Raphael

26 May 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:56 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:15 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ❌ No social media until 7 PM ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 10:30 AM - 12:07 AM I improved a small web app, and started working on Twitter publish API. I distracted myself a bit too much. Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 37 minutes 01:06 PM - 02:37 PM I worked on Twitter integration. I also distracted myself too much. Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 31 minutes 04:20 PM - 06:00 PM I'm a bit demotivated to work today. Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 40 minutes My mood was a bit low today and I also didn't sleep well at night. Average Focus: 3 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 4 hours 48 minutes, including 4 hours 48 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours)

Holistic Work Ethic Work ethic is holistic. I have been dealing with a lot of difficult thoughts in the past that affected my ability to focus until things started to get better recently. I did some forgiveness to release past traumas and started to have less and less difficult thoughts. A few days ago I started to eat less, I notably reduced my quantity of rice and I noticed that it reduced the monkey mind a lot. I intuitively felt that there was a connection between digestion and thoughts. When I eat a lot my intestines works a lot and it results in thoughts storms, when I eat less my intestines works less, I feel lighter, my mind feels much more clearer and my ability to focus is better. I also feel less and less the need to cope by using social media, reading the news, or watching porn, and it feels great. The attitude of pushing through it even if it's difficult is unhealthy stage orange. It works when someone is healthy: eat healthy, exercise properly, don't have any huge traumatic baggage. The people who aren't highly healthy and who are able to do that have incredible willpower and even if they have incredible willpower, their work is most of the time not the best quality work. Being healthy and having a powerful system is simpler and more rewarding than pushing through it like an animal.

Simple Tips to Improve Work Ethic Clear past traumas as most as possible: do breathwork, forgiveness, talk therapy, shadow work, etc. It will reduce parasite thoughts and improve mental clarity Eat healthy Exercise regularly Wake up and go to bed at the same time Change environment Remove distractions: people, social medias, etc. Progressively use force to break out of the laziness homeostasis

26/05/2021 (Week 18) Integrity to me means... giving the best that I can staying true to myself improving myself doing things fully being honest respecting myself If I look at instances where I find full integrity difficult... I find it difficult to be 100% respectful all the times to my close relatives I find it difficult to wake up at the same time every day I find it difficult to go to sleep at the same time every day I find it difficult to work on my web app I find it difficult to work to become rich I find it difficult to always put my best If I bring 5 percent more integrity into my life... my life would feel more whole my life would be smoother my life would be easier my life would be more enjoyable my life would be more conscious I'll attract people that have more integrity my life would feel more precious If I bring 5 percent more integrity to my work... the quality of my work would improve my work would better serve my purpose my work would feel more meaningful I'll more easily generate flow states while working I'll be happier while working I'll work with full focus I'll work with more intention

26 May 2021 Wake Up Time: 07:21 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ❌ Cold shower after waking up ✅ No social media until 7 PM ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 07:19 PM - 08:08 PM I completed some work on these small web apps, I responded to a client, and also did a bit of accounting. I did the best amount in a month since I started freelancing. Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 49 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:42 AM - 10:16 AM I improved a small web app. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 34 minutes 10:38 AM - 11:46 AM I continued the previous work. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 8 minutes 01:16 PM - 02:41 PM This day is pretty fucked up. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 25 minutes 04:23 PM - 05:59 PM Looks like I'm finally seeing some light at the end of the tunnel. Focus: 3.75/5 Duration: 1 hour 36 minutes I didn't sleep most of the night, but I pushed through it anyway. Average Focus: 3.6 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 24 minutes, including 4 hours 35 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours)

I really enjoy your journal. This is very inspirational.

It's funny because I thought about creating the exact same thread recently. I can relate to you, however, I can also see that many times I create excuses and I do feel satisfaction when I'm into my masculine side. Balance is important.

You don't need to completely quit actualized.org, also many people provide insights with basic things here. I personally watch most of the videos and read this forum sometimes, but I mostly focus on basic things. I never did any deep spiritual thing (meditation retreat, psychedelics, etc), I'm keeping that for later.

25/05/2021 (Week 18) Integrity to me means... being honest respecting my promises respecting my responsibilities doing what I say living for my higher self doing things fully If I look at instances where I find full integrity difficult... I find it difficult to wake up at the same time every day I find it difficult to go to bed at the same time every day I find it difficult to let go of social medias I find it difficult to take action on this sentence completion exercise I find it difficult to be myself I know that I need to push through difficulties to have more integrity I know that I need to bring more acceptance to these situations rather than resistance in order to embrace them If I bring 5 percent more integrity into my life... my life would feel more authentic I'll have more focus in my life I'll be happier in my life my life would feel easier things would happen more naturally self-development would be easier relationships would be easier creating results would become easier If I bring 5 percent more integrity to my work... I'll work with more intensity I'll work with more intention I'll entertain properly the system that allows me to have a great work ethic I'll focus on one thing at the time I'll be happier while doing my work my thoughts would be more focused outward and focus on what I'm doing while working my mind would be more in problem-solving mode while working I'll make progress faster in my work the quality of my work would improve I'll get more satisfaction from my work

25 May 2021 Wake Up Time: 05:52 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:09 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ✅ No social media until 7 PM ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 08:58 AM - 10:09 AM I did some accountability and some improvements to a small web app. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 11 minutes 10:28 AM - 11:54 AM I continued the same improvement work. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 26 minutes 01:01 PM - 02:28 PM I continued the previous work. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 27 minutes 04:11 PM - 05:55 PM I continued working on these apps improvements. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 44 minutes 07:28 PM - 08:02 PM continued working on these apps improvements. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 34 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 22 minutes, including 6 hours 22 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours)

24/05/2021 (Week 18) Integrity to me means... doing what I say taking actions from what I write during this sentence completion exercise being honest being honest about where I am in life being whole focusing all my energy on one thing at the time If I look at instances where I find full integrity difficult... I find difficulty to focus I admit that even though I treat people properly I have many negative thoughts on people I find difficult to wake up at the time that I plan I find difficult to go to bed at the time that I plan I admit having difficulties to exercise three times per week I admit not always being an high conscious self-actualizer I admit not being regular enough when it comes to working on healing my traumas I admit having difficulties to let go of social media, in particularly of the actualized.org forum If I bring 5 percent more integrity into my life... my life would feel easier my life would feel more authentic I'll be more and more someone that people can trust I'll have a better reputation I'll attract higher quality people I'll be more comfortable being myself doing what I want to do will become easier If I bring 5 percent more integrity to my work... my focus would improve the quality of my work would improve I'll be more aligned with the purpose of my work my work will feel impregnated by God I'll experience more flow states my work would become effortless I'll experience high levels of happiness while working I'll feel deep existential love while working

24 May 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:30 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:45 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ❌ No social media until 7 PM ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 08:28 PM - 10:00 PM I did some improvements on a small web apps. Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 32 minutes 10:26 AM - 10:50 AM I continued the previous improvements. Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 24 minutes 01:10 PM - 02:30 PM I continued working on improving these web apps. Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 20 minutes 04:22 PM - 06:11 PM More corrections and improvements on these small web apps. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 49 minutes Average Focus: 3.12 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 5 minutes, including 6 hours 5 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours)

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Any intimate relationship that I'll have will be an interracial relationship.

If I ever have a kid, he will be listened to and taken seriously way before popping out of his mom's vagina.

Weekly Statistics (18 May 2021 - 23 May 2021) Total Working Time 31 hours 10 minutes Average Focus 3.44 / 5

22 May 2021 Wake Up Time: 07:33 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:55 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ~ No social media until 7 PM (Doesn't apply on Sunday) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today Average Focus: ~ / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes)

23/05/2021 (Week 17) If any of what I wrote this week is true, it might be helpful if I... bring purposefulness to my life honor my wants let myself be authentic do what makes me happy take responsibility for my happiness focus outward when I fall into difficult thoughts let go of unneeded thoughts let go of unneeded things

Too Green for me.

Because by being alone someone doesn't get too much conditioned by society.

Looks like positive beliefs not aligned with material reality from my perspective. It's like being a work acholic and positively believing being able to work 70 hours / week for years without acknowledging that this is damaging the body. I think that many times the terms used on this forum are taken too literally. When sentences like "you are god", "you are infinity", "you are love", "life doesn't matter", "life is a dream", "everything is fine", "everything is perfect" are constantly repeated so much in a discussion space some people will start to take that literally and it will cause them problems in functioning in life. Truth is behind these words and these words are just words in the end and when taken too literally they become dangerous because they aren't the truth but only pointers. This is the same problem that all religions have, words are confused for the truth. Also, I noticed that this things happens much more often when the leader and the community use these terms over-assertively because it trigger emotions which then create belief systems. Something like that happened to me in the past with videos of Leo's that were more at stage orange. I consider that the over-assertive tone on videos like "How To Stop Being A Victim" or "How To Get Shit Done" contributed to one of my most traumatic period of my life.

22/05/2021 (Week 17) If any of what I wrote this week is true, it might be helpful if I... listen to my desires listen to my body admit having wants work for my wants do what I need to do to be happy take care of myself accept my high sensitivity to guide me through life

22 May 2021 Wake Up Time: 05:37 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:30 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ❌ Cold shower after waking up ~ No social media until 7 PM (Doesn't apply on Saturday) ❌ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: No work for today Average Focus: ~ / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 0 minutes, including 0 minutes of Deep Work (objective 0 minutes)

Are you having thoughts about having thoughts? About having thoughts? About having thoughts? About having thoughts... ?

I've been too stuck at the same place since two years now. I feel the need to move and travel again. I feel the need for novelty and the need to discover the world. However, the main issue that I'm facing is my family situation. My parents are old and we have animals to take care of. I cannot currently just change country without taking that into consideration. If I ever choose to move in the future, I will have to find a system to handle that. My dad will certainly cause some issues as usual because he doesn't trust anyone... So even if I find someone to take care of the house and the animals and if I pay for everything he will resist it unless he knows the person and already trust him/her... which is rare even for family members.