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So, I have been wondering why do humans and animals sleep? What is sleep? What is it spiritually? Do you have any knowledge about that?

@Someone here Yeah my bad with explaining what I wanted to ask at the start. Thanks for replying. This makes totally sense!!

@Someone hereHmm thanks. I was thinking what is the reason for sleep? I get that it is pure emptiness in its absolute form but why do we go there every night? Why is not the movie playing over and over?

@Leo Gura exactly!!

@Leo Gura Of course there are wiser things to do if looking for truth seeking. Maybe for some person it actually raises one's consciousness? My point of it was to approach gaming in positive light and not blaming yourself for it or putting some negative labels on it. Awareness is key too.

@Ima Freeman Thanks for reply! I totally get you about the wasting potential part. I have the same issue with not finding my life purpose. That's why I've become curious why I do get scared of not doing something important in life. I think it mostly is a fear of accepting what it is and surrendering yourself to life. If your heart really wants to play let it play! Also, you can contemplate why do you think it hinders your spiritual journey if you play games? Where did you learn that? What if you learn profound wisdom through gaming? Think positively!

@Bittu omg another Finn in this forum, let's gooo!!

@CredI agree, I think the word discpline is mainly part of stage orange. Some discipline is great if you feel excited about it, but you should follow the river and not trying to fix it. Who said being discipline produces the best result? Why do you need to be disciplined? Are you afraid of not being disciplined? Why is that, what happens then?

I think that if it makes you scared to game because you get sucked in, I feel like it should be a fear to explore. In the end in life you want to do the things that make you happy. I understand that truth seeking is the most important thing you can do but burning through karma is also important. Maybe you allow yourself get so sucked in the game that you play many weeks straight without doing anything else and then after you feel like taking a break from it. Life is not this fixed straight river, it is flowy.

@Salvijus Yeah it is a weak reason, and like said in the other comment I will continue my spiritual journey in current relationship if until the gap is too big. Thanks!

So, my relationship is one sided with spirituality. I'm awakening and she is dreaming. Yesterday, she said she feels like she is not my first priority and she doesn't get enought attention. I said I will fix that and actually she knows and believes me because in previous conversations in the past when she has talked about her needs, I have changed to better. They have been actually good things she has brought up, like being more present with her. But, in yesterdays talk, I had to tell her also that the reason for her not feeling as the first priority is that I'm awakening, and I was explaining it with the ocean and water drop example. The thing is that I know my first priority is pursuing the truth. Everything else comes after. I told her that and also that in this lifetime of ours, she is the priority (in relative sense). But even telling her that feels little bit like fooling her, because the truth feels so powerful to me that it is hard to see her as the priority in this life. She wants to be loved the most, which I try to do, but the importance of that is less and less as my inner journey deepens. I want to love everything, not just some things! So in the heat of the conversation, I said that I have been thinking of breaking up. She started crying and asked why. Actually it was a good question, because I realized in the moment that I want to break up so I can pursue truth with less distractions, but I can actually do it while in relationship. She is kind to me and she can give me space to meditate, do psychedelics, retreats etc... So, do I actually want to break up or not? Well... I don't want to but still inside me I have this feeling of if I break up I can really pursue awakening. Also, I feel that as the journey deepens in my end I feel there will be bigger gap between me and her in our views of everything. I need advice from you guys what should a woke person do in a relationship when the other is dreaming.

@Elliott Oh wow I didn't think about that there might a confliction if I have a spiritual girlfriend. Yes, I agree that first I need to improve myself so she feels satisfied and secured but if she never stops wanting more and its too much, then I need think about what to do next. Thanks!

@Salvijus That is true but also wouldn't it be beneficial to find a girlfriend then who is spiritual?

I had it the next day after ayahuasca ceremony. It brought a lot of tension to the surface and I could have cried the whole time. It felt like it was trying to open the valve from pressure. I cried in some moments but I wish I could have surrendered more, now looking back at it. The feeling itself was so strange, something I've never felt before. Like the whole world was paying attention to me and supporting me. I would like to try it again someday for sure.

Thanks for sharing your trip. It pulled me back to the present moment after focusing only to my work haha. I had San Pedro once but not this kind of a dosage so it was interesting to hear what you experienced

I'd also suggest to actually feel the emotions and thoughts you have about it and not neglect them. Really surrender to the feeling that would be the best scenario and that makes you the most happy. Carry on those feelings and thoughts of happiness and see where life moves you. E.g. I am kinda relating to you. I'm also in a relationship and have been thinking of having casual fun with others. Instead of thinking of doing something for it that is outside of you, feel the thoughts and feelings inside. Like literally think about the fun in your head how it makes you feel and see where it takes.

So, for a one year now I have been trying to follow Medical Medium's diet but not 100 %. I wonder what are your thoughts on this diet? One year ago I did a cleanse from him and felt higher consciousness and lighter. Still I'm open to hear other views!

Yeah good points. He is bringing very different diet to the table than others. I probably will follow his diet somewhat but will be flexible. I think avoiding the troublemaker foods is great already and eating a lot of veggies and fruits. Thanks for your view

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I don't know did he have his own diet but he was proclaiming of having some kind of a healing power

Thanks for your comprehensive reply. I feel quite the same as you and I need to follow my intuition more than sticking to one diet.

I'd say Ground news is an interesting source for news. They collect news from different sources and list them left and right wing so you can see the difference in viewpoints.

So, I've been with my girl for 2 years and I have grown spiritualy a lot. She is not spiritual person. Scientific minded doing her PhD. Lately there has been a lot of backlash from our differences. It kinda started from me meeting this girl in a meditation retreat in last Sep. I don't really have spiritual friends so I thought she could be my first. Long story short, we texted a lot and I gave her a lot of space to be herself (I noticed she was really fragile for not showing her authenticity). I felt in my heart that was the right thing to do. What happened was that she got a crush on me and was sending me half naked pics and such. I told my girlfriend of the whole situation and she couldn't understand why I would do this. We had talks after this and I noticed how it's really important to me to give space to people and help them to be more authentic. I feel a lot of suffering in the world in that regard. Of course, she doesn't understand this spiritual level and was only thinking that I was naive and stupid. She said to me that why don't you prioritize me over her. The thing is that I'm getting more spiritual and having this egoic side picking is less and less relevant. I listened to my gf and quit talking to the girl. I'm not perfect either and I feel like I learned that even if you want to help somebody to be themselves there has to be boundaries. After this incident, I have tried to explain how I see the world from relative and absolute truth. She doesn't understand and thinks the absolute is some kind of sandbox gta where people just murder others for no reason. She wants her to be the most important thing in my life, but I feel like spirituality (truth) is actually mine. Even though she tries to be openminded person, she mostly sees things from her eyes. Lately I feel like living alone, so I can get this spiritual freedom that my soul wants but it is also scary because I know how I can make my girl suffer. I still love her but I don't know if it will be fading away. Maybe I mostly love her so she won't feel bad. TLDR: My girlfriend doesn't understand spirituality like me and it causes a lot of friction. I feel like my heart wants to explore the reality and she is slowing it down.

So for you having this polarity was a good thing in the end? Are you single now?

Thank you for your thoughtful reply! Yes most of things you mentioned I can check mark. I've been in a spiritual path for a while so this thing that happened is one obstacle after another like me using psychedelics. In a mental level were are not aligned fully because she just doesn't understand reality like I do. I still love her but ehh it is tough atm... She never hated. Just confused. But this thing what happened might add some hatred towards it.