Raphael

How Can We Determine a Person’s Psychological Healthiness? This is brillant.

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I feel like LinkedIn is Orange / Green.

From my perspective, it looks like the US is imploding. Do you feel hope sometimes?

01/03/2021 (Week 6) If I wanted to raise my self-esteem today, I could... follow the rules that I set for my life put intense focus in my work be more authentic discipline myself bring a little of humor to my social interactions appreciate social interactions consider my work as sacred appreciate my work If I am more accepting of my feelings... I accept to experience all of them I accept difficult emotions I'll move up the emotional scale faster I'll share more with people I'll share more what I feel I'll enjoy being emotional If I deny and disown my feelings... I keep what I am within myself I create tensions in my body I create resistance I contribute to compulsive behaviors I avoid myself I feel bad I feel constrained If I am more accepting of my thoughts... I'll accept undesirable thoughts I'll accept beautiful thoughts I'll recognize when I have genius ideas I contribute to have clear thoughts I accept who I am I feel more authentic If I deny and disown my thoughts... I deny the use of my mind I close myself to one of my best asset I don't use my mind to its fullest I create tics I prevent my mind from developing itself I remove a part of my life

01 March 2021 Wake Up Time: 05:30 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 08:24 AM - 10:01 AM I created a Notion template in order to keep track of my working time Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 37 minutes 10:22 AM - 11:37 AM I did some improvements on a website Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 1 hour 15 minutes 11:44 AM - 12:14 AM I wanted to correct broken links on the website, but the plugin didn't work. I need to find another solution Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 30 minutes 01:20 PM - 02:23 PM I corrected the broken links on the website. I also corrected a bug on a Node.js API Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 2 minutes 08:26 PM - 08:30 PM I responded to a client Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 4 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 02:30 PM - 03:35 PM I went back to working on Twitter login integration Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 5 minutes 03:41 PM - 04:25 PM I continued the previous work Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 44 minutes @Raphael Congratulations! That was a great day of work Average Focus: 3.53 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 17 minutes, including 1 hour 51 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

Weekly Statistics (22 February 2021 - 28 February 2021) Total Working Hours 27 hours 18 minutes Average Focus 3.45 / 5

28 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 05:55 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:25 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today Average Focus: ~ / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

28/05/2021 (Week 5) I any of what I wrote this week is true, it might be helpful if I... accept unconditionally my body breath let my body language be authentic let go of social pressure when moving in public accept my conflicts take responsibility to heal my traumas heal myself accept the parts of me that I currently deny integrate all parts of me in order to become whole and fully realized

Pros / Cons of Living Where I Live Pros: Covid free: the government took very strict actions, very quickly as soon as we got our first cases, so in just 1 - 2 months we were out of the pandemic and only had one local case that didn't proliferate since then. There are no restrictions and even if wearing masks is recommended, most people don't wear them and we are fine. The fact that the country is very small and is an island also helped in handling the pandemic Warm weather all year Beautiful beaches Slow pace lifestyle Peaceful and politically stable Cons: Too low-conscious people: the population is probably around 10% red, 50% blue, 35% orange, 5% green. Yellow is probably less than 0.5% or less than 0.25%. It's extremely difficult for me to relate to people, I often get demonized when trying to share just a little of healthy stage orange ideas. Even blue is not properly integrated, there's a lack of politeness, respect, discipline, and organization. The country is trying to move too fast. Low-quality infrastructure: there's a lack of quality roads, there are most of the time no sidewalks. Public transportation is a mess, we have dirty buses with no way to know about their schedule except by asking other people. The government delivers water only at specific times of the day, so each house needs to make stocks before the water gets cut off. It has been that way since I was born. Lack of basic politeness: often times words like "Hello", "Goodmorning", "Please", "Thank you" don't even exist. Many people are very rude and lack basic education Lack of environmental concern: many people don't care at all about the environment. They throw their trash everywhere, sometimes they throw their trash aside bins Dirty and lack of general hygiene Not enough rules: people just don't care. They don't care when someone is walking on a pedestrian crossing and continue to drive their car without slowing down. They don't care about keeping a calm neighborhood and often time put loud music at night. They don't care about having a minimum organization and are often late which results in a mess No respect for individuality: anyone who doesn't do or doesn't know the exact same thing as the group gets demonized. One day I got insulted because I didn't know an ice cream brand, another day I got racists insult because I asked if they all celebrate Christmas. There's a lot of group pressure and a lot of family pressure to conform. Low salaries: something like at least ~50% of people don't even earn $500 / month Too isolated and very small: as we are a small tropical island, we are very disconnected from the "main world", when I purchase something from Amazon it can take from weeks to months to come. There is not a lot of diverse activities because the population is very small. This list might look bad, but it isn't that bad in practice, and I'm overall enjoying good living conditions. I consider that I'm extremely lucky as I had the opportunity to go to high-quality schools when I was a kid. I don't live in a third-world country, nor a first-world country. They are a lot of work to do in this country and many basic infrastructures need to be built and/or improved.

Lately, the French minister of interior criticized the removal of the meat based meal option in Lyon's schools. He said it was an "unacceptable insult" for French farmers and butchers and added: "We can see that the moralising and elitist policy of the Greens excludes the popular classes. Many children often only get to eat meat at the school canteen. The agriculture minister also tweeted "Let's stop putting ideology on our children's plates" and "Let's just give them what they need to grow well. Meat is part of it.". The city mayor responded that the menus still include fish and egg products and so are "balanced for all our schoolchildren. https://www.dw.com/en/vegetarian-school-lunches-spark-row-in-france/a-56645068 It's not the first time that vegetarianism and veganism created political tensions in France. This 2018 article reports that butchers asked government's protection from vegans accusing them of trying to shut down the country's traditional meat-eating culture https://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-44623399

27/05/2021 (Week 5) I any of what I wrote this week is true, it might be helpful if I... accept my body unconditionally no matter its flaws relax my body let my body language be authentic accept my flaws breath profoundly accept my conflicts take responsibility to heal take responsibility to handle my conflicts take responsibility to unite all parts of myself and become whole again

27 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 05:30 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: ~ PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 02:01 PM - 02:00 PM Did some accounting, some testing, and some research Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 59 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 03:09 PM - 04:34 PM I started doing some work on Twitter login implementation. I had a lot of unrelated and difficult thoughts Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 25 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 2 hours 24 minutes, including 1 hour 25 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

I just heard a story about a girl that I know. What happened is that her mom married a violent man. This man tried to touch her sexually when she was a kid and her mom was very afraid that something worst could happen. One day when she was still a kid she went back home with another adult and she saw her dad beating her mom with a huge stick. Her mom then run away from the house, entered the car, and escaped, but she ended up at the hospital with broken ribs. After she got out of the hospital she was too physically damaged to do anything, so her girl had to care about her even though she was only a kid (maybe less than 12 years old). Many years ago when this girl was coming to the house to play with my sister, her mom would call to be sure that she was in security. It was important for her that her girl doesn't get out of the house without adults in case if she met her dad.

26/05/2021 (Week 5) If I am more accepting of my body... I'll relax my body I'll open my body more I'll have a more natural body language I'll be more comfortable being myself I'll be more comfortable while walking in public I'll feel happier I'll breathe more deeply If I deny and disown my body... I entertain fear I put unrealistic standards I feel conflicted I feel agitated I'm afraid of myself I contribute to an agitated mind I have trouble doing what I want to do I feel uncomfortable with people I feel uncomfortable with women If I deny or disown my conflicts... I entertain pain I entertain low consciousness I feel agitated I'm preventing myself from being great I feel anxious I avoid myself I have trouble to work I have trouble creating results If I am more accepting of all the parts of me... I start reuniting my different parts I heal myself I feel accepting I feel whole I can make progress as my parts ain't fighting with each other I feel light I'm accepting my imperfections I can make change happen

26 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 05:57 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: ~ PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 11:03 AM - 11:55 AM I responded to a few persons, updated my Upwork profile, updated my website Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 52 minutes 12:57 AM - 02:00 AM I did some research. Looks like I will not be able to implement the Twitter related functionalities that I expected because of API limitations Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 3 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 02:10 PM - 03:22 PM I worked on Instagram accounts connection, I did a lot of progress Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes 03:28 PM - 04:23 PM I continued the work on Instagram. It looks good, I will do some testing tomorrow Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 55 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 4 hours 2 minutes, including 2 hours 7 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

Flaws Here's a list of flaws that I have: Sense of superiority Arrogance A little too argumentative. I feel like I want to fight or defend myself against people in order to win Social anxiety Too much isolated Too much disconnected from "common people" (stage blue/orage) reality Too much stuck in my mind and dependant on mental models (spiral dynamics, MBTI, etc.) Too much theory, not enough practice and action taking Agitated and disorganized mind Difficulty to organize myself Difficulty to control cravings for the internet Lack of discipline Some of these flaws correspond pretty well to the INTP personality type flaws, which is my personality type. I don't necessarily show these flaws to the external world because I'm very isolated and also don't want to create tensions everywhere I go, but I feel them within me. I want to cultivate more and more humbleness and acceptance, it simply feels better than arrogance.

And I'm glad that I'm aware of it.

And I'm blown away by how much ego I showed in this thread.

25/05/2021 (Week 5) If I am more accepting of my body... I'm more authentic I'm more connected to who I'm really are I'm accepting my physical imperfections I'll feel better in my body I'll be more relax I'll take care of my posture I'll be more comfortable while walking in public If I deny and disown my body... I enter in conflict with myself I feel cut into pieces I create pain I create anxiety I'm limiting possibilities to improve my body I limit my possibilities in life If I deny or disown my conflicts... I'm avoiding my conflicts I'm entertaining pain within myself I'm less authentic I keep pain I project my conflicts on other people I don't give my best self to others I also create conflicts in my social relationships If I am more accepting of all the parts of me... I feel better I open room for progress I create peace with myself I feel whole I'm more authentic I feel more comfortable around people I move fluently in life I'm more flexible in navigating life

25 February 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:20 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:31 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:57 AM - 12:02 AM I did a little of accounting, sent a resume to a client, and checked job opportunities Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 5 minutes 01:26 PM - 03:02 PM I did some exploration of Twitter's API and subscribed to two developer newsletter Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 46 minutes 03:09 PM - 04:25 PM I continued doing my research until I emptied my willpower. I almost didn't sleep of this night too, I'm completely exhausted Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 16 minutes I really need to discipline myself and shut everything down 45 minutes before going to bed. I see no other things to do to increase my sleep quality. Average Focus: 3.33 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 4 hours 7 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

Everyday I'm blown away by how dumb I was yesterday.

Haha I actually consider that this is also the case in France. When I was studying there, I was blown away by how much sugar was presented to students. They were also french fries available every day and the other choice would be rice, pasta, or something similar. But they were most of the time no vegetarian meals.

@soos_mite_ah As usual, they are thousands of factors working together But, I still think that some people are naturally more gifted than others. Wise people with better clarity of mind existed since the beginning of humanity. They were able to more easily understand how life works regardless of their environment and era even though they were limited like others by their circumstances. I think this applies to all human characteristics: some people have naturally more muscle, some are naturally a little more physically attractive, some have long legs that allow them to run faster, etc.

24/05/2021 (Week 5) If I am more accepting of my body... I'll be more comfortable with my body I'll take care of my posture I'll relax more my body I'll feel more comfortable when walking in the street I'll appreciate my body more I'll treat my body with respect If I deny and disown my body... I enter in conflict with myself I feel more anxious I feel uncomfortable I entertain a low self-esteem I separate myself from myself I don't feel good If I deny or disown my conflicts... I'm entertaining my conflicts I'm avoiding my conflicts I keep a low quality of life I accumulate difficult emotions in my body I don't make progress in life I entertain fear If I am more accepting of all the parts of me... I'll reunite these parts in myself I feel whole I can easily make progress I open myself to growth I feel better I feel happier