Mellowmarsh

@No1Here2c 🙂

Only if you’re twice born.

That’s a very intelligent mind right there. And yes, just relax into the silence of not thinking about what is ultimately unthinkable. Because thoughts are just fantasy like you said. What’s wrong with right now unless you think about. Hmm… Let me think about that? 💭 lol

Solipsism explains everything you need to know about the problem of other minds. That’s the only subject, the problem of other minds, that makes any real tangible sense to me. But that’s just how I roll. It’s not for everyone.

@Breakingthewall Okay, but fear means nothing to me. Yes, fear is felt, but so what, what’s it going to do, kill me or something? What’s the worst thing that could possibly happen to me?

Yes, that’s exactly what I’m doing here. I love to interact with other people, particularly on forums such as the likes of this one that support the idea of solipsism and other stuff like god and consciousness. I mean what else is there to do for one alone consciousness but to imagine an external world full of things? Even though consciousness already knows that the consciousness and content of consciousness are identically one and all the other things, even though they are just figments of the imagination. That’s the point, to dare to dream.

@Breakingthewall Still no idea what you are saying to me. You mentioned fear to someone who is now fearless.

Still don’t understand what you mean. But that doesn’t mean you don’t know what you mean, of course. I understand only myself, because that’s the only self I’ve ever experienced. I have no interest in getting inside someone else’s self just to maybe hang out and have a Costa or something, I can do that with my cat, less confusing.

I made the post about the myth of enlightenment because I’ve no idea what I’m talking about. There’s always just these words coming out of my mouth, that appear to make some sort of sense to me at least. Even though I don’t actually know anything about anything really, I just make it all up as I go along until I imagine I understand something I’ve said. As for what you’ve just said there, you’ll have to try and explain to me what you mean by that comment because I’ve absolutely no idea what you’re saying to me. But then I don’t actually care anyway, so your comment is irrelevant really.

Dude, I’ve no idea what you’re talking about…. BLOCK shhmock….what the heck does that even mean, it’s all alien talk to me. For me, just being aware of being conscious is to be aware of pain, or suffering, or trauma, and pleasure, which is just another form of pain. That’s the inescapable consequence of being a conscious being. There’s no escaping from a nervous system capable of feeling, not until that machinery stops functioning. Nothing is more infinitely wide open to reality than being aware you are conscious. Unconscious states like being under anaesthesia or being dead, is the greatest gift that life ever offered.

@TruthFreedom Just curious, do you ever watch videos like this one I’m posting to you now? I fall asleep to videos like this every night.

Not that kind of fuck. But the fuck that lets everything go. Like the chuck it in the fuck it bucket kinda fuck.

I don’t care what you think or disagree with. I make up my own mind about what’s real and true, wrong or right. I live only as my own reality bubble, not other people’s realities.

But that assessment is your reality. It’s not my reality here. You can only talk about your own viewpoints, you cannot know anything about other people. I don’t care about seeing more or be more or completely open. That’s your talk, what you believe is real for you as you see things there. I’m just being me here and that’s all I can ever be. I’m a hardcore solipsist. I’m not going to lie or pretend otherwise. It’s what I believe, it’s not just some mystical experience, it’s actually real to me, it’s what I am experiencing here. I have been dissuaded about the idea of solipsism a few times by certain people on this forum. I even started to doubt my solipsism, but I cannot just believe other people’s opinions about solipsism not being logical or possible, I have to make up my own mind about it, so that’s what I’ve did. Solipsism is what I strongly believe is happening here.

@Breakingthewall You don’t have to believe what I’m saying, it’s your prerogative to believe or not believe. But it won’t change what happened here for me. I’m just sharing my experience that’s all. I remember being dead. I also know that I am nothing but an imaginary dream character right now as I type these words. Now ain’t that something grand. Woooohooo!

When Enlightenment goes dark is the entrance to absolute truth.

Doh! 🤦‍♀️

Anyways… God is every beating heart muscle. And every heart that stopped beating.

The last post won’t let me type a response. I don’t know how to fix the problem.

@Hyperion

I completely understand what you’re saying here. I’ve heard this same old story said many times in multiple ways. I get it, but it’s not something that’s been a a part of what makes me “me” So honestly, I don’t know if you will ever believe me when I tell you that I have always known my absolute nature from the age of when I first became aware I existed as a life form. I remember being 5 and thinking to myself I am nothing, I came from nothing and will return to the nothing that I naturally remembered coming from. I remembered being dead. Yes, I remembered that state of being dead, I intuitively knew I was just an imaginary character in a dream. My awakening was a continuous stream of feeling and knowing my absolute nature that I’ve been experiencing every day of my life. I first felt the awakening at age 5, and it’s never left my side as I’ve aged. I was literally born understanding my absolute nature.

@Breakingthewall Just remember that this is still your personal opinion on the subject. Or as Leo would say..” your personal self bias “ It’s not about the messenger is it, it’s about listening very carefully to the message and then making up your own mind about what you have heard, or what you have gleaned as being useful and valuable, or rejecting it completely. It’s no good bashing the messenger, because they are just a conduit for information. No person has authority or monopoly on information. Information is what everything is literally made of. If you like what you hear, if what you are listening to speaks to your heart, then that’s all that matters, surely that’s all we’re doing anyway, just walking each other home. If you don’t like what you’re hearing, then you can always stop listening, or maybe just listen to your own thoughts and forget about other people’s ideas. All you need to do is make up your own mind about what is true for you. We all get our ideas from the same place anyway, so take it or leave it. Or just be like a child again, completely in the moment, innocent without a care in the world. Or be like a non verbal animal, completely void of a “me” story.

You’re welcome to hold this opinion of course. But it’s not how I personally vibe. For me, there’s no trap. I’ve never felt trapped by life or anything else for that matter. Why, because I’m aware this limited temporary entity called “me” will cease to be at the death of the body. On the contrary, I also believe that even if there were traps that are breakable, that doesn’t necessarily mean no more traps will appear in the future. So I’m not interested in talking on the roll of a trap breaker. My personal experience has shown me to always expect the unexpected, as my personal life feels like it’s been a continuous stream of just waiting for the next bad thing to happen, and so far, it’s never disappointed me in that regard, I’m literally being stripped of everything in every moment, including the person I think I am, for even that is constantly changing all the time, to the point I hardly recognise myself anymore. For me, there’s no winners here, there’s only losers. As a finite entity, I lose everything, as nothing ever belonged to me. I even inherited a world that was not of my making when I was born. I didn’t have any choice but to fall in line to the world I was born into. Also, as a finite character, I am fully aware that I am not real, I am just an illusory temporal image, something that will be here today, gone tomorrow. Appearing from nothing and returning to nothing, just like all dreams. Now this may seem negative and depressing, but it’s just how I see things from my personal perspective, I’m not saying it’s true for everyone else. That said, I’m totally accepting and have surrendered to the invisible life force that is living as and through this body mechanism that is me. I’m fully aware that this me was never in control of any of this living. I have fully opened my eyes to a truth that I’m not afraid to look at. In fact I’m literally not afraid of anything. I am completely fearless of both life and death. In fact,. I can’t think of anything more blissful than existing as a dream character, or even not existing at all, as in deep dreamless sleep. I used to be scared of certain things, but since my awakening, all that fear just completely disappeared.

Well that’s the minds job, is to create a mess. It abhors redundancy so its job is to create a mess. The mind is a multi tasking autonomy because it can also clean up the mess it makes. Thankfully the placeholder for all this mess is never messed up. Even though it’s all allowing and already knowing that the mind is just a temporary guest who is both the mess maker and the cleaner upper, it is both the pencil and the eraser, so to speak.