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Who would you be if you were to forever give up your search for enlightenment? How would you feel in the gut? Empty? Feel into that. Give up everything.

This all happened after my kundalini awakening + mdma a few days ago. Awakening through utter forgiveness and yearning for Truth. I don’t think this is still the after glow. I now sometimes feel sick to the stomach cause my mind and body is utterly confused at this utter blankness but at the same time my intuition feels at home. Body alignment is something that just needs to catch up and burn away the false. A clenching of the stomach where it seems my fears and uncertainty are embedded. Like a really long supreme scream the ride. Life has only truly just begun. Hahahaha!

@Joseph Maynor self actualization = nothing to something to nothing. Enlightenment = nothing to nothing.

@Nexeternity I should get a testing kit. It's been over a year since the last time I took it.

@Leo Gura Leo, I have a problem with not being able to sleep for the next 2 days specifically with LSD. Do you have any tips? It drives me insane being sleep deprived and it deters me from using it. I know it's such a powerful tool. Thanks.

It's the most subtle yet obvious thing. Try to see where the teacher is coming from and where the student is trying to "get to." It's not located anywhere but a state of what simply is the case. When it clicks see that there is no teacher and no student, God talking to itself. Do you see it? Then when it clicks, laugh and let it out!!

@Nahm Great put together.+1

@Leo-Tzu It helps me to be aware of how I feel the moment I ejaculate. If it makes me feel drained, imagine what itll be like to save that for a little longer. It took me on and off 2 years just to get more than 2 weeks. You got this!

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When that sexual energy gets transmuted into kundalini.

Yesterday was the most difficult day. My mind came up with every trick in the book to let it out but I somehow persisted. This morning however was insane. During my meditation, this enormous mass of sexual energy around the pelvic area slowly moved up my body and out the top of the head. I think I read some part in “Way Of The Superior Man” that supressing this sexual energy is not that good but looking inside and feeling into it and letting it out, without having to ejaculate. I’ve noticed this is the quickest way to subdue my sexual urges and using it for personal energy; shooting it up the spine. Found it: http://deida.info/wp-content/uploads/2015/12/BK00906-interior-pages-46.pdf

Currently finishing up Autobiography of a Yogi. Has anyone here received lessons of this technique? Read it cost around $270 and nearly 3 years to study the technique.

@Charlotte Kundalini yoga is kind of like that, fast paced, in my opinion. I tried it but it wasn't for me, yet. What is your yoga studio like? What kind of vibe? Is it the typical western yoga classes? Or is it kind of new-age/spiritual? Hare Krishna? Try different studios. I've been to many, and all of them have a slight different taste to them. Teachers too.

@jjer94 I’ve sat through a couple vipassana retreats and each time the pain is a little less than before. The technique works the way it does by observing the sensations on our body, whether pleasure or pain, without reacting to them as they are “impermanent.” The trick is to become as conscious as possible to the super fine sublte sensations that are spread throughout other parts of the body, besides the obvious gross lower back stress. I’ve got to say, my first retreat was a bloody shit show hahaha. It was so painful that I couldn’t even do the technique properly, however there were many moments when it felt like my head was above the water. There were much thick gross layers of neurosis, beliefs, and attachments that were shoved in front and out of my psyche that I cried so much. Hope this helps.

@pluto I enjoyed that. what are some ways you ground pluto? Mat? Outdoors?

https://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2015/11/21/grounding-effects.aspx Get your shoes off and connect!

@Shin Jeez brother, like me, I cuff my hands to the bed posts at night. But sooner or later your feet will start thinking of ideas. *sigh* You just can’t trust them..

Oh god I think it's been a month now. I've been getting the gnarliest morning woods, jesus. A gentle breeze on a certain spot on my jeans or riding in a bumpy ride would trigger a raging wood. Hahaha I feel like a teenager again. Feeling amazing overall.

https://www.facebook.com/curt.hardacre/posts/1919993318030430 More on Grounding. So I've been going to the beach with my shoes and shirt off for a few hours twice a week and it's been amazing so far.

I think when most people say they have done it is when they're out and about with their friends, social event, or a rave. I bet very few have done them in a safe location with the "intention" to look inside and grow. Now that will be a whole different trip of itself regardless whether it's a fun drug.

@Nexeternity Aww man I really wanted to give you a thumbs up for that comment but couldn’t.

@Parki Oh didn’t see that you were microdosing. Then thats okay. I did almost a full dose with a gabon shaman. It was truly truly insane, yet awesome. I saw my whole life appear in clips behind my closed eyes. You might find this interesting.

Find some mushrooms or LSD instead. Iboga will make your heart feel like it's coming out of your chest. I've tried it and it's the closest implication to what I think hell looks like.

Ahha! I'm also an INFJ. No wonder I feel I can relate to you so much. https://www.reddit.com/r/infj/top/?sort=top&t=all "It's strange how nice I am but how much I hate people." This man, an INFJ himself, have put together some videos about being an INFJ. Well, they hit way too close that it hurts! https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCvW2zJVUKHi20b0gsDXk6xQ/videos https://www.youtube.com/user/introvertpower1/search?query=infj