AION

Only god can provide you with unconditional love. Finite things can only provide finite love. Men and women also love differently I found out because men and women peak at a different age and this influences their behavior. There is a business side to love. The business of survival and procreation. For people who are not in this game their genes won’t survive anyway. I would never discuss this with a woman. My aim is to understand. Not judge.

Not wanting truth is truth too

Kill your outdated ideas. Not your physical body.

AI can be your enemy or ally. It is up to you.

What do you mean?

It is apparent that this card house (paradigm of being engineer) is going to crash sooner or later. The thing is you can resist and delay it or just let it tumble down and build something on solid foundations. If you resist you will waste time and energy and when things crumble you will be so devastated that you won’t have the mentality to build something new because you will be overwhelmed by your paradigm being shattered. Being able to shift from paradigms is crucial. But some people will just be beaten out of old paradigms and into new paradigms. God is all merciful and merciless depending on the person. Hard headedness which Arab cultured people have is usually problematic and can cause a lot of suffering. I know an Arab engineering friend who is in the same boat. He is open for advice but is not following any advice.

The whole thing with life is that you need to find “games” that you are good at. And play with the toys (talents) you are dealt with. God has a plan for you if you stop your resistance. It’s will is good, acceptable and perfect.

This is what I found out: It is well known that men think with their dick if they are thirsty. This is our Achilles heel and women can exploit our weakness. The female equivalent to this is social validation. If you can itch that knob you can get a way with a lot. Girls are a sucker for power. They say men want power but this is wrong. We just want pussy. It is women who want power and that is why men want power; to secure that pussy. And social power is more powerful than physical power. Although if you are physically strong that might be a plus too. If you are social power your physical strength don’t even matter.

She broke up with me because I’m broke and I got too much attached to her. To the point that I wanted her more than she wanted me to. In the beginning it was the other way around. I really want her back and I invite her to places and she doesn’t want to go but thanks me for the offer. And I call her and she acts cold. It is really hard to under women. one basically has to act like we don’t want them while we want them. I’m afraid she will go back to her ex if I don’t make moves. The thing is she is very feminine and doesn’t make first moves. So basically if I want her back I have to do the moves.

When somebody responds to me I don’t get notifications in my center.

You shouldn’t want her more than she wants you. If you do you will repulse her. It is about attraction (she wanting you) versus repulsion (you wanting her). Attraction and seduction is the art of wanting you more than you wanting her. So you got to calibrate your desire and not put all your cards on the table. Preferably you shouldn’t even plan this shit it. It is about feeling it out. Not thinking it out.

Night game is so super social. I did a lot of observation and I found out that good looks play a big role in night game. Last week I was with a friend and we had the same vibe just self entertaining at the corner of a night club. Two girls came to her and one started talking to him and the other girl just stood there and didn’t talk to me. My friend is a little younger and looks better. The thing is that your race and your appearance is major during night game. During day game girls are less ruthless. Not all girls go out. You can meet good girls during the day. If you are a nice guy you will actually get a chance if you talk to girls during the day. At night you really need to let go of this nice guy syndrome otherwise you will be shat out ruthlessly. I was more kind of a day game guy but just running around town looking for targets is kind of weird and time draining. And lately my state is messed up because of depression and fuck ups. I’m starting to appreciate night game more. What is your experience?

For example you can read 10 books on Spain but you visiting the country will trump all the books you read. But the thing is that direct experience can be deceitful. For example your direct experience might tell you the world is flat because it looks like it but the books and science might say something else. This counts for spirituality too. Not everything you see will be the truth. This parable is explained in the mythology of the life tree and the lake. It is easily to be deceived by the reflection of the water and you might not know what is real and a reflection.

So I met this girl today at the train station. I invited her to an instant date. She only drinks beer. I prefer to drink water; I don’t like soft drinks. But because she wanted to drink beer. I drank it too. The thing is I don’t like soft drinks. I either drink water or nothing. Sometimes I drink wine though but only on occasion. But if I chosen to drink water which would be my preferred option: I would come across as cheap I wouldn’t be able to bond with her over a drink not get her drunk Not harm my health with alcohol I always sell myself out to bond with people. In the past I have tried to just order water but the girl looks strange at me. And it is just weird and not acceptable socially.

As a spiritual person I got messed up by this notion. I allowed my parents to mess me up, other people and lately I allowed girls to do that. But though is enough. Today I came to a point that I realized that eye for eye, tooth for tooth is a spiritual if not more spiritual. Sometimes you have to unleash war onto your enemies because god demands it as explained in the Bhagavad Gita. The thing is that God is your highest authority and teacher and if you don’t listen you will get whipped to death or learn your lesson. God is all loving and all punishing. It has the soft hand and the hard hand. And whether you love or punish somebody it is the hand of god doing it and you are just a vessel. Sometimes tough love is the real thing. So this is what happened; my ex broke up with out of nowhere to go back to her ex. And I spilled the beans and exposed his wicked personality (how she treated me) and her Christian sexual dark side.

You are stuck in the rationale of spiral stage orange and lovey dovey love from stage green. There is a point you can integrate and transcend that. Sometimes punching somebody in the face is more loving than anything else.

Human love is much more advanced than animal love. But is still very primitive compared to higher levels of love like alien love. Turn the other cheek is human love and although it much more advanced than eye for an eye which is very animalistic but there is love beyond that. It kind of reminds me of Wilber’s pre-rational, rational and trans-rational. Our love is as sophisticated as our brain. And there comes a point that the rationality of turning the other cheek becomes a burden.

Did you do psychedelics?

@Lyubov true. Some people act like this is a stupid topic but there is a lot of depth to this topic. Dates is mostly mind games.

It is jealousy I think. I have some looser friends who can’t get girls and when I talk about my escapades with girls they get stingy and you can just feel they hurtin’ for a squirtin’.

This knob of conscious is just map of consciousness that David Hawkins discovered dialing consciousness from 1-1000+ LOC through letting go. Psychedelics just helps you with letting go. It is not rocket science guys.

Is this Jeff from RSD?

You just enjoy yourself and the music. I usually try to make male friends first. And start small by challenging girls. Never hit on them. It is better to shit over them or give them some shit. But not in an overly aggressive way. After that your kindness will be appreciated. Just being kind from the start is not appreciated. That is if they are club girls.

I don’t have good pick up friends. The friends I go out with cock block me. Although they are good looking they have a bad vibe. I can’t even introduce them without looking bad. So I tell them to not get involved when I approach. Going out alone is better for me.

Emotions can’t be suppressed. Only transmuted. Pulls out a wine bottle 😈