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These girls were normal stage blue girls. And yeah, I also think they laughed because it showed a "strong man" being masculine and just wanted to follow the masculine energy.

@Bando @Willie This thread is more about understanding some female reactions than me. Yeah, I think it was more a joke to them in a sense, but in another sense I think it was also voluntarily. I noticed that within guys when someone feels bad in life, at least 1 out of 10 guys (who will be a little more narcissistic) will start to pick on him and bully him, than the others will follow to not be seen as the weak bullied one. In one of the office, I consider that it was voluntarily because I got continually bullied there and the boss would be the bully in chief who would traumatize all employees.

Downright mean, but it also looks like it was funny for them. From one perspective it seemed like they didn't really understood how I felt, but at the same time these kind of stuff always happened to me when I felt bad in life. Similar things happened when I was a kid at school in moments where I suffered from a lot of depression. It looks like people don't like when someone feels bad and want to kill him with words.

07/03/2021 (Week 6) I any of what I wrote this week is true, it might be helpful if I... take responsibility to heal my traumas accept my lack of self-esteem take responsibility to raise my self-esteem accept my emotions share my emotions feel my emotions put intense focus in my activities focus on one thing at the time accept to be great am more loving of myself am more loving of others

Weekly Statistics (01 March 2021 - 07 March 2021) Total Working Hours 27 hours 30 minutes Average Focus 3.45 / 5

07 March 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:10 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: ~ PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today Average Focus: ~ / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

Limitations of Stage Orange Self-Help Very good videos.

Because everything is imagination, and as imagination is infinite we can develop to infinity and beyond human possibilities. However, self-development until infinity is like being a hamster in a wheel: we never get satisfied and it becomes frustrating and irritating at a point. This is the reason why life is at the same time infinite and finite, and is at the same time everything and nothing, it is a needed feature to create a balance. Being too much stuck in self-development until infinity gets toxic at the moment, but being too stuck in a motionless life also gets toxic at a moment. The key is to balance what we are doing accordingly to the phase of life that we are in, like 80% in motion and 20% not in motion, or 70% in motion and 30% not in motion, or 30% in motion and 70% not in motion. Examples: Going to the gym 3 days a week: most of the time not in motion, but a few times per week in motion Working 30 hours/week: most of the time not in motion, but many times in motion Reading for 1 hour/day: most of the time not in motion, but many times in motion Cooking for 1h30/day: most of the time not in motion, but many times in motion etc... The accumulation of all these activities creates a moving life where we are most of the time in motion, but sometimes it becomes too much and we need to become motionless and have a break.

How can we self-develop if there is no self?

Sunday is my bullshit day: no work, no personal development. Only a little of distraction and relaxation. And it feels great.

I have two mentally ill people in my house: my dad and grandma. My mom is the only person with who I can have a normal conversation. Of course, she doesn't know about self-help nor self-actualization, but still, I consider her great and it feels great to have some normal, average, genuine conversations. I love you mom.

06/03/2021 (Week 6) I any of what I wrote this week is true, it might be helpful if I... accept to raise my self-esteem take responsibility to raise my self-esteem put intense focus in what I'm doing put intense focus in my work accept my emotions experience my emotions exercise my mind am confident in my ability to use my mind effectively

06 March 2021 Wake Up Time: 05:50 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:31 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 10:49 AM - 12:20 AM Worked on the restructuration of a project, but distracted myself and had a lot of unrelated thoughts Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 31 minutes 01:24 PM - 02:43 PM I continued the work on the structure. I did some progress, but I still have a lot of bugs Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 19 minutes 02:56 PM - 04:24 PM I still have similar issues. I'm going to simplify things in order to stop wasting time Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 28 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 4 hours 18 minutes, including 4 hours 18 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

05/03/2021 (Week 6) If I wanted to raise my self-esteem today, I could... meditate profoundly work with high intensity relax my body let my body language be authentic be assertive with people breath profoundly If I am more accepting of my feelings... I'm opening myself to experiencing life I'll have more abilities to recognize my emotions I'll be more able to develop emotional mastery I'll feel better I'll move up on the emotional scale I'll grow faster If I deny and disown my feelings... I cut myself into pieces I feel less authentic I entertain pain I feel resistance I keep too much weight inside me I limit my ability to live life to it's fullest If I am more accepting of my thoughts... my thoughts would be clearer my thoughts would be better organized I'll be happy my use my thoughts I'll become better at using my thoughts my thoughts would become more and more sophisticated every day it will be easier for me to solve life problems If I deny and disown my thoughts... I'm refusing to exercise my mind I'm repressing my genius I remove my best asset from my life I feel less authentic I lose my ability to deal with some problems I deny and disown myself

05 March 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:30 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:11 AM - 10:32 AM I had a pretty long call with a client Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 21 minutes 10:50 AM - 12:08 AM I responded to a person, did some research, tried to fix a bug, and distracted myself a little too much Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 18 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 01:13 PM - 02:29 PM I wanted to fix some issues but didn't succeed. I also was too distracted because I was talking to my sister at the same time Focus: 2.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 16 minutes 02:35 PM - 03:40 PM Tried to fix some bugs, had a conversation, but distracted myself too much Focus: 2.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 5 minutes 04:08 PM - 04:39 PM I started changing the structure of a project Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 31 minutes 07:28 PM - 08:34 PM I worked on interface separation Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 6 minutes Average Focus: 3.08 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 37 minutes, including 3 hours 58 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

04/03/2021 (Week 6) If I wanted to raise my self-esteem today, I could... do a little of work even though I feel like crap because I didn't sleep take things slowly put intense focus to what I'm doing do things slowly relax be kind with myself accept my imperfections If I am more accepting of my feelings... I'll handle my emotions more easily I'll develop more emotional mastery I'll experience difficult emotions I'll release trapped difficult emotions I'll feel more in peace with myself I'll more easily make progress in life If I deny and disown my feelings... I'm disconnecting myself from myself I'm disconnecting myself from other people I create resistance in my body I entertain pain I don't feel authentic I entertain addictions If I am more accepting of my thoughts... I'll have better control of my mind I'll be more efficient in using my mind I'll have clearer thought patterns I'll accept difficult thoughts I'll create more positive thoughts I'll realize that my mind can be use to create happiness If I deny and disown my thoughts... my mind feels less clear my thoughts are agitated I have difficulties making decisions I have difficulties to create happiness I have difficulties to work I cut a part of myself I feel conflicted

04 March 2021 Wake Up Time: 07:15 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:31 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 11:33 AM -11:45 AM I shared some posts on social networks Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 12 minutes 02:23 PM - 03:52 PM I started to replace keywords on a website Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 29 minutes 04:01 PM - 04:18 PM I finished replacing the keywords Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 17 minutes I have a deep fear inside me that sometimes causes backslashes. This is what happened yesterday. I wanted to go to bed, but got some cravings for porn. I went watch some porn and as I expected it made me incredibly agitated and bring the fear out. I was unable to sleep because I was feeling so much fear, so I watch dumb things on Youtube until 1:00 AM. The result was a sleepless night and an unproductive day. Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 1 hour 58 minutes, including 1 hour 58 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

What you are doing is very courageous, continue.

I don't think that it's useful to discuss so much about the details because George Floyd's case isn't isolated. The issue is that there is a general criminality and racism problem in the US. I also don't think that making the police more sensitive to other people difficulties (even though it will surely avoid some situations) will solve the problem because when a disproportionate amount of a country's population is at a low level of consciousness the police needs to adapt and to be tough in order to not get overblown. A policeman cannot trust an aggressive and/or deranged person and expect him to calm down, nor always handle a person peacefully. However, it's certainly possible to avoid creating these kinds of situations by fixing the base through actions like: financial help for people who are the most in need increasing salaries free and high-quality education for everyone, everywhere free and mandatory psychological follow-ups banning guns marketing to bring consciousness about these issues more multiculturalism I think it will naturally happen through the next 50 - 100 years. We just need to be patient.

We need to find another way to communicate than through social media, all the mainstream platforms are garbage. I feel like an incompetency crisis is coming as more and more people from Gen Z with low focus and work ethic is entering the job market, and it will not get better with Gen Alpha. Millions of people are currently struggling around the world because they have ADHD caused by social medias. It will have an economic impact and will impact the stability of societies if governments don't take this issue seriously. Sometimes I see 3 or 4 years old kids with smartphones, their parents aren't conscious of all the harm they are causing to them. Serious news websites with more written and in-depth analysis are currently the best news sources.

03/03/2021 (Week 6) If I wanted to raise my self-esteem today, I could... slow down relax breath profoundly take more time when doing my activities bring more intensity to my activities put intense focus to what I'm doing be kind while properly balancing assertiveness when communicating with people focus on one thing at the time If I am more accepting of my feelings... I'm more able to recognize my emotions I'm more able to see where I am on the emotional scale I can easily move up the emotional scale I can develop more and more emotional mastery I would open myself more to people I would share more easily my feelings I can more easily direct my life If I deny and disown my feelings... I create conflicts within myself I create resistance within myself I entertain fear within myself I entertain pain within myself I keep myself separated in different parts I keep myself away from authenticity I keep myself away from emotional mastery I don't live life to its fullest If I am more accepting of my thoughts... I'll have a clearer mind I'll have more facilities to organize my thoughts I accept to experience my thoughts I'll accept some of my difficult thoughts I'll try to understand where some of my disgusting thoughts are coming from I'll be able to heal my mind If I deny and disown my thoughts... I refuse to experience life I refuse to understand myself I move away from myself I refuse to exercise my mind I contribute to lowering my cognitive abilities I'm refusing to acknowledge my biases I refuse to evolve I entertain a low-quality life

03 March 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:06 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:50 AM - 12:38 AM I responded to a client and fixed some issues Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 48 minutes 02:09 PM - 02:50 PM Corrected some bugs on a website Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 41 minutes 07:37 PM - 08:12 PM I responded to a client and shared an article on social media Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 35 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 3 hours 4 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

Thoughts on Loneliness -- Daniel Mackler

I'm going to argue the opposite. I think that in 5 minutes just by looking at someone or listening to someone it's already possible to have a taste of how healthy someone is. In 5 minutes, I can already know that someone like Sadhguru is overall very healthy and someone like Trump is overall very unhealthy.

I just want to share this. I found his explanations brilliant.