Infinite Tsukuyomi

damn, lot of hot guys here actualizing. Good thing your faces aren't your main photo, I wouldn't get any actualizing done myself. I'm down to contemplate together in a dark room btw

Dr. K had one talk I liked, because it was void of b.s. in my opinion. He had discussed a story of a guru with a student, where the guru would dump out a huge duffel bag of grains of rice. The student eager to learn spirituality had to pick them up with tweezers I think one by one. And when he finished the guru would dump it out again. He was highlighting the importance of being able to deal with frustration and ultimately to do things with no reward or benefits, to train the mind to stop looking for them. That's what I took from it anyway. Just learn to like shit and learn to love shit. Everything works precisely to the extent that it does, and beyond that it does not. Praying to Jesus helps some people and not others. Self help works for some people and not others. We tend to assume that people are not diligent enough in a practice or set of practices but that's just something we say, a placeholder for the unknown. Personal responsibility is a response to what is, not necessarily an effective solution. My "problem" with Dr, K is the same with others who teach self-help, it is that self help is not for the viewer. Self help is for the teacher/guru. It is something they do for themselves, but they are not aware of it. Self help NEEDS to work, because this is the explanation of success most preferred by the mind for stage orange people. A stage blue person NEEDS Jesus to be God, because that is their explanation of things. The mind is doing reverse psychology on itself. There has to be an explanation that glorifies the ego the right way. Self help is reinforcing the mind of the person presenting it, they are convincing themselves AND it makes money! What is being sold is the happy ending, that's why focusing on the transformation of the customer is so important.

I didn't realize I am ADD or ADHD, no official diagnosis but without a doubt I am as well. Meditation is prescribed for everything as a cure all, I don't think it is that effective for ADHD beyond specific use cases. You can try to read the book Adult ADHD by Thomas Hartmann, I read it and in that book he mentions uses meditation to extract all of your good ideas. He also mentions carrying around some quick note taking device, I use the notes app in my phone. In the book, having a consulting business was also the best case in his opinion for ADHD. Basically you think up a business model/ creative idea then slowly move away from managing it by hiring a manager to run it. Creating standard operating procedure documents for the business then working in your business as a consultant, where ADHD shines. The last powerful idea is to find non ADHD people to work with you as much as possible, in business and outside of. This person, not afflicted with ADHD can handle those tasks that you can't stay consistent on (ie the manager your hire), while you provide the creative vision for things.

It's all Love = It's all Fucked Knowing is the feeling that I think I know. I fear truly living as much as I fear death Infinity is not a problem, it is all there is Everything is dependent on the present moment, the present moment which is True is not dependent on anything else Collective Ego has cleverly placed psychedelics behind paywalls and the law

Very creative way to look at it.

More than likely, he wants to miss it. The mind is very good at its job. With that being said, he came in with a religious view of God and left with it.

God has roaches??? Just one, you

If you do 5-MeO even once then more than likely weed will behave similarly from that point forward. It does for me. Try that. Nothing like cosmic horror to get you put your weed down. Or maybe that'll make you want it more idk. I used to only do it at night, enjoy some creativity and be done.

That's awesome. I'm just hoping as it gains slow popularity that no one ruins the reputation for the rest of us

1) To me this means they are not aware of their attachment style for one. People want to know what your zodiac sign is, but not your attachment style, like wtf?? So the relationships that just so happen to form are toxic. Many of which could grow into healthy relating if they just knew their style, worked on it, and used the appropriate protocol for their BFs style. 2) Many of the gay/bi men are hypnotized by the idea that they have a lot of options, because there are so many men everyday entering our marketplace and lots of dating app users. There are way more DL men that I originally thought. In some sense they do have a lot of sexual options. When I listen to gay men on podcasts/shorts etc they say they want to date. They are also unaware that by participating in hookup culture, they help perpetuate the culture. Sex > Dating for most of us. It is so easy to get, it's ridiculous. I've fallen for the idea that there were a bunch of guys I could potentially date as well, nope. 3) For me, some guys simply have nothing to say. I like to have good conversations with the person I'm with. I went on a date with a model last year but he hardly contributed to the text conversations. I've had the best luck with guys I was able to convince to facetime, where I can lead an engaging conversation. He and a lot of gay/bi men just want to be wanted from what I can tell. He insisted he was interested, but it seemed more like he just wanted someone to be after him. 4) There are also all sorts of incompatibilities, especially with the sexual categories: top, bottom, side, vers, upside down (this one's a joke). Tops are favored and bottoms are often seen as slutty for having the same body count as a top. Too many have set down to define what a relationship that they say yes to is. 5) Telling the Truth is all but nonexistent. Asking for what we want in every conceivable way is important. My ex was mad at me once for not ever buying him flowers even though he never told me he liked them, never even a hint. I would always buy him candy and other things but not flowers, because I didn't know. He also brought me a flower once, I don't care for flowers. Doing what you partner wants is such a low hanging fruit. Things like that, sexual kinks and emotions go untold. He and I were asked for what we wanted except for a few specific things, like the flowers. And that was the longest relationship I had. In the past I've had BFs and others with potential laugh at or dismiss me as well. There's an undertone of shame for wanting what you want. I contribute to the problem by being pretty picky myself, I do like a good looking guy. I've done work on my attachment style but my nervous system still has a pretty acute response of danger to engulfment (since I attract a lot of anxious preoccupied men). I took a few courses on Thais Gibson's personal development school for my attachment style and for AP (which I attract most often). I can't be the only one doing the work though, and even then, is the work good enough?

It is supposed to trigger release of small amounts of DMT. I can't test whether it does or not. If it does the DMT would definitely be helpful. I know because I use DMT as well. Once while doing it I was able to slip into nondual awareness very briefly. Basically with all of these techniques, what you're aiming for is that moment you realize you are going to die. One other time I did outdoors at the park and knocked myself unconscious, not sure if that's helpful or not though. Someone mentioned contemplation, I should've written that too. It is underrated. To me damn near all the techniques have to be done.

The lesson here is to look through your gurus, this is very important. Most people misunderstand what Leo says and never start any spirituality because they get hung up on Leo himself. People who want to have sex with children will find a way to do it, like they always have. Even enlightenment wasn't enough stop Chopra. The socially acceptable way to respond to this, is with rage and concern for the girls and other children who are violated. Not saying nothing should be done. Perhaps someone could make preventing the abuse from happening their life purpose.

Definitely no one reason why dating has collapsed. The collapse is a symptom of even deeper problems. As a gay man I've also come to the conclusion that most guys are undateable. Definitely not just a woman problem, but everyone is contributing to the mess in some way. I had a good guy but let him go. Fearful avoidant attachment style is a mother. He was hardcore anxious preoccupied. No one thinks they are a part of the problem, and as such the dating pool is filled with undateable people.

On the same note as what Elliot is saying. See if you can scale down sewing or exercise into something niche. Perhaps exercise regimens for certain disabilities. Also your life purpose might itself be more subtle than sewing or exercise. You may also unconsciously resist moving into your life purpose precisely because the mind thinks it needs to be grandiose and commercialized. Not everyone contemplating life purpose is too small, some minds are too over the top, at least in how it will impact the world. Bullshitting is what makes a human a human. We can take shit and make beautiful things.

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1) Mindfulness with labeling 2) Neti Neti (usually after #1) 3) Balancing between sleep and waking 4) Holotropic Breathwork 5) Plain ol Jane meditation 6) I do some Kriya too

That's easy for us to say, not that many people want to experience Love for real.

Lol. And even when you go through all of that and are deep in it if you're a psychopath you go back for more. It's also difficult to put that toothpaste back into the tube anyway once it's out

What I see, is exactly what you would expect (only watched part 1 so far). The ego mind will always try to smuggle in its own survival via something else. When they said "humans have the 'potential'" I paused it and said "yea, you need to hold that potential higher than Truth to guarantee human survival" then unpaused and Leo mentioned potential lol I agree, that you have to be Truth psychopath. Once you've had even one deep awakening, you wonder if you really want any more of that, and then you go back for more! Even though it rips you apart. I was out with a friend one night, and I discussed my awakenings with him. He was invested but got a phone call. Before answering he said to me "just a minute, I want to hear more about your truth". I said "Okay, I don't have a truth though" lol These conversations can be powerful for those Leo is talking to, if they are interested in untangling what their mind is doing in real time. Truth is still considered to be some separate, far away fantasy for them. We're talking about the present moment not something else.

Are you awake?

I can't speak for others but I am a textbook neurodivergent person, ADHD I believe. I have reason to think I may be on the bipolar spectrum but I don't have a diagnosis. Highly intelligent, contemplative, non-comformist thinker, rebellious (especially mentally). It was only in my late 20s early 30s that I connected the dots. I was interested in Truth/God as a kid, from the very first time I asked my mother if she was going to die and if I was. I overcompensated, and quite well, to modern life and was a honor student and big picture thinker. My childhood and teenage Christianity was very performative, as a lot of my social life was. Would always be interested in videos about outer space, only because I was under the assumption that science would solve reality, what was at edge of the Universe and why is anything here at all. Found Morgue on Youtube and was introduced to conceptual infinity. That very moment I understood the consequences of Infinity and how it needed no cause. Then finally found actualized.org where my search for the Truth had actual fuel. At some point, I recognized that Leo's mind and my own have lots of similarities, and I can appreciate that his is truly amazing. With a mind like mine, I can't fathom not caring about Truth, even though the pursuit is extremely painful for me. At some point, I encountered the SHOCKING truth video, about enlightenment and realized how significant that discovery would be. Within one year of discovering him, I had adopted meditation and contemplation and had multiple NN DMT trips and 5-MeO; which led to experiences of no self as well the horror and amazement of Infinity. For a mind like mine actualized.org is a buffet. Mental sovereignty is important to me now though, and I realize this means less of watching and listening to him. As far as bias is concerned, if other minds don't care about Truth-seeking then there is almost nothing he can do.

I noticed you said this on instagram "To me, dance as an improvisation is very spiritual and meditative. I think dance in its purest form is actually meditation". Couldn't agree more and I can tell in the videos. I found out last year, that dancing caused 5-MeO reactivations for me. It can be so graceful, so free to become a puppet in a instant.

Just commit one person at a time. Don't worry about 30 women or 30 people. Your goal is one interaction. However it goes doesn't matter, renew the commitment to talk to only more person. Then just one more, like you're eating donuts.

The zipper forum post is a good one. When someone asks me about consciousness I usually go with "If I just reached out and ripped a whole in space-time or took my head off and throw it at you, that would be unacceptable to your mind but true nontheless". But then they want me to do it lol.