Raphael

Ok. I see, I'm making an assumption here. But some patterns are repeating, no? Can't we categorize the pattern to create an imaginary common reality? I have some difficulties to grasps what you are saying, it's seems like my mind can't compute. Do I need to go beyond the mind to understand what you mean?

25 November 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:32 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 11:30 (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 11:27 AM - 11:24 AM I did a little of design optimization Focus: 3.5 / 5 Duration: 57 minutes I had another sleepless night... Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 57 minutes, including 57 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Just cry.

Accept it unconditionally. These imperfections are perfectly designed.

Relax Get into the present moment Feel it Fully feel the shame Allow it Observe with curiosity Allow it Do nothing

How to stop the shame?

My thoughts are making me feel shame, but this is also linked to my emotional chemistry. Thoughts create emotions, but emotions also create thoughts who create emotions. This is a strange loop.

Not being a perfect high conscious person.

I'm ashamed of the past.

Very low results for my first year of freelancing caused by lack of self esteem, insecurities and social anxiety.

Past unconsciousness.

Insecurities.

Past stupidities.

Yeah, that can happen, but this is rare. I was thinking about that and it seemed to me difficult to say that all experiences are completly different because we are all interconnected pieces of the same puzzle. Isn't it that even if experiences are differents from one individual to another one, they can still at least share some kernels of a similar reality? It's seems incorrect for me to say that reality is 100% different for each human beings on the planet.

Yellow on Analyzing Trump's Spiral Development with Humour Donald Trump is the greatest example of a narcissistic stage red/orange leader who ever lived! Seriously, history books will be written on him because he fit so well his role! He is especially great to practice spiral dynamics stage yellow who analyses unconscious behaviors of a selfish leader elected thanks to an archaic system...but... OMG!!! this is a strange loop!!! In summary, Trump is the greatest depiction of a modern stage red/orange selfish leader who ever existed and will ever exist.

24 November 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:08 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:50 (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 03:35 PM - 05:00 PM I searched for images and added them to the website's articles Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 25 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 02:04 PM - 03:39 PM I did some design adjustments Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 35 minutes I almost didn't sleep for the entire night, and therefore woke up late and had a lot of difficulties to get to work. I had some sort of awakening yesterday night where my mind became crazy, uncontrollable, and started to explode in all directions. Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 3 hours, including 1 hour 35 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

I'm ashamed of something. But what?

I just want to add: He need to feel a certain way to say that facts doesn't care about your feelings The fact that facts doesn't care about your feelings is a feeling

There's nothing except if I create differences. There's everything when I reunite nothingness and differences.

23 November 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:32 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:45 (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:58 AM - 10:21 AM I contacted UpWork for a possible issue and optimized a few articles. I distracted myself in the middle by responding to someone on UpWork Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 23 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:42 AM - 11:42 AM I optimized an article Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 11:48 AM - 12:43 AM I optimized another article Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 55 minutes 01:46 PM - 03:21 PM I optimized three other articles Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 35 minutes 03:35 PM - 04:51 PM I added a few articles, some internal links and launch a SEO analysis Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 16 minutes @Raphael Great job! Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 9 minutes, including 4 hours 46 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)

Like if I say hello to two persons in front of me and both respond "hello"? They both respond "hello" (same behavior), but one can have better audition and both are not at the exact same position so they see me differently (different experience).

Weekly Statistics (16 November 2020 - 22 November 2020) Total Working Hours 33 hours 36 minutes Average Focus 3.46 / 5

22 November 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:30 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today Average Focus: ~ / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective 0 minutes, I'm not reading anything currently)