LambdaDelta

Holy fuck, we got almost the exact same setup, the mod, juice tank, microscoops are identical, the RDA is similar too, and you even have a Pixel phone I like the shape of your mesh, the plain mushroom one from the DMT videos is so inconvenient, the powder always falls off, which drives me up the wall. With my lack of sensitivity I need to dump large amounts in there. I also want to try making a fenced mesh for even better stability. What's that metal funnel thing, did it come with the RDA or something you can purchase separately? Looks really convenient!

That's on point, I had a similar reaction to that announcement. Bittersweet. While I might actually need the practical stuff more at the moment, what I truly desire is God. By practical I also mean the advanced PM, relativity, and such understandings, that are for the top 1% epistemically, but still human level. That said, I can see the potential for how integrating those will deepen and clarify the metaphysics. My speculation as to the reason for the shift of focus, is Leo has seen the need to build a super solid foundation first before returning to the more advanced teachings. They're simply too radical, even for this audience. As seen by some reactions in the monkey torture thread and what Leo expressed there, plus many times in the past. It's far from the most challenging truth/insight to integrate, and yet even that is troublesome. Still, stay positive, as even with the lack of new content on those topics for a while, there's tons of breadcrumbs in the previous videos + blog + forum posts to explore. For instance, some time ago Leo mentioned an inverse of consciousness. What the fuck even is that? It challenges the paradigm that everything is consciousness. Though it probably still is, the exact mechanism is bound to be an epic mindfuck. Could take you years to uncover if that's what interests you. I'll certainly be moving in that direction in my trips now. The more insane the better. As Leo said, go explore infinity instead of asking him for stories (however amazing they are). We've got the means.

Absolutely, some of the biggest growth can come from them if done right. I basically purged all of my fears in one big 'bad' trip, by manifesting my deepest fears and other horrors, and powering through the terror till it no longer held any power. Won a staring contest with the abyss so to speak. There was also total surrender to whatever was happening or would happen next. And in any case a bad trip can be later recontextualized into something insightful, especially if you contemplate what 'went wrong' and connect the dots. For instance, I once experienced psychosis/identity crisis as my mind turned into a giant random mess of memories, beliefs, experiences of other people, even fictional characters, which made me question what the hell am 'I' really. On a later trip when I accessed God-consciousness and began to properly manifest as others, integrating that, it finally clicked - oh, so that was what happened in that other trip, identity is infinitely fluid, which I couldn't see then and therefore panicked.

They can be more dangerous in a way. The long term effects are usually unknown, plus if it's like really new, you might not even know the safe doses/ROAs, not enough data to build on. There's been a couple neurotoxic RCs released on the market over the years, but they've been spotted decently quickly, and it's almost always some cathinone/pyro/synth. cannabinoid trash from China that's causing trouble. None of these are suitable for spiritual work, even recreationally I'd say they're more for degens. But anyway, the other side of RCs is since they're sold as legal alternatives on the clearnet, at least in Europe and Canada, there's actually better quality control, as there's a company (legal entity) selling them, that can be sued and more if customers started kicking the bucket (yes they're labeled as not for human consumption, but everybody knows what's going on). So there's incentive for them to get their stock from a nice professional lab and test the product for purity, some even offer CoA when purchasing. For that reason I generally trust clearnet RC vendors much more than the stuff I get on the darknet, where everybody's anonymous, so the vendor can sell you NBMOEs as LSD with no consequences.

Don't get attached to changing the PFPs while thinking you're practicing nonattachement At first I thought a new pic every day is the schizo way, but maybe it was the 10th Ox-Herding step all along.

Sure. Not always though, if I have no lights on at all, there'll still be weak reflection on the outside due to street lamps

It's still daytime in Murica, hope's not dead yet, but I have to go sleep soon

But can you trust your vision? And other senses.

Indra's Net everywhere indeed. Best part is how it can go from 0% content to 100 within a structure of nothingness Oh yes, for Umi the anime is inadequate. VNs with PS3 mods is the way. I love Higurashi animes too, actually preferrable to the novels as they exclude a lot of unnecessary slice of life. Some stars definitely aligned over here. Also my previous reply was #34, lambda = 30, delta = 4, would you look at that.

God wanted to be stupid for once And tiny bits of our DNA can encode exabytes of data! None of the 3 is actually LambdaDelta lol, but I just love that pic. The fusion ended up real nice. Maybe you'd enjoy Umineko btw, it's one of the most meta works of fiction out there. Assuming you got a bunch of time to spare. Speaking of synchronicity, I've been reminded of one of my fave remixes Now if you'll excuse me I'll go attempt to visualize a square circle, got a burst of inspiration. The first step towards alien mind, gotta make the best I can of time w/o access to psychedelics, all hopefully as a foundation for the craziest trip I have planned.

I bought my apartment nearly a year ago, which might not yet be the 'ideal' home, but I'm fairly low maintenance, so it will more than suffice for the next 10-15 years at least. The essentials will partly depend on location, your lifestyle, etc. But for me I found an RO system for water filtration is a must, living without one is like going back to dark ages. Another indispensable thing is reflective film on my windows, I've another house right in front, so when it's daytime from the street it's a mirror, feels private without the need for blinds, and at night the opposite, turns into a mirror from the inside (cool when tripping). Plus it filters UV and reduces the heat a bit, very important for how hot it gets in central Spain. Also all my lamps are LED, adjustable color temperature and brightness + remote controlled. Some have a fan on them. Wooden floor is definitely nice too, I don't have to clean it as often and usually walk barefoot even in winter. I got the fastest internet available, 10gbps, and organized every cable such that they're nearly invisible. Then there's an infinity of little things that in their totality make up a lot of my comfort and convenience - a kettle that you can set and maintain certain temperature for, a sponge holder in my sink, numerous hangers for small towels all around, an anti-fog mirror in the bathroom, workout equipment, extendable coffee table, foldable buckets, and so on. I can highly recommend getting a couch with a reclining mechanism, they're fairly inexpensive these days and super comfy, we got one for mom's house recently, and now I want to replace the regular one I have with that at some point. I sleep on the floor, no bed, but have a good memory foam mattress that's just 8cm thick, and a proper orthopedic pillow. I use percale cotton sheets, they have a nice texture, perfect for sleeping naked, and don't get dirty easily. Lastly, I picked a relatively quiet neighborhood, but with close proximity to metro, buses, and lots of infrastructure nearby (gyms, supermarkets, pharmacies). I get the benefits of living in a large city without much of the negatives, except perhaps air quality. When I'm older a separate house somewhere up north or in another country altogether would be ideal, but that comes with its own set of challenges and a lot of what I'd want in it would also change. Good luck with your planning, just don't get lost in fantasyland too much and actually make the moneys for that dream place

That's awesome, just the right kind of trippy, thanks for brightening my evening! Somehow I made the cut Guess you used alien intelligence if you really learned to edit like that in a few hours. I accessed that shit once, and holy fuck was it easy to learn human stuff in minutes though hyper-holistic understanding, but I was too busy being amazed and didn't actually retain anything lol Love how everyone got a fitting role, i.e. DocWatts as the teacher

At this point I've had several deep awakenings to solipsism and its mechanisms, but perhaps at the cost of ever having a romantic/intimate relationship. It just feels so strange now. As to why this type of relationship specifically and not others, I can think of a couple reasons - one is simply force of habit, prior to the awakenings I've had lots of experience with family, friendship, and regular social interactions, but never anything beyond short-lived school crushes. Two is I never particularly craved that type of relationship to begin with, I'm 23 and never had a girlfriend, which doesn't bother me at all. Three is the unique intimacy these entail. I'm also highly introverted, but have no trouble interacting with people after doing lots of development work. I find it's generally simpler to talk to men, but women are just fine too in normal contexts. Whereas with 'game', after watching Leo's 3-part series and some other pickup advice out of curiosity, I've found no way to make it authentic for myself. Put together, these factors now make romantic relationships seem very alien (speaking from the dualistic human perspective here). I'm open to the possibility this is all a bias/limiting belief in my head, though I'm completely certain I have no hidden insecurities about my looks or social skills, so it's not that kind of problem. In my latest trip I pretty much accepted that it's a sacrifice I had to make to experience God's Love, one I'd gladly give a million times over as nothing 'earthly' can compare. Not looking for a solution per se, but I am interested how others with similar spiritual experiences handle this aspect of their lives, might give me a missing hint, as I wouldn't want to miss out on something potentially nice due to ignorance. Thanks for reading.

The world is names and signs, in truth it's He Whose being is its sole reality. This world, the world to come, and all besides, Are Him; know this, that nothing else abides. There is one essence, but diffused, deflected, There is one word, but variously inflected; A man must know the King, and recognize Him, Although a hundred different clothes disguise Him; It's not an error, in this way to see Him, Since He is all, and everything must be Him — The error's when a man presumes to state That what he sees and God are separate. Men fear You, but I fear my Self; this devil Replaces all the good You give with evil! - Attar. Could basically paste the entire prologue to The Conference of the Birds here, it's all amazing. Beloved, I sought you here and there, asked for news of you from all I met; then saw you through myself and found we were identical. Now I blush to think I ever searched for signs of you. - Fakhr al-Din Iraqi

True, had the same experience through an NDE with excruciating physical pain, then bliss followed. I think of it more like a one-off rite of passage, not necessary to go through it every time, these days I can surrender (deeply) almost on command and in daily life I'm far more peaceful too, but to a more limited degree as to not harm survival, which I'm still interested in for now.

Stuff like muscle tension, tingling, and similar tactile sensations. It's far less pronounced than stuff like 2C-E or DOB, but moreso compared to shrooms. I cannot speak to the effectiveness of the combo while microdosing, as I only did that with standalone LSD 20ug without clear effects, so I stopped it. There's no harm in trying, could also work well for you. I meant in actual trips, it doesn't make much sense to mix, 200-300ug of good acid will overpower anything below 5g of dried shrooms.

It's really difficult to get it right, I also assumed it didn't work but kept pushing nonetheless till getting somewhere. Particularly off a simple meth pipe it's challenging to get proper effects unless you're a frequent user of that ROA, which I'm not. A guy on Reddit suggested a promising method he documeted, though it involves Salvinorin A extraction and the need for owning an emesh setup. https://www.reddit.com/r/Salvia/comments/1dslfqq/salvinorin_emesh_vape_drops/ Should lead to more accurate dosing, reliably getting effects, and get rid of that awful taste. I'll use it for my Salvinorin B ethoxymethyl ether and see how that goes.

LSD lasts much longer, has a more noticeable body load (there's such a thing as LSD shits, the next day expect to be on the toilet a fair bit), while mushrooms is mostly all mind. I feel like LSD is more versatile and tend to use it when I want to reach some truth, contemplate, or create. It's can also act as a powerful entactogen and has surprised me on one occasion with a release of hidden trauma. The longer duration helps with that, though past, say, 6-7 hours you'll reach a plateau/slow comedown which will mostly just be annoying, so I kill it with benzos after getting what I need from the trip. Mushrooms are not as direct, as if they jump all over the place without really giving you time to fully grasp a given insight. I use them for lighther, more 'recreational' trips of experiencing unity and stuff like that. Still very powerful though. As for taking them together, I wouldn't recommend. It's not harmful or anything, but LSD will most probably simply overpower the shrooms, not create a meaningful synergy.

Seems you already got this down, but essentially go into it with an explorer mindset, treating it a bit like an excursion. Wherever you end up, it's all par for the course. I find this helps with unpredictable ones like salvia. Also be aware that the vapor is absolutely disgusting, but you'll have to bear with it and hold in as long as possible for best effect. If the onset is not too immediate, you might have time to at least eat a piece of fruit or something to offset the aftertaste.

Just had this bizzare experience of accidentally inducing deliriant effects through meditation, completely sober. I don't meditate often nor use a particular technique, this time it was a simple combination of relaxation, breathing and awareness to the best of my ability. Prior state of mind wasn't any different than usual and I didn't set any intentions, but perhaps it manifested subconsciously as I have an interest in experiencing such states. This first taste was really spooky though, totally different from your regular hallucinations, paranoia, and even psychosis, which I have a decent amount of experience of through psychedelics and other substances. It's too realistic, the only vague indication I got that it was going in that direction was an intense ear ringing at the beginning, similar to high doses of dissociatives, but soon after there was no telling what's real or not. Saw things on the ceiling (like a snake crawling through a vent above me, yet I have no vent anywhere near), heard all manner of noises, talked to family members (I'm alone), even appeared in a different room, one I used to live in years ago, which didn't even seem strange, but the door was off the hinges and when I went to open it, there was someone behind with a malicious vibe, which startled me, I fell back and snapped out of it. At this point I'm very comfortable with nightmares, being killed in them and whatnot, thanks to the aforementioned psychedelic experiences. It's not so nice in the moment, but later always recontextualized into an interesting event, with something to learn from. This will too, but it's still a totally different beast from all the prior ones, I was totally taken aback by how utterly the mind's capacity to tell reality from fantasy fell apart. Not in a "I experienced unity with everything and it was the most real thing ever" kind of way, nor like dissos deconstruct all your cognitive filters. Even when you're having a bad trip, as long as you remember you took something that eases things a lot. But if you don't, that's when trouble can happen. In this case I took nothing, so the reaction was a surprise. There were horror elements to it, curious how you basically never hear of positive delirium experiences, like visiting rainbowland with fun talking animals or something. I guess because having an accurate perception of reality (by human standards) is foundational to survival, so at the first sign of that destabilizing the mind spirals into fear, negativity, and such. Anyhoo, just wanted to document this before I forget the details. Peace out.

https://ottawacitizen.com/news/local-news/uottawa-launches-worlds-first-masters-degree-in-psychedelics-and-consciousness-studies That's pretty cool, nice to see these things going more mainstream

Do most American voters even know who the VP is at any time? Publicity wise it's such a disproportionately obscure role, at least that's the impression I get as an outsider. In the 4 years of the admin I've heard her mentioned on international news only a couple times, mostly Ukraine related. I also check USA news sources occasionally, can't recall much about her there either. Same with Pence during Trump. Doesn't help both are totally uncharismatic. As such, the Dems will have to really work hard if they want to push Kamala through. No stalling, endless back and forth, arguments over trivial things, etc. as they like to do. Whether they're able to unite like that in time, who knows. Whatever happens, interesting times ahead. Republicans should start playing this clip as much as they can. They've an undeniable advantage with that stage Red boldness, resorting to smear campaigns and blatant misinformation definitely helps lure in the average uninformed voter. Dems have a bit more integrity which plays against them.

I've understood at the big picture level what I am and what's reality, therefore fulfilling my meta life purpose, one I've been inexplicably drawn to since I was little. That's what I'd call implicit omniscience, having an understanding of the structure and root principles. The explicit omniscience of all the content (every single event, mechanism, manifestation of consciousness) doesn't interest me much, but that doesn't mean I'll stop learning. The exploration of consciousness and refinement of my understanding of it will continue for as long as I live, but now I can allow myself to be biased in that and choose what is it I want to do next. Can be exploring a dimension, having an experience, learning a scientific field, acquiring a new skill, doesn't matter. But that's not enough, I also need to find an earthly life purpose, as without one after my awakening I kinda lost the drive to do most things, except simply enjoying the beauty of existence, but can only do that so much, need to balance it with action. As to why not dissolve back into the undifferentiated goo of Infinity, that option is available at any time, will happen eventually anyway, maybe even tomorrow. I can easily die in peace right now, but staying some more in this domain of duality to continue exploring and experiencing it ain't so bad either. I plan to cut back on spirituality for a time, focus on creating and taking actionable steps towards fulfilling a new life purpose, achieving complete financial independence, and engaging with hobbies. Visiting this forum has been one of the many ways to pass the time during this rut I've been in for a while, let's be honest here, maybe like 5% of posts are of any decent quality and provide value, the rest are arguing semantics, speculating, asking stupid questions... last 2 or so weeks I've been visiting much less frequently as well as cutting out other unconscious activities bit by bit, which I'll be doing even more ruthlessly as my schedule begins filling up with better things. So why am I spending time on this reply? Mainly to gather my thoughts and put them into writing, for future reference and accountability.