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@Nahm @Hero in progress I have an injury in my back and I feel pain. The other day, I asked myself: Am I this pain ? If the pain seizes to exist will I also stop to exist ? And then I laughed. It was so obvious. I am identified with the pain. I am judging myself and others, how I/we look, what I say etc.

Try a psychedelic to clean up your emotional baggage.

You get enlightened

I am thinking all the time as well. But, I realized that it's not the thinking that's the problem, but the identification with thoughts. As Byron Katie once said: I try to stop my thoughts and here they come, and here they come, and here they come... I do not know if it is possible (for me) to stop thinking whatsoever, but I am becoming more and more detached from the thoughts. I keep a distance so they do not influence me that much any more. Try listening to this video tape: Have a great night Ether!

I watched this video yesterday! Eckhart is enlightened beyond words!

I ve cut my brother from my life 3 years ago. What was your problem with him?

@phoenix666 Exactly. His words penetrate through my heart. I do enjoy reading what he is writing!!!!

@Nahm I don't know who you are, but I love you <3

I understood that have A LOT of fears as well.

For me the 1,8 grams of golden teachers were healing. The next time I'll do them I'll try 2 grams. My mind still needs time to interpret all the lessons learned by them. Chronic anxiety almost gone. I've heard that McKenna once said that if you trip 3 times per year it's hardcore ?

When was your last time your watched porn ? Well, I am really happy for your, my friend. I am done with porn as(s) well . After the magic mushroom trip my emotional suffering completely melt, so I do not need an escape.

@Ether 16 months without porn. This month I relapsed 4 times. Let them gains begin.

So why is there frustration? Isn't frustration a form of resistance?

@egoless So there is resistant sometimes coming up, right ?

I've experienced this many times when I ask myself : can I find stillness behind the sounds . Even the noise feels sooo good!!

Do you also experience love for your fearful thoughts? Also, do you get angry?

@egoless Are there any kinds of fearful thoughts?

Are there any traces of fear?

@blazed Might because you went balls deep too fast. I think we should gradually prolong the periods of breathing.

Remember that time when you were a teenager and masturbating to some porn ? Didn't you waste your time ? That's what I believe. From my perspective it seems right. I am not saying that this is the absolute truth. As I am becoming more aware and contemplate what death is and what is not I'll probably change opinions. P.S I am a Greek guy, what does solice really mean ?

@Leo Gura But at this level of consciousness I think I am right. If I was at a higher level of consciousness I'll probably had a different idea of what death is.

@Leo Gura It's like sleeping except you never wake up ?

It's different to be diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder. The difference between the two of them is that in the 1st case the person knows that the problem is his/hers so he/she asks for help and in the second case the person thinks that the problem comes from the outside so he/she does not seek for help. So you had been categorized as a Personality Disorder. Much respect to you my friend. I can understand that you suffered to the Nth degree, because I live with it every day. Must be a hell, right ?

@Ether By control I mean you not only want to control things you do but you want to control others. For example, you hack facebooks or cellphones or mails,.. Do you experience any of the following symptoms ? An OCPD: Is preoccupied with details, rules, lists, order, organization, or schedules to the extent that the major point of the activity is lost. Shows perfectionism that interferes with task completion (e.g., is unable to complete a project because his or her own overly strict standards are not met). Is excessively devoted to work and productivity to the exclusion of leisure activities and friendships (not accounted for by obvious economic necessity). Is overconscientious, scrupulous, and inflexible about matters of morality, ethics, or values (not accounted for by cultural or religious identification). Is unable to discard worn-out or worthless objects even when they have no sentimental value. Is reluctant to delegate tasks or to work with others unless they submit to exactly his or her way of doing things. Adopts a miserly spending style toward both self and others; money is viewed as something to be hoarded for future catastrophes. Shows rigidity and stubbornness.

Some women prefer assholes because assholes seem the have confidence, but when women are in relationship with them they are empty inside. So they will not keep a relationship with them. On the other hand, nice guys seek approval/love and they can not set boundaries or say no. Women see nice guys as needy. Have a balance between being an asshole and a nice guy.