Raphael

6 December 2019 Time: 1 hour Eyes always closed: Yes Summary: Here we are, 1 hour of meditation without opening my eyes. Interestingly, I found it easier than I expected, maybe because I let go of everything and authorized my mind to do whatever it wanted. The ending was more complicated and I moved my body a little more, I also felt like the last few minutes were endless. I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes, maybe because I was so distracted by my thoughts.

5 December 2019 Time: 58 minutes 40 seconds Eyes always closed: No Summary: I opened my eyes at 19 minutes because I had to inform my grandma about something. I also got distracted near the end by a message on my phone, so I opened my eyes before 1 hour. I choose to let go of everything for this session and I think I will do the same for several following sessions to accustom myself to 1 hour in the beginning. I had a lot of thoughts today and the ending was a little painful, however, I felt a little more conscious when I opened my eyes.

@Pramit Thanks, I already did a few 1 hour sessions in the past, but never created a consistent habit.

4 December 2019 Time: 28 minutes 48 seconds Eyes always closed: No Summary: I didn't meditate that much today, maybe it was because of the apprehension and challenge to push to 1 hour or maybe because of how consistent I have been the last 30 days so that I need a little break from meditation. Anyway, I had a lot of thoughts during this session and was also quite excited. I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.

Let's Push To 1 Hour I have been meditating every day for 45 minutes without opening my eyes. The first phase of my objective is then completed and it's time to move to the next step. I will start tomorrow and it will go the same as for 45 minutes, my goal is now to meditate for 1 hour for at least 30 days without opening my eyes.

3 December 2019 Time: 45 minutes Summary: I kept my eyes closed during the entire session and choose to follow @Raptorsin7's advice and found it harder than just letting go. I suppose that's normal as consciousness demands a certain effort. Sometimes I felt some movements in my brain as if the left and right parts were trying to merge. I was pretty aware when my thoughts were taking over so I try to get back to consciousness when it was happening. It wasn't perfect and I failed sometimes, but most of the time I was conscious of it. I felt more aware when I opened my eyes.

@Raptorsin7 Thanks, that's good advice.

I'm not sure. I know I can see my thoughts for a few seconds, but I think I'm still immersed in them. Most of the time, I don't even remember my thoughts after the session.

2 November 2019 Time: 45 minutes Summary: I kept my eyes closed during the entire session, even if I found it quite difficult. I let go of everything and was in a thought storm today, I also had some burning feelings in my body because of stress. I didn't felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.

@Aeris That's normal and predictable behaviours. I didn't visited their forum in more than 5 years. I would like to read the reactions, can you PM me the link?

Which forum?

1 December 2019 Time: 45 minutes Summary: Unlike yesterday, I choose to let go of everything. I kept my eyes closed and let my thoughts do whatever they wanted, I didn't move my body a lot, and I felt like this session went very fast. My mind was a little clearer when I opened my eyes.

A Little Of Red I feel like I have a little of stage red inside me, maybe 1 - 2%. It's not toxic, but I can see it appearing when I'm confronted with very difficult people. What's important is that I have control over it, even if sometimes it can be difficult.

Thoughts And Emotions Are Tools I'm currently arriving at a level of consciousness where I can see that emotions and thoughts can be used as tools to go through life. In fact, from a certain level of consciousness, it becomes possible to activate and deactivate them when needed according to our life circumstances. As an example, if someone has a great vision he/she can mix thoughts with love (one of the most powerful emotions) to attain a purpose. Thought specifies a direction and love creates motion. At this moment, I'm not able to do this powerfully, but I have a grasp of the potential.

30 November 2019 Time: 45 minutes Summary: I tried to do some mindfulness today, but wasn't very successful as I got lost in thoughts a lot. However, I kept my eyes closed a lot and almost didn't move my body, my back was very straight for most of the meditation. I felt a little more conscious when I opened my eyes.

@Raptorsin7 When you pushed to 2 hours, did you did it gradually? Did you try 1h 15m, 1h30, etc. before? Or you went directly to it?

@Raptorsin7 I also started to meditate 3 - 4 years ago. Most of the time I was doing only 30 minutes, it's only recently that I wanted to spend more time. Normally if things go well I will start pushing to 1 hour in a few days.

29 November 2019 Time: 45 minutes Summary: The meditation went well and I didn't open my eyes. I had a lot of thoughts, but I almost didn't move my body. I feel like this session went very fast, maybe like 20 minutes. I felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.

Lack Of Consistency My lack of consistency is hurting my work and results. I have concentration issues, my organization is messy, and procrastination is a huge problem. I need to fix that seriously and as soon as possible. My next practical journal will be about work, organization, and becoming a result maker. I'm planning to start it in the next 2 - 4 months.

28 November 2019 Time 45 minutes Summary: The session went well and I kept my eyes closed for the entire duration. I tried to do some mindfulness today, I lost it many times because I was a little sleepy, then came back to it again. My back was very straight for all the meditation, I don't remember moving my body. In the end, I felt more conscious when I opened my eyes.

27 November 2019 Time: 45 minutes Summary: The session went pretty well, I felt very happy and didn't open my eyes for the entire duration. I did have a lot of thoughts but didn't move my body a lot except at the end that was a little more difficult. I didn't felt a lot more conscious when I opened my eyes.

26 November 2019 Time: 45 minutes Summary: I kept my eyes closed for the entire session. I felt like today's meditation went really fast, maybe like 20 minutes. I think that it was caused by the insane amount of thoughts I had today, I also searched my nose a little, and had some burning feelings in my body. I didn't felt any difference of consciousness when I opened my eyes.

25 November 2019 Time: 45 minutes Summary: This meditation went well and I kept my eyes closed for the entire duration. I had a lot of thoughts and searched my nose at a moment. The ending was a little more difficult and I did a weird movement with my body when approaching the end, however, I felt calmer and more conscious when I opened my eyes.

24 November 2019 Time: 45 minutes Summary: I found this session a little difficult but kept my eyes closed anyway. They were some external noises including a hen jumping on stuff in the house. I had a lot of thoughts but didn't move my body that much. I felt a little bit calmer when I open my eyes.

23 November 2019 Time: 45 minutes Summary: The session went well, I kept my eyes closed and didn't move my body a lot, but still had a lot of random thoughts that I don't remember now. I feel like these 45 minutes went very fast. I was a little calmer when I opened my eyes.