Raphael

It seems like basic stage orange self-help is what I need the most.

@Strangeloop It's the gold mine of business forums, just as actualized.org is the gold mine of personal development.

If I really want to get where I want to go, I need to make these fucking efforts. And I will do it, and I will self-sacrifice all these petty habits and fears to get there.

15 December 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:20 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:50 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:41 AM - 10:29 AM I responded to a few persons. I also started to fix a social media issue, but run into a lot of troubles Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 48 minutes 10:47 AM - 12:25 AM I fixed the previous issue and cleaned up my mess Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 38 minutes 01:27 PM - 03:31 PM I searched for projects online, sent some proposals, and also responded to a client Focus: 3/5 Duration: 2 hour 4 minutes 03:45 PM - 04:34 PM I searched for projects and sent a new proposal Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 49 minutes 08:05 PM - 09:01 PM I had a pretty long call with a guy I met on a forum. He was very genuine and gave me pretty good business advices. Don't believe what people says, it's possible to find genuine people that want to help. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 56 minutes @Raphael Awesome job bro Average Focus: 3.125 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 7 hours 15 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 55 minutes (objective at least 30 minutes)

I have no choice, but to work and go through the mess that I created.

14 December 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:04 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:20 AM - 09:45 AM I responded to a few persons and also created a new contract Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 25 minutes 10:12 AM -11:57 AM I'm having some trouble with AWS and hosting Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 45 12:57 AM - 02:08 PM I searched for jobs online and saved a bunch of offers Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes 02:15 PM - 03:21 PM I wrote two proposals Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 6 minutes 03:28 PM - 04:28 PM I sent a few proposals Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 27 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective at least 30 minutes)

A Taste of Enlightenment I'm not sure if this is what I think it is, but it looks like it. For maybe 1 - 2 months I started to see and feel something that is literally everywhere and nowhere at the same time. It is here, just in front of my eyes, and here in me and outside me. But, the problem is that I'm not able to put a word on it. The more I try to describe it, the less true it sounds, even the word "enlightenment" sounds false. Multiple times my mind started to run into circles until it breaks down, shut up so that I'm able to perceive this thing for what it truly is. That's only temporarily for now (just a few seconds, at best 10 seconds), but it looks like a good beginning.

I'm easily dragged down into negativity. It's usually happens when one or multiple people have strong reactions against me when I say something or do something. When someone doesn't think enough and gets angry against me because he/she doesn't understand my perspective. It doesn't happen often, but when it happen it stays stuck in my head for hours or even days. However, the thing is that I already know the solution to the problem from an intellectual level. They are multiple things that I can do: focus on something positive, do deep breathing, let go, accept, etc. So what I am doing here? I think I'm looking for some emotional support.

Weekly Statistics (07 December 2020 - 13 December 2020) Total Working Hours 24 hours 13 minutes Average Focus 3.6 / 5

13 December 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:53 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:54 AM - 11:29 AM I wrote a document and responded to a client Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 35 minutes Average Focus: 3.75 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 35 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 1 hour 18 minutes (objective at least 30 minutes)

That's very insightful, thank you. I also think I have some victim mentality which makes me do that. The solution that I see is to take more responsibility for how I handle my thoughts and emotional reactions to make a progressive perspective shift.

I didn't do the meditation, but how would it help me?

12 December 2020 Wake Up Time: 05:57 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 11:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:25 AM - 10:44 AM I responded to some people and did some updates to my website. I distracted myself a little Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 19 minutes 11:02 AM - 12:27 AM I created a banner and also search for some work online Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 25 minutes 01:51 PM - 03:19 PM I searched for more work. I also got a message from a client, I responded to him. He was unhappy with the design and implied that I did the minimum. It felt unfair to me because I actually put my heart and soul into to work and was personally very satisfied with the result. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 28 minutes 03:31 PM - 04:32 PM I searched for more projects online, but wasn't satisfied with what I found Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 1 minute 07:41 PM - 09:34 PM I had a pretty long call with a client. I didn't expect to work that late, but it was necessary and things are looking great with this client Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 53 minutes Average Focus: 3.4 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 7 hours 6 minutes, including 7 hours 6 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective at least 30 minutes)

11 December 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:10 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:33 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:53 AM - 10:10 AM I did some research, asked a question about charging clients on a forum, did some SEO checks, run some analysis, and distracted myself a little too much. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 17 minutes 10:31 AM - 12:04 AM I wrote an SEO question and then searched for more projects Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 33 minutes 01:27 PM - 02:55 PM I searched for some jobs and sent proposals. I got an answer from a possible client. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 28 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 4 hours 18 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 36 minutes (objective at least 30 minutes)

Woah... that's impressive. How do you find these clients? That's fine. Getting feedback is one of the reason I create these threads (even though the subject here is work ethic rather than some technical skills).

https://www.thefastlaneforum.com/community/

10 December 2020 Wake Up Time: 07:30 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:25 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 07:15 - 07:54 PM I written some instructions for a client Focus: 4/5 Duration: 39 minutes Had another sleepless night and choose to almost not work. Average Focus: 4 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 39 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective at least 30 minutes)

SEO is still new for me, so I'm still learning on the way. My expertise is mostly front-end development with some backend too. Overall, things have been tough since I started because of personal issues.

09 December 2020 Wake Up Time: 08:10 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 11:05 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 07:48 PM - 09:02 PM I finished the website design, did some research, added a social media management plugin, and wrote to a client Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:10 AM - 10:41 AM I started to work back on the previous website Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 1 hour 31 minutes 11:01 AM - 12:37 AM I created a banner to link to another website. The website currently looks really great, I'm very satisfied of my work Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 36 minutes 03:37 PM - 04:51 PM I almost finished the website design Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 14 minutes Couldn't sleep again, but got some shit done anyway. Average Focus: 3.56 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 33 minutes, including 4 hours 26 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective at least 30 minutes)

08 December 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:35 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 09:19 AM - 10:17 AM I created a search page and did some design improvements Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 58 minutes 10:43 AM - 12:45 AM I continued the improvements on the website Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 2 minutes 08:13 PM - 09:32 PM I continued the work on the website Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 19 minutes I had trouble to work because I didn't sleep properly. I went to bed at 09:30 PM yesterday and was still awake at 2 AM. I noticed that I had some digestion problems and I think I can improve my sleep by solving that. Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 3 hours 19 minutes, including 3 hours 19 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective at least 30 minutes)

Yoga in prison. Very healthy stage green helping red.

Stage red prevention by giving a taste of it.