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I have a question for those of you who are experienced with 5MeO-DMT / 5MeO-MALT psychedelics as well as with long-hours meditation. Have you ever reached God states / Infinite / Love states your reach on 5MeOs but during meditation? Please only answer if you have had direct experience / experiences because i do not want to know about your ideas or believes regarding this topic. Thank u.

Before we start, I want to leave no room for implicit interpretations or assumptions of what I mean by femininity. I’m definitely not talking about artificial, westernized notion of superior femininity which is spread these days, especially on social media. 80% of the modern women in the west (based on my personal observations and experience) represent this artificial femininity, but I’m not going to dive into this now, neither do I demonize it because we reap what we sow. My definition of femininity goes beyond human understanding and it’s based of my personal mystical experiences in consciousness work. Consciousness is Love and femininity is one side of the duality (and the other is masculinity). Both are Love and although they are expressed differently, they are one. Anyways, femininity is ability to recognize the beauty of consciousness represented in forms and receptivity to be affected by them by feeling deeply into them (empathy and connection). Let me give you a practical example. A few months ago, I saw a girl walking down the street with a small curly black puppy. When she was passing by me, I stopped her, asking for its name. She was a tiny black retriever pup. When I tried to reach out to her with my hand to pet her, she started wiggling with her cute little tail and she got very excited about it. The look in her eyes was pure infinite love behind the form and I was able to recognize it and feel it. I couldn’t help myself and I started crying (just a few drops of tears) because of how pure and adorable she was. This is an example of pure femininity and compare it to an Instagram influencer that gets excited by seeing a new fancy Gucci bag in her reel. Anyways, I’m 29 and most of my life (until the age of 26-27) I had been repressing strong feminine side in me and what I’ve noticed is that a lot of self-help for men lack holistic understanding of authenticity. Men are taught how to become more masculine but the truth of the matter is that not all of men are equally masculine and a lot of them are very feminine and what they actually need is embracing the feminine, because in most cases they are pushing the masculine part, denying the feminine which in return leads to overexaggerated and unbalanced personality rather than authenticity. Also, the more masculine you become the more needy you get for the feminine and the consequences of it are very well foreseen. You become a chaser, you become dependent on external femininity. What you need to do instead is to internalize and develop your inner femininity. When you do it you will become a whole and healthy, independent man. What it takes to integrate a very strong feminine side if you were born in a close-minded and stupid society that shames femininity in men and equals it to weakness? Well, it takes a lot. The more powerful this side is in a man the more difficult it gets, but of course it depends on the society, culture, family. If you are lucky to be born in a first world country, you’ll have it much easier. On the other hand, if you are born in a post soviet country (or something worse) you will face a lot of obstacles.

Hi, born & raised Ukrainian here. I've been living in Canada for almost 4 years and I would like to share my perspective on life here. I lived mostly in 2 provinces: Ontario (Toronto) and Alberta (Banff & Calgary). I work in a luxury hotel so my work involves a lot of communication with people. Let’s start with the things that I love about Canada: 1. You can meet people from everywhere (especially India & China). 2. You can be who you are (nobody cares about what you wear, what you believe, what is your sexual orientation, what are your family plans, etc.) 3. Minimal corruption (compared to my country). 4. Living conditions are good (even if you don’t earn that much). 5. It’s easy to fulfill your basics needs (food & shelter). 6. It’s safe (mostly). Now let’s get to the things that I can’t handle and why I’ll be moving. 1. Fakeness and inability to be intimate or direct presented as politeness (empty conversations). 2. Artificiality as the core of personality in people (identities build around entertainment, social media, celebrities). 3. Obsession with things, career growth and success. 4. Addictions. 5. Housing cost. 6. Cold weather.

It's been like 5 years since I started tripping, ever since I've been doing it consistently, the longest I would go without tripping was 6 months or so. Now, I reached the point where I noticed that I actually avoid life with spirituality and psychedelics. Ultimately, survival won't ever fulfill you. Life purpose is an ego construction and will never satisfy you, neither will you get satisfaction from chasing money, having family or becoming famous, because these things have hidden negative sides of duality and they are impermanent. It only looks that these things are designed to fulfill you, but the only thing that can do it is God. That's why I have developed some sort of an addiction to 5MeO-DMT. Nothing in life that I had experienced would ever make me as joyful and satisfied as breaking into infinity of Love, pure ones and awe, magical bliss. On the other hand, every time I would breakthrough, I would always choose to come back. And believe me, ego doesn't make that decision it's God. So basically when you're identified as Ego you want to get God but when you become God you want to come back as ego. I verified it in my direct experience multiple times. Ultimately, since God is so god damn good and one, it want to experience how to crave things and need something or someone. See the only reason you pursue awakening is because you want God, but God has always wanted to be you (small ego). Anyways, I am 28 and I reached the point where I don't know what is going on. All I know is that I can't be playing this games with 5MeO-DMT trying to chase God but ultimately coming back. My plan for now is to forget about psychedelics for 10 years and then we shall see.

I was able to work on integration during my first 50 trips I guess. There is no way l can integrate trips at this point because God has nothing to do with survival. The only integration possible for me is to live in a small village, grow vagies and meditate on my own. I’ll do it when I’m in my 40th.

I will at some point

The best video you have ever shot. I keep re-watching it every 6 months.

I'm sick of mySELF not wanting to wake up and myself trying to wake up. I'll be mainly focusing on meditation and achieving a no-thought state for more prolonged periods of time. Trying to push myself on psychedelics has become counterproductive and I feel intuitively that if I keep pushing I won't find myself in a pleasent state of mind. Maybe I am just not ready to fully wake up yet or maybe full awakening is a delusion because it's impermanent. Recently, I would have a breakthrough on 5MeO-DMT but only to find myself coming back into my default state almost immediately. It hadn't been that way before, I guess it's a sign for me to take a pause and fully integrate all of the things I have learned into daily life.

This sounds good but I wouldn't do any psychedelics given by a shaman, it's too risky and I don't know what I am consuming. But living there would be an interesting experience

Oh my man, you should be grateful that you live in Brazil. I used to work in San-Paulo and I never had problems with women there. Cold and direct approach is the best thing you can do. By the way, where are you from manito?

Exactly, there is not much you can do when it's -40°C outside.

Perfect combo, I guess I'll pass on it lol

I think Canada is a great place for self-realization and developing personal skills, perfect place for stage Orange. Also, most of the psychedelics are easily accessible, so potentially good place for spiritual seekers if you can avoid thousands of distractions of course. If you value genuine human connection, intimacy & authenticity Canada is one of the worst countries possible, probably the entire western culture. When I was a child my grandparents used to say "the rotten West" and I think there is definitely some truth to that, especially now. I don't know why but I think that even 20-30 years ago things were way better here, maybe I'm wrong.

I think most of the people here are stage Orange. On the other hand, I don't want to be dependent on my partner to have all my social and emotional needs met. Also the climate is killing me. I like lively vibes with dances, beaches. I don't care that much about career success or getting a lot of money. I think climate plays a huge role in the way people communicate. How do you like your life in Sweden?

Toronto will always have a special place in my heart. The parks are nice there and in general it's worth living there for a while. The midnight summer vibe in downtown is definitely something, same as crack heads smoking crack on 505 street cars

Spain is my next stop. I speak the language and the culture vibes with my personality + the climate is better.

It's poisoning my psyche because I'm used to blunt and direct, authentic communication and I feel hungry for it. Where are you from?

Dying alone is just part of the dream, we are one forever and have always been one. Enjoy loneliness before merging back into the oneness.

It depends from person to person. In my experience weed can cause some insights but sometimes those insights are not clear or even delusional. The best thing weed did for me in the past where I would smoke it just a few times a year was it opened-up my mind to some spiritual things. On the other hand, I eventually got addicted to it and now I am struggling to quit it. Try it for yourself and see how it goes but be very careful. I recommend you do an edible with 4-5 grams of THC in it. A lot of people smoke too much of it in the beginning and it causes them anxiety and paranoia and then they never try it again thinking that's how it goes. Also, I recommend you do THC:CBD 1 to 1. CBD has a calming effect and will prevent you from potential negative effects.

Hopefully very soon!

Although, I do vape 5-MeO-DMT, I had been avoiding possible breakthroughs because I didn't feel ready and I had had a lot of them in the past and most of the time I would film myself on my phone saying that I didn't want to wake up and I wanted to keep the game up. I have a bunch of videos like this on my phone in order to keep myself off complete awakenings. But I had been feeling so fed up with life as a human and I had been craving God deeply so this morning I was like fuck it, let's go. I took my vape and went outside in local park, I started vaping slowly and gently (because I had been hammered a lot of times hardly by it in the past). After vaping it for 15 minutes (slowly) I did a long pull and booom. Let me explain for those of you who have never head a breakthrough on 5MeO-DMT how it feels like (please don't be a foolish Ego like I was, thinking that breakthroughs on mushrooms, LSD or mescaline are the same as on 5MeO, they are not). Let's start with some common misconceptions and wrong ideas or expectations: 1. You are not going anywhere. 2. You are not entering different dimensions or going to some astral world or whatever. 3. You are not going to see or talk with the old dude that Christians call God or Allah or Buddha or Hindu Gods. 4. You won't communicate with any super-beings or creatures. 5. You're not going to leave your body or see your soul going somewhere. 6. You won't see geometrical shapes, mathematical codes, numbers or anything else from this domain. 7. You won't be able to change or control your experience. So, what happens when you breakthrough on 5MeO-DMT? 1. You recognize yourself in everything that is in the present moment. 2. You become infinity because this present moment is infinity. 3. You lose all sense of boundaries. 4. You become a metaphysical orgasm manifesting itself in variety of forms and shapes. 5. You're recognizing the joy of being. 6. You get terrified by your own self because it is just so fucking epic, magical and divine. I also realized what it means to be your creator and to be you at the same time: Let's imagine you had your finger cut and frozen in a freezer and then you forget about having that finger at all. You go by your life and every morning you open a freezer and you see that finger and you don't feel yourself to be the finger and it looks very separate from you. When you breakthrough on 5MeO-DMT you realize that this finger came from you and has always been you. Now apply it to everything: trees, cars, people, cats, dogs, and of course the space where all these things are happening. Also, becoming or recognizing yourself as the self in everything is a metaphysical feature of consciousness and can't be properly explained or communicated. So do yourself a favor, stop wasting your time reading posts here or youtube video. Do 5MeO instead.

Solipsism on weed feels like emptiness and loneliness but on 5MeO-DMT solipsism feels like fulness and oneness. The first is obviously false and the second is absolutely true.

When I used to smoke weed I would also get conscious of solipsism. The problem though, the weed never reveals the love aspect (at least in my experience) and solipsism without infinite love is prison rather than paradise.

Make me

I like when I get terrified by you, I always want more, please take all of me