Marinus

@MsNobody That's how I see it with mammals . @pluto Are you speaking for the global or western population? I don't expect third world countries that starve to death living only plant based, unless the society has evolved a lot, but I can't image that in such a sort time span.

Good to see that you keep trying. Eventually you will be able to stick with it if you don't give up.

Thx now I know why I need to shit so often after drinking coffee

Habits streaks of this week I want to post this every week to keep track of my progress. Last night I got a wet dream, probably from all the pickup thoughts I had. Today I also tried to do my first pick challenge and I didn't achieve my set goal, but I did achieve the first goal. It took me 53 min., but I complimented 5 girls on their looks and it was scary to do. It felt a lot like my comfortzone challenges that I used to do, so that is a good sign that it might become easier with practise, but it's still very scary. I also met a potential wing who lives in Belgium too and he offered to help me. Next weekend I will try again and hopefully meet this potential wing. The good news is that I made a bit of progress. Tomorrow my internship will begin so I will start my new morning routine that morning. I have estimated the time, but maybe it isn't enough to do all the things I want to do, so I will experiment this week.

Are there Nofapers her who are doing pick-up? And how are you doing?

Keep it up, you're doing good!

attachment (to objects, people, ideas, memories, etc.) and non attachment (letting go)?

Now I have reached 97 days and I discovered something great. So I got interested in pick up (I haven't done it yet) and because of that I can get very horny and feel a lot of energy around my sex organs. This is a huge distraction when meditating, because I'll think about girls, sex nakedness, etc. so I thought what about sexual transmutation? Since a couple of days that energy was so powerful, normally at that moment (I think) guys want to jerk off, at least I would. I learned about chakra's a couple of years ago and I learned that the sacral chakra is the source of emotions and sexuality. With that in mind I visualized that energy and I imagend that it would flow to the solar plexus chakra. https://images.ecosia.org/_YiBZgu1Ohyp7i0XLupbJnK1tak=/0x390/smart/http%3A%2F%2Fwww.healthline.com%2Fhlcmsresource%2Fimages%2Ftopic_centers%2Fchakras%2F7-chakras-header.png It really felt like it was moving up. Then I imagined the energy being a flame in my belly and when breathing in it would become stronger. This helped me focus and I was less distracted by thoughts. It felt so good, I wasn't horny anymore. So try this out when you get horny and feel the urge to fap and please tell me if it helped!

Thanks for all your help and I wish you the best on your journey.

To raise your confidence consider comfortzone challenges.

I also broke up recently. I don't feel as bad, but what helps with most of my problems is putting things in perspective. Try to see the bigger picture of your situation and beyond that situation. At the moment It might feel as a bubble of you and her, this bubble is small, their is a whole world around that bubble try to see that world. Good luck!

I have two big desires that I consider stage orange: Money Pick up 1. Money is no surprise, I have a debt and no income. Fixing this problem won't be hard, because my student loan is 100% interest free and I have 30 years to pay it back. Of course I don't want to pay for 30 years. My main goal on this subject is getting my degree, because no degree means more debt. 1/3 of my loan I'l get for free when I graduate. Fortunately one of my hidden skills is money management. I already have a big amount of money saved. I'll have 1 1/2 years to go until I have my first job. According to my teacher students whom graduate will on average get €1.650. (€ 2041) as a starter salary which is pretty nice to start with. 2. What I mean with pick up is working on attraction, dating, socializing, sex and fun. I have conflicted feelings about pick up. To be honest I really want to have sex with more girls and getting experience. The reason for is probably social conditioning, through pop culture. Dutch people are quit over sexed in their jokes and even the media. I feel like one of the weird males in society. Some characteristics I have are considered to be negative like my silent nature. Dutch people are in my opinion mostly extroverted in their behavior. I have strengths which often aren't visible, because I live in isolation. I am distant, but on the contrary I'm an open book. This doesn't make sense on the surface. I'm very solitary and this has led to my independed skills and personality. I don't need people to survive and I think for a 22 year old (student) in this generation that is an advantage. I can do everything myself, but still I need people. I have some great friends in the Netherlands, but in Antwerp I'm very lonely. That is one of the reasons I stayed in my relationship. Pick up gives me mixed feelings. I have a friend who is my most precious friend. We have a lot of common ground except for relationships. If I would define his relationship perspective then I would say it's blue. He thinks I'm unclean in a sexual way, because I broke up and had sex even though he knows my reasons. He thinks that people who had sex with multiple people are nasty. I haven't told him about wanting to do pick up and I don't want, but it feels wrong to hold him from this truth. Of course my family would not agree with pick up too. No one I know would think this about me. In the end it is not their business, but mine. I feel unpleasant about pick up if I look from the perspective of my friends and family. I had the balls to tell them about my porn addiction though. On the other hand if I would pick up girls how would that affect them? I don't want to pursuit sex for my benefit or I do? It might be self-deception, but if a date would result in sex then I want to make it an awesome experience for the girl, not just emptying my load. So I came across this you tube channel: He talks about being honest in your intent, which I agree with. Honesty is one of my core values. With intent he means behaving in a way that you are sexually attracted to the girl and making this clear in your behavior. Not lying like asking for directions. He also talks about a model and to my surprise it reminded me about my coaching classes at college. I'm talented in coaching which could mean that doing day game like in the video will work in my favor. The last days I had some strong sexual energies, like a primal force when I think about sex. My no-fap journey is starting to pay off. That energy I want to channel in daygame. I have insecurities and pick up looks like it will fix my problems. This is probably not going to fix it all, but I can only know this for sure when I do pick up. Leo told in a video that fucking 1 or 2 girls wouldn't be enough to feel confident about women, which I can relate too. When I discover that pick up can only take me so far then I will have transcended another orange part into green. I promised myself that I would live a life without regrets. If I don't do this I will regret it when I'm older. Now I'm young, motivated and I want a break from relationships. So now is the time. (any advice or opinions are welcome)

I'm going to start forming habits again. The time between my last journal and this one is the period in which I got a girlfriend, my life took a very different turn when I got into a relationship. I learned a lot from the previous year with her. I had no previous relationship so it was an unknown domain that I entered. Despite not doing much self actualization work I learned so much about relationships and sexuality. Unfortunately I had to break up with her, but I'm grateful of the lessons I learned in that time. The downside of that relationship was leaving behind some useful habits. I tried to form habits in that time and some did stick for a long time, like planking. Other habits I still have to this day like cold showers. I made the promise to get my body under cold water every time I take a shower since somewhere in 2017. Until this day I lived up to it more or less. Other habits I practice since I started this journey of self discovery: Credits to @Shroomdoctor his layout design for habit streaks which I based mine of. At the moment I stay at my mothers house, because I have vacation. I finished my exams the previous week. 28 January I'l be back in my student room in Belgium. When I'm back I'll start with my new habits: As you can see I already completed some habits. My cold shower routine I won't keep track of, because I don't shower everyday. Meditation Is my strongest habit thanks to my inspiration Leo Gura and of course myself.

@SFRL people that score high on neuroticism are more critical and often play the devil's advocate. They also are the most accurate in predicting risks, so in high risky jobs, like safety testers this is very useful.

@Shan I myself score high on conscientiousness and secondly neuroticism. I worry a lot about the future, health, happiness, wasting stuff (food, energy like room heat, etc.) and I'm very anxious all the time and alert to danger. There are a couple of things that help to deal with it: more confidence/expanding your comfortzone, looking objectively to the facts, being aware and most importantly putting your problem in perspective. Because everyone is different, the big 5 combinations can create different effects. For example high neuroticism and low conscientiousness result in an physically aggressive person whom will fight. In my case I worry a lot about the future and I create multiple worst case scenarios to deal with the future. Both are high on neuroticism, but still very different.

@bejapuskas It's not so great to have these problems. It makes my No-fap journey more difficult. There are only 2 things that cure my blue balls. Time or having an orgasm.

@bejapuskas It is painful. I think I'm one of the unlucky guys, you might not have this blue balls problem at all. The low libido problem happend quite early on, this might be because I have been under a lot of stress so again maybe you won't have the same downsides as I have. When I had blue balls my girlfriend and I would have sex or she would help me, but today we broke up so until I touch a girl again I won't have any blue balls. I never had blue balls before I had a girlfriend.

@bejapuskas @youngshinzensorry@youngshinzensorry I didn't intend to quote you. @bejapuskas thx man @Shroomdoctor yes I do. I feel more free in the sense that I don't have urges to watch porn, sometimes I think about porn, but it is a fuzzy memory since abstaining from it. I also feel the lack of libido with my girlfriend, but that might be, because of relationship problems. I'm not an energetic person, but I feel more stable then before in my energy levels. I also experience some downsides. When I don't orgasm for 3+ days I will get blue balls if I'm very horny. This happens rather quickly which results in painfull orgasms and/or pain in my sex organs for hours or days in the worst case. Right now I'm back at my record 90 SOLID DAYS! The previous time I celebrated with masturbation, not so smart ofcours :p. Today I'm going to celebrate by baking pancakes!

87 days 4 to go and I have a new record since I was a child and not yet into puberty

Not masturbation and watching porn can save a lot of time.

Day 75 right now, I don't feel any superpowers. last week and today I had strong urges, luckily I can have sex. Usually I don't think a lot about it since no fap. It feels like a flatline from the start until now. The last orange one is today, but it doesn't count yet. I don't worry, because my penis hurts from sex.

@youngshinzen maybe eating whole lemons. I feel great after eating one and normally I'm depressed.

Day 64

day 45 here