Raphael

06 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 05:33 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:45 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:56 AM - 10:24 AM I did a tool comparison and canceled a subscription Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 28 minutes 10:43 AM - 11:53 AM I did some corrections on a website and started the accounting course Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 10 minutes 11:59 AM - 12:30 AM I continued the accounting course Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 31 minutes 01:21 PM - 02:51 PM I did more progress on the accounting course. It's quite basic for the moment Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 30 minutes 03:04 PM - 04:29 PM I continued the accounting course. It's still quite basic, I'm learning about Excel for the moment. I will not use many of its features in the future Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 25 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 4 minutes, including hours minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

Stage Red prevention. That's why moderating content is important.

I never wanted to fight with my hands, but I fight with my intellect and awareness. In high school when someone provokes me, I used to rip them intellectually. Now, I see no need to fight or to respond anymore, I just avoid confrontations, and I'm good. But I do think that all man should know how to defend himself in case he gets into an unavoidable situation. Two conscious ways to handle this masculine energy are through business and ultimately life purpose.

05/02/2021 (Week 2) If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my important relationships... I'll choose better words when communicating I'll develop more empathy I'll realize that by caring about others I'm caring about me I'll realize how interconnected I am I'll improve my social skills I'll be more loving I'll do the best that I can to help the people that I love If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my insecurities... I would not hide myself I'll take time to inspect my insecurities I'm taking the first baby steps to fix myself I'll relax my body when confronted with difficulties I'll breathe deeply in challenging situations I'll realize that I'm afraid of being poor I'll realize that I'm afraid of being dependent of my parents until they die I'll realize that I'm afraid of myself If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my deepest needs and wants... I'll recognize my need for social connections I'll accept having needs I'll draw distinctions between healthy needs and neurosis I'll recognize that my need to go fast is a neurosis that backfires on me I'll let go of the need to go fast I'll recognize the need for the now I'll do everything to fulfill my need for the now If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my emotions... I'll recognize my emotions better I'll recognize more my emotional patterns I'll see how to break neurotic emotional patterns I'll let go of neurotic emotional patterns I'll develop a little more emotional mastery every day I'll do better every day I'll do better in life

05 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:10 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:38 AM - 10:46 AM I did a bunch of various stuff and searched for an accounting course Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 8 minutes 11:15 AM - 12:50 AM I finally choose an accounting course and bought a new software to test it out Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 35 minutes 07:39 PM - 08:10 PM I canceled a subscription, created internal links, shared an article on social medias, and sent an update message to a client. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 31 minutes They are some periods in life when we just want to be lazy and don't do anything. I'm currently in one of those phase. The hot weather is adding to this, I just want to go to the beach and lay down in front of it all day long. Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 3 hours 14 minutes, including hours minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

I want my life to be deep, spiritual, magical, joyful, every day and in every way.

I just realized that if I let go of the identity of being an individual contributor on this forum I become everything on this place. Which means that I always get quoted and/or responded by everyone and that I'm the only one who gets views, the only one who gets the most views, and who will get views forever And in the end if I'm everything it means that I'm alone playing with myself, interracting with myself, and responding to myself

There's a lot of possibilities of making money. However, getting starting is tough and the competition is tough, if you have a good portfolio it will make things much easier for you. Also, a lot of people will compare prices when you'll get started and pressure you to do low prices. DON'T DO THIS, do high quality work and charge properly.

Crazy women.

04/02/2021 (Week 2) If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my important relationships... I'll bring more fun to my relationships I'll nurture them more I'll understand how important they are I'll be more happy with the people that I'm closed to I'll take more care of the people that I like I'll seek to understand other If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my insecurities... I'll accept more my imperfections I'll reveal myself more I'll see that I'm insecure about being insecure I'll be more honest with myself I'll take more time doing this sentence completion exercise to dig deeper in myself I'll accept that I cannot be perfect If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my deepest needs and wants... I'll recognize that I have natural needs I'll do the distinction between natural needs and unconscious ones I'll try to fullfill my deepest needs in a healthy way I'll schedule properly my days to take care of these needs I'll not be ashamed of having needs I'll accept myself more If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my emotions... I'll work with the emotional scale I'll let go of difficult emotions I'll bring more positivity I'll use better emotions I'll feel more comfortable at experiencing emotions I'll developer more and more emotional mastery everyday I'll grow up psychologically faster

04 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:21 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:40 AM - 10:52 AM I did some research, contacted a person, and distracted myself a bit Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes 11:17 AM - 12:53 AM I responded to a person and did a lot of research on SEO tools Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 36 minutes 01:46 PM - 03:14 PM I finished the SEO course, but I distracted myself a lot at the same time Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 28 minutes 03:23 PM - 04:42 PM I did some research Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 19 minutes This week looks like a backslash. Average Focus: 3.25 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 35 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

The Emotional Guidance Scale https://www.actualityofbeing.com/tools

I really thought I was human...

I have a fear of being afraid of sharing too much on this forum and being wrong. Maybe it's because Leo bans people that are too dumb? But I feel like this fear is irrational because I think that I'm not that dumb.

03/02/2021 (Week 2) If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my important relationships... I'll be more conscious of how much quality relationships are important for life I'll nurture these relationships I'll be more in peace with the people that I appreciate I'll take more care of the people close to me I'll realize how much I'm selfish I'll realize that I need others to survive If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my insecurities... I'll be more honest with myself I'll have more humility I'll have the courage to see what's in myself I'll accept my insecurities I'll find action plans to fix my insecurities I'll have the face to face my insecurities I'll do more things that I'm afraid of I'll take more responsibilities to fix myself If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my deepest needs and wants... I'll stop being shameful of needing attention, social contacts, and sex I'll have more humility I'll recognize that having needs is natural I'll be more able to share about myself I'll recognize that I'll want a girlfriend I'll let go of my addictions caused by my lack of basic needs fulfillment by fulfilling my needs in a healthy way If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my emotions... I'll be more competent in distinguishing my emotions I'll be more intuitive I'll accept to experience emotions I'll express myself more I'll appreciate that I'm much more emotionally healthy than most people I'll have more emotional mastery I'll create more easily flow states I'll properly use emotions to achieve my goals I'll cry

03 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 05:55 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:45 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:21 AM - 10:33 AM I continued to learn about off-page SEO Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes 10:53 AM - 11:59 AM I did some research and continued the SEO course Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 6 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 2 hours 18 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

Not sure if I should put his in Purple or Green because it's a little of both at the same time.

I never got anything from my dad except insults and criticisms. He is dead since many years for me.

We should do this for all stages below Yellow. I feel like we often demonize everything below Yellow in these mega threads.

02/02/2021 (Week 2) If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my important relationships... I'll treat them as sacred I'll more fun with the people that I like I'll bring more honesty to my relationships I'll be more happy I'll appreciate people that I like more I'll accept people's imperfections If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my insecurities... I'll be more honest with myself I'll stop defending myself I'll be more accepting of myself I'll try to solve my issues I'll admit that I'm needy I'll admit that I want visibility I'll admit that I want more relationships I'll admit that I'm afraid of people I'll admit that I'm stuck in a strange loop where I want more relationships, but I'm afraid of people which cause the neediness to want more relationships If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my deepest needs and wants... I'll discern between authentic needs and low conscious needs I'll let go of low conscious needs I'll focus to fulfilling my conscious needs and wants I'll be more conscious of what I really want in life I'll accept that I'm human and that I have needs and wants I'll work on fulfilling my needs and wants If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my emotions... I'll understand which emotions serve be best I'll let go of difficult emotions I'll have more emotional mastery I'll realize how connected my thoughts are to my emotions I'll know more myself and through that know more people I'll create the needed emotions for me to succeed in life

02 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:00 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:00 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 01:49 PM - 02:51 PM I did some administrative tasks and did some updates to my website Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 3 minutes 03:00 PM - 03:56 PM I continued the SEO course but distracted myself a little too much Focus: 3/5 Duration: 56 minutes 06:00 PM - 07:23 PM I had a pretty long call with a client Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 23 minutes 08:17 PM - 08:47 PM I shared an article, did a small website update, and sent some updates to a client Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 30 minutes Maybe it's because I didn't sleep well at night, maybe it's because it's a backslash, but in the end, I felt lazy today and didn't want to work that much. I sleep a lot at the beginning of the day, then played some video games. Average Focus: 3.37 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 3 hours 52 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

Neediness & Visibility On This Forum I recently notice that I'm needy, but I'm not expressing it. I want to attract attention on this forum, I want people to quote me/respond to me more. I also want visibility on my profile, I want people to click on my picture and look at my personal information so that I can feel good. I'm quite sad that I'm not getting that much responses and visibility Please click on my profile picture, now!

01/02/2021 (Week 2) If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my important relationships... I'll realize how important they are I'll bring more love to the people that I'm closer to I'll have more fun I'll be more honest with the people that I love I'll realized that I failed to create important relationship I'll try to find one or two more quality people in my life If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my insecurities... I'll be more honest with myself I'll accept my insecurities more I would not let the past define me I'll be more able to solve them I'll reveal myself more to people I'll have the courage to fix myself I'll feel better in the long term I'll be less reactive towards other people If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my deepest needs and wants... I'll admit that I want visibility I'll admit that I feel too much isolated I'll admit that I want more social interactions I'll admit that I want more high quality relationships I'll admit that I want to have more fun I'll recognize my authentic needs and desires and let go of insecurity based needs I'll try to create some relationships If I bring 5 percent more awareness to my emotions... I'll be more able to understand the emotions that serve me I'll accept to experience difficult emotions I'll be more conscious that my thought pattern is linked to my emotional state I'll recognize that I have some deep fear inside me I'll recognize that I feel shameful I'll be more able to understand how to solve my depressive states I'll gradually improve my emotional state I'll feel a little better everyday I'll breath and relax better

01 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:14 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:00 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 07:27 PM - 07:44 PM I had a short text communication with a client Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 17 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 08:51 PM - 10:23 PM I worked on the integration of the custom select with Angular.js, it's quite delicate. I had an insane number of unrelated thoughts Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 32 minutes 10:43 AM - 12:45 AM I worked on the web app. I had a lot of distracting thoughts Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 58 minutes I don't know what happened in the afternoon. I felt depressed, experience a lot of resistance, didn't wanted to work, and procrastinated a lot. Average Focus: 3.33 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 3 hours 47 minutes, including hours minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)