if you beaten your wife it's ok if you killed your wife it's ok if you killed your husband it's ok if you tried to kill yourself it's ok if you are a criminal it's ok if you are a murderer it's ok if you are a sociopath it's ok if you killed someone it's ok if you are lost it's ok if you are confused it's ok if you don't know what to do in life it's ok if you feel disoriented it's ok if you are hungry it's ok if you are sad it's ok if you are young it's ok if you are old it's ok if you feel behind in life it's ok if you can't relate to anyone it's ok if you have social anxiety it's ok if you are anxious it's ok if you are shaking it's ok if you are breathing it's ok if you are shy it's ok if you are timid it's ok to feel inadequate it's ok to feel sad it's ok to hate explosions of rage it's ok to express your rage it's ok to express you hate it's ok to hate it's ok to feel dumb it's ok to feel lazy it's ok to feel incompetent it's ok to intelligent it's ok to be perceived as smart it's ok to have an ego it's ok to have a massive fucking ego it's ok to write your feelings it's ok to express your feelings it's ok to be honest with yourself it's ok to be honest with others it's ok to make mistakes it's ok to be vulnerable it's ok to feel weak it's ok to feel strong it's ok it's ok it's ok to feel some contractions in the body it's ok to be intellectual it's ok to not be intellectual it's ok to be philosophical it's ok to be manual it's ok to be physical it's ok to be artistic it's ok it's ok it's ok it's ok to be a man it's ok to be a woman it's ok to be racist it's ok to be xenophobic it's ok to hate white people it's ok to hate black people it's ok to hate indians it's ok to hate asians it's ok to be white it's ok to be black it's ok to be indian it's ok to be asian its ok to be mixed-race it's ok to be homosexual it's ok to be transexual it's ok to be pansexual it's ok to be a feminist it's ok to be anti-feminist it's ok to hate right wingers it's ok to hate left-wingers it's ok to hate centrists it's ok to be a right-winger it's ok to be a left-winger it's ok to be a centrist it's ok to have difficulties self-accepting it's ok to have difficulties accepting others it's ok to be good looking it's ok to be bad looking it's ok to be average looking it's ok to be ugly it's ok to hate your body it's ok to love your body it's ok to have the body that you have it's ok to be skinny it's ok to be fat it's ok to be tall it's ok to be small it's ok to have a dark skin it's ok to have a light skin it's ok to have an handicap it's ok to be normal it's ok if one of your leg is missing it's ok if one of you arm is missing it's ok if you don't have any members it's ok to be muscular it's ok to be frail it's ok to be fragile it's ok to not fit society's standards in term of physical appearance it's ok to fit society's standards in terms of physical appearance it's ok to hate your body it's ok to hate your body it's ok to hate your body it's ok to hate your body it's ok to hate your body it's ok to hate your body it's ok to hate your body it's ok to hate your body it's ok to hate your body it's ok to hate your body it's ok to hate your body it's ok to hate your body it's ok to hate your body it's ok to hate your body it's ok to not fit physically it's ok if your body is different than normal bodies it's ok to be average looking it's ok to rate women on a scale from 1 to 10 it's ok to see men mostly as providers it's ok to want men only for money it's ok to have the body that you have it's ok to not fit masculine standards of attractiveness it's ok to not fit feminine standards of attractiveness it's ok to hate your body for not fitting masculine standards of attractiveness it's ok to hate your body for not fitting feminine standards of attractiveness it's ok to be an incel it's ok to be a femcel it's ok to see women only as things to fucking it's ok to be desperate for the love of a man it's ok to be desperate that a man will take care of you it's ok to need help it's ok to want others it's ok to have sexual desires it's ok to not have sexual desires it's ok to have normal sexual desires it's ok to have abnormal sexual desires it's ok to watch porn it's ok to be addicted to porn it's ok to use porn as a coping mechanism it's ok to use women as a coping mechanism it's ok to use men as a coping mechanism it's ok to have difficulties loving yourself it's ok to be needy for sex it's ok to be needy for an intimate relationship it's ok to be needy it's ok to be desperate it's ok to be desperate for love it's ok to be ashamed it's ok to have a mental disorder it's ok to have difficulties focusing it's ok to be mentally hill it's ok to have adhd it's ok to not be able to control yourself it's ok to break things it's ok to have emotional breakdowns it's ok to have emotional crisis it's ok if you hate me it's ok if you love me it's ok if you are confused about me it's ok if you don't know what to think about me it's ok to be honest with me it's ok to be lost in the mind it's ok to have racist intrusive thoughts it's ok to have hateful intrusive thoughts it's ok to have resentful thoughts it's ok to have difficulties controlling your thoughts it's ok if your mind if making you crazy it's ok to admit your difficulties it's ok to speak about your difficulties it's ok to be a virgin it's ok to be a virgin at 20 it's ok to be a virgin at 21 it's ok to be a virgin at 22 it's ok to be a virgin at 23 it's ok to be a virgin at 24 it's ok to be a virgin at 25 it's ok to be a virgin at 26 it's ok to be a virgin at 27 it's ok to be a virgin at 28 it's ok to be a virgin at 29 it's ok to be a virgin at 30 it's ok to live your entire life as a virgin it's ok if you lost your virginity at 18 it's ok if you lost your virginity at 19 it's ok if you lost your virginity at 12 it's ok if you lost your virginity at 13 it's ok if you lost your virginity at 14 it's ok if you lost your virginity at 15 it's ok if you lost your virginity at 16 it's ok if you lost your virginity at 17 it's ok if you have been raped as a kid it's ok if you have been sexually exploited it's ok if you sexually exploited someone it's ok if you raped a kid it's ok if you raped a woman it's ok if you raped a man it's ok if you don't know why you are doing what you are doing it's ok if you don't know why you are writing what you are writing it's ok to be intimidating it's ok to be vengeful it's ok if you are slow it's ok if you are fast it's ok if you have a perfect balance it's ok if you feel late in life it's ok to die it's ok to want to kill yourself it's ok to be suicidal it's ok to throw all your emotions out it's ok to hate me it's ok to love me it's ok to not understand anything about me it's ok to not know what to write it's ok to be doubtful it's ok to be hesitant it's ok to want to rush it's ok to have difficulties making decisions it's ok to have difficulties planing it's ok to have difficulties strategizing it's ok to have difficulties settings goals it's ok to have difficulties achieving goals it's ok to be goal oriented it's ok to not be goal oriented it's ok to want to be productive it's ok to beat yourself up it's ok to be afraid of not achieving it's ok to be conditioned by a societal ideal of success it's ok to fail creating success it's ok to make mistakes it's ok to backslide it's ok to have backslashes it's ok to be depressed it's ok to be sad it's ok to be bitchy it's ok to want love it's ok to be an emotional mess it's ok to be proactive it's ok to be an emotional sponge it's ok to absorb people's energy very quickly it's ok to hate being like that it's ok to be traumatized for nothing it's ok to be sensitive it's ok to be an emotional mess it's ok to read it's ok to take notes it's ok to be studious it's ok to not be studious it's ok to not be good at school it's ok to be good at school it's ok to seek excellence it's ok to be poor it's ok to be broke it's ok to be rich it's ok to be a millionaire it's ok to be a billionaire it's ok to exploit people via your business it's ok to be greedy it's ok to be proactive it's ok to complain about tiny little problems it's ok to complain about stupid human shit it's ok to not care about the poor it's ok to care about the poor it's ok to not care it's ok to care it's ok to be lazy it's ok to be incompetent it's ok to take note it's ok to re-read your notes it's ok to be integrated it's ok to be whole it's ok to be balanced it's ok to heal it's ok to make progress it's ok to deny your progress it's ok to deny your worth it's ok to not being able to see your worth it's ok to want to be perfect it's ok to feel imperfect it's ok to feel normal it's ok to be normal it's ok to be part of the world it's ok to be part of society it's ok to be part of this forum it's ok to be raphael it's ok to be a kid it's ok to be weird it's ok to say random stupid things it's ok to speak nonsense it's ok to be homeless it's ok to not be welcoming it's ok to be welcoming it's ok to feel what you feel it's ok to be who you are it's ok to be conditioned by society it's ok to not be conditioned by society it's ok to be moderately conditioned by society it's ok to interract with society it's ok to be fake it's ok to have bad health it's ok to have good health it's ok to have moderate health it's ok to eat bad food it's ok to eat good food it's ok to pretend to be perfect but faking it it's ok to put a mask on your face it's ok to hide your insecurities it's ok to have insecurities it's ok to feel your insecurities it's ok to share your insecurities it's ok to be crazy it's ok to be mentally hill it's ok to feel strange it's ok to feel inferior it's ok to feel superior it's ok to feel normal it's ok to feel above average it's ok to feel below average it's ok to hate yourself it's ok to hate yourself it's ok to hate yourself it's ok to hate yourself it's ok to hate yourself it's ok to hate yourself it's ok to hate yourself it's ok to not know what you are doing it's ok to be lost it's ok to be confused it's ok to making meaning improperly it's ok to make meaning properly it's ok if you think that there is a proper way to make meaning it's ok if you think that there is an improper way to make meaning it's ok if you don't know what meaning making mean it's ok if you see the limitations of meaning making it's ok if you can witness that you are making your meaning it's ok to live as pure awareness it's ok to be incredibly aware without having to put in that much work it's ok to be incredibly aware after having put an incredible amount of work it's ok to be ashamed of not doing the work it's ok to be ashamed of not succeeding it's ok to be ashamed of your failures it's ok to be afraid of not actualizing it's ok to be proud of self-actualizing it's ok to not be sleeping it's ok to have sleeping problems it's ok to have insomnia it's ok to have good sleep it's ok to need a lot of sleep it's ok to not need a lot of sleep it's ok to be needy it's ok to not be needy it's ok to have normal average needs it's ok to be girly it's ok to be macho it's ok to be done with this community it's ok to exhausts all your repressed emotions it's ok to have eating disorders it's ok to be antivax it's ok to be for the covid vaccine it's ok to be detached it's ok to be attached it's ok to break the duality between attachment and detachment it's ok to break all dualities it's ok to become whole it's ok to be fully integrated it's ok to not be able to believe what you are doing it's ok to not be understanding what you are doing it's ok to understand what you are doing it's ok to break the boundary between understanding / non understanding it's ok to live beyond the mind it's ok to live intuitively it's ok to be whole it's ok to not have any insecurities it's ok to understand where people are coming from it's ok to help people it's ok to help people understand themselves it's ok if people can't understand themselves it's ok if people think that they understand people but don't understand them it's ok to be racist it's ok to be xenophone it's ok to be hateful it's ok to be racist it's ok to be xenophobe it's ok to be hateful it's ok to be ok it's ok to be ok it's ok to be ashamed of being ok it's ok to be ashamed of being ok when the entire world isn't ok it's ok to be great it's ok to unleash your greatness it's ok to be afraid that the world cannot understand you it's ok to feel different it's ok to feel normal it's ok to feel different it's ok to feel normal it's ok to feel different it's ok to feel normal it's ok to feel different and normal at the same time it's ok to break the boundary between normal and different it's ok to not be ok it's ok to not be ok it's ok to not be ok it's ok to be ok it's ok to be ok it's ok to be ok it's ok to not be ok it's ok to not be ok it's ok to not be ok it's ok to not be ok it's ok to not be ok it's ok to not be ok for being so neurotic it's ok to not be ok it's ok to not be ok it's ok to not be ok it's ok to not be ok it's ok to not be ok it's ok to not be ok it's ok to not be ok it's ok to not be ok it's ok to have social anxiety it's ok to have social anxiety for being ok where others aren't ok it's ok to have social anxiety for being ok where otherrs aren't ok it's ok to have social anxiety for being ok where others aren't ok it's ok to have social anxiety for being ok where others aren't ok it's ok to have social anxiety for being ok where others aren't ok it's ok to have social anxiety for being ok where others aren't ok it's ok to have difficulties relating with people it's ok to have difficulties understanding people insecurities it's ok having difficulties understand why people are so insecure about everything it's ok to have difficulties understanding why people are so insecure about men, about women, about their mom, about their dad, about their familities, about their animals, about their dogs, about their cats, about their rats, about their mouses, about their houses, about everything it's ok to have difficulties understanding why people are so insecure about everything it's ok to have difficulties understanding people it's ok to have difficulties understanding people it's ok to have difficulties understanding people it's ok to have difficulties understanding people it's ok to have difficulties understanding people it's ok to have difficulties understanding people it's ok to be insecure about not having that much insecurities it's ok to be insecure about not having insecurities it's ok to be insecure about having the insecurity of not having insecurities it's ok to be insecure about having the insecurity of not having insecutiries it's ok to be secure about having the insecurity of not having insecurities it's ok to be secure about having the insecurity of not having insecurities it's ok to not have that much insecurities it's ok to not have that much insecurities it's ok to not have that much insecurities it's ok to be insecure of people who don't have that much insecurities it's ok to be insecure of people who don't have that much insecurities it's ok to be insecure of people who don't have that much insecurities it's ok to be insecure of people who don't have that much insecurities it's ok to not be afraid of failure it's ok to not be afraid of failure it's ok to not be afrid of success it's ok to not be afraid of success it's ok to love yourself it's ok to be free it's ok to be ok it's ok to be liberated it's ok to be ok it's ok to be liberated it's ok to be afraid of being liberated it's ok to be afraid of what people thinks of you if you are liberated it's ok to be free it's ok to not have any expectations from people it's ok to hate people it's ok to hate people for complicating life so much instead of living it it's ok to hate people it's ok to hate people it's ok to hate people for not living simply, minimalistically, gracefully it's ok to not understand people it's ok to not understand people it's ok to not understand why people have so many insecurities it's ok to not understand why people have so many insecurities it's ok to not understand why people have so many insecurities it's ok to not understand why you have so many insecurities it's ok to not understand why you have so many insecurities it's ok to not understand yourself it's ok to not understand yourself it's ok to not understand why you created yourself it's ok to not understand yourself it's ok to not understand yourself it's ok to not understand yourself it's ok to understand yourself it's ok to understand yourself it's ok to not understand yourself it's ok to not understand yourself for not understanding yourself it's ok to not understand yourself for not understand yourself it's ok to not understand yourself it's ok to not understand yourself it's ok to not understand yourself it's ok to start to grasp yourself it's ok to understand your true nature it's ok to not understand why you understand your true nature it's ok to not understand anything about yourself it's ok to not understand anything about yourself it's ok to not understand anything about yourself it's ok to be whole it's ok to be whole it's ok to be integrated it feels great to be whole it feels great to be integrated it feels great to be grounded in nothing it feels great to break the boundary between being ok and not being ok it feels great to break the boundary between understanding and not understanding it feels great to be grounded by not being grounded it feels great that things are becoming effortless something doesn't feel great something doesn't feel great something doesn't feel great something doesn't feel great something doesn't feel great something doesn't feel great something doesn't feel great something doesn't feel great something doesn't feel great something doesn't feel great something doesn't feel great something doesn't feel great something doesn't feel great what doesn't feel great? the need to be normal the need to be normal doesn't feel great it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to feel enlightened it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal about being normal it's ok to not feel normal about being normal it's ok to not feel normal about not creating that much problems in life it's ok to not feel normal about not creating that much problems in life it's ok to not feel normal because you are creating problems by not having that many problems in life it's ok to not feel normal because you are creating problems by not having that much problems in life it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal it's ok to not feel normal for feeling normal it's ok to not feel normal for feeling normal it's ok to not feel normal for feeling normal it's ok to not feel normal for feeling normal it's ok to feel abnormal it's ok to feel abnormal it's ok to feel abnormal it's ok to feel abnormal it's ok to feel abnormal it's ok to feel abnormal it's ok to feel abnormal it's ok to feel abnormal it's ok to feel abnormal it's ok to feel abnormal it's ok to feel abnormal it's ok to feel abnormal it's ok to feel abnormal it's ok to feel abnormal it's ok to feel abnormal it's ok to feel abnormal it's ok to feel abnormal it's ok to feel abnormal for being normal it's ok to feel abnormal for feeling so normal it's ok to feel abnormal for feeling so incredibly normal it's ok to feel abnormal for feeling so incredibly normal it's ok to feel normal it's ok to feel normal it's ok to feel normal it's ok to feel normal it's ok to feel normal it's ok to break to boundary between normal and abnormal it's ok to feel normal it's ok to feel normal it's ok to feel normal it's ok to feel normal it's ok to feel normal it's ok to feel normal it's ok to feel normal it's ok to feel normal it's ok to feel normal it's ok to be so normal it's ok to be so normal it's ok to be so normal it's ok to be so normal it's ok to be so normal it's ok to be so normal it's ok to be so normal it's ok to be so normal it's ok to be so normal it's ok to so normal it's ok to feel whole it's ok to feel so normal it's ok to feel so normal it's ok to feel so normal it's ok to feel so normal it's ok to feel so normal it's ok to feel so normal it's ok to feel so normal it's ok to feel so normal it's ok to feel so normal it's ok to feel so normal it's ok to get rid of this feeling of specialness whether it hides behind a feeling of inferiority or a feeling of superiority it's ok to get rid of this feeling of specialness it's ok to get rid of this feeling of specialness it's ok to get rid of this feeling of specialness it's ok to get rid of this feeling of specialness it's ok to get rid of this feeling of specialness it's ok to get rid of this feeling of specialness it's ok to get rid of this feeling of specialness it's ok to get rid of this feeling of specialness it's ok to get rid of this feeling of specialness it's ok to get rid of this feeling of specialness it's ok to get rid of this feeling of specialness it's ok to get rid of this feeling of specialness it's ok to see your ego wanting to kill yourself it's ok to see your ego trying to come back it's ok ego, it's ok it's ok ego, it's ok it's ok ego, it's ok it's ok ego, it's ok it's ok ego, it's ok it's ok ego, it's ok it's ok to still have an ego it's ok to have an healthy ego it's ok to have an healthy ego it's ok to have an healthy ego it's ok to have an healthy ego it's ok to have an healthy ego it's ok to have an ego it's ok to have an ego it's ok to be whole it's ok to have an ego it's ok to interconnect the left brain and the right brain it's ok to interconnect the left brain and the right brain it's ok to interconnect the left brain and the right brain it's ok to interconnect the left brain and the right brain it's ok to have a perfectly symetrical brain it's ok to be ultra intelligent it's ok to be intelligence it's ok to be it's ok to unite understanding with non understanding it's ok to unite the left brain with the right brain it's ok to use the left brain it's ok to use the left brain it's ok to use the left brain it's ok to use the left brain it's ok to use the left brain it's ok to have an ultra sophisticated brain it's ok to be whole it's ok to be fully integrated it's ok to reach enlightenment it's ok to re-unite normaly with abnormalcy it's ok to re-unite understand with non-understanding it's ok to re-unite men and women it's ok to live both as a man and woman at the same time it's ok to feel crazy it's ok if the ego uses acceptance as a preservation mechanism it's ok if the ego accept itself it's ok if the the ego accept itself it's ok that the ego accept itself it's ok to have an ego and not have an ego at the same time it's ok to have an ego and not have an ego at the same time it's ok to re-unite ego with non ego it's ok to have a mental breakdown it's ok to have a mental breakdown it's ok to have nuances it's ok to live it's ok to have an ego it's ok to it's ok it's ok it's ok it's ok it's ok it's ok it's ok it's ok it's ok it's ok it's ok it's it's it's it's it's it's it's it's it's it's it's it's it's it's it's it's nothing it's everything it's everything it's everything it's everything it's everything it's everything it's crazy it's beautiful it's incredible it's joyful it's magnificient it's... i don't know how to describe what is happening i don't know what is happening i'm becoming fully integrated i'm becoming fully whole it feels very clear, very clean, very sharp it's the first time in my life that i have so much mental clarity i have a mind, i can use it, it is very powerful i have a mind, i can use it, it is very powerful i have a mind, i can use it, it is very powerful i have a mind, i can use it, it is very powerful this is ok i can do everything i am infinite i am god raphael is necessary raphael exists raphael is needed it's ok raphael, you exists, it's ok it's ok raphael, you exists, you have the right to exists it's ok raphael, you exists, you have the right to exist, you have the right to live as a human being you have the right to enjoy life you have the right to be human you have the right to be human you can exist you have the right to be human, you exist you have the right to exist you have the right to exist you have the right to live you can live life fully, enjoy it fully live, live, live life you exist raphael and this is ok to exist. your life is important, live it fully, deeply, honor it, make the maximum out of it, help others, share with others, share with others, spend time with others, share with others, help others

It tries to feed itself by constantly distracting itself It tries to feed itself by constantly switching It tries to feed itself by constantly multitasking

It tries to feed itself by scrolling compulsively on the internet

It tries to feed itself by triggering others

Or go through the trigger and feel it fully until it doesn't trigger you anymore https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ujtj4R37M40

This wound... it's always the same wound. This wound always try to feed itself in one way or another until healed: It tries to feed itself with food It tries to feed itself with the mind It tries to feed itself in business It tries to feed itself in porn It tries to feed itself in video game It tries to feed itself in sex It tries to feed itself by fucking women It tries to feed itself by desperately seeking men It tries to feed itself by watching dumb videos It tries to feed itself with success It tries to feed itself with video games It tries to feed itself by reading this forum, fighting, debating, and competing with others on this forum It tries to feed itself by being rigid It tries to feed itself with repetitive thoughts patterns It tries to feed itself by making meaning It tries to feed itself by recluding It tries to feed itself by smoking It tries to feed itself by drinking It tries to feed itself by over partying It tries to feed itself with TV shows It tries to feed itself with movies It tries to feed itself by not caring It tries to feed itself by overcaring It tries to feed itself by being perfectionistic It tries to feed itself by being needy for visibility It tries to feed itself by not taking risk It tries to feed itself by taking too many risks It tries to feed itself by being political It tries to feed itself by hiding its mistakes It tries to feed itself by hiding its failures It tries to feed itself by not recognizing itself It tries to feed itself by trying to fake itself It tries to feed itself by trying to be perfect It tries to feed itself by screaming at others It tries to feed itself by debating It tries to feed itself by hating itself It tries to feed itself... It tries to feed itself... It tries to feed itself by thinking that it can't resolve itself It tries to feed itself by hiding from itself It tries to feed itself by avoiding itself It tries to feed itself by sickening itself It tries to feed itself It tries to feed itself It tries to feed itself It tries to feed itself It tries to feed itself It tries to feed itself It tries to feed itself It tries to feed itself with itself but if it tries to feed itself by itself it will die by itself It tries to feed itself by killing itself It tries to feed itself by killing itself It tries to feed itself by killing itself It tries to feed itself by killing itself It tries to feed itself by killing itself It tries to feed itself by unbalancing itself I tries to feed itself by trying to go too fast It tries to feed itself... It tries to feed itself... It tries to feed itself... It tries to feed itself with the body It tries to feed itself by sickening the body It tries to feed itself by not recognizing itself It tries to feed itself by being afraid of itself It tries to feed itself by avoiding itself It tries to feed itself It tries to feed itself but doesn't know how to feed itself anymore It tries to feed itself but doesn't know how to feed itself anymore It tries to feed itself but is getting sick of feeding itself It is sick of being sick, it wants to heal, it wants to heal... What is this wound? Lack of love / distorted love. It is love and it is trying to show up to the surface.

The advantage of being hypersensitive is that I absorb people's energy very easily therefore I integrate anyone's personality very quickly. If you interact with me you will feel like you are interacting with yourself because I can absorb you very quickly. This is social jujutsu. I am becoming whole, I am becoming fully integrated. I am everywhere, I am everyone. I am.

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Be

Be

Be

Be... be... just be... be...

@Preety_India I feel like a mixture of mostly INTP - INFJ - ENFP - an even ENTJ sometimes. Currently, all these models are breaking down for me.

@Preety_India I'm currently integrating parts of myself when I see them. I'm integrating you, you are a part of me.

By being I am everything. I can do everything, I can relate with everyone, I can achieve anything gracefully, effortlessly without any pressure because there is not the pressure to not be, there is only being

Be, just be

Enough fighting Enough being competitive Enough being passive aggressive Enough dishonesty Enough lying Enough not admitting what I want to admit Enough denying myself everywhere that I see myself Enough pretending to be self-accepting where I'm not self-accepting Enough seeing people as inferior as me Enough pretending that I cannot interact a minimum with people who are different than me Enough denying my feelings Enough denying the mind Enough making myself sick from not being authentic Enough hiding from myself Enough being impressed by anybody: being impressed comes the rejection of a part of myself which comes from the fear of admitting my similarities Enough pretending to be a kind and caring person where I'm not Enough pretending to be responsible when I'm irresponsible Enough pretending to be irresponsible when I am responsible Enough denying my worth Enough creating a fake story about myself Enough fakery Enough recluding Enough pretending to be superior to other people because I spend time on an online forum about self-actualization and reaching my full potential Enough pretending to be smart Enough pretending to be dumb Enough pretending that I'm a hard or smart worker Enough denying all the efforts that I put it Enough denying feminity Enough denying masculinity Enough pretending that I want success in my life or want to have an impact on the world Enough pretending that I am not interested in people and relationships Enough pretending that I don't want any friends Enough bragging Enough thinking that I am advanced Enough denying how developed I am Enough pretending that I know something Enough pretending that I don't know something Enough not expressing myself fully even if it's ugly, even if it's dirty, even if it's disorganized, even if people doesn't like me Enough not caring about people Enough with the pressure to perform Enough denying the value of work, discipline, organization, planning, goal setting Enough blaming myself or others or my environment. I am everything, whatever I blame I only blame myself. The only thing to do is to recognize what is happening and adapt in consequence Enough entertaining so many internal dialogues within different parts of myself: by doing this self-acceptance is very partial and limited. Full self-acceptance isn't something that we tell ourselves but something that we are Enough denying my love for life Enough. Just enough. I'm sick of all that.

ENOUGH

Enough enough enough enough enough enough enough enough enough enough enough enough enough enough...

@Etherial Cat Oui, j'ai remarqué ça aussi. Perso, j'ai l'impression d'avoir sérieusement "level up" au cours des deux derniers mois. On a tous les deux supprimé nos images de profil et informations personelles. On n'a plus aucun besoin de se montrer pour se prouver

Do you think that I am authentic?

I have the feeling that this forum will be dead in 1 - 2 years or maybe I'm just projecting here...

Ok. My intestines has been twisting themselves for hours... until now. This feeling feels almost completely exhausted now. What feeling? This feeling, it feels the same but we can put different names on it: The pressure to achieve or fear of not achieving The pressure to be someone or fear of not being someone The pressure to succeed in life or fear of not succeeding in life The pressure to be a societal ideal of success or fear of not being a societal ideal of success The pressure to self-actualized or fear of not self-actualizing The fear of never being good enough The insecurity of not being appropriate

@Preety_India The answers are going to come, it's more about leveling up emotionally than making sense intellectually. I'm currently leveling up and it is dirty to see.