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So I would just like to remind people who suffer from schizophrenia, bipolar or schizoaffective to take meds. It is such a wonderful invention of modern science. Currently I am on haloperidol as it has the least impact on my weight gain and I can be thin and also Normal in my consciousness. Some mania is still there but I welcome it as it helps with productivity to be a bit energized and also it leads to fun times . So I've hinting a bit that I might also be on the autism spectrum but I doubt it, I've been through a very rough life on this realm, I've been hurt physically, sexually assaulted and stuff in my youth and, you know, Life in sweden is pretty fucked up. The region that i live has a lot of alcoholism and a bunch of drug addicts. It lends itself to a lot of domestic abuse and violence and shit. I grew up in a small town, with a bunch of fucking white trash scum who would beat the shit out of you in school. That's all i want to say, i was also a bit of a bad guy, not necessarily cruel but I also hurt some people. Trauma can really fuck things up for you mentally later on, It's usually the most traumatized among us that develop these kinds of mental disorders. I'd like to remind you once again to take your meds, adjust the dose, it's a night and day difference, I'm able to work, do creative projects and enjoy my life to the fullest now, and I hope you can too. If you're the rare person that can manage living without too many or any medications at all, I salute you sir, and i shalt not trespass upon your life choices. Have a good day

i was going to mcdonalds ordering a milkshake and some nuggets and then this super hot milf comes in ordering something and asking for her sons jacket that got lost, w/e just providing some context....and uh im sorta just sitting there staring into the void, she looks at me several times, indicating some curiosity. im sitting with my big ass white hoodie and a white cap for matching colors and to look a little bit drippy i was feeling it in me i was gonna offer her my milkshake and give her a new straw in case she has the bacteria-phobia thingy, and maybe talk to her and flirt but right as i was going to do that she went, grabbed her order and i decided...Meh....im going away. the timing was a bit off, but i felt some sexual tension between me and her. Maybe another opportunity arises. I'm on the prowl >__<

well i dont consider myself asperger, im not the type that memorizes stuff like a robot nor do i act like a robot, more on the schizo-spectrum, but i certainly am bizarre to the point where social interactions with people make others think im from a different planet at times, i gotta ground myself and try to act normal, i can do it, i make people laugh from time to time. i can be charming and sweet. this whole autism thing, im just an INFJ or something so i get sensory overstimulation and it correlates with autism but it isnt true autism i have better EQ than your average mild autist/asperger. it's just that i'm such a weirdo that makes things a bit more difficult. what i would do is simply offer her the milkshake and give her a compliment on her looks, since she looked at me several times i feel like that's enough, she'd make it easy for me, BUT it didnt happen, i didnt cease the opportunity, but next time im willing to do something just so that i can say that i got some experience out of it even if it was a failure. failures i feel, are very necessary

I live in a pretty big city in Sweden, So there are a lot of ladies out and about right now given that it's summer and so forth. Good time to practice game. In the scenario i outlined in the OP or in the thread i...must say that, i believe she looked at me because i'm relatively young and beautiful. I'm 27. And i'm not the ugliest person either. I wonder how you guys think about that? The looksmaxxxing stuff, blackpill community or whatever. But looks can make things a BIT easier, you can get away with a little bit more, i'm not like a 10/10 im more like a 6.5/10 and a bit short (175.8cm) 5'9 so i'm decently looking. There are plenty of men who are shorter than me, and less attractive physically but also i recognize that GAME, is important, and you can get around bad looks if you're charming, funny, and you appeal to a womans fantasy, you know, you say the right thing that sparks attraction and stuff. I get that, i'm not a complete blackpilled moron but i'll just bring up the topic of looks since i do believe it has an impact, i get looks from women because i look good and it can certainly help me.

I'll say that i have light autism. And i feel that i should've approached the lady just for the first failure since i don't regularly do this but i'm willing to learn and you did provide a good resource But....nothing beats experience, i can read stuff and advice all day long, eventually i'm going to have to learn my own methods through trial and error.

I would also like to say that struggling to take medications when you have this disorder is very common, around 50% of people who suffer from these disorders struggle with taking the medications long term, because maybe they're sceptical about it, there are severe side effects sometimes, and occassionally you'll stop realizing that you're sick, you might deny that you have a serious mental illness etc. That is also part of the illness, to deny that you have an illness, i would say. So get in touch with whatever healthcare institution is available in your country and be responisble with medications. I feel a bit preachy here but It needs to be said for the aforementioned reason, especially seeing as 50% struggle. Also we've seen people in the actualized community struggle with grounding themselves and going completely bonkers, taking large doses of psychedelics. I've been doing this myself, I've been there. And i've also been the person who struggled with medications! Do yourself a favor and take care of yourself will ya? God bless you

im on the spectrum

i've almost had OBEs i've had the beginning of it but not quite the full fruition of it because i get scared when i get the tingles....it all happened when i kundalini-yoga'd myself to get the third eye opened. So all in due time i imagine i'll be able to have an OBE, it might be terrifying, or wonderful, i dont know what to expect.

^ Yes indeed, and in so doing you remove the differences, the contrast between you and 'the other' gets diminished and instead one finds unity

I'm here blasting some music just contemplating how fucking amazing it is, whether it is a solipsistic dream or not, doesn't make a difference to how vivid I am currently experiencing it. I recommend heart chakra meditation 'yam' mantra yamm.......yam..... Open your heart, and become more in touch with the love power of the universe. take some ecstasy or something if meditation isn't good enough for you. I've had some wonderful interactions with people these last few months, made friends, and I intend to keep going in the pursuit of following my bliss in this life. And i hope you can too

So you may know about tarot cards and the 22 major arcana cards. The fool, the magician, the high priestess, the empress.... Well i found a methodolgy for how one can turn oneself into different archetypes. I have chosen to turn myself into the empress archetype, in previous posts i was the fool, which you can probably notice in that I was making some troll-y posts (though still with a serious under-tone) but if i could teach you how i do this stuff you would probably appreciate it. I first want to say that the empress is the symbol for the imagination, my imagination is more potent now. The fool is superconsciousness, both can lead to creative breakthroughs but the fool is more nuts. Literally bipolar disorder... So first i'll give you a link: https://cosmicnavigator.com/learn/the-22-paths-of-the-tree-of-life/path-3/ <---The empress, "Creative people walk this path" and a second link: https://www.servantsofthelight.org/QBL/ So it's all related to the kabbalah, there are 22 paths in the kabbalah tree of life, connecting the sephiroth with one another. Each path has a different work assosciated with it The Magician is science, and it increases concentration and memory, i believe Leo Gura is a magician archetype, but that's just my guess. He's very rigorous and rational. You can achieve a lot through that path, make great content, all sorts of things open up to you as a magician, but you take a rational approach to things, even art. You become like a technical artist if you were to do art that way.... The empress sort of turns you into either nikola tesla or david bowie. both are venusians and the empress is connected to Venus. It increases imagination like i said. so you become sort of a visionary, also very generous, i turned too this path and i gave a homeless man some money when i was recycling beer-cans. Now the joker archetype, the first archetype, is like kurt cobain, hes a joker archetype, you'll get genius ideas that are revolutionary, whether it be music and stuff. There's also darker paths you can take, like the path of tiferet-netzach which is the Death card and it makes you a criminal basically. So to the METHOD.... You basically just visualize the sephiroth (the spheres) that are involved in the given path. For instance I'm in the Empress now and it's Chokmah (wisdom) connected with Binah (Understanding) Whilst visualizing chant the names of the sephiroth and visualize the line connecting them and the name of the path. Like this: "Chokmah....Binah...Daleth!" (Daleth is the name of the 4th path (the empress) and it's the 4th letter in the hebrew alphabet. Aleph is the first letter, turns you into the Fool or the joker archetype. But beware guys, this stuff is potentially dangerous. It goes well together with chakra meditation, i assume this isn't even possible if you haven't opened your chakras through kundalini yoga. But that's my guess. Leo Gura or other admins might look at this post and say it's unfounded, it's unscientific, that is all coming from The Magician consciousness. The high priestess opens you up to Far Memory and your subconsciousmind, which enables you to develop psychic abilities to an extent, have dreams that are divinatory and highly symbolic. As an empress i intend to create music videos in my room with a green screen and stuff. I play guitar pretty well and am intending to make some money that way, alsoo intending to get jobs and stuff so i'm not like a super actualized human being like all y'all might be but I've discovered these methods on my own and by a stroke of luck and TRUST ME IT WORKS. I'm not trying to sell you something that doesn't work and i give away this knowledge to all y'all Freely in hopes that it can turn your life around. But stick to one path for a longer period is my recommendation. The Empress is also the Third Eye path so it enhances wisdom, I recommend it. For the second link i provided, click on the spheres and the lines if you want to access the information of that given Sephiroth or Path. Thank you all for reading, hope i provided a 'High Consciousness-Resource' And i hope i don't get kicked or banned for this if it is antithetical to Actualized.org's principles.

I don't know about that stuff, sounds very complicated. Though i know i'm a Mula in my moon nakshatra pada 3. I see similarities between me and other Mulas like Trent Reznor, or even arnold scwharzeneger. INTJ personality in MBTI i think

Cool. Well if that works for you then it works for you and having a new method might ruin things for you. Do you stick by one "path/planet" for a longer period or do you obsessively switch like i did in the beginning of my journey?

i'm extra careful and diplomatic now trying not to get kicked if this information is too "far out, man..." and i have a tendency to get shut down on other forums such as reddit or other forums. In fact i posted my techniques on reddit, it received a lot of likes quickly but shortly after that it got dismissed on the r/occult so....I know this stuff can be controversial, magic is dangerous. apply it wisely. Like i said, the empress is an amazing path, i recommend it. The greatest of dangers is that you'll constantly, obsessively switch between different paths and never settling. I did that. Now i've been in the empress for several months and i'm noticing how possibilities in life are opening up to me. It is essentially as if i have opened up my third eye and become aware of future implications and also having visionary ideas that i intend to follow through on. Best of luck. I highly recommend the empress once again.

So I have now begun to realize that I am the Main solipsist. And the world clearly revolves around me, so I have some question to ask to you, figmented imaginings. 1) What do you think about me? 2) What is my fate? 3) Do I have a purpose. 4) Am I the protagonist of an incredible story. Am I to rescue humanity from great evil 5) Or...Is my life just a random bunch of odd happenings that don't really have any greater purpose other than something lame like 'love'.

idk bros. im kinda tired the solipsism talk and this was actually meant for like...banter. ppl saying i have an ego, sure i have an ego, cant say it's huge though i try to calm it down. enough about me, ive seen good answers in this thread. razard ive seen your posts way before i joined the forum, and they're interesting and quite convincing. my post was sorta meant to be provocative. i mean "you figmented imaginings" cmon, i'm obviously tryna piss people off. Well im sorry for my rude behavior, as for solipsism, it's quite an intriguing idea, i mean, i like it. though i dont feel very much in control over my life, despite allegedly being God.

naked, running around in a psychiatric hospital perhaps

magic? according to dion fortune it is the ability to alter your consciousness at will

I mite be a Narc, hijacking spiritually advanced concepts to inflate my egoism oopsie. No but uh....Yeah i can attain samadhi and realize solipsism and all that i've dicsovered a samadhi technique

I must confess that i was in a quite anxious mood as i created this topic, because I live in a dangerous place on earth, and i've been a victim of certain tragedies regarding violence and so forth, And i think when i walk out the door on my way to work that "something terrible might happen to me", this may belong in a different sub-forum but yes. Life is not all fun and games, not a dance upon roses. Now, i'm a newbie here and i am not making any request but wouldn't it be cool if Mr Leo Gura made an episode about navigating in the hood, or going through the trenches, alive and well...heh. conflict, war, and all such things can be a great teacher with first hand experience about the truth of this world.. SPOOKY IMPLICATION OF SOLIPSISM: Only I feel the pain of torture and violence. I'm in a hell of my own creation:

Life on earth has many beatiful aspects, many positive experiences can be had, one can find tremendous joy in this world, love, beauty, art, sports, games, science, business, cooperation, romance, etc. But that isn't necessarily painting the whole picture of the world we find ourselves in. The other side of the coin (the darker side) is just as prevalent. One doesn't need to look no further than in nature, where might makes right in many cases, vicious animals ripping apart guts from a weaker animal. Predators and so forth. Hunger, starvation and also violence affects us human beings a lot too. Wars, corruption, degenartion, depression, sadness, sickness and becoming a paraplegic. And not to mention physical pain and agony without any limitation what so ever. I find myself in situations, positive situations looking at happy people on occassion, mothers with their small children, and i think, they don't know true reality, what tragedies they'll soon face in life. My message is to bring awareness to these facts, one ought to be equanimous, balance the two polarities in order to achieve unity and a full insight into what life is really about. God is love, but god is also hatred. Choose wisely. Questions you may want to contemplate: - What can one do to go from negative to positive? Being a solipsist leaves you with an blank canvas, you can choose to live more like a saint, and more like the devil. What do you prefer? - In order to achieve peace, do you have to conquer your inner demons first? - Are you more appreciative and optimistic of God's creation, or pessimistic? Or both? thanks for reading. I hope i can contribute to a sincere conversation.

Reminds me of the schopenhauer quote: "Pleasure consists in the removal of pain or discomfort; it is thus of a negative nature." Not sure if that's his exact wording but uh.... Well it paints a dark picture that fact, that quote. There is such a thing as ecstatic bliss, orgasms higher than the basic ones of a lower nature. There is tremendous joy, love, and so forth so that quote may be an overly pessimistic view. But yes that is essentially what is being said (ying and yang),

consciousness, hmm......could it be a dream generator of some kind?

So I stumbled upon a youtube channel: https://www.youtube.com/@dmackler58/videos His videos are centered around healing ones trauma, and so forth. He claims that many mental illnesses, Bipolar, schizophrenia, PTSD, even sociopathy (antisocial disorder) are simply expressions of severe trauma. As for how the trauma occured that is unique to each individual and the method for healing trauma can vary. You may need to introspect a lot, write down your memories and confront your pain. Inevitably it will result in many tears, and anger, but the end result can be to be healthy and happy. I'm invested in this as I have been diagnosed with a psychotic disorder and am working hard to become healthy again, I think of schizophrenia as a form of PTSD. My personal method for solving trauma is meditation on the heart chakra, I currently feel a sharp and painful sensation near the chest, it's the emotional wounds becoming apparent, and dealing with this will eventually cure me, I believe, I hope. An example of a video he made: In it he interviews psychiatrists, the main point of the video is to illustrate how ineffective psychiatry is at curing schizophrenia, and that the medications merely only supress symptoms, not tackling the root cause which is trauma. He also has videos where he talks about different disorders, and he specifically interviews some psychiatrists who managed to cure psychotic patients.