Shaun

You will also forget these teachings in other lifetimes. That too is possible.

That's the problem. That still allows for infinite possibilities of suffering to manifest. In another life when you are been slowly cut to pieces with a chainsaw, which by the way you WILL experience, will the knowledge that consciousness will remain help you? Reality is like pi, it has absolutely everything you can and can't even imagine held within it.

I don't even want consciousness to remain. I want it gone too.

I've had a direct experience of no separation and a pretty convincing experience that I am all there is. I think the reasons why everyone else on here don't have the same negative reactions to these teachings are because you arent really there and I'm talking to some other part of myself.

A lot of spiritual teachers point to it, not just Leo. Thich nhat hanh said in one of his poems that the mountains have been as long as he has and the known and knower are one. When I die, Leo and this whole thing goes with me and something else will begin. The universe can not be without me.

What you forget to understand is that in self enquiry we are guided to realise that other people do not exist and reality actually can't have any perceivers. This forum and my entire life has been a sick lonely act of fuck knows what which I created.

The relief from practices is temporary at best. Full enlightenment or the end of suffering isn't permanent either, nothing is. I want experience to end forever, more than a drowning man wants air, more than a son wants to see his father one last time after he sped along on his motorbike into a tractor emerging from a field and became one with its engine block and more than a man blinded wants his sight back. I am infinitely powerful so there's a way. I want to destroy myself.

No, that's incorrect. There is still something happening here, I need the whole thing gone permanently. Eternal dreamless sleep, there has to be a way, part of me knows and I need that part here now.

Suffering is a great survival mechanism, but it's so stupidly designed that you still suffer even when being tortured and you know there's no escape. A truly loving god would include an auto euthanise function for these situations. In fact, a truly infinitely loving god would not create anything at all.

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Worse for he who can't be found it would seem. This work is now all that matters to me. There's absolutely no point in doing anything else other than that which I need to do to survive.

Yes, I should have phrased it differently. I understand that what Leo is saying isn't really solipsism but it's just as bad if not worse.

@Leo Gura I just can't see in any way shape or form how this solipsistic understanding brings you joy. My mother is just a fucking hallucination I'm making up. I wish I could die eternally and never create anything again if that's really the case. Is eternal suicide possible? If so, I want that more than a drowning man wants air.

My body/mind wants sex often. With there being no way whatsoever for me to meet this need for reasons I won't go into here, how can this need be transcended?

You haven't, no worries. It's just all the contradictory stuff we hear leads us deep into confusion and fear. I woke up this morning in great fear again, with a sore head and I was so present and conscious that it actually hurt. I was rejecting my entire past as false also because it is just thought and isn't true.

That's the kind of response one would expect from a child or someone who totally lacks empathy and understanding.

Funnily enough, I was thinking about you today and wondering if you are okay. Good to see that you're back. I'm still not right myself either, this nonduality stuff has hit me really hard.

That's incorrect as I'm meditating more now than I used to. I totally see your point. When I'm sitting in the house meditating or going about my business, the suffering and problems of the world do not exist at all in my direct experience apart from me imagining it. To say that there is or isn't suffering outside my direct experience is just assumption.

Well all I need to do then to help the world is to not observe it then? That's nonsense because while you are there with your screen, I am here suffering.

Sure, I could maybe love it if it isn't happening to me, but when I am the one getting beheaded, loving that is impossible.

All problems are relative then?

It's too much to bear and the conceptual understanding alone has fucked me up. I wish all this suffering and misery in the world wasn't there and eventually I may experience it.

It's because when all is said and done, it doesn't matter anyway because after you are gone, there is nobody to benefit from anything you've done.

That's some tragic shit, isn’t it?

How is it that he is god, yet I am here reading his post? Everyone here seems to be claiming that they are god and calling everyone else god, so which one of you is god?