strangelooper

I had an encounter with truth. My ego almost vanished at the presence of something great. After this I felt the deepest sense of cosmic betrayal. How can a creator make his creations suffer. Life is precious and has a magnitude of a fury of a thousand suns. Life is so important and so significant that to make someone suffer is an event that is not taken lightly. It is a crime so vast so big that I was completely overwhelmed crying. The crime is so vast that I had to forgive god I didnt want to hurt it like it hurt me because then I would be making the same cosmic mistake.

existence is an infinite drawer of states of consciousness. each identity in each life is comprised by a particular set of unique states of consciousness. This goes deep into the construction of identity, each identity imprints the states of consciousness with its own signature. this is how the universe is a drawer of beings all encoded eternally in the states of consciousness. The state of consciousness is a combination of various factors like form, emotion, sensations, etc

you don't understand. all beings exist and they are all compartimentalized by states of consciousness. the thing is that there is only one seat in existence and this seat is shared by all beings

I just had a very powerful insight. God loves a piece of dog turd as much as it loves you. You see, you are not more important than dog turd just because you're human, god will actually incarnate into the dog turd just as much as it will incarnate into you. This is unconditional love, it makes no distinction. You and all your human problems mean nothing more to god than a mere piece of shit. I'm sure Leo can verify this powerful insight with psychedelics. I dont know how many trips it will take but Im sure he'll be able to confirm.

it's not about the forms. A person is much more than their form. forms are just visuals yet god doesn't love you more than a turd. People are way more complex beings yet that doeant translate into a bias or. a preference.

everything has already been said. god doesnt have anything else original to say so things have devolved into a robotic and meaningless content churn

it absolutely is an alien intelligence because it doesn't make any sense. I don't understand and never will why misery is such a big part of existence. misery is unworthy of existence. there is no value to be had and only an insane lunatic loves misery

God cycles through mediocre life after mediocre life for all eternity and this is intelligent because? How is living in suffering and utter mediocrity intelligent?

they should be judged by the same standards

The fool called god wishes to have cancer and die miserably from abject poverty or in a concentration camp. if you saw a human banging his head against the wall you'd say he lacks intelligence and is mentally ill but when god suddenly desires to be miserable and treated subhumanly suddenly that's intelligent.

How is god infinite goodness when it lives the life of every rapist, murderer, abuse, torturer,cannibalist and genocider? how can something that loves cruelty be good

you all speak with ignorant minds. if god tortured you like he tortures me you too would be against the insanity that is existence. you weren't tortured, congratulations you were lucky.

Would you say that a man who willingly bangs his head against the wall is intelligent? Because that's what god does, it puts itself in harms way constantly. Where is the value in being a teenager who cuts its own wrists? Where is the value in living among an abusive family where you're treated like shit every day? If we saw a human doing these things willingly we would say he is a dumbass. Now god does it and suddenly its genius. Being an ant isn't so bad, there is no suffering and ants must have an interesting state of consciousness. However being a holocaust victim is a different story, why would anyone willingly subject themselves to that. God is selfless because it has no self but how does that explain the completely reckless behaviour? Willingly go through all possible tortures??? where's the intelligence in that, we just call that self harm. where is the value in loving torture in loving rape for example, it makes no sense. I frankly don't care if im selfish, I would run a better universe than god does. God's universe is full of hurtful, meaningless and pointless experience with no value whatsoever. God is a hoarder, where's the intelligence in that, there is no selection process, no standards it just embraces everything, how is that intelligent? it doesnt filter out anything low quality and infinity is fulll of low quality shit, it's absurd.

Im not interested in finding solutions to my issues. I want to understand why god chose to embrace all of infinity when most of infinity is a piece of shit. I want to understand god, my life is a lost cause, I already have no hope whatsoever for it.

it was god that designed all lives. there's no such thing as personal responsibility

maybe someone can offer insight but it's highly unlikely someone can offer an answer but still I try

god is infinity and it is all possible lives. all possible lives are full of suffering and mediocrity. This is something I've verified don't need some dude on the internet telling me otherwise

my life is evidence of it. Just like this life has happened once many other mediocre lives will happen

god embraces all of possible existence but why? why did god choose to love everything including misery, suffering and mediocrity? why does god waste time living bad lives?

It's not a possibility because reality is imagination

foolish words. I experience myself with zero free will, I don't even control my body anymore

that's a good answer. it's completely unintelligible why a being would choose bad lives.

you are ignorant. there is zero free will. You're dealt a bad hand, you're fucked no matter what.

it is god that wants desolation and misery. god is the devil, the ego only wants peace and a quiet life.

my life is pretty hellish and fillled with pointless suffering. I think you might be wrong