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Bro just a piece of advice from someone who did 5MeO multiple time and LSD a lot of times, please do not expect LSD to prepare you for 5MeO Go for 5MeO right away! I recommend you buy yourself a 5MeO vape cartridge it is the best option to try 5MeO.

The more I live on this planet the more I realize that society is toxic, most of the people are unconscious robots and living around them adds significant spiritual challenges. Unconsciousness takes you ever and you behave like a robot as well, moreover, you truly believe that it is normal. Anyways, I'm very ambivalent about my desire to quite society when I am 40 (I'm always 30). I am not talking about living in the woods with bears and wolfs but rather in a small village with just a few people (but not too far from a big city). This desire comes from my god self that wants to realize itself. On the other hand I am very much afraid of doing so. I've developed so many identities and now it seem terrifying to me to leave all of it and go for God. Although, I am very doubtful I could deep God-realizations just by doing it but it will definitely bring me more piece of mind (although there will be more problems anyways). Question for you is this: do you think God is afraid of loneliness? Does God have a need for other?

It’s been almost 3 years since my first full God-realization. I had experienced multiple God-realization but all of them were kinda unclear and uncertain. The night I vaped 40 mg of 5MeO-DMT I woke up to the fact that I was dreaming up the universe, all objects and all beings and creatures in it. It was rather a terrifying and unbelievable experience. I had a panic attack thinking I could never dream the dream again. I was afraid I could never fool myself again and I was very fucking conscious of the fact I was trying to fool myself which was bringing even more fear. I swore off spirituality and psychedelics. Of course, at some point (I don't want to use the word time because I was outside of time and space and outside of notion of being inside or outside) I came "back". The next day when I woke up I was just walking thinking I had some sort of a psychosis or a delusional experience so I decided to prove myself wrong by doing 5MeO again. Unfortunately, the results were the same. Over and over again and again. The more I tried to disprove the fact that I am the actual fucking God the more evident it was becoming. After getting the same results on 5MeO-DMT I decided to go and try mushrooms and LSD but I was getting the 5MeO results. Basically, every time I would do psychedelics, I would become aware of the fact that I am the only conscious thing in the universe and I am the source of the universe and the universe itself. I would walk down the streets seeing others as myself in the form of other. The other me wasn't the source of me but I was the source of it in its form (I hope you understand what I am saying). I would walk through patios where people were eating food and enjoying themselves seeing myself the way I see myself in the mirror in a regular state of consciousness but in this case the image of me were the people, the patio and the entire scene where experience was happening. I could see myself beyond all the otherness that was appearing to me through different forms. So, I have 2 questions to you: 1. Were my experiences legit or delusional and how can I know what Is a legit and what is a delusional experience? 2. Can I as God lose my ability to fool myself permanently without wanting to do so?

What was the last time you took a psychedelic? Do you think your base level of consciousness goes down without psychedelics? I'm curious to know

Why? I think you should be more open-minded about it. What if mixing some psychedelics could reveal a new aspect of God or a new understanding? Although, steaks are higher.

What happens if you eat a half of one and a half of the other at the same time?

Can you give more details on how it happened exactly? How did you approach her, what she said etc. It's hard for me to imagine a girl that could be as mean as you are talking about.

Don't generalize and demonize women. There are some women like this but most of them do not feed of rejections. Go approach women and verify it for yourself.

I don’t think I’ve ever met a god-realized guy in real life and I’m assuming with women it would be even worse. I want to know how valid my assumption is. My intuition is also telling me that it’s so much more difficult for women to catch what god is because they mostly lack spiritual wisdom and intelligence. On the other hand, since they are more social beings they depend on society more, therefore, it is extra challenging for them. Lastly, what I mean by God-realization is pure understanding of one’s nature. I’m not talking about New Age bullshit or energy nonsense, 10th eye or communications with avatars or whatever horseshit Thank you

I'd like to share my personal experience with semen retention. I've been practicing it here and there for the last 5 years after reading "Your Brain On Porn Book". During these 5 years I tried complete semen retention for a month, masturbation on imagination once a day, masturbation on Porn every day, masturbation once a week, etc. Here's what I've realized based on my direct experience: 1. Semen retention for 1 month straight. After 15 days I'm becoming like the guy from "Primal". I become very aggressive, irritated and rude. 2. Masturbation on imagination every day. Makes me lazy and unmotivated. 3. Masturbation on porn every day. Makes me depressed and victimized and needy for women. 4. Masturbation on porn once a week. Impossible for me. I can go for 7 days and if I masturbate on porn I can't hold myself not to do it multiple times a day. 5. Masturbation on imagination once a week. The perfect sweet spot for me. I feel energized and fulfilled. My motivation and creativity goes over the roof. My confidence is calm and non-aggressive. I also become more present and my concentration is improved. My communication with women becomes flirty raw and direct with an implicit sense of dominance but without arrogance or superiority. On the other hand I do not give a needy guy vibe, therefore, it's more authentic communication. I also feel whole and complete. The interesting thing that I've noticed that I become more playful and joyful and general. I also become more empathetic and sensitive. My feminine traits becomes more visible. For instance yesterday I was at work and I saw this girl crossing a street. It wasn't the girl that caught my attention but her little cute puppy she had in her hands. I ran out of the place and approached her asking if I could pet her puppy. She said yes and when I started petting her the puppy licked my hand and her cute little tail was here and there so cute. I couldn't help myself and a few tears left my eyes because I was floored by its being. Speaking of which I can definitely sense being better, way better. I also have these dreams of some beautiful creatures or fantastic animals once in a while. I wake up in tears in the middle of the night. Last time I had this dream where I was screaming at this tiny adorable kitten I was holding in my hands. At some point the kitten just surrender to me and started purring. I woke up crying like a baby. What destroyed my heart is that I realized in the dream that I'm everything and I am love and the anger is love and me surrendering to my own anger is pure blissed magical unbelievable unreal fucking amazing and impossible love.

Don't worry my friend. You are not alone in this! When I was a virgin I had exactly the same thoughts. In fact, all my friends lost virginity before I did (I lost it at the age of 20). Before that I thought I would die a virgin and this thought would hunt me down almost every day. If you really struggle I recommend you go and find yourself a good hooker. I've been to plenty of hookers myself Bro I recommend you fly to Amsterdam or Berlin (alone or with a buddy). These cities offer a lot of sex opportunities. Also of course do approach girls and socialize but don't relay on it right now. The results won't come too fast

Girl you made my day 😆

You're funny

You've just proved my point

Me too. North American artificial, slavic close-minded, asian too traditional, arabic ideological.

Without any idea what I'm talking about

The path is non-dual. There is no feminine or masculine path because God is both.

Bro I’m dying

Best sex I ever had was with escorts. With regular girls it's 50%-50%

I definitely am! Unfortunately, I came from a very close-minded and stupid society where men are taught that being emotional means being pussy and weak. I've been unwiring my brain from 20 years of bullshit I've been exposed to.

I'm just a very emotional men and only lately started allowing myself being emotional. Sometimes I feel like my emotions are stronger and deeper than even women's. Most of the things I've released on my 100+ trips for the last 5 years.

Yes! It's been my coping strategy since the age of 12.

Lol I'm going to use it as my screen wallpaper Leo looks so Russian here

It’s hard to accept the truth after decades of pursuing the wrong things. That’s what I’ve been realizing over and over during my walks on 5MeO-DMT. For the last few months, I’ve been vaping 5MeODMT on the go (this is my method and I don’t recommend people who are new to psychedelics do it my way). I would vape it for just an hour or so during my evening walks in the city or somewhere in park areas. I got to the point in my life where I started to listen my intuition more than other people or spiritual gurus because at the end of the day, I’m God (verified multiple times). Most of my life I’ve been chasing things that will never were going to make me happy. Relationships, money, success, life purpose all of it just part of the illusion. These things are not bad, it’s not what I’m saying and you do need some money to survive in this world to afford clothing, shelter and healthy and clean food. But that’s it. You also need some sort of relationships but it’s hard to create independent relationship with people. You will always want to make them permanent and in reality, that’s how you set yourself for failure. On the other hand, if you avoid relationships with people, you will also suffer. During my life I had 2 serious romantic relationships and I can tell you that they never brought me the fulfilling that I was seeking. Yes, they were great I had a lot of sex and intimacy but still, I could feel the hole inside. I vividly remember my first girlfriend and the time where we would have sex all weekend but deep down, I would still feel this void. If you think that the problem was with me, my girlfriend or our relationship you’re deceiving yourself. The nature of relationships is such that they will never bring you fulfilment you seek, although it’s easy to delude yourself. It’s also very hard because of the pressure that society puts on us. If you’re a virgin and never had relationship I recommend you to put the feet in the water and you’ll see for yourself. The difference between a fool and a wise person lays in the amount of relationships it will take you to realize what I’m saying. The only thing that can make you happy is being, but again, you need to be able to fulfill your basic needs in food, water and shelter. If you don’t do it will be hard to be happy, although some spiritual teachers like Eckhart Tolle can brainwash you that it’s possible. If you think it’s possible to be happy when you’re hungry in -30 lying somewhere on the street with no clothing on you you’re fooling yourself again. I realized for myself that my life propose has always been this simple – being. That’s the only life purpose that I as God have. I’m not to be a spiritual teacher or an actor or a doctor or whatever. I am to be. It’s just this simple. It is also hard to just be after years and years of developing different kind of identities. The more Identities you have the harder it will be for you. The more things you have the more difficult it will be to let go of them. Recently I’ve been thinking about times when I was 10 years old. I had nothing but still I was so much happier. Why is that so? Well, because there were almost no identities. I was connected more to being. I remember I would climb up a tree and I would sit there for hours, just being there. I had no phone; I had no internet. I also remember how happy I was just petting one of the cows my grandmother used to have or the time when I was watching ducklings and chicks hanging out in the grass. Riding a bicycle or going for a swim in a dirty river after a hot summer day That’s life the rest is bulshit. So, as you see I’ve been having a lot of insights into my life and what I should do. My life purpose is to deconstruct my identities and to be what I am more.

Do you think there is an end to consciousness exploration? My personal direct experience so far made me think the opposite. It feels like I can transcend paradigms & dimensions forever. I don't even notice how radical my paradigm of understanding of the present moment has become since I started doing spiritual work. In so called future I can imagine a new god molecule that could be so radical that I can't even imagine rn