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So today's morning I tried to give this substance my first shot. I hadn't tried any psychedelics before. After snorting ~20mg of the substance with a cut-up straw, I rested my head upside down for exactly 5 minutes. Then, I laid back on the couch and relaxed (body completely opened as previously suggested). So in the first minutes, my heart rate starts increasing and I start experiencing some weird phenomena. I started saying Oh my god outloud, followed by Oh fuck and Son of a bitch. I think this is what people refer as panic attacks. I vividly remember screaming on the top of my lungs: Oh my gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood, Oh fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck. And then, Oh, oh my god. Oh my god oh my god. Son of a bitch. I was puzzled by this because I don't usually use this vocabulary. I'd put my hands in my face and then say the words Oh my god repeatedly. I also opened my mouth very wide repeatedly and throughout the entire session. It would be so wide that it would actually hurt. I remembered what Leo said and forced my body to be completely opened. Then, some really weird stuff started happening. Between these moments of panic, I would have brief moments of total satisfaction. My faced looked exactly like this emoji - - with the tongue sticking out. I also experienced moments of being the stereotypical homosexual (my voice would also change to match this persona). Notice that I was almost always saying the words Oh my god. So this was like nothing I ever did before. It was actually not what I was expecting at all. I'd appreciate some feedback, thanks NIGHT AFTER THE EXPERIENCE Oh boy, what a weird night. I woke up 5 times during last night's sleep. I would wake up, turn around in the bed and adjust my pillow. Then, I'd fall back asleep like immediately. This happened while I was meta-observing myself. I wouldn't actually feel like I was controlling the body, it would just move by itself but I was conscious of it.

What? I don't know. But it's there in some form of Anxiety.

I actually set a timer of 5 minutes after insufflation. After that, I laid back on the couch and ~10 minutes later it peak. It lasted for around another 10 minutes. The entire experience lasted for ~50 minutes. It burned a lot. A couple minutes after insufflation, I felt a really unpleasant sensation in my nose and back of my throat. I ultimately forgot about it during the experience. . I want to get an enlightenment experience. I knew the panic attacks would pass, so I was kind of calmed and panicking at the same time if that makes any sense. Well, I don't know if I'm ready or not but I'm down for more trips!

In the peak of the experience, my body would move by itself. I could control it but I chose not to. It's a very fine powder already.

I underestimated 5-MeO

So, 60 days ago I watched Leo's video: I already went through Stage 1 and 2, and I'm now entering Stage 3 but I'm still confused to what I'm supposed to do. In stage 2 I would notice thoughts arising and then refocus on the void. Now, in Stage 3 I'm supposed to Put awareness on awareness itself and Open to the question "What is awareness?". I'm still not clear as what this is. I would appreciate some feedback! Thanks

I've been following Actualized.org for a year or two, and after watching Leo's videos on enlightenment and 5-MeO-DMT, I thought to give it a shot. After hours and hours and hours of research, I finally got my hands on 500mg of 5-MeO-DMT, the HCl version. I've re-watched the 5-MeO video and at some point, Leo says only people over 21 should experiment with this substance. I wonder if this is due to health issues or emotional stability issues. I'm 17 by the way. I'm thinking about starting with the really low dosages and working up from there. Any advice before I try this out? Thanks!

This is some heavy shit

I'm not doing psychedelics because they're "fun". I want to get something valuable from this.

I usually underline the key points while reading and, simultaneously, write down a summary of each chapter using my own words. I wonder what methods you guys use

I want to know it just from pure curiosity. I already follow a meditation routine.

Not really. I'm not really into psychedelics, but I'm dying to know the Truth.

I've been meditating for a couple of months now so I decided to make a log sheet, where I put the duration, technique and a summary of my experience everyday. I attached the PDF file to this post. Just print it and start using it Here's how it looks after (kinda) finished: Meditation Habit Sheet.pdf

I've also struggled with this in the past. I still face some issues with it, but it got a lot better. The thing I found most helpful was getting to a powerful realization. For me, this realization was that, ultimately, opinions of others reflect who they are, not who you are. Somehow, something in my mind clicked and now I'm much more grounded.

That's great! (I've also read The Six Pillars of Self-Esteem, amazing book!)

I go to bed @ 21:30 and wake up @ 7:30 (with alarm clock, otherwise 8:00 or 8:30). Before setting this sleeping schedule, I used to go to sleep at mid-night or so, but felt very tired the following day. It's actually annoying because I feel tired too quickly, and if I don't go to bed very early, I won't have any energy left the next day and be too sleepy. I do a lot of exercise, and don't eat fast-food nor high-sugar foods. I want to make more time to meditate, self-actualize, book reading, research, etc. How can I sleep less without diminishing my energy? Thanks!

I've been doing 30-minute meditation sessions cross-legged for a couple of months now. In these cases, I can handle the numbness pretty well. However, I've recently tried to boost to 60-minute sessions, but the numbness and pain are very high during the last 10-15 minutes. It's like hell! I try to observe it and resist the urge to stop it but it's very hard. I could finish the 60-minute session, so I'm wondering if this pain is actually good for me to focus on or it's just bad and I need to take care of it (by switching the position). Any feedback is highly appreciated! Thanks

Yeah

Thanks! I'll be doing this from now on. I'll post here my results next month.

Last year I watched one of Leo's basic self-actualization episodes and was deeply moved by the idea of improving myself. I've since then taken a lot of action in my life, read a lot of self-help books and studied so much on this topic. This year I was faced with more Leo's videos, subscribed to his channel and now I'm on this journey of self-actualization. It just blows my mind the progress I have done so far and what I have accomplished in life. Since I'm in high school I have A LOT of free time and self-development seems worthy of my time. Last week I watched Leo's first Enlightenment video and was deeply moved by it. I don't know why, or how or what, but it just sparked something inside of me. I was so energetic to know more about it. I spent a couple of days doing the self-inquiry work and meditating for 20~40 minutes a day. Being a very open-minded person, intellectually intelligent, what advice do some more experienced people have for a 17 year old high school-er?

I've been more aware of my thoughts for the past weeks. One thing I noticed is that I'm constantly thinking and visualizing on my mind possible outcomes for future or past interactions. In these visualizations, I keep track of other people's reactions and facial expressions. I'm aware that I've been doing this all my life. I go through an ordinary interaction and then recall it and imagine alternative behaviors and their outcomes. I think this is correlated to my deep child need for validation and approval. I also do this for future events, where I imagine all the different ways I can perform the future interaction and which behavior will have the best outcome - positive reactions from people. I'm still trying to figure out how to clear these thoughts and why they exist in the first place. Maybe they happen to be my mind's way of manifesting its dependence of others' opinions. I'll try Leo's exercise on "How to stop caring what people think of you" and see if I get any results. Does anyone have any idea of the root of such problem and what actions I can take to fix the deeper issue? I tend to think I'm independent of other people's opinions but this just proves it wrong.

Isn't that the purpose of his videos? To target a certain audience? A psychopath is not going to watch the video on how to stop pleasing other people. We all have different paths, and Leo's videos have different subjects that might interest one group of people and not other.

I think that Leo's point is that projections stop us from fully learning and entertaining ideas from teachers and mentors. About Leo's projections, I see them as chances for us to realize the level of personal development we're at and to take action. These projections are meant to spark the light-bulb in us that we're doing something not beneficial and that there's a chance to grow.