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🩰 spider ballerina consciousness if you will … Peter looks like a spider dancing away 0:22

Whatever the boobies got going on w the swinging tell em to keep it over there :3 xoxoxo disrespectfully beans <3

Interesting thank you!

I say to feel everything authentically which might sound like a punch to the gut but grief is often times ls just love knocking the door as a memory. don’t hesitate to reach out you are loved wishing your friend peace

Sorry if this is a personal question if you feel uncomfortable with me asking this question but what was Russia’s whole problem with Syria and why is Russia attacking Ukraine now? I’ve heard a lot of discussion about it. And now that North Korea has sent troops to Russia what are your thoughts about what’s happening ?

My dad was this kind of person I do not suggest drinking alcohol for social anxiety it’s quite literally adding gasoline to your current fire alcoholism will kill you

Is life worth living is a very broad question I think everyone has to answer that question by themselves though to me it just sounds like you don’t really know what brings you happiness I kinda get what brings me happiness, but before then I was very sad and depressed it’s not to say I don’t deal with those emotions anymore, but it helps knowing for instance in a really dark period of my life I was hospitalized because of suicidal ideation/tendencies I ended up making a friend and we played uno I’ve been obsessed with it since and find it a source of comfort and it genuinely makes me happy I had a pretty good winning streak until joy @Yimpabegan playing the game as well :)) joy is telling me about emojis I can add on lol shh please don’t buy into the false idea that everyone has it together, because we don’t and I find comfort that I’m going through hardship with others (shout out to my editor @Yimpa) yes it sucks, but hey at least I have a clutch my honest advice is find more laughter, look at free events, and comedy clubs and if you can make a friend or even acquaintance good on you don’t expect perfection just work on progression another little quote I’ve found that has brought me comfort is rejection is just redirection good luck we’re rooting for you

I don’t agree, because life will try to find each and every way to show to you. Also it’s evident. Your heart beats, your lungs, basically every human function. Just as how nature is alive. Regardless of it being grass, water, fire, wind, etc. We are alive. Regardless if we acknowledge it or not.

War. Often times means profit off the poor. It’s their dead sons and daughters fighting a fight for land. And their motives. On each side. I wish it would end. Not to mention the side effect of the constant dropping of bombs furthering climate change. Imagine living on this big blue planet and thinking you have more of a right to live on it than others. Selfishness is a disease.

Watch their actions. people can say they choose you, but ultimately words fail. And their motives are shown through actions. It’s also important to learn about their true nature before hand, and to understand how it makes them who they are. Showing up for you unexpectedly is a good sign. It’s not mandatory, but someone who loves you would. Consideration is key.

Love is a feeling of mutual understanding it’s not all bound to ego or how good they make you feel. To love someone is to say “okay” to challenges you normally wouldn’t. It also doesn’t necessarily mean you have to accept them either. That’s more of each partner’s choice. The difference is you are actively choosing, communicating, and rotating the table. You grow together. I think it’s important to see if the room is fruitful before baring any fruit. Meaning it’s important to look at the location before planting a tree. So these are questions that are necessary to ask, but ultimately no one is perfect. And I think personally people are usually stuck on this whole idealism of a “perfect man” or a “perfect woman” that’s not love. It’s a superficial idea of what it is. Shit happens, constantly. Regardless of it being due to your own fault, or the universe causing something out of the blue happening. Sometimes someone will come to help you, majority of the time you are left on your own. So it’s important choosing someone who would choose you, even in an unfavorable situation.

I don't understand how it equates to/with cheating

Not derailing. I’m engaging the topic. Explain how I’m derailing.

Joy. Is quite cold as well. luckily I run pretty hot. I’d suggest challenging your weakness. and if you are weak I’d suggest building stamina and strength regardless if that’s literal strength or not Build that Gorilla mindset because the world is cruel. My dad knew I was soft as a kid and would make my life a living hell because he knew if I went outside I’d die. i would not suggest doing that to your own children, but he was right about having a strong mindset. stand straight, get mad. and do the right thing which 9/10 is the hardest thing. Develop discipline. It’s difficult, but it’s worth it. dont give up, Yimpa and me are rooting for you.

The same prescriptions can’t be applied to everyone, because each bodies are different. Some might be allergic to the “cure” other alternatives and outlets are important and crucial to look into. I don’t believe joy was intentionally attempting to “smear” the inventor. It’s just their perception and thoughts. No harm and no foul. People should have the right to express themselves however they want even if you don’t necessarily understand it in the beginning. We all have different ways of expressing ourselves, which might not be a norm for others.

Everyone is quite literally all across the world. Different cultures are valid isn’t it? I mean this is a form about spirituality. I’d assume you wouldn’t just jump to conclusions. English isnt the only language on this big blue planet.

Happy Suicide Prevention Month I love you thank you for being here with me

all the more to you if you enjoy it as is! can’t wait for you to drop more soon keep us posted broski!

just to be clear. people don’t commit suicide as an attempt to be acknowledged. it’s also not to avoid pain. it is about ending the misery. suicide is not a foolish act. it’s complicated. people have their own reasons for doing things. and if it doesn’t make sense consider yourself absolutely blessed to never have been in the misfortune to the point where you complicate taking your own life. in a world consumed by violence, anger and chaos. I think it’s counterproductive to criticize what some may not and don’t understand. life is already difficult. no shade or hate. just a little irritated. About this misconception. suicide has never been about attention seeking behavior. it is about ending pain and misery.

As someone who was struggling. reading this did something. In a world where people don’t understand. I truly feel like people such as yourself with this perspective is actually beneficial, fruitful and meaningful. you quite literally hit the bullseye. Thank you for sharing this. While clouded with my thoughts of depression and anxiety, your comment and perspective gave me clarity I needed. Instead of hindering me. I think a lot of the time people see it as a selfish, and weak action. for me personally. I don’t see it like that at all. That goes to say I don’t glorify it as well. I just see it as an act of drowning. Some people freeze, some people criticize, some people die. And some people act. which I feel you’ve done with this fruitful perspective. so thank you, for sharing.

I’ve always dreamed of living in the country side. somewhere with a lot of land so that way I can have countless of pets without having to worry I won’t have room for them. My house on the other hand I can see it as a cottage house. Maybe two or three rooms. Preferably three rooms and then an office room for me to hide away in. So perhaps four rooms? My nana always had her washer and dryer in a separate house. Kind of like a shed but not a shed in Mexican standard. I’m just not completely sure on what they would call it. I’m a sabo kid. For those not understanding what sabo kid means. It means being of Spanish descent and not knowing much or very little Spanish. My grandma (Nana) had three rooms. When I would come over I’d sleep in the spare room. Whenever I would come over she’d immediately take me a shower and wash my clothes. I’m guessing it’s because my mother didn’t do a good job at taking care of me. So I always use to wear these big tshirts like a dress. It was always nice. Laying in bed and watching a movie after my showers. I don’t need my living room to be huge personally. I think my biggest goal would to make it cozy. After my nana would cook for my entire family and themselves we’d all eat together. Later going into the living room to either watch a boxing fight jeopardy or the Lone Ranger. Not even 10-15 minutes would pass and I’d be knocked out. My kitchen I always enjoyed the gas stoves the most, because it reminds me of my grandmother. And if I ever need a lighter to smoke my blunt I could always use the stove (hehe 🐯) I would love a garden or a green house a nice patio outside to sit and share tea outside. I enjoy a lot of natural lighting i love windows a lot to I think another thing that’s important to be is decoration. I need my home to be filled with things, because if not it feels empty and bare. My nana always had pictures of the family on her walls and other random decorations

I would like for you to know. That when people do these things it has nothing to do with you, but just the great pain they’ve had in their life. And if anything you kept them here longer than they probably originally planned. each time I’ve attempted to take my life a loved one always kept me here longer than I had originally planned. it’s so sweet of you, to be here. it shows how deeply you’ve cared and loved your friend. they were so blessed to have you. Please don’t ever forget they love and care they’ve shown onto you, because I promise you. it was genuine and still is genuine. that love they gave you will never disappear. Try to find it in the smallest of ways. You’ll feel their energy. I promise you. one a warm sunny day you’ll feel so much love. in some shape or form. I promise you.

Yes.

As someone who was/is suicidal. i struggled with the understanding of why I must suffer so much. And why my siblings and I must go through so much unspeakable pain. I still struggle with finding a will to live. Part of me says I’m a failure, but the other part of me wants to live. it is a constant battle between the two. One of self destruction. And you would think from someone who’s survived through so much trauma I wouldn’t crave instability. Though somewhere deep inside me. I suppose I do. Even though my conscious self tells me “that’s insane and stupid why would someone ever do that?” Theres the subconscious. “It hurts… this is what you deserve.” “you are nothing and you always have been nothing” ”you are better off dead” ”you serve no purpose” Craving violence and destruction. as a child I was never like this. I was probably the happiest, sweetest kid you could ever meet. I was the happiest with my grandfather. And not a day goes that I don’t think of him. Not even my biological father, but someone who raised me as if he was. he didn’t even say much, but you could tell in his own little ways that he cared. and he himself suffered in so much silence. becoming sick with stage four cancer. He refused treatment and still continued smoking his cigarettes. when he passed even the smell of the cigarette would trigger me breaking into a million pieces. the first time I smoked those cigarettes myself my body trembled and began shaking violently. when I began smoking I didn’t really care for my life either. The shaking felt as if my grandfather was shaking me. Felt as if he was upset with me. Trying to shake me free from this sick twisted product. Every blue moon I’ll have a cigarette but every time I do. I know he’s scolding me. I cannot help it tata (my grandpa) please forgive me. I still feel like a failure. I still feel trapped. i still feel confused. To answer your question i was born without the fear of the dark ive never been afraid of death and still till this day I’m not afraid dying to me feels like the easiest option. In this Ive romanticize that in death I’ll be reunited with my loved ones. whom actually love me. I’ve welcome death with open arms. And ask for her to be gentle with my soul. To give me directions on where I can find my real home again. (https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=L0zed4pqLFk&si=JMi0XObB8g5T33Rd)