Raphael

Actually, I feel a bit more clarity after masturbating but that's mostly after not doing it for 2 - 3 days. Masturbating every day do numbs me.

@Striving for more Interesting that you've added socializing into it. It also seems to me that any life experience can improve someone's mental capacity and that any experience can be used later in a different field. The more diverse life experiences someone has, the more flexible its brain is.

04 June 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:42 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:49 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ❌ No social media until 7 PM ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 09:58 AM - 10:25 AM I realized that I did some unneeded work yesterday. I also got a mail from the revenue authority about the payment of taxes and submission of income. I need to inform myself more on this stuff. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 27 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 10:45 AM - 11:59 AM Sent an email, did some work on my API. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 14 minutes 01:38 PM - 02:42 PM I continued the previous work. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 4 minutes 04:38 PM - 06:16 PM I mostly did some testing. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 38 minutes 07:27 PM - 08:24 PM I corrected some bugs, created a pull request and merged it, and updated the API on the development server. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 57 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 20 minutes, including 4 hours 53 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours)

I have so much things going on in my mind. I maybe should try writing bigger posts more regularly, however, my issue is that I don't have that much time to journal everyday. Maybe I could try one very big deep post per week. I see that some people journal in order to empty their mind. It could maybe work for me too if I find enough time.

I think that these small posts with a few lines are just a survival strategy that I developt to avoid digging deep into myself.

Shadow Sensemaking These videos have sexy stage Yellow titles, but I don't know if I'll ever have the time to watch them.

03/06/2021 (Week 19) If I bring 5 percent more integrity to my relationships... my relationships would bring more joy my relationships would be more high conscious people would appreciate me more I'll get more satisfaction from my relationships I'll get value out of my relationships I'll appreciate people more If I remain loyal to the values I believe are right... I entertain high integrity I feel whole my life follows my values I'll assert more my purpose in life I'll feel more authentic my personality would penetrate the world I'll improve more easily If I refuse to live by values I do not respect... I'll let got of difficult people I'll feel more authentic I'll slow down my pace of life my self-respect would increase people would respect me more I'll feel more unique If I treat my self-respect as a high priority... I'll feel better I'll feel happier my life would become a high priority life I'll be more assertive I'll have more boundaries with people I'll spend time with people who respect me I'll respect my values I'll change more easily

03 June 2021 Wake Up Time: 07:08 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:33 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ❌ No social media until 7 PM ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 09:41 AM - 10:30 AM Did some work on Twitter related crons. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 49 minutes 10:53 AM - 12:05 AM I continued working on crons for Twitter. I had a lot of unrelated thoughts. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes 02:03 PM - 02:47 PM I took a nap just. I really felt the lack of sleep, my head hurt. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 44 minutes 04:33 PM - 06:10 PM I continued the work on the cron. I still have a lot of unrelated thoughts. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 37 minutes 07:23 PM - 08:10 PM I continued the improvements on the Twitter cron. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 47 minutes 3 days without sleep... It was very tough, I had to take a nap during the day. Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 9 minutes, including hours minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours)

Do you think you won't get banned again btw?

You need to be judgmental in order to choose friends wisely.

I came across this video. This is so innovative and allows to tackle a so sad situation that I just wanted to share it.

I really envy these people who can quickly fall as sleep and who have deep profound sleep. Insomnia is one of the most difficult condition someone can have.

Try to find a job on the Internet. Use Upwork, you can find high paying clients if you have the skills. I personally live in an emerging country, when I started working I was earning 500-600 $ / months, then I started working on the Internet and can now earn more than 1000$ / month while working less than 20 hours / week. It saved my life.

3 days without sleep. Just because my mind is crazy all day and all night. Even when I feel exhausted and have an headache because of lack of sleep, I still can't sleep because my mind is too crazy.

You prevented me to sleep for two days now. You're such a savage beast, mind. Calm down mind, calm down. It's gonna be ok.

Calm down mind, calm down.

02/06/2021 (Week 19) If I bring 5 percent more integrity to my relationships... my relationships would be more meaningful I'll get more joy from my relationships I'll be more honest in my relationships I'll cut relationships that don't serve me I'll have higher-quality relationships my relationships would be more authentics I'll be happier to have social interactions If I remain loyal to the values I believe are right... I'll be as honest as I can I'll be as respectful as I can I'll have more integrity people would respect me more I'll stay as open as possible I'll feel aligned in life If I refuse to live by values I do not respect... I'm developing assertiveness I'm living life for myself rather than life for other people my life would be more authentic my life would go my way I'll have more integrity my life would be more purposeful I'll have more focus in my life If I treat my self-respect as a high priority... I'll have more self-love I'll stay aligned with my values my life would feel meaningful my life would feel precious I'll entertain joy I'll feel empowered in life

02 June 2021 Wake Up Time: 06:12 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:35 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ❌ No social media until 7 PM ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:34 AM - 12:18 AM I got contacted by a client. I did a lot of tiny things. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 44 minutes 01:46 PM - 02:50 PM I started to replace some web apps. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 4 minutes 04:31 PM - 06:08 PM Did some updates on my API, uploaded some files, had a conversation with a coworker. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 37 minutes 07:34 PM - 07:47 PM I just did a few tests. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 13 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 08:45 AM - 10:10 AM I started to work on Twitter scheduling. I also got contacted by a guy who exploited me in the past. I'm careful about working with him, I'll cut him as soon as possible. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 25 minutes Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 6 hours 2 minutes, including 1 hour 25 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours)

Failures of Gen Z I'm thinking a bit about where we are going to fail as a generation. Probably when it comes to the integration of previous stages... at a point, many people will realize something like "yeah... my parents were rights afterall (on some stuff)". Wikipedia has a great article on Gen Z: https://www.wikiwand.com/en/Generation_Z And this article looks good too: https://www.pewresearch.org/social-trends/2020/05/14/on-the-cusp-of-adulthood-and-facing-an-uncertain-future-what-we-know-about-gen-z-so-far-2/ but I'll read that later. I think that these points will be recurrent issues within my generation: Social media addiction. Movies, TV Shows, and video game addictions. ADHD. Sleeping difficulties. Lack of discipline and organization. Too low emphasis on the power of individual actions and blaming everything on the external environment. Actually, this is the same thing here, this too low emphasis on individual actions is caused by the environment that many people from Gen Z grew up in. Some people are too spoiled and this is not a healthy environment. To create a healthy environment parent need to create calibrated challenges for kids. A too comfortable environment can even lead to narcissism. Later generations will be built on top of these issues and will correct them as Gen Z is currently addressing issues caused by previous generations.

Gen Z should be called the stay at home gen.

01/06/2021 (Week 19) If I bring 5 percent more integrity to my relationships... I'll have more joy in my relationships I'll see more values in relationships my relationships would be more authentics I would be more authentic in my relationships I'll be more open in my relationships I'll find relationships more valuables my relationships would be more fulfilling If I remain loyal to the values I believe are right... I'll improve my integrity I'll align myself with my purpose I would be holier my psychic would feel less separated I'll do better in life I'll build myself as an organism for societal growth my life would go my way If I refuse to live by values I do not respect... I develop more assertiveness I'll assert myself more in life I'll be better at having boundaries I'll live more for myself I'll have more integrity in life things would go my way my thoughts would be more aligned with my purpose I wouldn't care that much about nonconstructive criticism of me If I treat my self-respect as a high priority... my self-respect would improve people would have more respect for me I'll do things that I care about I'll speak to myself with kindness I'll align with my purpose I'll have more integrity I'll have more honesty I'll be aligned with where I'm at my life would become deeper and deeper, more meaningful and more meaningful, more purposeful and more purposeful, and more and more god-like

01 June 2021 Wake Up Time: 05:34 AM (objective 5:30 AM - 6:00 AM) In Bed Time: 09:36 PM (objective 9:00 PM - 9:30 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ❌ No social media until 7 PM ✅ 45 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 07:47 PM - 08:06 PM I uploaded the correction on the server, did some tests... and everything works fine! I'm really satisfied with my work. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 19 minutes Deep Work Sessions: 09:10 AM - 10:26 AM I worked on Twitter API integration. They were a lot of noises outside, it distracted me. Focus: 3/5 Duration: 1 hour 16 minutes 10:53 AM - 12:18 AM I almost completed this Twitter publish API. I got distracted several times on Skype by another client. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 25 minutes 01:20 PM - 02:45 PM I completed the API to publish on Twitter. I also created the pull request and merged it back to the main branch. I will update the API on the development server after that and also start working on a schedule cron. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 25 minutes 04:32 PM - 06:08 PM I updated the API on the server, but got an unexpected bug that I corrected. Focus: 3.5/5 Duration: 1 hour 34 minutes Average Focus: 3.4 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Total Work Duration: 5 hours 34 minutes, including 5 hours 15 minutes of Deep Work (objective at least 6 hours)

Let yourself experience the emotions to the fullest: feel intensely the stress, cry, scream, jump, run around like a kid.

This forum has some of the most inspiring people that I saw in my entire life and at the same time some of the most depressed people that I saw and who need the most help.