Raphael

I live in an African country and I consider it to be more developed than most countries on the planet. Of course, it's not as developed as Europe or North America and people are mostly at stage blue, but it's overall better than Asia, South America and the rest of Africa. I consider it to be safer than the US. We don't get shot in the street and we have free health care for everyone. I don't think that European exploitation of Africa is the only reason for the general lack of development. Europe was already more advanced than most of Africa before the first encounters, Europe was already at stage blue where Africa was mostly at stage purple. Leo mentioned in the past that the geography and difficult natural conditions of the continent is behind the low development, I agree with him and I think that it's the best explanation so far. Many things influences human development: geography, meteorological conditions, the plants and animals around, even the food that people eat.

I'm integrating green better and better every day, especially when it comes to understanding emotions.

25/03/2021 (Week 9) If I am more accepting of my excitement... I'll be excited I'll do things that excites me I'll be more motivated I'll bring more joy to my life I'll connect to my joyful inner child I'll share my excitement I'll let myself be authentic I'll deeply appreciate life If I deny and disown my excitement... I close myself from happiness I don't experience my emotions properly I hurt myself I feel restricted I don't live life fully I hurt my business I hurt my work If I am more accepting of my intelligence... I'll use fully my intelligence I'll nurture my intelligence I'll take better decisions I'll work better I'll use my intelligence to help people I'll use my intelligence to help myself I'll use my intelligence to experience life to its fullest I'll be super effective If I deny and disown my intelligence... I remove a part of myself I have more difficulties to deal with life I create my own pain I stay stuck in life I have difficulties making decisions I waste my life

25 March 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:06 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:02 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 11:44 AM - 11:57 AM I did a few checks on a website Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 13 minutes 12:57 AM - 02:42 PM I worked on CLS optimization, but distracted myself too much Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 45 minutes 02:50 PM - 04:01 PM I continued the CLS optimization Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes 04:07 PM - 04:40 PM Did a few other checks related to CLS optimization Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 33 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 08:49 AM - 09:53 AM I did a bit of accountability and worked on my app Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 4 minutes 10:10 AM - 11:43 AM I worked on the layout of my app, I also created a pull request and merged it Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 33 minutes Average Focus: 3.33 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 19 minutes, including hours minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

Experiencing Cravings When we try to drop a bad habit or an addiction we always feel some cravings, and we usually try to deal with them by resisting them... but it doesn't work. I recently noticed that it's better to embrace cravings rather than resisting them. Cravings aren't good or bad, but a natural emotional response from the body. Someone needs to go through emotions to grow. What I also noticed is that experiencing cravings feels better than resisting cravings and makes things much easier and faster. So... when dealing with cravings, sit and experience all the difficult emotions. Feel them, embrace them, go through them until you burn them.

I find feminity sometimes more attractive than a good look. There's a pornstar that I watch sometimes, I don't know what happened to her but she is now so hypermasculine that even if she is a 10 in terms of look I don't find her attractive.

My biggest joke is that I don't know how to make jokes.

24/03/2021 (Week 9) If I am more accepting of my excitement... I'll smile more I'll bring more joy to my life I'll bring more joy to people I'm more able to deal with my stuff I'll be more positive in my life I'll work better I'll be happy to work I'll work like god because I am god If I deny and disown my excitement... I deny my true nature I don't feel motivated I doesn't handle emotions properly I am angry I don't feel authentic I am not myself If I am more accepting of my intelligence... I'll understand that I'm highly intelligent I'll understand that my intelligence can make people fearful I'll nurture my intelligence I'll use my intelligence to help others my intelligence would skyrocket I'll easily deal with life I'll combine thoughts, emotions, intuition, and awareness together I'll be ruthless effective in life I'll create infinite joy If I deny and disown my intelligence... I feel sad I have trouble getting shit done I have difficulties navigating through life I feel inauthentic I cannot help others properly I feel selfish

24 March 2021 Wake Up Time: 07:34 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: ~ PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today Average Focus: ~ / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

No One I currently wonder why Leo's recent videos on Holism and Meta Thinking are supposed to be advanced stuff, I consider them to be the basics of life. As a kid, I already knew that things were deeply interconnected and needed to be balanced properly. I always sensed that they were something wrong in cultures and identities. I intuitively knew that being attached to any cultural identity is inauthentic. When I was a teenager I took the decision to be no one in life, to stay highly observant of people, to carefully analyze their biases, and to never have an identity. Of course, even if I say that it doesn't mean that I did things properly, but I always had a pretty high ability to sense truth from bullshit.

It happened to me to have a few thoughts of doing a mass shooting in the past or of killing some people. Nothing serious, but a few thoughts anyway. People like this aren't healthy, they need to stop being demonized and get serious psychological help and care.

I didn't watch the video, but I already thought about this in the past. Sometimes I wonder if getting rid of the ego is possible. Everyone have to deal with survival, even woke people. Ego is a survival mechanism, so by this logic removing it isn't possible. However, we can nurture it, purify it, so that it becomes more and more authentic. This would high-conscious ego rather than low-conscious ego, being whole rather than being separated into a small identity.

Because Blue is so dumb that it makes it interesting to study. Personally, dumb things bother me a lot and I want to do everything to understand them so that I don't make the same mistakes.

23/03/2021 (Week 9) If I am more accepting of my excitement... I'll share my excitement I'll bring more joy to my life I'll dance I'll connect to my inner child I'll be more enthusiastic I'll be open about my excitement I'll attract people I'll make people happy I'll make myself happy If I deny and disown my excitement... I remove joy of my life I feel less motivated I feel cold and distant to other people I remove pleasure of my life I work less efficiently I restraint my emotions I feel sad I don't feel authentic If I am more accepting of my intelligence... I'll use my intelligence effectively I'll use my intelligence to create massive success I'll help others by using my intelligence I'll become more and more intelligent I'll attract what I want in life I'll recognize that I'm a gifted, highly intelligent person I'll get joy from using my mind I'll get joy from using my intuition If I deny and disown my intelligence... I limit my capacity to deal with life I have much more chances to stay stuck in life I feel restricted I feel sad I don't feel authentic I cannot help others properly I cannot help myself properly I let go of one of my best assets in life

23 March 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:16 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: ~ PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:09 AM - 10:06 AM I did some tests and some research on Cumulative Layout Shift and Largest Contentful Paint Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 57 minutes 10:22 AM - 12:05 AM I worked on the layout optimization of a website Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 43 minutes 01:01 PM - 02:41 PM I continued the work on the website, but it caused some bugs. Someone informed me that we need to find another solution because the site have a lot of traffic Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 40 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 02:48 PM - 04:38 PM I did some design improvement on my app, but I also distracted myself too much Focus: 2.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 50 minutes @Raphael Great work, but remember to stay focused. And if you have to suffer through it, suffer through it. Average Focus: 3.25 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 10 minutes, including hours minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

@Preety_India Press tab when you are at least at the second bullet. Example: Bullet 1 Bullet 2 (tab) Bullet 3 (tab)

22/03/2021 (Week 9) If I am more accepting of my excitement... I'll experience my excitement I'll share more my excitement I'll do the things that excite me I'll let my body being excited I'll share more joy around I'll attract more people I'll make people happy I'll make myself happy If I deny and disown my excitement... I repress healthy emotions I feel restricted I feel sad I don't appreciate life I remove joy from my life I stay cold from other people I stay alienated from other people I fail to make friends If I am more accepting of my intelligence... I'll share more my thoughts I'll try to explain things at the level that people are at I'll use fully my intelligence I'll be more accepting in dealing with life I won't be ashamed of my intelligence I'll be happier to use my intelligence If I deny and disown my intelligence... I remove my greatest asset from my life I let stupid people take decisions for me I fail more often in life I feel sad I fell repressed I waste my life I close myself from people

22 March 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:54 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:31 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 02:35 PM - 03:46 PM I had a creative thinking session where I thought about an interface design. I created a mockup and also did some design research. I want the design to be so simple that anything else feels painful to use Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 08:51 AM - 09:58 AM I fixed some bugs on my web app but had a lot of unrelated thoughts. It's probably caused by my sleepless night Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 7 minutes 10:23 AM - 11:54 AM I continued fixing bugs on the web app. Still had a lot of thoughts Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 31 minutes 01:10 PM - 02:28 PM I continued the work on my app, but also distracted myself a bit Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 18 minutes 03:54 PM - 04:51 PM I started implementing a new page layout on the app. I also had a communication with a client Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 57 minutes @Raphael Sleep was pretty bad, but you pushed through it and had a great working day overall. Congratulations mate! Average Focus: 3.3 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 4 minutes, including 4 hours 53 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)

@Preety_India It's fine, you can do it.

@Preety_India I also did a bit of self-talk here.

@Preety_India I did some of that in this journal. Page 15 and 17 for example.

@twoosees Looks like we aren't that far away mate. It's nice to see actualizers from this continent.

21/03/2021 (Week 8) I any of what I wrote this week is true, it might be helpful if I... find the source of my anger find a healthy way to express my anger realize that my anger hides pain and traumas take responsibility to resolve my traumas take ownership of my sexuality accept having sexual needs try to find a partner

Weekly Statistics (15 March 2021 - 21 March 2021) Total Working Hours 30 hours 44 minutes Average Focus 3.46 / 5

21 March 2021 Wake Up Time: 05:48 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:50 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today Average Focus: ~ / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours) Total Reading Time: 0 minutes (I'm not reading anything currently)