NewKidOnTheBlock

If you feel like you need no more fun in your life, just make some kids. It's basically guaranteed you'll stop having fun for the rest of your life. Imo having children is a very specific kind of responsibility, in that it's the only kind that hinders fun in life. You can have a job and have fun, you can have any kind of responsibility and have fun. Once you have kids it's over. Which is why I'm never making any, besides the other reason being that I don't like managing and I don't like being managed, I dislike both ends of the spectrum. It's annoying. Fortunatelly God has designed me in such a way which is very complimentary to this aspiration of mine

I don't like it either. It gives me an eerie feeling, as if I'm slowly conditioning myself into a narcisist just by reading that all of my ideas are great and that I'm great whatever I'm saying, of course this is impossible seeing as narcisism is a genetic and early childhood conditioning sort of mental pathology, but regardless constant ego gratification is unpleasant. Even just for the fact that it is repetitive and boring, and doesn't challenge your ideas I think it is actually a positive thing that a lot of people are complaining about this, means we are not so doomed

If you tried to sniff out Pretty India in any slightly weirder post, you'd eventually go crazy

I never see women invading anyone's personal space, it's always men who do annoying weird shit like that. But I guess you are an interesting specimen to these women due to your bodily proportions, and since they know 100% they can get away with it, they're using that opportunity, maybe out of fascination, their way of showing friendliness, or even attraction. Can't say I don't understand them LUL

In my sizeable and comfy bed, enjoying the warm embrace of the blanket and pillow, living in a cute air conditioned appartment, life is not that bad. And with this thought, I shall make a visit to the dream world

I'm going to master my own psychology and spirituality, so that I can be as internally joyfull being alone, as I would be in a good company

Perhaps I'm just full of shit and basic, like any other man. Well... better to embrace it than deny it

Ability to be satisfied with being alone is the real strength and superpower. It's about time I start to cultivate it It's not nearly as bad as other people are making it out to be. The supposed negatives of it is mostly just societal brainwashing

I don't understand how we made it as a species up until this point, seriously. I can observe the inter gender alienation and contempt even amongst the people I know. How to even cope with this shit

I was sometimes wondering if there was a female equivalent of me somewhere in the world, and how she would perceive reality LOL not that you'd necessarilly fit that bill, of course, you have a different set of challenges, it's more like... if she was like me, just sort of derping throught life, going with the flow type shit, just letting the time pass doing very leisurely activities, sometimes feeling like I'm going on an autopilot as I'm talking with blank mind etc. LEL Well I don't know if I'm able to think in terms of vibe like that, but I definitely feel like an alien in there. Or as if I don't belong in there. Alcohol doesn't really help with that either, and the couple of times I was attempting to dance, the thoughts like "Why am I doing this, why are other people doing this, it's so weird" can't leave my head. Admittedly, it is pretty strange that we are doing it to be honest, especially in ugly places such as these. Just guaranteed there'll be at least couple of conficts per night, abysmal hygienic state of the toilets and the ear popping music with constant flashing of light LEL

This guy's self awareness and honesty are on another level, given his self admitted narcisistic mental condition. As is his inteligence. I enjoy watching all of his videos

There's a lot of mental growth ahead of me needed, but hopefully with time, I'll mature more and more. I'm getting somewhere, albeit by the pace of a snail

Dissagree. Men want to invest into one woman of their choosing and provide for her, while being appreciated for their effort (which includes sex). Yeah you could have sex with any woman just based on instinct, but that's not very fullfilling at all, seeing as you don't actually care about them I'd let women speak on what they want, but for my part that's what I'd want from a woman, along with her aligning with most of my worldviews and values, sharing one or a couple of the same hobbies with me (but having some of her own, having her own life), her not being promiscious and having more or less clean past, etc.

Or perhaps I won't hide it and keep it as it is. Can't pretend uglyness, messiness and negative emotions aren't part of reality

I will find hobbies that I may enjoy, start doing them for a period of a few months and once I estimate that they are truly enjoyable, even in solitude, I shall hide this journal and make another one, for a purpose of transparance, coherence. And beaty as well, seeing as I made this journal kinda messy and ugly