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My eating disorder has gone out of control. It seems that I take back all the weight I lost. The reason of my addiction is boredom but I can't replace it with anything. Therapists can't help me, I already see one. Could it be that focusing on my breath will make my mind not being focused on the addiction? I post this here because the problem is more about the addiction than the awakening meditation topic. Although I wouldn't mind to know anything mystical that could come out of meditation. Thank you

I think I will never be with a girlfriend Is it a number's game? If I meet new people everyday for a long time, will I be able to meet friends and a girlfriend? Like will I have 1 or 2 friends and one girlfriend every 1000 people I meet and try to connect?

I live in a country where I can't find any psychedelics. I think I have to travel abroad to have an experience with them. I wish I could do thousand trips but that's impossible cause I would have to go abroad 1000 times. I don't know where to go, maybe holland? maybe mexico for ayahuasca? I don't know, but I am starting to be serious about it and I never had any experience with psychedelics before. Thank you everyone that will answer this questions

@manuel bonI think the moment they come here they are illegal. Or perhaps when you do them it's illegal. I definitely will check if it can be done, thank you. @Alex_R I think that would be the Netherlands. I will actually check it, I am getting more serious day by day.

@Clarencethank you!

@integration journeyMy intend is: To overcome my very severe deep traumas. understand humans cause I feel I have make deep distinctions between myself and others like I am not like others because I am inferior and/or superior or that I just am not like others (probably I am a narssicist to an extend) so I want this illusion that destroyes my life to stop. I want to undestand a little about the nature of reality because I always wanted to know what this is about. And honestly, I just want to see a new world that I feel drawn to. I go to psychotherapy and I haven't been helped to the extend I want. @Tristan12I live in Greece. If there is a way to get them here I definitely don't know that way @ClarenceI think Netherlands probably is the first destination to go. Do you have any tips of what magic truffles to get, or any advice on how to do the whole proccess? @M A J II don't know how to grow or find to grow and honestly I don't want trouble with the law, especially since in the future I am going to leave this country behind. Also I am not sure they grow in my country and I am little scared of picking the wrong one that could be poisonous if I make a mistake.

At 12/31/24 night I am going to a club cause it's a modern tradition to have fun the day that the year changes. I have grabed the attention in a bad way from my cringe dancing in the past. I absolutely love dancing but I look very strange when I do it. It even makes some people smile almost laughing but I am afraid it may make people confused, like they can't even comprehend why my dancing is so strange to the point they don't know if something is seriously wrong with me. I have like 5 years to go to a club but when I did and did dance some people were laughing. I suspect half of them were laughing because they were jealous of me having too much fun moving, while they were like statues and half of them were laughing because I was indeed dancing in a cringe way. The only positive thing is that I am really short, and if the popular opinion is true, there is a tendency that short people are less clumsy than average/tall people when dancing. I feel like that I will humiliate myself if I dance freely. Should someone dance even if he looks cringy and people laugh at him or should he stop cause it's humiliating? Or perhaps a middle solution like: be free to dance how you want but not too free that it becomes too weird. If you do that then it's ok if people laugh , you are within the safe limits of unusal behaviour. I dance almost exclusively for myself, but since there is a component of wanting to have fun with the opposite sex in dancing, I put this in dating topic.

I get it(intellectually) that I am the only thing in the universe and everyone and everything is my imagination. I get it that this is all a dream. What I don't understand is, if I am the only thing that exists, are others my past or future lives or it doesn't matter what happens to them, because you(me) are not going to experience their lives anyway? Will I experience their lives. If I make them feel bad, will I feel it in another live from the perspective of the person that felt bad or this perspective will never become real? Bonus question: if I experience people from another perspective, is there a way to know if they are my past life or my future life?