Raphael

Good luck to you! It's perfectly possible to recover from drugs and be successful later.

More peace, less anger I have been on this journey for almost 10 years now, and despite experiencing a lot of chaos in the last four years, I have made overall significant progress. I'm much more at peace with the world. I used to carry a lot of anger with me; I used to hate people and hate the world. Not so much now. I still have a degree of social anxiety, but it's manageable; I feel much less handicapped than before. Though I didn't work in the last three years because of my health, I'm happy to be where I am. - 03/09/2025

A calmer mind I have an overall calmer mind than I did before. I still have thoughts but they are less intrusive and less neurotic; it's agreeable. I'm not sure why though: maybe it's the medications or maybe it's the fact that I don't consume much content anymore. I almost watched none of Leo's videos in the past four years and I don't watch anything else either. It feels great, it gives my mind space to focus on the most important things. Counterintuitively, quitting personal development and spirituality content improved the quality of my life. - 31/08/2025

Truth and kindness?

Life after psychosis In July 2023, I was transferred to the psychiatric hospital after a psychotic episode. Symptoms started much earlier though and they were typical symptoms of a psychosis: auditory hallucinations (hearing voices), delusional ideas, and false beliefs about reality. I didn't really know what was happening to me at first; I was seeing a psychologist but I didn't tell him that I was hearing voices. Nevertheless, at one point, he told me that I was having a psychosis. Before telling me that he told me to do some Reiki, so I started to go to a Reiki healer. I did many sessions and progressed a lot but it wasn't enough: at a point everything crashed and this is where I was transferred to the hospital. I stayed at the hospital for one week, I don't have many memories except that I woke up with my hands tied to my bed and that I got beaten by other patients. I started taking medication after I got out of the hospital but they weren't that effective, so my psychologist recommended another psychiatrist. The psychiatrist put me on antidepressant and antipsychotic and this time it worked. They actually have been pretty effective on me. As time passed, I started to feel better. The psychologist that I was seeing quit the country so I had to find a new one to help me. I started a new therapy and discovered pranic healing. I made more progress and gained in maturity. During this empty period I also learned to drive and got my driving license two months ago. Though, as this is life, I still experience ups and downs but normal ones now. I now know how bad things can be so even if I don't have that much I'm overall satisfied with my life. My main objective is now to relaunch my freelance business so that I don't need to rely on the government's pension anymore. - 27/08/2025

You made me laugh.

You lack nuances.

What is success for you? Money? Fame? A stable situation? Or something else?

Mauritius: 7/10 It's the most developed country in Africa and it's overall fine. The government is stable, it's generally safe with low violent crime, the climate is agreeable with temperatures around 33 °F the winter and below 86 °F in the summer, there are beautiful beaches all around, and the population is multicultural (a mix between mostly Indians, Africans, French, and Chinese). However, it's quite dirty and disorganized, people don't earn that much money, lack education and good manners, there's a growing drug crisis, many goods are imported which causes them to be expensive, and LGBT+ rights aren't that much of a thing.

Things are getting worse.

Yes.

It doesn't always put you at a low perspective. In most cases, demonizing comes from the lower self and close-mindedness, so it puts someone at a low level. However, as perspectives have unequal qualities, not all demonizing is the same. It's possible to demonize consciously. Demonizing a toxic perspective is a great thing as it helps to keep it away from infecting the mainstream. Demonizing nazism is a great thing because nazism is a toxic view + it doesn't put me in a low position to do it.

I'm surprise to see how much Yellow there is.

I have difficulties identifying myself.

@Alex4 I'm also interested to know how you did.

Hey, congratulations for all your progress! From your post, it seems like you had an upward growth, did you have any important backslashes on your journey?

Well... yeah, there are downsides but there are also many benefits that no generation of people without the internet ever experienced. https://vittana.org/23-biggest-advantages-and-disadvantages-of-the-internet I personally hope that as time past people will learn to use the internet more consciously.

Avoidant Your test scores suggest that your personality style entails: A susceptibility to anxiety and depression, which you guard against by withdrawing from evaluative social situations. You may appear emotionally flat to others at times, but contrary to how others perceive you, this flatness is not your actual state. Instead, you use it as a form of self-protection: As soon as you are around people, feelings of tension and disharmony start to creep up on you. By presenting yourself as quiet, reticent, and modest in social situations you hope to inject some remoteness whereby you can maintain emotional distance in the event that others should start expressing negative evaluations of you. The irony is that you have a strong desire for acceptance and affection, but you restrain these longings in yourself because you are afraid that if you let others get close to you, they will only end up hurting you.

Many things have changed me in the past positively or negatively: Being bullied as a teenager: caused me to develop social anxiety, be resentful and angry at the world Studying in a foreign country: made me more autonomous and responsible but also caused an existential crisis where I started to question the reality around me Working in work environments where people had a different culture than me: annoyed me at first and caused a lot of frustration but after some time it made me more accepting of other's differences and more open-minded Work burnout: help me to learn to be kinder to myself Starting a freelancing business: made me realize how tough the business world is and caused me to toughen up Kundalini awakening: opened me more to spirituality A near-death experience: taught me to stop wasting my life A psychotic experience Discovering Reiki

@Leo Gura What kind of physical exercise is healthy for you? What do you do?

The MBTI ? https://www.16personalities.com

I love your life purpose!