Raphael

22 July 2021 Wake Up Time: 08:54 AM (objective 6:30 AM - 7:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:56 PM (objective 10:30 PM - 11:00 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ❌ Cold shower after waking up ✅ 45 minutes of meditation in the morning ❌ No social media until 7 PM ✅ 30 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 11:16 AM - 12:46 PM Did some work on the backend API for my app. Duration: 1 hour 30 minutes Focus: 3.5/5 Progress: 3/5 02:11 PM - 02:55 PM Did some improvements on Instagram publish cron. Duration: 44 minutes Focus: 3.5/5 Progress: 3/5 04:50 PM - 06:23 PM Did a bit of front end and back end work. Duration: 1 hour 33 minutes Focus: 3.5/5 Progress: 3/5 07:41 PM - 09:04 PM Did some progress on Facebook scheduling. Duration: 1 hour 23 minutes Focus: 3.5/5 Progress: 3/5 09:10 PM - 10:00 PM Did some testing on Facebook scheduling. Distracted myself a bit. Duration: 50 minutes Focus: 3.5/5 Progress: 3/5 Sleep + avoiding distractions at all costs are the most important things. Total Work Duration: 6 hours 0 minute, including 6 hours 0 minute of Deep Work Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Average Progress / Session: 3 / 5 (objective at least 3/5)

Agree.

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21 July 2021 Wake Up Time: 07:10 AM (objective 6:30 AM - 7:00 AM) In Bed Time: 00:17 AM (objective 10:30 PM - 11:00 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ✅ 45 minutes of meditation in the morning ✅ No social media until 7 PM ❌ 30 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 10:15 AM - 10:30 AM Called the revenue authority, but didn't get any answer. Duration: 15 minutes Focus: 3.5/5 Progress: 3/5 12:05 PM - 12:11 PM Called the revenue authority again, but didn't get any answer again. Duration: 6 minutes Focus: 3.5/5 Progress: 3/5 01:25 PM - 01:48 PM Made a bit of progress with the revenue authority, but I'm still not there. Duration: 23 minutes Focus: 3.5/5 Progress: 3/5 Deep Work Sessions: 10:30 AM - 12:00 PM Worked on a small web app. Duration: 1 hour 30 minutes Focus: 3.5/5 Progress: 3/5 01:49 PM - 03:20 PM More work on this web app. Duration: 1 hour 31 minutes Focus: 3/5 Progress: 3/5 03:53 PM - 04:31 PM Went back working on my app. Did some progress on the backend API. Duration: 38 minutes Focus: 3/5 Progress: 2/5 Got lazy at night and also got trapped in a procrastination circle caused by homeostatis. Total Work Duration: 4 hours 23 minutes, including 3 hours 39 minutes of Deep Work Average Focus: 3.33 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Average Progress / Session: 2.83 / 5 (objective at least 3/5)

20/07/2021 (Week 26) Sometimes when I am excited I... want to jump want to share joy laugh for no reason want to talk would like to share my thoughts with people become more open Sometimes when I am turned on sexually I... want to fuck want to masturbate want to watch porn think about having a partner cannot work cannot sleep Sometimes when I experience strong feelings I... tend to hide them have difficulties managing them want to share them want to meet people that can understand me don't know what to do observe myself curiously If I make friend with my excitement... I'll share more my excitement I'll show my excitement I'll write about my excitement I'll talk about my excitement I'll let myself being excited I'll be more in touch with myself I'll be more authentic If I make friend with my sexuality... I'll accept having sexual needs I'll be more comfortable with my sexuality I'll be more open about my sexuality I won't be ashamed of my sexuality I'll be more authentic I'll be more authentically sexual As I grow more comfortable with the full range of my emotions... I understand that my emotions are OK I start to express more I understand myself better I feel more authentic by expressing my emotions I become more honest with myself I understand my emotions better I accept to experience my emotions

It's funny because growing up I had highly toxic masculine examples which cause me to defend more the "female side". Have you ever felt something like this before? I feel like this is something that can happen at stage Green.

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Makes perfect sense! But I think that doing exercises such as this one can be the first step before taking action. Sometimes going directly for the action can be a bit too difficult therefore a bit of positive psychology and mental de-conditioning is important.

I noticed that when I'm becoming 50/50 balanced between masculinity and femininity I feel like my brain is going to have an existential crisis.

My brain is shifting between masculinity and femininity when I read threads like this. The boy inside me agree with other boys and the girl inside me agree with other girls, but how do I balance things out? This is really tricky sometimes for me.

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Thanks The exercise is working, I definitely have more self-esteem compared to when I started. I also started to work on my traumas and it helped in this area. However, one thing that I didn't do enough is challenging myself more by doing things that I'm not comfortable with. I'm sure I'll get some self-esteem boost that way and I'm sure that you noticed that too.

19/07/2021 (Week 26) Sometimes when I am excited I... have a big smile feel like a kid want to jump want to share talk to people feel more social Sometimes when I am turned on sexually I... dream about having a partner watch porn dream of sex cannot work properly cannot sleep properly I feel that my needs aren't covered Sometimes when I experience strong feelings I... I try to hide them am a bit ashamed of them become shy would like to be more authentic about them am afraid of sharing them have difficulties handling them If I make friend with my excitement... I'll share my excitement with people I'll let the kid inside me being excited I'll let my face show its excitement I'll admit having strong emotions I'll become more authentic I'll share my happiness around me If I make friend with my sexuality... I'll be more in touch with my sexuality I'll be more open about my sexuality I'll be more sexual I'll try to find a girlfriend I'll see myself as worthy of having sexual intercourse I'll be more comfortable I'll be more authentic As I grow more comfortable with the full range of my emotions... I understand that I need to self-express I understand that I need to find healthy ways to express difficult emotions I see that I can become much more social just by sharing my emotions I understand my emotions better I'll be more in touch with my emotions I'll become more authentic

19 July 2021 Wake Up Time: 08:25 AM (objective 6:30 AM - 7:00 AM) In Bed Time: 11:21 PM (objective 10:30 PM - 11:00 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ✅ Cold shower after waking up ✅ 45 minutes of meditation in the morning ✅ No social media until 7 PM ✅ 30 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Work Sessions: 11:07 AM - 12:19 PM Called the revenue authority, but didn't get help. Internet is cut everywhere, this is very limiting because I cannot test things properly nor get help. Duration: 1 hour 12 minutes Focus: 3.5/5 Progress: 3.5/5 Deep Work Sessions: 03:15 PM - 04:22 PM Internet is still cut, but I'm still making progress. I worked on the front-end interface in the session. Duration: 1 hour 7 minutes Focus: 3.5/5 Progress: 4/5 04:39 PM - 06:22 PM I did a lot of progress on the calendar interface. Duration: 1 hour 43 minutes Focus: 3.5/5 Progress: 4/5 07:32 PM - 09:05 PM I continued the good progress on the calendar interface. Duration: 1 hour 33 minutes Focus: 3.5/5 Progress: 4/5 09:10 PM - 09:46 PM More progress on the calendar interface. Duration: 36 minutes Focus: 3.5/5 Progress: 3.5/5 Total Work Duration: 6 hours 11 minutes, including 4 hours 59 minutes of Deep Work Average Focus: 3.5 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Average Progress / Session: 3.8 / 5 (objective at least 3/5)

18/07/2021 (Week 25) If any of what I wrote this week is true, it might be helpful if I... practice mindfulness as much as I can observe myself carefully scream more breath deeply and slowly more slow down focus on the moment find the source of my pain resolve the source of my pain

Tough week due to a health issue.

Weekly Statistics (12 July 2021 - 18 July 2021) Total Working Time 23 hours 12 minutes Average Focus 3.54 / 5 Average Progress / Session 3.61 / 5

18 July 2021 Wake Up Time: 09:00 AM (objective 6:30 AM - 7:00 AM) In Bed Time: 10:55 PM (objective 10:30 PM - 11:00 PM) ✅ Stretching after waking up ❌ Cold shower after waking up ✅ 45 minutes of meditation in the morning ✅ No social media until 7 PM ✅ 30 minutes of Doing Nothing Before Going To Sleep Deep Work Sessions: 11:53 AM - 01:07 PM I created an API to get scheduled Instagram posts. Duration: 1 hour 14 minutes Focus: 3.5/5 Progress: 4/5 07:21 PM - 09:12 PM I created an API to get scheduled Twitter posts and an API to scheduled posts on Facebook. Duration: 1 hour 51 minutes Focus: 3.75/5 Progress: 4/5 09:31 PM - 10:04 PM I just did a few fixes. Duration: 33 minutes Focus: 3.5/5 Progress: 4/5 Total Work Duration: 3 hours 38 minutes, including 3 hours 38 minutes of Deep Work Average Focus: 3.58 / 5 (objective at least 3.5 / 5) Average Progress / Session: 4 / 5 (objective at least 3/5)

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17/07/2021 (Week 25) If any of what I wrote this week is true, it might be helpful if I... observe myself carefully accept that this is OK to feel how I feel express how I feel in a healthy way search for a solution for my difficulties search for the source of my difficulties slow down my pace