Raphael

Examples: Masculinity/Feminity: This is penetrative energy (masculinity) contradicting receiving energy (feminity) that at the same time works together. Generally, guys chase girls, and girls receive their energy, and when they are both properly balanced, they are happy. During a sexual intercourse, the guy penetrates the girl and the girl receive the guy in herself, and they both get pleasure. Young/Old: Parents take care of kids when they are young, then kids grow up and start to take care of old people. Human/Machine: Humans as biological entities contradict mechanical entities, but it allows them to work together. A human being creates a machine to help him on difficult tasks for a human being and the machine needs the human being to function. Paper/Pen: A paper is flat where a pen is pointed. If a pen is used with too much pressure it can rip a paper, but if it is properly balanced it can create readable shapes for people.

It's precisely because things are paradoxical and contradicts themselves that they work together. The previous sentence was its own example.

It's fine, I actually appreciate getting feedbacks, it's the main reason why I journal publicly rather than privately. Don't hesitate to give feedbacks, it helps me grow. Yeah, I think that many adults in their 50s, 60s, or more are actually living the childhood that they didn't had because life was way more difficult before. They also didn't had access to all the resources that we now have. However, one thing that I still don't understand properly is the fact that many people of my age who had more chances and more money than me never discovered self-actualization and are getting caught in so many ideologies. I guess luck also plays a role as I felt wise since I was 10 - 12.

Leo is also a fool, but only less than most people.

No, actually, there is a vegetarian option (eggs), but because of Covid difficulties and the fact that half of the kids were not choosing meat, they choose to completely remove it. So they forced kids to not eat meat but didn't force vegetarianism, nor veganism as there is fish but that was caused by the pandemic difficulties and the general eating preferences rather than ideology. Meat is a huge part of French culture, so removing it is like attacking the country. What is ridiculous is that the previous mayor (who is from the same party as the one who is criticizing) did the same thing before to deal with Covid challenges.

Adult Kids Most people are kids. Even in their 50s, 60s, and beyond, most of them are kids. From one perspective I feel like I'm dealing with children every day, from another perspective, I feel like I'm also a kid (but with a natural wise trait) who has a lot of growing to do and who doesn't know how to handle many basic things. Damn... life is paradoxical, complex, and nuanced.

22/05/2021 (Week 4) If I am more accepting of my body... I'll feel more relaxed in my body I'll let go of tensions in my body I'll be happier to have the body that I have I'll move more lightly I'll feel lighter I'll be more in peace with my body I'll use better my body If I deny and disown my body... I create conflicts within myself I feel heavy I don't feel comfortable I feel tense I create unhappiness I create shame I'm uncomfortable when dealing with people If I deny or disown my conflicts... I keep these conflicts inside me I maintain anger I perpetuate bitterness I'm moving away from solving them I'm moving away from improving my life I feel like I need to fight with the world I create conflicts in my entourage I feel more and more conflicted every day If I am more accepting of all the parts of me... I feel better I can heal myself I am more accepting of others I am more at peace with myself I'll improve my aptitudes in life I'll breathe better I'll relax better

22 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 05:30 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:25 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:38 AM - 09:58 AM I listed a bunch of things to do and did some optimization work Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 20 minutes 10:15 AM - 11:20 AM I continued the optimization work Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 5 minutes 11:29 AM - 12:34 AM I continued the previous work Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 5 minutes 07:02 PM - 08:30 PM I had a call with a client Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 28 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 01:44 PM - 02:44 PM I did some changes to the web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 02:59 PM - 04:02 PM I continued working on the app. I distracted myself a bit Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 3 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 7 hours 1 minute, including 2 hours 3 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

Yes, and ideology too, and there is a vegetarian option as they are proposing eggs. I think a vegetarian option should exist in all schools. Cultures need to evolve because over-consumption of meat is a huge environmental issue and can cause health issues too.

I didn't add some context from this French article: https://www.lemonde.fr/politique/article/2021/02/21/a-lyon-le-menu-vegetarien-des-ecologistes-dans-les-cantines-n-est-pas-au-gout-du-gouvernement_6070738_823448.html Here are some points from this article: The previous mayor (from the same party of the one who is criticizing the decision) already took this decision in May 2020 in order to ensure all meals distribution. But for some reason when the mayor of the Green party take the same decision, it's unacceptable Covid restrictions played in as there is now a two-meter distance separation between kids that is causing time handling difficulties and is restricting the service of more diverse plates Half of the students were are not choosing meat I personally don't think that removing meat completely is appropriate even though half of the kids were not choosing it. In this case, they could have reduced the meat ratio to maybe 40% or 30% even if this is difficult because of Covid.

It is highly interconnected to culture, it is one of the first thing a kid taste from the culture he/she was born in, and when we want to discover a new culture we try its food. I got highly criticized for being vegetarian in the past. One day I told someone that when it comes to food, I combine the best ingredients that I can find from any culture to get the highest quality meals and the person responded that it was bad to not eat like the culture.

I need to fix to work traumas, it will help me to work better and to take work as a way to get fulfillment from life.

Balancing Holons Sometimes some sub-holons need to be taked care for the greater holon good: fixing past traumas, sacrificing an addiction, sacrificing some thoughts. I need to fix some past traumas in sub-holons, for me as a human entity and as a greater holon to work better.

21/02/2021 (Week 4) If any of what I wrote this week is true, it might be helpful if I... discipline myself even when it's tough am more decisive single task completely immerge myself in the activity that I'm doing accept my flaws fully accept my mistakes accept to change accept to take responsibility accept others imperfections do everything to attain my goals

Weekly Statistics (15 February 2021 - 21 February 2021) Total Working Hours 23 hours 25 minutes Average Focus 3.46 / 5

21 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:09 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:11 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today Average Focus: ~ / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

I recently thought about this as I started to get bored of spiral dynamics and was tired of seeing it so much on this forum. I think people refer so much about spiral dynamics because it can easily be used to unconsciously put other people in broad categories. The 9 Stages of Ego Development was more personal and accurate from what I can remember, but I still need to go back to the videos because I forgot many things about it.

Male / Female Perceptual Discrepancies Interesting.

20/02/2021 (Week 4) If any of what I wrote this week is true, it might be helpful if I... single task bring intense focus to the activity that I'm doing fully accept me no matter my flaws and imperfections fully accept others no matter their flaws and imperfections am willing to correct mistakes am willing to persevere in the face of difficulties relax and take things slowly

20 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 05:38 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:22 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 01:33 PM - 03:00 PM I did some work on the web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 27 minutes Didn't sleep of the entire night, couldn't work properly. Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 1 hour 27 minutes, including 1 hour 27 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

Stage yellow is like a healthy parent watching carefully millions of kids in the hope that they don't blow everything up.

19/02/2021 (Week 4) If I bring a higher level of self-esteem to my activities today... I'll be more focused in my activities I'll be happier to work I'll easily generate flow states I'll produce high-quality work I'll get more fulfillment from my activities I'll let go of distractions I'll increase my understanding of my activities If I bring a higher level of self-esteem to my dealings with people today... I'll have more compassion for others difficulties I'll be fairer with people I'll put proper boundaries I'll appreciate more the company of other people people will appreciate more my company I'll be more genuine I'll build better quality relationships I'll build more sustainable relationships If I am 5 percent more self-accepting today... I'll feel better I'll feel better even though I have my imperfections I'll be more relax I'll have more consciousness when dealing with situations I'll appreciate life more I'll do the prerequisite to take responsibility I'll go through my day effortlessly If I am self-accepting even when I make mistakes... I'll accept not being perfect I'll recognize that I can learn from others it'll be fun to correct them I'll be more able to correct mistakes I'll be more able to help myself I'll feel at peace If I am self-accepting even when I feel confused and overwhelmed... I'll breathe when I'll feel confused and overwhelmed I'll relax when I'll feel confused and overwhelmed I'll try to distance myself from being overwhelmed by relaxing and taking a break in order to have a big picture understanding of what's not working in order to solve it I'll accept having difficulties I'll let go of the needs for things to always be perfect I'll be able to get back on track faster I'll continue even in the middle of difficult moments

19 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 05:30 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:16 AM - 10:06 AM I responded to two persons Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 50 minutes 07:17 PM - 07:21 PM I responded to a person Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 4 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:32 AM - 12:02 AM I worked on the small web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 30 minutes 02:37 PM - 04:01 PM I continued the work on the web app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 24 minutes 04:10 PM - 04:40 PM I worked on the app and did a few checks Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 30 minutes Almost didn't sleep of the entire night, went to the gym at 6 AM, and therefore had trouble to work in the afternoon. Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 4 hours 18 minutes, including 2 hours 24 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

I want to figure the shit out of this world.