Vladimir

@LSD-Rumi what is the hell you are talking about? What did you face? I already shared about these two questions here: I felt evil, I became the devil. I saw visions of pure evil with my eyes opened and closed. I felt the root source of depression, loneliness, abandonment, guilt, insanity, ugliness, illness, bizarreness, shame, fear, failure, separation, chaos, evil, hatred, self hatred and all darkness. I felt like the entire Universe turned against me. I became the worst of the worst. I hated myself, everybody and the entire world, I could not stand being around other people, I avoided sun light as much as I could. I could not rest at all, time went by very slowly. It was like waiting on a death row in a prison of my own mind, knowing the ultimate punishment of eternal suffering is inevitable. I felt like I had become the craziest and most evil person in the world. I felt like I had become separated from the entire world. I did not feel myself, I did not feel alive, I felt complete disconnection from my body, myself and the entire world. how did you feel? I felt like I have become the worst of the worst, I felt like I became the devil, I was the devil, I saw the devil in my reflection of the mirror. Why hell when you are a spiritual person? To purify myself of all evil and defeat the devil forever. how things went wrong? Things never went wrong, everything was absolutely perfect. I was guided into the darkness by the entire Universe, led through it by the entire Universe and guided out of the darkness by the entire Universe, this was my destiny and I have fulfilled it. This was "The Last Judgment" that I had to go through to defeat the devil forever.

@The0Self Thank you for those questions. If I may ask, what kind of practices are you doing these days? If any. Conscious movement Ecstatic dance Tai chi Qi gong Journaling - handwritten, phone and PC Composing songs and poetry Singing at home Singing in choirs Yoga in nature Being in nature Swimming in the ocean Rollerblading - https://www.instagram.com/p/CiY-qHTgBV9/ ( that's my brother in front of me and I'm behind him filming ) Drinking cacao ritualistically - I love cacao, it is wonderful medicine, I highly recommend it for creativity, meditation, contemplation, journaling etc. Photography Conscious and skillful way of using social media Seeing beauty everywhere Breathing exercises Sound baths and healing Listening to good music Healing with medicine songs Riding a bicycle Connecting with soul family and community of conscious friends Making real friends Connecting with people everywhere I go Eating good, wholesome food Drawing Cooking Shamanic ceremonies Howling Contemplating Exploring new places All of these come naturally to me, I do all of these because I want to do them and they bring me joy. And what kind did you do before the awakening? Do you have any sense that it contributed to the awakening? I did most of the practices above. In addition, I have participated in psychedelic ceremonies before my awakening. I am taking a break from psychedelics for now because much healing, awakening and integration is happening without psychedelics. Yes, all of the practices contributed to my awakening. Drawing, bicycle, soul family, community, connecting with people, photography, singing in choirs, making real friends, howling - those are all new additions after the awakening. And, three more questions: 1. What is the most unexpected aspect of your awakening? Dying 2. What is the most difficult aspect? Losing my life and remaining dead for 18 months and 3. Is your sense of movement or frames different now? (Is it almost like nothing ever moves, and there’s just an explosion of absolute infinity, appearing as absolutely ordinary?) I call what I think you're referring to here as God Awareness, Pure Awareness, Immaculate Consciousness, The 5th Element. I'm aware of the entire bubble of Consciousness most of the time. I move with much more ease, beauty and grace, I am in the flow. Light, love and blessings.

Much gratitude for your kind and empowering words brother. I truly appreciate it.

Let me explain the deep confusion that is prevalent on actualized.org as simply as I possibly can: Relative Truth - duality, human, mind, body, soul, language, words, colors, water, food, black, white, love, fear, joy, pain, cat, dog, light, dark, chaos, order, good, evil, man, woman, ethnicity, favorite songs, preferences, likes, dislikes, ignorance, consciousness etc...... Absolute Truth - Absolute Nothingness, Absolute Unity, Absolute Truth, God, no distinctions, no duality, no boundaries, everything is one, one is everything, no distinction between good or evil, you don't exist, you are not a human, you are not your body, you are not your mind, you were never born etc..... Golden Middle Truth - This is the part that is the missing puzzle for the entire actualized.org dilemma and confusion of "relative" vs "absolute" understanding. The goal should NOT be to "transcend relative truth", it is to get you towards the Golden Middle Truth, to integrate Absolute Truth of psychedelic experiences into the Relative Truth of being a Human and move closer towards wisdom, love, consciousness, unity, goodness, skillful way of living, awareness - the Golden Middle Truth, the Wise Mind, the Wise Way. Also, the only way to say "there is no evil" is to know and understand the "Divine Plan" for which all evil was working towards just like good. I am not disagreeing with you that there is no evil, but that is because I have an understanding of what all evil was for the sake of. To say that "evil does not exist, because everything is me" lacks that understanding. The correct way of saying for you is: I forgive and I am grateful for all evil because I believe that all evil was for the sake of God's Absolutely Perfect, Genius and Magnificent Divine Masterpiece. The correct way of saying for me ( I who awakened and know the Truth ) is: I forgive and I am grateful for all evil because I know that all evil was for the sake of God's Absolutely Perfect, Genius and Magnificent Divine Masterpiece.

I will never die. I have conquered death. I have won the holy grail - True, Immortal, Eternal, Infinite Love. I have defeated the final boss - Diablo. I no longer fear death because I know I will never die. I am eternally safe, the entire Universe is guiding and protecting me. My death is in the past. It is only life from here forever to infinity.

I'm not just better, I'm in the best condition I have ever been in my entire life and I'm just getting started.

You misread the title, it actually says: "I awakened, ask me anything" - this implies intelligent questions about my awakening and existential questions that will incite contemplation, insights and useful conversations about the true nature of reality.

These are all beautiful questions, thank you. I will work on these.

Are you saying you don't perceive evil and don't have any preferences or resistance to the present moment of any kind? Being able to perceive evil is a normal and healthy human discernment, to suggest that people stop perceiving evil is the definition of insanity and devilry which is what you're suggesting. Also, how is it useful not to have any preferences? The entire human experience is based on discernments and preferences, once you stop having these necessary traits, you might as well become a vegetable. People resist the present moment for a good reason, it takes time for individuals to work towards acceptance of the present moment. Judgements (not condemnations) are likewise healthy human traits on which the entire human experience is founded. Preferences, discernment, judgments, resistance and acceptance is what makes us human. We don't want to "transcend human" we want to be come "more human" by learning a skillful way of thinking and living. Everyday you are making judgements based on preferences what what you're going to eat, drink, what information you consume and create. You are here at actualized.org because you have certain preferences and judgements. Also, based on the kind of responses I have seen from you, you have a lot of resistances to the present moment. I kindly invite you to take a look at your own triggers before trying to teach anybody on "how to embody the divine". The goal is not to ignore or try to change your beliefs in hopes that you will "stop perceiving evil", "stop having preferences" and "stop having any resistance to the present moment", the key is to gain understanding of what all evil is for the sake of. Then, and only then, with the understanding and knowing of "for the sake of" part, forgiveness, acceptance, healing and the return to the Original Innocence will come. Then and only then, people will see that there never was evil, because all evil was for the sake of Goodness.

Vladimir is made up of two words - Vladi and mir. Vladi means "to rule", mir means "the world" and "peace". A perfectly suitable name for me - Ruler of the World with Peace - Vladimir.

What you are practicing is very useful, you are practicing awareness of your entire field of consciousness, through this you are becoming more conscious, more awake, keep learning by observation. Thank you for asking this question, you have reminded me to keep practicing this myself. I'm in that state of what you call God mode most of the time, but there is a lot more room for expansion and learning.

People are not in a true being during a deep sleep. To embody "true being" is to know and embody the Truth.

I gradually started coming back to life by the power of my own will and the help and guidance of my Higher Self, shamans, friends and family who prayed for me, Ganesha, Neptune, Archangels, Mother Mary, Divine Light, Wolf spirit animal, other spirit allies and the entire Universe.

There is no fault, there is only absolute perfection.

Get where?

I appreciate you. Yes it is great!

I don't need to do anything. My desire to reveal myself as enlightened, messiah and teacher comes from wanting to share the beauty of Truth with my brothers and sisters. Why? Because it brings me great joy. Because I love loving other people, other beings and the entire world. Because the time to love is now. Because the time for the revelation has come, because it's time to alleviate the suffering of our world. Because I am conscious and embodied leader and role model of what love thinks, sounds, acts, feels and looks like. It is my responsibility, great desire and one of the greatest joys to be the shepherd guiding others to the light, love, innocence, healing and awakening. People want hope, I want to inspire hope and faith that miracles are coming sooner than later. I want to convey understanding to people that everybody is innocent because all "sin" was for the sake of greater Goodness. This awakening is not just about me awakening and then coming back and living "ordinary life", the entire world, has been, and will continue to awaken with me, the entire world will change towards goodness and love with my awakening.

When you say you remained dead for 18 months, what was your body doing at that time? I spent most of the time laying in bed in a dark hotel/motel room, ordering vodka, cigarettes and food. I drank a lot of alcohol (about a bottle of vodka on average) and smoked about a pack of the strongest cigarettes I could find without a filter almost every day during these 18 months. Was Vladimir still talking, breathing, going to work whilst feeling dead inside? I could still breath, talk, think and move around. I lost all desire to do anything. All I wanted to do is to distract myself from the truth of what I have become. I did everything I could to numb what I was feeling and distract myself from a never-ending stream of thoughts and visions that tormented me. Was his body just laying in bed the whole time, like a depression? Yes, I was in bed most of the time, it was like a depression but much worse, I was tormented, I almost did not sleep at all during the 18 months, and when I did, I had terrifying visions. I would also have these visions while I was not sleeping with my eyes open, especially during the night. I had thoughts of suicide many times during this time, what stopped me was knowing that hurting my physical body would not alleviate my suffering. Would you say it was what people mean by a dark night of the soul? This was worse than any dark night of the soul anybody has ever experienced. I went through the deepest depths of Hell. I had gone through a very difficult dark night of the soul prior to this experience. That doesn't even come close to the depths of suffering I have experienced while being dead for 18 months. What is it like to be dead in a body? I felt evil, I became the devil. I saw visions of pure evil with my eyes opened and closed. I felt the root source of depression, loneliness, abandonment, guilt, insanity, ugliness, illness, bizarreness, shame, fear, failure, separation, chaos, evil, hatred, self hatred and all darkness. I felt like the entire Universe turned against me. I became the worst of the worst. I hated myself, everybody and the entire world. I could not stand being around other people, I avoided sun light as much as I could. I could not rest at all, time went by very slowly. It was like waiting on a death row in a prison of my own mind, thinking that the ultimate punishment of eternal suffering is inevitable. I felt like I had become the craziest and most evil person in the world. I felt like I had become separated from the entire world. I did not feel myself, I did not feel alive, I felt complete disconnection and separation from my body, myself and the entire world. What was it like for your wife, did she worry, could you explain, did she have to care for you? Yes she worried very much and tried to do everything she could to help me. She asked me if there is anything she can do to help me, I told her - no. She couldn't understand what was happening to me, nobody could understand what was happening to me.

I am none of the above.

What do you mean? Why is this funny?

Read the title of this post for the answer to this question.

Yes, I have faced mental illness and real suffering on my journey.

What understanding of the aspects of reality am I lacking in your perspective? Your disagreement with the words that I am sharing cannot make me sad. I know my truth, I know the Truth. I know myself.

What is your perspective?