Infinite Tsukuyomi

@Ananda This And those other people you want to know more than don't want it either and won't understand any explanation of it you come up with. They will stick to their guns, which is their conception of what must be true.

It appears that productivity as held by us collectively is the thing being questioned when it comes to ADHD. Cred is looking at productivity, victim mindset, success and conformity and looking at a new way for the neuro-divergent mind to approach them at all. I would argue that victim mindset is a reactionary term created to describe people who are more non conformist in their approach to life. You mentioned "vs figuring out to how to adapt to it", which is precisely the subject matter. Adaptation is survival conformity. Neurodivergence according to Cred seems to have a built in authenticity bias making this adaptation less likely. A neurodivergent probably wants to achieve their goals and feel aligned and authentic while doing it. Being blinded by survival pressures is anti authenticity, which is often necessary. And yes, it is only because of the times we live in that so many different people can be supported and survive. So our current way of doing things is primed more for survival and less for authenticity, as expected. It is from this exact position that new more effective ways of living can be imagined and perhaps realized. As an accomplished man with ADHD, It would be a stretch to say I have a victim mindset for example. I can go on long inauthentic stretches of mostly focused activity and find ways to get my success. This comes with the cost of not knowing who I am, which then triggers the vicious cycle of self-improvement. I actually derived pomodoro before realizing it was already discovered, it had noticeable but marginal effects overall. I still use it, but I am aware that I only use it provisionally; it is an external system because my internal system is different. Overall, Cred does not seem to have a victim mindset but is open-minded and doing a neurodivergent God's work. Most people don't question anything. They will believe the victim mindset rhetoric because it is readily available.

Everything in the Universe does indeed come full circle doesn't it. It is truly amazing, and annoying.

Exactly, an expectation to know math, but not know what knowing is.

Yep yep. Which ironically is "that which should be", which is opposite of Truth.

Most of what we do is moralize to each other about how we "should" feel towards life. When everyone's telling you that you don't want something bad enough, eventually you start believing it. The heavy emphasis on personal responsibility does indeed make seeing the world as a problem the taboo. It's a catch 22.

I have a question for the guys here then. How many of you are comfortable with other guys coming up to you to shoot their shot? How are you turning them down? I would say that rejection etiquette is almost non-existent in modern self help. 1000s of videos and techniques on approaching but I never see "the art of rejecting others". The more an predictable and standardized rejection becomes, I surmise that more people of all walks would approach. I tried to talk to a hot guy today, he didn't even respond. Ouch! 1) I'm all for a casual conversation, and try to pivot into asking for a number. I don't think guys are that into being approached though. 2) 1 today, just him this week. 4 I last month I was attracted to, and a dozen or so strangers otherwise 4,) I can think of two or three girls that have shot their shot. Never any guys.

It's low calories I'm after. By focusing on lowering my body fat (calorie deficits) with the diet I described, I get really good health markers and prevent diabetes, since it runs in the family.

I can't find the exact recipe for my protein cinnamon rolls, but I watched it on youtube. Casein, flour, artificial sweetner, barely any butter. The frosting was made with greek yogurt. I also like to buy belvita biscuits at the store, crumble them, add fruit and top with a frosting made with greek yogurt and squeezed lemon juice or some sort of lemon flavored powder like crystal light. Protein donuts. Ready for it? Hamburger buns lol. You make whatever flavored jelly you want to go in the middle with jello powder, crystal light, and greek yogurt. Then the outside, you can put artificial powdered sugar. Regular fruit tastes more amazing than it used to, since switching to non nutritive sweeteners. I could single handedly make nectarines go extinct.

The quick version: Ego backlash is the answer that your mind is choosing because it sounds the most noble, this would happen even without your meditation eventually. You don't currently have everything you feel like you want in life yet. Your mind is not like other people's but you've masked it extremely well through doing what you "should" be doing. This type of work is highly appealing to who you believe you should be. Yes I relate, and you are not alone. You will receive even more self help esque replies, and you will eat them up. The long version: The good news is that you are likely doing the right things in the spirituality sense, as you get closer and closer to your true nature the ego does indeed backlash. I have to agree with most of what Cred says, meditation will make your problems worse before it makes them better. It took me awhile to accept that. I still meditate but I don't confuse it with my life situation changing. My spiritual practices are for deepening awakenings, and having ever clearer consciousness. Meditation is not a prescription for the neuro-divergent mind. Avoid romanticizing your suffering, there is a possibility it could become toxic. The predicament in which you find yourself, your current life, is not yet tailored to what you want it to be. I suggest get busy and get lost in the process of getting it to where you want it to be. I say that, as to not have you hypnotize yourself with your goals, but rather with the boring day to day things that move you closer to your ideal life. You already meditate, so you have the discipline to make small steps towards various goals you might have. My experience is basically a 1:1 to yours. But after some time, I am convinced that I experience these mood swings and polarities due to undiagnosed ADHD, OCD, bipolar and other disorders. I am considered quite successful to people who know me, was a smart honor roll kid and well functioning in general (from the outside). The inner world is where things are a stark contrast. I read the book Neurosis and Human Growth by Karen Horney. This book brought me to tears and deep anger. I may as well be who is described, even down to this line "He may even speak multiple languages yet does not think he is capable" (slightly paraphrased). We tend to be very attracted to self-help, self actualizing, spirituality and growth in general. These fields are perfect, because they are explicitly "growth areas" but for certain personalities, which I'm suggesting you have, they are ways to avoid more pressing work. What I would do differently if I woke up 21 years old again? I would prioritize actions and activities that undo the identity I built as a child. 9/10 you avoid things that might make you seem like you are not smart and you don't have your shit together. As a child you had to appear as competent, obedient and intelligent. (I'm projecting this onto you, and that is not lost on me). I've been contemplating this for a long time, and only recently got this deep and it is VERY deep. I realized after a skydive that I would rather skydive than dance while someone watched me. A provisional 180 in your life might be useful (I'm still testing this). Meaning allowing yourself to be embarrassed, be wrong, look like a fool, look weak, be mediocre. No one likes these feelings, but it is worse for us. Positive thinking is not for you, but solutions thinking is. Write as many problems about yourself as you can think of, it doesn't matter if they overlap of seem unimportant, then write what you will focus on with action when that problem comes up throughout the day in your mind. This will act as a quick reference guide to ensure you focus on the solution. Your mind is bombarding you with all your problems and it will not stop, then you start feeling better, motivated, inspired, embodied just to fall from grace over and over again as you described. Yes I relate, no you are not alone in that. People like us rarely talk about it in detail, because it is not popular and we sound lazy, anti self help or nihilistic. It is important that you do not let anyone gaslight you about this, because that will start a second fire, wherein you start to doubt your own experience of yourself.

Plenty of meat, I mostly optimize for protein. Plenty of veggies fresh, canned and frozen. I only drink distilled water with silica and salt in it and zero sugar soda. I love to cook and was a journeyman meat cutter for many years so, cooking with meat is a very creative act for me, lots of love. I've always had a sweet tooth, so something sweet as well, even if I have to make something with artificial sweetener. My diet is basically the same as Coach Greg on Youtube. It is focused on getting in macro and micronutrients while also being low in calories and being something you want to eat.

I didn't even think of the social part of it. But yea, My brother in law just tried to hand me a blunt he was smoking while talking to my sister. He knows I don't smoke but will try to "verify" once every few months.

damn, lot of hot guys here actualizing. Good thing your faces aren't your main photo, I wouldn't get any actualizing done myself. I'm down to contemplate together in a dark room btw

Dr. K had one talk I liked, because it was void of b.s. in my opinion. He had discussed a story of a guru with a student, where the guru would dump out a huge duffel bag of grains of rice. The student eager to learn spirituality had to pick them up with tweezers I think one by one. And when he finished the guru would dump it out again. He was highlighting the importance of being able to deal with frustration and ultimately to do things with no reward or benefits, to train the mind to stop looking for them. That's what I took from it anyway. Just learn to like shit and learn to love shit. Everything works precisely to the extent that it does, and beyond that it does not. Praying to Jesus helps some people and not others. Self help works for some people and not others. We tend to assume that people are not diligent enough in a practice or set of practices but that's just something we say, a placeholder for the unknown. Personal responsibility is a response to what is, not necessarily an effective solution. My "problem" with Dr, K is the same with others who teach self-help, it is that self help is not for the viewer. Self help is for the teacher/guru. It is something they do for themselves, but they are not aware of it. Self help NEEDS to work, because this is the explanation of success most preferred by the mind for stage orange people. A stage blue person NEEDS Jesus to be God, because that is their explanation of things. The mind is doing reverse psychology on itself. There has to be an explanation that glorifies the ego the right way. Self help is reinforcing the mind of the person presenting it, they are convincing themselves AND it makes money! What is being sold is the happy ending, that's why focusing on the transformation of the customer is so important.

I didn't realize I am ADD or ADHD, no official diagnosis but without a doubt I am as well. Meditation is prescribed for everything as a cure all, I don't think it is that effective for ADHD beyond specific use cases. You can try to read the book Adult ADHD by Thomas Hartmann, I read it and in that book he mentions uses meditation to extract all of your good ideas. He also mentions carrying around some quick note taking device, I use the notes app in my phone. In the book, having a consulting business was also the best case in his opinion for ADHD. Basically you think up a business model/ creative idea then slowly move away from managing it by hiring a manager to run it. Creating standard operating procedure documents for the business then working in your business as a consultant, where ADHD shines. The last powerful idea is to find non ADHD people to work with you as much as possible, in business and outside of. This person, not afflicted with ADHD can handle those tasks that you can't stay consistent on (ie the manager your hire), while you provide the creative vision for things.

It's all Love = It's all Fucked Knowing is the feeling that I think I know. I fear truly living as much as I fear death Infinity is not a problem, it is all there is Everything is dependent on the present moment, the present moment which is True is not dependent on anything else Collective Ego has cleverly placed psychedelics behind paywalls and the law

Very creative way to look at it.

More than likely, he wants to miss it. The mind is very good at its job. With that being said, he came in with a religious view of God and left with it.

God has roaches??? Just one, you

If you do 5-MeO even once then more than likely weed will behave similarly from that point forward. It does for me. Try that. Nothing like cosmic horror to get you put your weed down. Or maybe that'll make you want it more idk. I used to only do it at night, enjoy some creativity and be done.

That's awesome. I'm just hoping as it gains slow popularity that no one ruins the reputation for the rest of us

1) To me this means they are not aware of their attachment style for one. People want to know what your zodiac sign is, but not your attachment style, like wtf?? So the relationships that just so happen to form are toxic. Many of which could grow into healthy relating if they just knew their style, worked on it, and used the appropriate protocol for their BFs style. 2) Many of the gay/bi men are hypnotized by the idea that they have a lot of options, because there are so many men everyday entering our marketplace and lots of dating app users. There are way more DL men that I originally thought. In some sense they do have a lot of sexual options. When I listen to gay men on podcasts/shorts etc they say they want to date. They are also unaware that by participating in hookup culture, they help perpetuate the culture. Sex > Dating for most of us. It is so easy to get, it's ridiculous. I've fallen for the idea that there were a bunch of guys I could potentially date as well, nope. 3) For me, some guys simply have nothing to say. I like to have good conversations with the person I'm with. I went on a date with a model last year but he hardly contributed to the text conversations. I've had the best luck with guys I was able to convince to facetime, where I can lead an engaging conversation. He and a lot of gay/bi men just want to be wanted from what I can tell. He insisted he was interested, but it seemed more like he just wanted someone to be after him. 4) There are also all sorts of incompatibilities, especially with the sexual categories: top, bottom, side, vers, upside down (this one's a joke). Tops are favored and bottoms are often seen as slutty for having the same body count as a top. Too many have set down to define what a relationship that they say yes to is. 5) Telling the Truth is all but nonexistent. Asking for what we want in every conceivable way is important. My ex was mad at me once for not ever buying him flowers even though he never told me he liked them, never even a hint. I would always buy him candy and other things but not flowers, because I didn't know. He also brought me a flower once, I don't care for flowers. Doing what you partner wants is such a low hanging fruit. Things like that, sexual kinks and emotions go untold. He and I were asked for what we wanted except for a few specific things, like the flowers. And that was the longest relationship I had. In the past I've had BFs and others with potential laugh at or dismiss me as well. There's an undertone of shame for wanting what you want. I contribute to the problem by being pretty picky myself, I do like a good looking guy. I've done work on my attachment style but my nervous system still has a pretty acute response of danger to engulfment (since I attract a lot of anxious preoccupied men). I took a few courses on Thais Gibson's personal development school for my attachment style and for AP (which I attract most often). I can't be the only one doing the work though, and even then, is the work good enough?

It is supposed to trigger release of small amounts of DMT. I can't test whether it does or not. If it does the DMT would definitely be helpful. I know because I use DMT as well. Once while doing it I was able to slip into nondual awareness very briefly. Basically with all of these techniques, what you're aiming for is that moment you realize you are going to die. One other time I did outdoors at the park and knocked myself unconscious, not sure if that's helpful or not though. Someone mentioned contemplation, I should've written that too. It is underrated. To me damn near all the techniques have to be done.

The lesson here is to look through your gurus, this is very important. Most people misunderstand what Leo says and never start any spirituality because they get hung up on Leo himself. People who want to have sex with children will find a way to do it, like they always have. Even enlightenment wasn't enough stop Chopra. The socially acceptable way to respond to this, is with rage and concern for the girls and other children who are violated. Not saying nothing should be done. Perhaps someone could make preventing the abuse from happening their life purpose.