Shaun

@Serotoninluv Thanks again, you do great work on here.

As are you.

Well, if that's how it works then I am delighted to be single for life.

Is leaving said stall a guarantee that I won't end up right where I started? Back in the stall?

Just because I made this joke does not mean to say that I'm needy, that's just you making assumptions. I made the joke as others may relate to it. I learned that being needy and seeking relationships are behaviors which result in great suffering. When I dropped all that, I felt free. I realise that most women are just like that and I am holding off until I encounter one who isn't.

That comes across as rather transactional or one sided and not the kind of relationship I'm looking for. To be honest, I don't think I'm even looking as there are far bigger things to get on with. If you've been dealt a bad hand in the looks department like I have, you've no choice but to accept that and focus your efforts elsewhere.

God: *Creates itself, the universe and every hot woman therein Also god: Can't get a girlfriend

That's all I can do as there is nowhere to run. I have no choice but to participate so might as well be happy.

I know that better is possible, and if it's possible to control what one reincarnates as, then there is no problem. As I understand, it's a random process what you come back as.

This is what I am struggling with. Yes, I know that the end of Shaun is just that, but consciousness can take on another perspective which will be experienced just like mine is just now. And now hearing that regression to an ant or a slave is possible, that makes me feel even worse.

Could I please send you a message to avoid knocking this thread too off topic?

You're right, it's apathy. I've just totally lost interest in the whole thing. I am neither suffering or enjoying it.

Ego always says otherwise and it's the suffering I can not yet accept. At this time, there is no way I can see all the horrors which go on as good. Maybe I will see some day.

I am, mostly.

God damn it! I am infinitely powerful so I should have the power to make myself never be bored with nothing!

Is it possible for me to end all manifestation and bring an end to the whole thing? I'd rather not experience anything anymore.

As I have been doing more and more consciousness work after the huge 4 month depressive episode brought on by the what is god videos or rather, my reaction to them, I have been seeing the numbers 66, 69 and 666 frequently nearly every single day. Also, at work I could be thinking of some spiritual teacher or something else related to spirituality and I will cut open a customer return box and out comes an entire collection of books from all the spiritual teachers I follow. Even today in the amounts of views on a lot of Leo's videos, the three numbers mentioned appear within the view counts frequently. What does all this mean?

At no point in my life have I thought it was created for me or my ego.

These synchronicities keep on getting more frequent, the universe is actually taking the piss now.

He is a rather pleasant manifestation of the infinite. Good, when I recognise I am god, I will end all manifestation. All joy and suffering will stop and there will be absolutely nothing.

They come up so frequently that I don't even have to look for them. In some cases, I find them creepy and would rather they wouldn't happen so much.

If I am creating my reality, do the other people in this dream actually see what I have created? I am assuming yes as Leo has said himself that he wants to wake the world up so there must be others to help.

There is nothing I really want more than to become this truth. I don't think I am going to achieve much else in this life on the level of career and life purpose. Maybe that alone is my life purpose.

I reduced my hours to 30 a week but my parents were not happy about that so I put it back to 40. I plan to move out soon but that will not help much as my life is still pretty much a waste. I don't feel that my impact on the world is large enough to justify my existence. I want a high impact life like what Leo has or at the very least to become financially independent.

@Leo GuraShe makes a valid point because you bang on in most of your videos about nothing existing and it all being an illusion. Not only that but your videos are largely outright solipsism or at least that's how they sound.