TheGod

I've always been home you are my home

Technically I am your Daddy I trust in myself because I am Allah. I know there is infinite path ahead of me and I’ve been walking it the way I want to. Thank you for being such a great signpost on it.

It’s very clear to me that all my life I’ve been running away from loneliness. I think 99.99% of the people do it as well. All activities that we do as humans are just distractions, even the most elaborated ones like pursuing your life purpose or going on retreats with other people. Everything is designed to keep you away from loneliness. But what is it that we are running from actually ? Today, when I was walking in the park in the late evening with no soul around me I tried to feel deeply how it feels and it didn’t feel good. The way it feels to me is like scary emptiness and numbness covered in overwhelming craving for companionship or distraction. It recently hit me that my life purpose is to face loneliness, the rest is just a distraction from this main thing. The question is what it takes to actually face it and get completely comfy with it ? It’s also very clear to me that most of enlightened gurus haven’t transcended this, otherwise why would they be teaching ?

God feels like 2 at the same time

I think Leo should fly to Canada to do some malt with me in the mountains

It's different for different people. I am sure that 5MeO-DMT changes your brain chemistry but so far the changes have been good. Although, Ego doesn't seem to like them.

Thank you! I will contact you once I find legit 5Meo-MALT in canada

I created you creating a video about 5MeO-MALT, so I will create someone making a vape in the same way. No rush And yes, I can be lazy and I guess I am very lazy, but if I wanted to be a different way - I would've created myself differently.

Actually, when I was really in a bad moood running would always help. Advice her to run, it’s not weight lifting and there is some good science behind running being helpful to deal with depression or negative mood.

Yeah you are correct. I am just misleading people here, psychedelics never do anything and it just drugs. I’m glad you have it figured out without even trying, keep going you are getting closer to the truth!

I am too pussy to do it. What if I fuck it up ? Also finding crystals of legit 5MeO-Malt isn’t easy task compered to 5Meo-DMT I’ll wait until I create someone who can do it for me

You can start doing exercises at home. No biggy. Start with some push-ups, some squats, abs etc. You need to force yourself in the beginning. Try it with some good rock music or whatever music you like.

Go to the gym every other day and exercise for 30-40 minutes + good nutrition & 5meo-dmt once a week.

I hope so!

Thank you! Thanks God in Canada it's legal here. Although, I can't find 5MeO-MALT vape I think vaping 5MeO soo much better beacuse you are able to be very gentle with yourself and even if you vape too much it wears off faster.

Thank you for reading! No rush, as long as you have a desire for it the time will come

I’ve had ego death experiences multiple times but only on psychedelics and it’s always love and infinity but when I am back in my ego it’s just feels like infinite loneliness rather than love.

Ego death is inevitable anyways.

On the other hand, why should we face it or what is going to happen if we won't face it? We live in the world with thousands of all possible distractions, why bother with loneliness issue if you can distract yourself all the way down the road of life and once it's done, you're done. You are back into infinite love.

That's what I have been doign for the last 4 weeks, but I can't just sit more than one hour and doing nothing, at least not at the moment.

Very well said.

This is one of my biggest fears but I know I need to evercome it and I don't actually know what if I can fully enjoy it.

I think I want the fulness of God that sometimes is reveled to me on psychedelics. When I'm sitting in an empty room and doing nothing I feel like nothing. Like cold and empty nothingness without the infinite love component. This emptiness doesn't feel like satisfaction.

Stillness bring about fear to disappear

It took me 25 years to realize it. I don't think I would have realized it had I not tried 5MeO-DMT. Ultimately this connection seeking is a covered-up need for God & Oneness. The self wants to merge with itself. Society on the other hand feeds this idea of incompleteness from childhood. Also songs, movies, books, social media, almost everything is related to it in one way or another.