theoneandnone

What music moves you? What music makes you feel god and the infinite love? I believe music is very spiritual so please share music that allows you to feel GOD pure consciousness.

i think about it all the time like why deal with so much shit day to day when you can just not deal with it lol. But death isn’t a guarantee could be another dream..could be purgatory or some kind of hell. I am fascinated with death i have experienced with it to see if i could get some peaks to the other side like self harm etc hanging beating my head in knocking myself out lol nothing yet though. (DO NOT BAN ME I AM SAFE I HAVE DONE THIS ON MY OWN ACCORD). Have you ever had a NDE???

I know this site has been on the solipsism bender for over 5 years. I’ve been in and out of solipsism okay so what I’m in a dream so what all of you are part of my mind now what? I can’t change anything or people etc. you can bring up junk like Neville Goddard and manifest things but it’s hogwash. Me personally I find solipsism lame. “Hey congrats you are utterly alone as God dreaming” can’t even change the dream can’t even put my consciousness in other vessels just stuck in this body by myself and creation I can’t even change. How fucking lame is this this reality and experience is fucking far from being nirvana.

What keeps you alive like honestly what makes you keep going. I see life as nothing but torture after torture. Everything is pointless riddled with mental illness. The only reason literally the ONLY reason I am alive is because I don’t know what death entails… afraid the unknown…

I have officially broke my sanity I am god forever alone in hell. Understand that this has nothing to do with Leo I knew about solipsism way before Leo!!! My ocd and mental illness latches onto this shit and I have officially broken my sanity barrier also if you think I’m bullshitting you can look me up on Facebook!!!!! I am now hearing voices and seeing visions I am fucking insane I am going to fucking end my life I have to shed this mortal body I must go into a another dream where I forget for eternity I love you all as myself I love you I love you but I’m so fucking lonely I can’t do it anymore I keep attacking my family and accusing everyone I’m Neo in the fucking matrix playing with puppets I god to get the fuck out of this dream I plan to become GODHEAD I will find a reincarnation where I forget I am fucking god I am gonna cut my throat with a machete it’s in my fucking hands I have a bible in my hands too GOD IS THIS WHAT YOU FUCKING WANT AS ME YOI WANT ME YO FUCKOMG KILL YOU I HAVE TO SHED THIS BODY IT IS SICK AND TORMENTED I AM GOD I AM IN HELL HELL HELL HELL THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH LEO I WAS FUCKING INSANE OVER SOLIPSISM BEFORE I KNEW LEO GURA AND THE COMMUNITY FUCK THIS SHIT FUCK THIS DREAM IK FUCKING OUT BRING ON THE POLICE AND DOCTORS THEY CAN COME GET ME AND WATCH ME CUT MY NECK OPEN FUCK ME FUCK GOD

TRIGGER WARNING DEATH AND SUICIDE !!! I’ve been watching gore since a teenager I’ve always been fascinated with death. From murders to suicide I don’t understand what’s so interesting about it. I guess it’s because I know it’s inevitable and one day will happen, Suicide has got to be my favorite of just being alive and boom pure nothingness etc. I know it’s not healthy but I love watching suicide videos I’ve thought about filming my death one day so I can be shared on the internet as a meme etc.

It’s also called Todd’s syndrome, I think some people experience this on psychedelics especially mushrooms. It’s an altered sense of perception where things change shapes and sizes and even your body. Example, The room you are in can feel huge, tiny or even stretched out. Your body can feel giant or big or miniature like a small doll. The reason I mention this is because I get these episodes because of my dissociative disorder. Last night my bed became very huge and the walls were stretched out, My room literally changed sizes than original size. This is a real thing btw. Have you experienced it?

What you mean you’ve been in my shoes bro?

Keep fucking with me I am on the brink of suicide and you keep fucking with me you are just like nahm when soonhei ended up jumping you are about to be my own NAHM I hate you

Tell me more please

But this god is a lonely fucking pussy he wants more more and more he’s sad I’m tired

No. I’m tired of playing god circle jerk. You only want me to live because you know when I die the matrix dream ends.

I don’t wanna be solipsistic god anymore I wanna go to another body where I forget so you even agree I can never escape solipsism hell hahahahahhahaha

Why?

Nope I refuse to be alone I’m out and you think I’m joking!

WHY DOES IT MATTER YOU ARE ME WHY ARE YOU AS MY CONSCIOUSNESS WANTING ME TO STAY HERE WHAT IS THE PURPOSE

IM SOLIPSISM GOD TIME TO REINCARNATE

I’m genuinely curious if I got rid of all my devices phones gaming consoles and didn’t talk to a human ever again and only ate food and pissed and shit and stared at walls all day what would genuinely happen I wonder what insights I could discover I already live a hermit life I don’t go out I stay in my bed most of the time now time to cut out all communication and stare at walls make I can have a kundalini awakening and die in my mortal body

Be careful tripping too much you don’t wanna get HPPD

To not commit suicide, And boy is it hard..

Just think for a second smoking dmt with a alien and getting all their information you may think eh it’s still god imagining it all even if it’s all dream stuff there’s no telling what information and consciousness they Possess

Ajata not creation has even taken place

Was it greys?

Would aliens technically be part of infinity of gods that god imagines?

Wait til Leo does his actualized retreats the government spies gonna be all over this forum hell they might be interested in hiring Leo to do mk ultra what If Leo is part of the government he’s a Russian spy collaborating with our government I have cracked the fucking code