strangelooper

The ultimate sorrow is the realization that true freedom doesn't exist, you are forever god's little pet living a life not of your choosing. I wish I was living the best life but instead existence is busy with god's business and god's business fucking sucks. Existence is busy generating a child rapist or making you live through the holocaust or some other asinine bullshit. God is literally the worst case scenario. I couldnt think of anyone worse having power over existence. Have fun being tortured on a meat grinder or getting cancer and dying horribly.

in a perfect universe none of that is a problem. Bacteria doesn't have to exist and insects can be relegated to their own habitat with no interference from humans, everyone respects each others space. There are a ton of design solutions to every problem it is just that god is everything and everything is an absolute nightmare.

Solipsism is the truth. I have directly experienced a state of absolute solipsism where I felt only I existed. However in practice solipsism is completely irrelevant and has zero bearing on life. Others will still act like others, they will never say they are the same person as you, they act like other people so they are in essence other people. Where does that leave solipsism? As a mere curiosity.

God creates beings to make them undergo a suffering life full of ills and misery. Existence is an eternal prison where you're at the whims of this god who finds that everything that can happen to you is acceptable including the most horrific forms of torture. Finite beings are forever at the mercy of this cosmic abuser.

this is the truth of god, there is no security whatsoever, any disaster can happen and it's not the last time you will suffer greatly. This is what god chose in place of all of us. A hostile and uncaring reality. A reality of broken dreams, broken people and suffering.

God is a single experience at a time. there is only one, there is no multiplicity

Because god preordained them to be blind to the obvious

it means this experience that Im having is thr only thing that exists. nothing else.

To me solipsism is the fact that only I truly exist. It's not so much about other things being me. That might be true on some existential level but it is not applied to real life so it doesn't matter. Other things will never be me in this world, they act like separate entities and that's just the way it is.

Reality doesn't give a flying fuck about anyone or anything. It will manifest some possibility without a care in the world for anyone or anything. This is the harsh reality that we live in, you're not cared for and nurtured. You're just cannon fodder for no purpose or reason. Just some random reality existing for no reason. Existence is a joyless and careless machine that selects some random reality out of infinite possibilities because anything is good for it. Existence is a cruel predator and you are the prey

I had an encounter with truth. My ego almost vanished at the presence of something great. After this I felt the deepest sense of cosmic betrayal. How can a creator make his creations suffer. Life is precious and has a magnitude of a fury of a thousand suns. Life is so important and so significant that to make someone suffer is an event that is not taken lightly. It is a crime so vast so big that I was completely overwhelmed crying. The crime is so vast that I had to forgive god I didnt want to hurt it like it hurt me because then I would be making the same cosmic mistake.

If I don't want to suffer how am I responsible for my suffering. god made the decision and became me but I am not god and I didnt choose my suffering. one day I will die and god will return but while Im here I am basically at the mercy of someone else's choice

God cycles through mediocre life after mediocre life for all eternity and this is intelligent because? How is living in suffering and utter mediocrity intelligent?

existence is an infinite drawer of states of consciousness. each identity in each life is comprised by a particular set of unique states of consciousness. This goes deep into the construction of identity, each identity imprints the states of consciousness with its own signature. this is how the universe is a drawer of beings all encoded eternally in the states of consciousness. The state of consciousness is a combination of various factors like form, emotion, sensations, etc

you don't understand. all beings exist and they are all compartimentalized by states of consciousness. the thing is that there is only one seat in existence and this seat is shared by all beings

I just had a very powerful insight. God loves a piece of dog turd as much as it loves you. You see, you are not more important than dog turd just because you're human, god will actually incarnate into the dog turd just as much as it will incarnate into you. This is unconditional love, it makes no distinction. You and all your human problems mean nothing more to god than a mere piece of shit. I'm sure Leo can verify this powerful insight with psychedelics. I dont know how many trips it will take but Im sure he'll be able to confirm.

it's not about the forms. A person is much more than their form. forms are just visuals yet god doesn't love you more than a turd. People are way more complex beings yet that doeant translate into a bias or. a preference.

everything has already been said. god doesnt have anything else original to say so things have devolved into a robotic and meaningless content churn

it absolutely is an alien intelligence because it doesn't make any sense. I don't understand and never will why misery is such a big part of existence. misery is unworthy of existence. there is no value to be had and only an insane lunatic loves misery

they should be judged by the same standards

The fool called god wishes to have cancer and die miserably from abject poverty or in a concentration camp. if you saw a human banging his head against the wall you'd say he lacks intelligence and is mentally ill but when god suddenly desires to be miserable and treated subhumanly suddenly that's intelligent.

How is god infinite goodness when it lives the life of every rapist, murderer, abuse, torturer,cannibalist and genocider? how can something that loves cruelty be good

you all speak with ignorant minds. if god tortured you like he tortures me you too would be against the insanity that is existence. you weren't tortured, congratulations you were lucky.

Would you say that a man who willingly bangs his head against the wall is intelligent? Because that's what god does, it puts itself in harms way constantly. Where is the value in being a teenager who cuts its own wrists? Where is the value in living among an abusive family where you're treated like shit every day? If we saw a human doing these things willingly we would say he is a dumbass. Now god does it and suddenly its genius. Being an ant isn't so bad, there is no suffering and ants must have an interesting state of consciousness. However being a holocaust victim is a different story, why would anyone willingly subject themselves to that. God is selfless because it has no self but how does that explain the completely reckless behaviour? Willingly go through all possible tortures??? where's the intelligence in that, we just call that self harm. where is the value in loving torture in loving rape for example, it makes no sense. I frankly don't care if im selfish, I would run a better universe than god does. God's universe is full of hurtful, meaningless and pointless experience with no value whatsoever. God is a hoarder, where's the intelligence in that, there is no selection process, no standards it just embraces everything, how is that intelligent? it doesnt filter out anything low quality and infinity is fulll of low quality shit, it's absurd.

Im not interested in finding solutions to my issues. I want to understand why god chose to embrace all of infinity when most of infinity is a piece of shit. I want to understand god, my life is a lost cause, I already have no hope whatsoever for it.