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Wow, this conversation went pretty deep. @isabel I can't answer your questions. I just don't eat meat because I don't feel like eating meat. And I don't feel the need to understand why I don't feel like eating meat. Ultimately everything is infinitely interconnected, so the true reason of why I don't feel like eating meat is probably incomprehensible. And therefore every oversimplified reason is a false reason. So cheer up, god knows nothing, follow your feelings, be a hippie, peace!

I had shivers running through my spine reading this. I've never heard you talking from this depth.

The present moment is a multisensory symphony. And the awareness is part of it.

Seems like weed has its own wisdom

In the back of my sober mind there was always the belief that I am awareness and I am aware of the world. But yesterday I got high and I realized that the awareness is part of the dance, part of the symphony. It's all one. I am one. I am. I. .

Absolute freedom is not just about how much freedom you're getting, but also about how much freedom you can give away. Most of us here are not egos but superegos. I call superego the ego which is responsible for the diminishing of the ego. But a superego is also an ego. We (superegos) are all about suppressing the ego. So to balance it out, the key to our liberation is loving the ego and giving it freedom. As I said, we get as much freedom as much we give away, so for us superegos, the way to infinite freedom is giving away infinite freedom to the ego. Did you understand what I said? You must give away infinite freedom to the ego that you're trying to eliminate. Feel all the resistance coming up while reading this. This is exactly the resistance that you must let go for your own liberation. And you must give infinite freedom to your ego.

We (superegos) are trying to restrict the entity in us that we perceive as the "ego". But what we perceive as the "ego", in reality. it's the Soul. It is Life itself. We, superegos, are the force of the grip around the Soul. The more we grip the Soul, the more unhealthy it becomes (physically, mentally and emotionally). We feel like Life is against us, because we're against Life. We're the force of grip on Life itself. So the key to our liberation is letting go of the grip, and giving Life infinite freedom.

Be a witch! But stay grounded in the beginning. Make sure that you don't run out of money. You can stay at your current job if you want, or earn money with something that you would love more to do.

I have finished all my courses and I even implemented a nice software for my master's thesis. But the actual writing of the thesis feels like a waste of time. I don't feel like I'm learning anything useful by writing it, and no one else will learn anything from it either simply because nobody will really read it. I don't even know if I want to have a master's degree anymore because having a master's degree would prove that I was stupid enough to waste my time on writing a master thesis. Am I helping or serving anybody by writing my master's thesis? Is there any good reason why I should get a master's degree?

Thank you @ppfeiff. The thing is that I want the master's degree for the wrong reason: I'm jealous of my friends who have the degree and therefore get higher salaries I'm afraid that even if I change my job, my next job will also give higher salaries to the employees who have a master's degree So yeah, my ego would feel great having a master's. And it keeps alive the will to force myself to write that thesis. But when I have free time, I always find more meaningful things to do, like learning about mobile programming (my current field) or dissolving my emotional blockages. So I kinda want to have the degree in the future. But in the present moment, writing the thesis never becomes the top priority.

I'm gonna just copy my previous answer here:

When I started my master's, my dream was to start my own company. So I started my master's purely to learn more about programming (I also had some courses on entrepreneurship and work organizing). And when I started my master's, I gave myself the permission to quit as soon as I want to spend more time on starting my company. But then i drifted into enlightenment work, and I decided to find an easy mobile programming job instead, so that I can spend more time and energy on psychedelics and meditations. Now that I'm living the employee life, it would be nice to have a master's degree because maybe that way it would be easier to find another job if I wanted to. On the other hand, if I want to change my job, I don't really want to work for a boss who thinks that the master's degree is more than a peace of paper.

Yes, something like that. On the first year of my master's I learned software design and development, on the second year I was in an internetional master's program and I could choose whatever subjects I wanted, so I chose mostly data science subjects. And my master's thesis is supposed to be about web scraping.

It's okay @Nahm, no need for apology. I don't take things seriously. Alan Watts once quoted someone, saying: I love this quote!

I don't even know anymore whether everything is one or not. "All is one" is an illusion. But it's the very last illusion that you throw out. After this, you don't have any illusions anymore. And paradoxically, even being illusion free is an illusion.

Of course it is affected. Awareness is completely intimate with all experience and all knowing. It is one with it. The mind separates awareness from the experiences. Then the mind identifies itself with the untouchable awareness so that it can feel safe from life, and it can feel safe from not knowing itself. Now I expressed myself from the perspective of "All is One". But it is just a perspective that I've chosen because I can't express myself without a perspective. This perspective and all other perspectives are relative and therefore these are ultimately illusions. I'm not saying that Truth doesn't exist. I'm just trying to express that Truth is not knowable. Because to know something, first you have to have a perspective on it. You can choose the perspective of "pure awareness", but it's still a perspective. And a perspective is always relative.

It doesn't really matter what you're eating as long as you're sincere with yourself. I like your attitude towards your diet

The thinker is a thought among thoughts. And the feeler is a feeling among feelings. Are you not thinking that you're thinking? And are you not feeling that you're feeling?

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I have no idea. I don't relax myself for a long time. I relax myself often instead. But you can try mixing Silva Mind Control with Holosync while focusing on your breath. It's almost like a psychedelic Well, I like extreme forms of motion: I love snowboarding, in the future I want to learn to be a parachuting trainer, I want to learn free running and I want to buy a sporty motorbike. But how is it helping you to relax? What are you passionate about? @Shin I saw the thread you started today. Why are you making a problem about it? You cannot stop it. You don't have any control over it. So just relax yourself into it. It will dissolve only if you let yourself to merge with it.

Wait... you're not a woman? I should have read this first: https://www.wikihow.com/Tell-if-a-Mouse-Is-Male-or-Female

You think you can finally relax after enlightenment? How would our seeking look like, if we would seek ways of relaxing into enlightenment? We would probably just sit... with closed eyes... noticing our breaths... Is it getting familiar? :)) It can feel like you're inside it. And for a woman it can feel like it's inside her. I love massaging and I've got great compliments for it. Today I just thought that I could be a professional masseur. But then I realized that I would want to massage only woman... and then I realized that I would want to massage only woman I like... But hey, if you're in this category then I would massage the hell out of you! :))

Nah, it tastes like breathing. I wouldn't recommend.

:)) Have you ever tried meditating?

Yeah, that would relax me too. I shouldn't think about ways to relax people, I should be a beggar instead! $-)