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@Jayson G I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I will explore everything in that pdf and do what I can. Thank you.

I've re - watched Leo's video on Spiral Dynamics Stage Red. I've watched it when it released but I didn't do it by taking notes as the information unfolded and I did that just today. No AI no nothing, I just typed onto my commonplace book, every idea and nuance that @Leo Gura expressed. Thank you Leo for exposing to us this brilliant model. Without it I could probably be dead now. This stage red video when it released in 2020 made me cut out of my life all the stage red friends I had back then. Most of whom are in jail or drug addicts that severely injured people in car crashes and violent club fighting. I'm forever grateful.

The biggest difference between me in 2020 and me now is that, before COVID, I could just picture a woman’s figure and within 15 seconds, I’d have a full-on erection. Now, no matter how much I focus on women sexually—whether I imagine their bodies or even visualize myself having sex with them—I can’t get hard, even if my life depended on it. My theory is that COVID completely wrecked the nervous system mechanisms that control erections.

@Xonas Pitfall Thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking your time to write such beautiful insights on this thread. I'd have to re read your comments here every one in a while. I've asked myself the why questions and I realized I have a ton of work to do on myself. Thank you beautiful mind. <3

Thank you for this response @NewKidOnTheBlock. You are completely right. I tried already everything that the majority of people recommended but nothing changed. I went to urologists but here in Romania the medical system is piss poor. All they do to me is send me to do expensive blood tests and when everything comes all right they prescribe me Cialis. I've been to four urologists until now and when I mention that it is covid related they say to go to psychologist maybe I have anxiety. I've been to the psychologist too, there I almost lost my temper because it charged me 50 dollars for 2 hours of asking me BS questions about my childhood. I make 20 dollars a day at my job and I had to pay 50 for 2 hours of asking me if my father abused me....... I gave up on urologists because here they just milk me dry of money whilst sending me to pharmacies to get milked even further. I will gather some money and I will go in a more developed country for medical help if I can't fix this on my own.

Thank you everyone for your kind words of support. I deeply thank each and every one of you. I'll try some of the things you guys recommended. I'll keep you updated every 6 months to tell you if I got any progress.

Once a week, My GF has stopped giving me any kind of intimacy so it's when I masturbate. I don't really have time for that either because as I mentioned I have a job to go to and I rarely find myself alone at home, I live in a 12 square meters room with 4 other family members.

@Leo Gura I'm so sorry for not listening to you in 2021 about the vaccine. You did your best to inform me about the dangers of catching Covid unimmunized and I still didn't listen. Man I never thought I'd have to pay such a high price for being stupid.

I book a hotel room.

I never was into porn because I live in a small room with my relatives and I never had the intimacy to watch porn or masturbate. I watched few videos just to test if I get an erection. And I didn't. I only get if I use my hand to stimulate my penis, and as soon as I take my hand off, it goes soft very quickly. I never had this problem before covid. I was very pleased with my sexual performances.

@Leo Gura I am so sorry for not listening to you in 2021. I've read every blog post at that time when you got your own vaccine. If I had gone to a vaccination centre in June 2021 when you got your 2nd Pfizer vaccine maybe today I would have been healthy. Back then I was a huge Tate fan, and he always fearmongered about the vaccine. And I told myself that I am young and healthy and because I never got sick or caught colds, plus the fearmongering in the social media I consumed, I decided that even if I caught Covid, It couldn't harm me. It was the worst decision I have ever made. You see? Poor epistemology and low spiral development doomed me this time. One can get away only so many times before his own lack of development lethally backfires on that individual. I use the word lethally because this time my rotten mind from 2021 could possibly end my bloodline. I see in my situation Darwinism at full effect. Weeding me out from the gene pool because I allowed my mind to be influenced by a devil like Tate while I had dismissed Leo's recommendation to go get the vaccine. In a way I reap now what I sowed in my mind from 2019 to 2021 by watching Tate.

@Leo Gura Yes. I work in construction, there I do a lot of physical activity and 3 or 4 times a week I do workout at home with dumbbells and barbells, also pushups and pull-ups/chin-ups and squats with the barbell on my shoulders. Nothing works. No matter what I tried I haven't seen any improvements since october 2021. Probably COVID permanently destroyed some functions of my body. I remember feeling so bad during the infection that I felt within my body like I had small knifes trying to rip every cell of my body apart.

@Leo Gura If you were president instead of Biden from 2021-2025, How would you have handled the Ukraine crisis that led to the invasion in February 2022? And if you were to be the president today instead of Trump, how would you approach the situation regarding the peace talks? How much would you cave into Putin's demands?

@Leo Gura's episode How to avoid getting scammed, Is in my eyes his best episode to date. None other comes close when It comes to how much real world value brought into my life. It is the most practical, the most helpful of his videos. But I'd say it definitely deserves a part 2. In that video he made me aware of how to protect my pocket. But it didn't teach me how to protect my mind. I beg Leo to create a part 2 of that video on how to avoid getting scammed or manipulated intelectually, politically, psychologically. @Xonas Pitfall in your beautiful response you mentioned: But what if my OWN values are wrong? What if I grew up in a stage red maga redneck family? I'd have by default skewed and wicked values. That's why I don't care to much about my OWN values. These also have been forged by the social matrix I grew up in. Because I realized that humans don't think. And I am the greatest example of that. I realized that if Leo didn't exist I would have been a MAGA like redneck. That's why I try to find a system that would allow me to arrive at healthy perspectives and values on my own. I would like that if I were to always surrounded by MAGA like friends, to still have the same values that Leo has. Right now if Leo disappeared, I feel like in 1 year I'd have the same values and views on politics and life, as all my redneck people at work. For example each time I speak with my father(He is extremely into RW politics and conspiracy theories) he talks about these things and I feel like the value system that I've developed by listening to Leo so much, is shaken and I start to doubt my beliefs, and I feel like the more I speak with him the more I start seeing Trump in a good light(Father talks a lot about people like Trump). All I want is to no longer buy into the all the RW BS content my father keeps parroting.

@Xonas Pitfall Thank you so much for this holistic answer. I read it with a huge smile on my face. You brought clarity into my world. Thank you! You have a beautiful mind! <3

Hi @Leo Gura I'd like to hear your opinion on this subject please.

@Salvijus Thank you for the feedback!

Basically after almost a decade of watching Leo, he made me aware that false and true are relative. Russians believe that the west have encroached on them, which from their POV is true. The west thinks Russia is a mafia state which is also true from the western pov, so truth and falsehood are just relative notions depending on who you speak to. Since I'm unable to discern who to vote, I'd rather stay at home.

I've realized that I have such a weak character that basically lets say in an election where there are 10 candidates, if I listen to every each of them for like 40 minutes on a podcast I get convinced by everyone and their points of view. And usually the person I watch a podcast of last is the one that gets my vote. Man I'm such a sheep. Seems like everyone is right when I listen to them.

What do you think guys?

All I want is that I never get manipulated by mainstream media, alternative media, etc. Leo said it best, we are living in complete media and epistemic perverty. All I want is to be able to discern which thing is objectively best for society and myself AKA how to develop a healthy perspective on everything. In 2015 I descovered Leo, and I've been brainwashed by him, in 2019 I've firstly encountered Andrew Tate, when he had like 10k followers on Twitter, damn I was mesmerized by him and I got totally brainwashed, at that point everything good Leo instilled into my mind for 4 years was completely thrown in the bin by Andrew Tate, Hell I've even been scammed by 60$ by Tate in 2021 with a BS program of his. That was the time I've realized how big of a pervert Tate was. And my first instinct was to go back to Actualized.org and listen to the videos that released weekly. But from 2019 to 2021 Tate in a way made me hate everything Actualized.org stood for. Only after I realized that behind the mesmerizing persona is a damn conman who's only objective is to take every penny away from gullible people like me. I've been raised only by my grandma, and when I saw Tate for the first time I felt that all the advice and his worldview is like that from a father I never had. Also Tate fooled me into being an extreme right winger for those 3 years, and after I ditched him, I basically adopted Leo's political perspective. I hate that I can't think for myself, I need someone like Leo or in the worst case scenario someone like Tate to shape my perspective and worldview, political or my attitude towards life in general. How do I know that I'm not currently hypnotized into believing everything Leo advocates. I honestly confess that I'm unable to think for myself. And that is bothering me deeply. After 7 years of following Leo's work which at it's core is to make the audience think and arrive at certain conclusions without external manipulation. Bottom line is: How would I have developed good politics, good worldview, good everything, If I never encountered Leo. Some day maybe something tragic happens and either Leo is gone, or my country will become a dictatorship like Russia, and I won't be able to access Leo's work. I want to know how to become someone like Leo or Daniel Smachtenberger if I never had access to the internet to listen to such remarkable minds, and my environment would consist of only individuals such as Tate and the only media to consume would be Fox news.

Nice advice! @Jannes Thank you.

Most of the times the ones speaking the truth are usually not very charismatic, yet being truthful gives you a veil of purity.

That is interesting. Thanks for the response.@NewKidOnTheBlock

I'm both poor and for most of the time sexless and I've never cared about anything but Truth All I ever cared is about Truth. Im at a point in my life that I only work for the minimum amount of money so that I don't starve, and I don't go homeless. Truth is the only thing that is satisfying and the only thing worth pursuing. I never understood why people love money and sex so much. I mean you don't have multiple stomachs to need so much fking money to eat, and you don't have multiple legs or arms or bodies to need a ton of the most fashion clothes, or you don't have 10 dicks to need so much sex. I am happy as long as I have one GF, and If I have enough money for basic food and bills, anything over this is just not needed from my POV.