Raphael

Lol. How about Orange man coup attempt?

5 January 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:50 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:47 AM - 10:37 AM I responded to a client and did some work on his website Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 50 minutes 12:11 AM - 12:28 AM I responded to 2 persons and created a document Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 17 minutes 01:31 PM - 02:39 PM I responded to a person and started to search for guest posting opportunities Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 8 minutes 02:47 PM - 03:25 PM I searched for more guest post opportunities Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 38 minutes 08:27 PM - 08:42 PM I responded to a client and shared an article Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 15 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:56 AM - 12:03 AM I responded to a client and did some corrections on a web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 7 minutes 03:31 PM - 04:40 PM I fixed some issues on a web app, uploaded an article, and scheduled it Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 9 minutes @Raphael Great job dude! Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 24 minutes, including 2 hours 16 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 1 hour 5 minutes (objective at least 1 hour)

Parenting Parents I feel like I've outgrown my parents and most people that I met in my entire life (older or younger) in the domain of awareness of psychological/emotional patterns. I can see clearly how many of them fail and what are the psychological patterns in place. Having this kind of awareness makes me feel lonely, I never met someone like me in real life. Only a few people that I met were much more conscious than the average mass without knowing with certitude how conscious they were.

4 January 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:58 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:40 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:01 AM - 10:26 AM I sent a message to a client, check out my website, but it was still down. I also started to make some notes on pages that I want to create Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 25 minutes 10:42 AM - 12:16 AM I worked on an article and responded to a client. This session was a little messy Focus: 3.25/5 Duration: 1 hour 34 minutes 01:16 PM - 02:33 PM I did some research and worked on another article Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 17 minutes 02:41 PM - 04:11 PM I worked on an article and responded to a client Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 30 minutes 04:18 PM - 04:39 PM I responded to a person and signed up to a service Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 21 minutes Average Focus: 3.35 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 7 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 1 hour 1 minute (objective at least 1 hour)

I saw this comment on Youtube, but cannot find it now. I think that it perfectly describes the situation. Someone should do an angry Hitler version with Trump's voice-over by the way.

Proper Focus Expectations I noticed that my average focus's goal for a week is way too high. It is currently set at 4/5, I'm going to set it to 3.5/5. This is much more realistic, my mind is naturally super explosive and agitated so if I achieve an average focus of 3.5/5 per week that's already a big win for me.

Weekly Statistics (28 December 2020 - 03 January 2021) Total Working Hours 29 hours 43 minutes Average Focus 3.41 / 5 I didn't expected to work this week, but end-up working more than last week. WTF is that... Life is so strange.

3 January 2021 Wake Up Time: 07:43 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:10 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today Average Focus: ~ / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 1 hour 34 minutes (objective at least 1 hour)

Is it as effective as sitting with crossed legs? Currently, my motivation to sit with crossed legs is that it's much more effective than sitting in a chair.

Hey there, I have this problem when I want to meditate while sitting on the ground with my legs crossed. I'm not doing the lotus position, nor even half-lotus, I just have my legs crossed. The most similar position might be sukhasana. After something like ~20 minutes, I feel that it starts to cut blood circulation in my right leg, more precisely at the position of my ankle. I tried to move my leg a bit to avoid this problem, and eventually found a solution, but it's not optimal. I also have a deformity in my legs that cause them to points out, it is a little more important in my right leg. It looks similar to this. I feel like the solution I found to avoid lost of blood circulation is making my leg deformation worse. Do any of you had similar issues?

2 January 2021 Wake Up Time: 07:30 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 11:00 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:41 AM - 10:17 AM I did a few fixes and updates on a website Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 36 minutes 07:34 PM - 08:10 PM I did a small design correction on a website Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 36 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective at least 30 minutes)

Where I Am On The Spiral Red (5%): I have a small red kernel and I sometimes have some hateful thoughts about the world and people. My thinking patterns are a little too impulsives. Blue (10%): I'm still too concerned about people's opinions of me, I lack self-esteem and I'm too shy. My integration of blue is not completed, I have progress to do on discipline and organization Orange (45%): I'm still in the business phase of my life. Making profit, sustaining myself, and becoming rich is my current priority. Green (30%): I made a lot of progress in green this year. I have more compassion, more empathy, and more respect for people emotions. Yellow (10%): I always try to look at things from multiple perspectives, I can see many connections, and I'm aware of many paradoxes and the their necessity. I still have some sense of superiority where I consider that I'm more intelligent than most people and that there's no need to interact with them because they will not understand me anyway. I'm currently very isolated. Turquoise (0%): Not there yet

2021 Books I will try to read at least these books this year: The Millionaire Fastlane: Crack the Code to Wealth and Live Rich for a Lifetime Thick Face, Black Heart: The Warrior Philosophy for Conquering the Challenges of Business and Life Kriya Secrets Revealed: Complete Lessons and Techniques The Secret Power Of Kriya Yoga: Revealing the Fastest Path to Enlightenment. How Fusing Bhakti & Jnana Yoga into Kriya will Unleash the most Powerful Yoga Ever (Real Yoga) Psycho-Cybernetics, A New Way to Get More Living Out of Life Shadow Dance: Liberating The Power And Creativity Of Your Dark Side Spiral Dynamics: Mastering Values, Leadership and Change

What 2021 Is Going To Be About This year is going to be about mostly three things: Business: Continue to work on financial independence by doing freelancing and working on a web application. Strengthening Spiritual Practices: I'm will continue doing 1 hour of meditation per day and will start a Krya Yoga practice. When I'll start Yoga I will alternate my days with meditation/yoga. Self-Esteem: I'm going to start to do some serious work on my self-esteem issues soon. I will start a new practical journal to track my progress this month.

Overview Of The Last Five Years: 2016 - 2020 2016: Existential Crisis I started to meditate during this year, but my solitude was so high and I felt so out of the place in France that I had my first existential crisis. My entire world collapsed and my selfish dreams with it, I realized that the reason I wanted to become a successful rich and powerful entrepreneur was to take my revenge on life against many people who treated me badly in the past. I was angry and wanted to become someone of power to be able to dominate other people. I fell in a deep depression when I realized how selfish I was. I also had this year my first spiritual experience who scared the shit out of me, I felt like I was dying, I wasn't feeling I was looking at myself in the mirror, but just at another human being. 2017: Recovery, Another Experience Abroad, And Fall Again The existential crisis continued at the beginning of the year, but I wanted to evolve and notably become more social. My university had an agreement with another university in the UK to exchange eight students for an internship and I chose to be part of it. As we didn't have a lot of money, we choose to live together in the same house. We had some trouble, but we sorted that out. I worked closely with a local researcher/teacher and a student. I improved my English a lot through practicing, I also for the first time went to nightclubs. I felt good in my group, I was doing things differently, but they accepted myself and I liked it. I was happy during this internship. After that, I went back to France, got my degree and got back to Mauritius where I found another internship. When I got back I realized the psychological gap between people in Europe and people in my native country. I felt like a foreigner in my own native country and many people thought the same. I got bullied a lot in my workplace and I realized how closed-minded people are, they didn't accept any kind of difference. I quitted after three months were I should have stayed at least one year. 2018: Deepest Depression So Far I got back to my parent's house after quitting my job last year and fall into a very deep depression. I was very angry at the world and at my dad in particular. I found another job in another company a little far away from my home, so I had to take the bus and spent 3 hours in public transports every day. I was waking up at 4:30 AM, going to the gym, preparing myself, taking the bus from 6:30 - 7:00 AM and I was back home at 6:00 PM. I also wanted to create my own business, so I started to work in the bus, at night, and during the weekend. At a moment the pressure and all the negative emotions were so high that I exploded and experienced my first panic attacks. Some months after that I chose to live my family house to go live in the same city where I worked to stay away from my dad and stop losing time in public transport. I had some more panic attacks in my little apartment, but find out that I needed to accept an love myself otherwise it would have killed me. Due to my lack of knowledge and experience, the business I was working on collapsed. However, I started to feel better at the end of the year by accepting myself and letting go of the past. I even had some moments of extase where I was blown away by reality. 2019: Resurrection I choose to let go and accept everything during this year, I started to love myself a lot more and accept the unconsciousness of my country. I started to understand a lot of things who pushed me more into stage green/yellow. I felt better and better, happier and happier. I didn't do a lot of things during this year, but I recovered a lot from past traumas. I quit my job and went live back in my family house again, I accepted my dad and its impulsiveness, I started loving things that I never loved before and I started a freelance web development business. I pushed my meditation habit to 1 hour per day, and I felt happier than I've ever been in my life. 2020: Getting Started in the Business World This first year of freelancing have been really rough. I underestimated my self-esteem issues and how rough the business world could be. My personal issues caused me to make ridiculously low amount of money. I finally found some light at the end of the tunnel when I started to get more quality clients and made a first acceptable amount of money last month. I feel better and more assertive than last year as I move further and further away from shitty work environments and shitty co-workers where my role would be to shut up, submit to the authority, and do the work. However, I still have some thoughts about the past that come back again and again. I failed in all my resolutions for this year, but I grew up anyway.

This year was a failure, but I did some progress overall.

Survival: eat -> gain energy to work -> buy food -> eat Any communication: get words from the environment -> share these words -> get other words in reaction -> share these words again Change: dissatisfaction -> change -> new problems created by change -> dissatisfaction -> change again "I hate people, they are always angry against me so I hate them" This is a strange loop I am a strange loop Happiness through materialism: unhappiness -> chase money -> buy something to get happy -> unhappiness again after 1/2 months Thoughts create emotions, then emotions create thoughts that create emotions that create thoughts

Yeah, and also creating deficiencies in some activities looks fine for me as long as we can cover the necessary need. Going to the gym 3 times per week is enough to stay fit while we can still have a cognitively demanding job. But, to go back to the subject it looks like it's always the same thing. People who think that "it was better before" think that way because for many years they worked and lived by exercising some parts of their brain (or body) and now need to change, but have trouble to change because it looks like they are loosing some stuff (and it can be true in some cases) and are also usually older and more rigid.

Why do some people think that things were better before? Why do they dream about the "good old times"? This is strange because sometimes older people share stories about how life was difficult before and points out that we are living in abundance today (at least in the developed world, and when the pandemic will be over). Do people just loose their memory, or only focus on the positives, or lack education? What are the psychological mechanisms behind these ideas?

1 January 2021 Wake Up Time: 08:00 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:50 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 03:21 PM - 04:03 PM I worked on the app and did a little of WordPress maintenance Focus: 3/5 Duration: 42 minutes 07:09 PM - 07:35 PM I responded to a few people, changed some name servers, and uploaded a video Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 26 minutes 09:12 PM - 10:19 PM I uploaded an article and did a little of WordPress maintenance Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 7 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:20 AM - 10:35 AM I worked on the web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 15 minutes 11:11 AM - 12:15 AM I worked on the app, but got stuck Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 4 minutes 01:39 PM - 03:11 PM I worked on the web app, found a solution to the previous issues, but wasn't that focused Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 32 minutes When I don't expect to work, I get some work; when I want to work, I cannot find work. Life is crazy. Average Focus: 3.33 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 11 minutes, including 3 hours 51 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective at least 30 minutes)

Your answer is interesting. Do you think that all of these progresses includes restructuring human activities to be more focused on certain aspects of life rather than other one? And also creating new form of activities (like going to the gym) in order to deal with the deficiency created by those changes? Would there be activities that could be eliminated without consequences?

Thanks for your answers guys. I also want to add that it seems like the fast progress and increasing complexities in societies makes many people unable to handle change and cause them to cling to the past.

31 December 2020 Wake Up Time: 06:30 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:25 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:18 AM - 09:39 AM I added some images to a website Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 21 minutes 08:01 PM - 08:08 PM I responded to a client Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 7 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:07 AM - 11:38 AM I went back on the front-end app work Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 31 minutes 11:51 AM - 12:54 AM I continued the previous work. I had a lot of unrelated thoughts and also distracted myself a little Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 3 minutes 03:20 PM - 04:40 PM I continued the previous work. I distracted myself a little too much Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 20 minutes 08:14 PM - 09:17 PM I worked on the web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 3 minutes Average Focus: 3.33 / 5 (objective at least 4 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 25 minutes, including 4 hours 57 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (objective at least 30 minutes)