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That's what happens when you take psychedelics. You lose your light. You become dead inside. I've seem that on other people aswell including my relatives. You can be alive biologicaly but dead in the spirit. Mooji calls this he says, "your spiritual pores gets closed and you lose your light, suddenly you are not attractive anymore." I see that light in Leo only rearly now when he makes some deep psychedelic brakethroughs and there's this afterglow for 1-2days. But then he goes back into his ordinary state. I liked his glow much more when he was still doing some normal meditations. Basicly I stoped watching his videos after he started doing psychs. Not intentionly, simply his light was gone. Just dry information was left, no presence, no life inside there. When I watch some mooji or echkart tolle or sadhguru, even if I watch most basic thing that I saw 100times, just the prsence that is eminating from that video is so deeply touching for me, and Leo used to have some of it. That light is all that matters, that light is THE Teaching and the goal. Information is useless without that light. That's why it's so important to have a teacher, because teacher can give you this light. What teacher is teaching is of zero importence, his light is all that matters, a true teacher could just sit without uttering a word and you would get enlightened by him because of that transmition of light. When you go to satsang or somewhere, you absorb and soak that light into you, then it grows, and then you become devine, oozing love eveywhere you go. When I see psychedelic people, they dont ooze anything. Just empty and dead inside. Like androids, just information, no presence.

This is also a good example how gods do therapy.

This is how enlightened people do therapy. Every therapist must see. Pure gold. Too much amaze. The way she's interacting.. I doubt many can appreaciate what is happening here. I didn't read everything but dude, your path is enlightenment, not university. It's written on your forehead no no.. joking. Psychotherapy is the closest thing to spirituality I guess, so that would be smarter choice. But still you can't avoid many useless esseys you'll have to write etc. My mom is psychologist and is studying gestalt therapy now. Good stuff. I learnt a lot from her. There is some value in it. Is it practical? Only if you combine it with spirituality. Otherwise it is just dry theory. Better focus on spirituality. If you must become a therapist then become like her. Just too amazing. Good luck

@Raptorsin7 that's my whole point. It's impossible to do nothing. If try to do nothing, that is still an instruction to be taken, that is still a doing. You just become super smart ego who says "I will not do anything now". But that is still ego who is doing nondoing. It's the same paradox like "I want to have no desire" but that itself is the desire. So you cant escape it. Your desire not to have any desire is itself a desire. It's the same thing with "doing nothing". Or when someone puts a camera in front of you and says "act natural" and then you put a nonchalant face expression as if now you're natural See, same paradox., you can't act natural, it's impossible. The momemnt you try to act natural, you are being unnatural. Lol

So what's your solution? It seems it's impossible to escape this trap. Whatever effort you make, it is still ego that makes that effort. If you try to make no effort, that is still an effort. So what do you do?

I doubt it's the second one. The only way to be in permemnant nonduality state is to be in permenant meditation. One has to become the meditation itself, has to merge with his system that he follows. It has permiate every second, every breath of your life. Then it becomes permenant transformation. Like mooji says, I'm not seperste from my teaching. I am the teaching, I and my teaching is the same thing. Jesus sayed something similar, He sayed "I am the way and the truth and the life.'' Same thing like mooji. Papaji was asked: "you always talk about being vigilent, but do you have to be vigilent? Papaji: To my very last breath" But there is a stage beyond effort. Where you don't have to try to be aware. You're just yourself always. But you don't reach this stage without going through the first one.

There's more from alan watts

Futurama Rick and morty Community (same creator as rick and morty) These are my favorite.

It is very beneficial for a meditator to hold morality. If you obstein from killing, false speach, lying, harmful words, any bad deed basicly. Your mind will be serene and quiet. And then meditation will be much better. 8Fold Noble path is the best to follow.

Shakti chalana kriya with shoonya is a practice of death. Literally.

@Chi_ plus you will feel safer So good for you

@Chi_ there are differerent opinions on this. I think It's not needed and my hatha teacher sayed the same. But you do what you feel like.

@Chi_ be careful when rain season happens. Many people get ill, Especially Europeans And sleep outside not indoors. (my personal prefrence, just an encouragement)

One tip. You can't outsmart yourself. Every intention you make it is your mind. Even to be aware of the mind is an intention created by your mind. You can't escape this. It's the limitation of the mind.

You're so Blessed ? sadhguru really has a grip on you ? just dissolve yourself and good luck and make the most out of it ?

Btw, there's a huge movement happening now to save rivers in India. I don't know if you're aware of this person but he's doing good work. You could support him if you want.

If this is trauma then you'll have to release it or dissolve it sooner or later. It won't go by itself. I think if realeasing trauma is what you need then this yin yoga would be very beneficial to you. https://shop.eckharttolle.com/collections/kim-eng/products/presence-through-movement-yin-yoga Also this practice for realeasing trauma similar to vipassana. https://shop.eckharttolle.com/collections/kim-eng/products/resist-nothing Anyway you're in desperate condition. Could be a perfect time to try something new. Also if you want ayurvedic consultation I can arrange that for you with a 10+ years experience of medical and ayurvedic and hatha yoga teacher today.

This drama you create in your mind or this restlessness could be your sankaras coming out. Maybe just wait it out, probably It's just a phase. I don't now. Anyways. Something else I wanted to ask. Where do people get to stay?any vipassana centre? What are the requirements? Thank you

1 is a concept. One concept + another concept = third concept. Concepts are relative and changing. 0 is absolute. It is not a concept, it is an absence of concepts. Nothingness. Nothingness never changes.

I'm confused also

You can't be a teacher because you're not enlightened. But you can be an assistant to an enlightened teacher. You can work under his guidence and help him spread his teachings. Become an isha hatha yoga teacher or vipassana teacher etc. Or just a simple volunteer in some ashram.

Don't be scared. It's easier than it sounds. There's a lot of collective support and supportive atmosphere and energy. Newbies who have no meditation experience are able to go through it.

Now we're talking 3.45min Many nice things were sayed.

Do shambhavi mahamudra. It enchances your brain activity 10times. In 3 months of doing shambhavi i jumped from silver 5 to gold 3. (im not a big lol player) but I saw my mental performence increase to be like 5times more. With shambhavi and ( hatha yoga also) my descision making, map awareness, new openings and new plays, ability to think about 5 things at once or predict 10steps ahead of your oponent etc. Of course this is a pathetic way of using a spiritual tool and I don't do that anymore but still.. You'll have more chances to become pro if you're enlightened. that's how Peter Ralston won Tai Chi championship you know..