JoshB

Hey guys just wanted to drop in and ask some questions. As a intro to me I've been awakening going on 6 years now. I'm 23 and started watching leo mid highschool then started awakening shortly after. I've awoken to God, that I am God, No Self, Solipsism, Truth, Love, Infinity, Conciousness, Nothing, Eternity, Etc And by no means done awakening but I'm really struggling to integrate all of this into my everyday life. I feel handicapped in the sense that it feels incredibly hard to relate and interact with people at a relative level. As much as I've been concious and it's amazing what I've awoken to. I feel incredibly isolated (not lonely) and have trouble accepting the boundaries of every day life. I'm just curious how after having RADICAL realizations how you fit that into everyday life and fully / properly intergrate into your everyday life. And engage properly with people who don't understand what awakening is.

It's a pretty simple insight it's just too radical to really except. The ONLY thing that exists is YOUR OWN MIND. That's what existence is, existence IS your own conciousness

You don't drop the illusions, you see them for what they are and learn to live with them. Spot on

Exactly, even though it's a movie the actor still has to "act"

My issue isn't having others relate to me or my awakenings , it's me relating to others

What? If someones definition of awakening is getting hit in the face with a football they're a fucking moron

It doesn't matter if you realize no self and nothingness you still need to survive as the human you are dreaming yourself to be. That's if you care about survival at least. If you go without food for days your stomach isn't going to care if you're enlightened.

The issue is I'm not a separate individual and integrating that into life where I need to act and survive as a separate individual is the issue.

Yes no self no problem no limit It's not fear, I don't think I'm properly communicating the point across. Even if you realize no self you still have to survive and it's managing said survival while being awake to the aftermentioned realizations. You could be headless but if someone throws a football at your face you still duck.

@Yimpa that's not what I'm saying. Its just effecting me personally as in adjusting to these insights in everyday life. There is no one else to awaken so it's not about i have to awaken everybody

There is only 1 mind

I would say I'm having the most trouble integrating solipsism. Not because it's bad or I don't like being alone. But it's just such a radical paradigm shift and I'm still having trouble adjusting. @UnbornTao

I don't speak about awakening to 99.99% of people. It's personally coming to except some of these realizations. And still function in every day life.

That seems like a poor epistemological stand point

Last step out of what? And what are the previous steps?

Umm sir your total is 12.67

@LifeEnjoyer connor murphy needs to be eradicated from the face of the earth

It's not taking away its seeing it for exactly as it is. Im pointing to the relativity of Jesus within the absolute nature of your mind. Non duality, Jesus, Buddha is bullshit distraction you guys are getting lost in. It's OK to look at the life of Jesus as long as your concious that you are Jesus and are constructing him. Youre not getting it, their life as an individual is determined by your imagination! So you imagine them and through non duality take half or partial responsibility for creating them Being fully aware of the construction is what breathes as much life as possible into them. I say this not to be mean but to show my infinite love for Jesus and Buddha

If you think self deception is entertainment, go for it One has no clue who Jesus or Buddha is until you become fully concious they are a fantasy within your mind. You are completely responsible for constructing. Joshua B Jesus Buddha

But no I think this topic is irrelevant. It's like Leo said in the solipsism episode about the conspiracy of 1.

Well my name is Joshua which translates to yeshua the native name for Jesus and I found my tattoo in this book a while back. Seems relevant to show here.

All dogs go to heaven just like they say. Dog spelled backwards is God My friend Gage OD on fentanyl and now I have his ashes. Never knew you could miss someone that much.

Whenever i explain Awakening to a scientific/rational person it is immediately shut down. And they can't even just conceptually open their mind to infinite conciousness being a possibility. And then further more I am demonized when i was trying to guide them to awakening. I'm sure many of you have struggled with this demonizing of the messenger. I would love to understand how people demystify reality, because 99% of the people you meet are materialists. So I can further understand them and deepen my love for them. And get into less debate

I mean help those around me that are interested in truth and disengage and understand ignorance of those who are not.