Asia P

Hi, I am 17, almost 18 years old, and i am slowly losing all my passions, hobbies, and interests since i had my first awakening. Now i am starting to be a little scared because i am becoming apathic also with friends, family, relationships and people in general. I'm also not much able to do everyday things, like studying, go to the supermarket, getting dressed. The only things that i think that i whould do with pleasure are meditation, sleeping, eating and cleaning myself. (Honestly, i am also intrested into experiencing for the first time psychedelics, but they are not so easy to get for me) I am also quite intollerant with other people, i prefere to be alone rather than with friends, family etc. Is this phisiological/normal, during a spiritual path? Do someone of you have the same situation?

@Squeekytoy oops, I missed to quote your message, btw is about the first one, this: "Everyone treating this like something is going wrong and needs correcting. It just depends on what you want. If you want to dream, dream. If you want to wake up, wake up." ♡♡♡

@Squeekytoy can you please explain what you mean specifically? I'm curious about this

my god, I do get your point clearly, you've explained in detail what I'm feeling and I can't explain. I'll read about hatha yoga. From my heart thanks you

@Leo Gura I think that this happened to me because I'm already in a stable relationship, and I'm almost financially stable, it happened everything so fast...I really believe that your advice is good, and I must remember this during all my life time, but you know, I haven't chosen awakening, and I'm neither choosing this boredom that pervaded me. I cannot do anything else than surviving this moment. By the way your message is making me think a lot about this. Thanks

@Yimpa ok, but what do you mean?

Does someone of you know why Leo is having a pause from youtube?

In my country Datura Stramonium seed, flowers and plants are legal and easy to find. So I'm thinking about it. But, I've never done psychedelics and so I will find REALLY useful, your trip reports with this plant (if you have ever done). For now I am just thinking about this possibility, and I know that it causes bad and scary trips, in fact I'm thinking about micro dosing it. I've read on reddit that I can avoid the poisonous effects of this plant soaking seeds or flowers in olive oil or vodka for two or three days, and than drinking just the oil/vodka.

What do you mean while saying "during sleeping"? Did you have a dream? Or you realized in the morning?

Name: Asia Prestigiacomo Age: 17 Gender: Female Location: Rome, Italy Occupation: student Marital Status: married Kids: No Hobbies: enlightement, meditation, reading, knitting, sewing with the machine, vegetable garden, animals, cooking, hiking. (Apologies for my elementary english because i'm a learner) My journey has started 3 years ago when i became a serious activist for enviromental issues. I've started to become an authentical zero waster, collecting all my waste in a glass jar, i've also started to raise people's awareness at school, to friends, teachers and family. In 3rd year of lyceum of arts, i met my best friend Valentina, a seriously awakened girl, who suddently became my spiritual guru. Thanks to her i learned about indian spirituality, karma and reincarnation, i became a vegetarian and after a vegan. I read a lot of books of Paramahansa Yogananda and Shirla Prabupada (Hare Krishna founder). My changes with religions were: raised as a christian child, atheist in middle school, agnostic in the beginning of lyceum, Hare Krishna and now spiritual. About 8 months ago everything started to loose meaning and now i am dealing with this problem, because i don't find much more satisfactiom in everyday life and passions, and my mind has an hard time accepting it. Last month Valentina has suggested me actualized.org and i started to watch Leo's lessons. I always say that when i listen to a lesson and it really vibes into me, i'm just listening to words that explains perfectly something that i already knew. I can say that most Leo's videos has caused this situation of "already knew" inside me. Expecially the ones about pratical life, and also something about god, karma and spirituality. Personal challenges I've overcome: - finding my man - eating healty and natural medicine - critical thinking - overcome 'having children to make sense of my life' What I'm working on now: - spiritual awakening - looking for the meaning and the truth - accepting deseases and other's death (- having my own vegetarian farm and vegetable garden to live in an indipendent way)

@OBEler i didn't know that microdosing is impossible...by the way thank you a lot for the advice! But in my country is very very difficuilt to get psychedelics...i need to be patient :,) <3

Do you know this indian spiritual teacher? Have you ever read his books? And what do you think about him and what he says? In my experience everything started from him, trough reading his books, they put in me a lot of spiritual questions. (I love that he always say that surrendering is one of the most powerful action that we may do, and then when you surrender, all enlightements come. you become such as a magnet for enlightements)

How do we know if is the correct moment in our spiritual path to jump into psychedelics for the first time? I really felt like this can be the right moment to try psychedelics, but the universe for now, did not give me any chance to get them somewhere. So i feel truly ready, but the universe is not. How can i know if i should give up the drug idea, and push more with meditation? It's really difficuilt for me to recognise ego in this moment. I may find really useful stories of people who already passed this situation. P.s. (i am almost 18, and into spirituality since 2020...really young here) (Forgive my simple english, i'm italian)

@kylan11

I'm having something similar. I have a friend into spirituality and meditation who had serious episodes of dissociation, she couldn't get out of her bed very often and her parents were thinking about taking her to the hospital some days. Right now i have frequent episodes of dissociation (most of the time they are mild) with your same symptoms. I am not scared at all because, i know what is waiting for me, because i've seen my friend's same situation coming and passing away. Probably i am also calm because i talked a lot about this with her. I'm solving this with a total surrender to dissociation episodes, let them come into and then go with complete acceptance and tranquility. You can also try to contemplate this state of mind, it can be really interesting and unique. I also think that when you are into spirituality and dissociation comes, then it will never let you go, you will not do everyday things and pleasures with the same state of mind, for me it is something that i must accept, right now and for the rest of my life.